Wake Up

by Jane Hudson

 

My name is Diana Smith I am 47 years old. I am leaving prison today after 2 years of a 3 years sentence. I am leaving not a woman prison but a man prison as a TS I was sent to such a place I have spent 2 years under rule 43 solitary confinement with all the bloody nonce's I hate scum that do kids but I was in with them on D wing .Why was I in with that lot of dog filth the reason was simple as a TS I would in general population be raped and raped . But still on the way out now thank you very much. I was due to be released on the 24 but that being a Sunday I am being let out on this Friday 22 June. Bloody hell I must be the only inmate leaving a male prison in a grey knee length skirt suit white blouse full make my hair in a smart feminine bob. I have my bag slung across my shoulder. A new life awaited me at last free not only from prison but also from much worse. I am now free from my so-called loving wife June and her boyfriend Max those two makes prison seem like a holiday.

A friend has set me up with a job in a warehouse that a guy he knows owns. Jack Phillips is the only one of my so called friends from my old life before things went so horribly wrong that as stuck by me and helped me. I use to own my own business and was maybe not rich but well off now I have nothing but I am free. The job is driving a fork lift truck and some basic record keeping. I have to take a test to drive the truck no problem I use to drive one.In fact I use to years ago hold the old HGV class 1 as well. Jack has sorted out a bed sit clean and warm suits me after a cell. There is his BMW pulling up now . I use to own one like that a 320i not the best BMW But still a nice car.Oh well bus will suit me fine at lest I am free and not just free of prison. I am pleased to see him .He is a tall grey haired well built man who is as kind as he is handsome .Boy I could go for him but oh well. I am not bad looking for a TS 5 foot 9 inches 11 stone the hormones my wife and her boyfriend had me take and the bust I have developed are now a nice c cup. But Jack a friend and I think that all it will be. Oh bugger I wish it was more.

I get in the car and give Jack a kiss on the cheek. He laughs and say cut that out lady. Oh how I love to be called lady. We drive to the bed sit it is in a 3 bed room house about 20 mile from Horfield prison. The bed sit is in Weston Super Mare in a house on Locking Rd. We pull into the drive of the house. He has lent me one months rent and £500 to sort myself out some clothes I have told him that I will pay him back £25 per week and I will the rent is £65 per week all in but the food. I will be taking home about £200 so after paying off rent and Jack I will have £110 left. I don't drink or smoke so I should get by. I may not have anything but I also don't owe anything clean slate so to speak. I meet the owners of the house Mr & Mrs Peters June and Harry was again friends of Jack from his local Church. They were in their 50s short plum jolly couples Harry was a balding man with grey hair June had her hair in a light blond perm. I was shown to the room a small but pleasant and airy clean room. Jack had given me an old Sony Black and white portable TV. I also had with me my radio CD player and some CDs from prison. So I had some thing to watch and music to listen to. I rather have my music than TV I had a set in my cell I am well sick of modern tv it is just so bad. I think that was why I enrolled on the prison computer course and read of course. I have always like Asimov and book like that but I also love Romance books.

Well Monday I was starting my new job. As I put away the few clothes I had. Then sorting my make up out. I thought back to how this all started 4 years ago when my wife and boyfriend sent me into the arms of hell.

Was it only 4 years since my life in most ways went down the tubes. I was the owner of a small lorry company which was called D S Transport we had 4 lorry's all 40 ton plus 2 7.5 ton lorry's as well . I also did driving and loading of the lorrys as well as some office work but I must admit I liked driving more than paper work,The company was based in Bristol about 3 miles from where I lived. I had a 3 bed house in Kingswood Bristol. I had finished loading a lorry and had come home early. I went upstairs there in bed our bed was my wife and her kick boxing instructor Max Greenwald . Max is 6 foot 2 inches of muscle short cropped black hair dark brown eyes. My wife June is 5 foot 7 inches a lovely looking woman without a bit of fat in fact she is not over muscled but what she has is taut and strong. She has lovely blond hair and it is cut in a cute bob she also had the most lovely blue eyes. I shout " What the hell going on here" Max did look sheepish at first but my wife once she had leaped out of bed just flew at me kicking me in the chest. I shot backwards hitting the wardrobe busting off the door knocking the wind out of me. She grabs me by my jacket and slams her fist into my face .I see blackness coming in I try to get up I even try to hit back more kicks more punches then I hear Max say "Stop it love your kill him".

That was the first beating at the hand s feet of my lovely wife it would not be the last. I come to she is stood over me I try and stand up blood pouring from my nose mouth .I leave the house and then pass out in the garden .The next thing I wake up in hospital. with my wife and Max beside my bed I had busted ribs jaw two teeth knocked out bust fingers on left hand concussion. She spoke to me "Well my dear husband we now know who the real man is and its not you oh you can go to the police but I will just come back with you attacked me and then I will kick your arse again. Now I know you want a divorce but I don't think so yet I am taking control of the company the accounts and you. Oh don't think so well Max and I have been robbing the company blind and its you that will take the blame 2 years inside I think. Oh by the way I think we need a new office girl and a maid at home. I just lay there I could not believe this shit She spoke again. " Now remember what you told me about that bloke who works as a woman a TS I think they are called. You know the one that works for the wood treatment company in Weston loaded your lorry 4 or 5 times. What the name!!" Max said calls him or herself Jane I knew that bugger when he worked the doors. He was a right bloody case never thought he'd go that way no way!" June said "Ah right well if someone like that can do it I think a cutie like you would look real good". I said "Your mad" blood spitting out as a spoke. June said "Well we see"

Oh yes Well see and see I did. I spent 4 days in Hospital I was made to tell them I had an accident the Doctor and nurses did not believe me but could do nothing. Well in a week of beatings with belts spankings with shoes a paddle she got and using me as kick boxing dummy. I gave in and dressed as a woman I had make up wig clothes and I was then made to go to my Doctor and tell him I was TS he noted the injuries and I passed them off as best I could. Then I was made to sign over every thing to my wife. I went home that day and cried my life was her not mine and I had done nothing wrong. Soon I was on hormones and I was trained to keep house and was Max and her slave .Max was mean to me but I think it was just to keep in with her but she was brutal .I was in and out of hospital so much I should have had a Season ticket to the Hospital. At work the guys took on board my new life as a woman Diana.I think they had an Idea what was going on with my wife .She run the office there and she was not very well liked. The two ladies in the office Mary my wife's and she use to be my secretary .A lovely lady of 50 slim very feminine with a charming 23 year daughter who works as a nurse in Weston Hospice. Then there is Sue a 19 year livewire a real nice dark hired size 10 bundle of fun .Both ladies went out of their way to help me. I loved working with them even if I was just the office junior. Again they was not keen on how I was treated by my wife. If only they knew how bad it was. My daughter of 20 who worked as a bus driver.Yes driving is in the blood in this family. Sally heard what I wanted to and she said dad if that what you want I will back you she always got on better with me that her mum .She told me that I was more of a mum than she was any day . Sally then asked about all the visits to Hospital and my injuries . I could not tell her but she knew she gently lift my chin in her lovely feminine hands and I broke down. I had been so badly hurt down below it was best for me to for SRS .I had found that being a woman must had always been a part of me .The bitch had thought it would destroy me but being Diana had saved me. I told her all she was mad.I said please don't do anything I will just get it worse.

I remember the first time I was made to lick dog shit of June shoes the beating I got because I would not do it.But in the end pukeing blood I did it . This is one of the most horrid thing to make anyone do. Boy did she love to show some of her sick friend her control over me. In my black maid uniform not a French type but the sort you see in high class hotels I was made to curtsy and then in front of them all lick dog muck of her shoes oh how I felt sick them in front of them all . Then she would wash my mouth out with soap she use to wash my mouth out 3 times a day just for the fun of it. I just want out, to be free but not as a guy but as Diana. I was also made to lick shoes and give foot rubs and foots licks. Why what had I done to her she was the one that had robbed the company yet I was in the frame. Little did I know they had made a pigs ear of that and it would not stick . It was she that had gone with someone else yet I was being beaten and abused.

What made me snap what made the worm turn. Well my daughter had an up and downer with her mum over me and mum hits her . She left and said she was going to get the cops. I saw the evil look in her eyes. June said "Well Diana look like another bitch will join you with Leroys other RG TV TS WHORES. Yes she rented me to a black pimp she took 40 % of what I earned .I hated it. But not my little girl as well and if this bitch did my baby would end up full time. Drugged up beaten into it. I had to do something. It was then I knew I would hurt her maim her .To do me to beat me to abuse me was one thing but not my little girl.

I the morning I was up at 6.00 am dressed made up it was a Saturday she was not working. Max was away I think the way she treated me was getting even to him and he been rough with me but nothing like her. I had on my grey day maid uniform whit cap white bib lace trimmed apron. I looked more and more feminine and like a woman as the years rolled by. It was about 2 years now. I took a large saucepan and boiled up some water added washing up liquid . I was told by a guy who had done time that this made the water stick to the skin .part of me hated her so much I would love it another just want to hold and say please let be friends don't make me do this but then I knew I had no other weapon she out classed me out matched me. My daughter safety was a stake. I walk carefully up the stairs .She expected breakfast in bed. This morning would be my last with her. I would go inside but after her it would be a real easy time away. I saw her laying there she had been drinking last night and was out of it.Oh god please forgive me she look so lovely but soon she would be scalded and would face months maybe years to get some of her looks back. I chucked the boiling hot water over her head and shoulder .I can never forget the horrible terrible scream of pain I ran out of the room and was sick crying as well. I could hear her screaming and crying I looked in the room. I saw her face was red and blistering One eye must had got some water in it had gone white I up chucked again. The screams was louder and worse I ran down stairs and call 999 police and ambulance. She was taken to Hospital I was arrested.

Well it was in the papers .It all came out how I was treated which helped my case. But I still was going down . Jack stood by me the good friend he is. I went there to court as Diana. June was in the court. She was very badly hurt I heard inside that she took nearly two years I was inside to get almost back to where she looked before but only almost.

One of the guys I had worked for had heard that Max was making big threats against me. Jack put a call in and she and Max was told by some very serious people back off.They stay backed off. That was the day I was sent down. I knew that I had hit bottom but the only way was up now. My daughter saw me before I went away she told me she could not agree with what I did but in a way could understand it. Like she push and push and you get pushed back. She just said mum got pushed back by you. She told me she loved me and always would .She and Jack always visited and I was glad my dear daughter and best friend have stood by me.

You may asked yourself why I did not go to Jack he is a good friend .I am sure that he could have help with thing coming to this. I feel like I have been kicked down so many time that I could not see any way out .Still even though she treated me so badly I still loved her once she was the woman I married and promised to love and I end up doing that to her. But she made threats to my darling girl and I could not have that. Well I am out now a new life awaits. My ex saw me just before I left prison .She had me sign the papers for divorce. She told me that she had been warned off .She never wanted to see me again if I knew what was good for me I would cross over the road when seeing her. I thought good idea.So she was gone out of my life she was leaving with Max to live in Amsterdam .She had busted the company and questions are being asked. I was glad and sad to see her go. But I was free.

  

  

  

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