Turned Out

by Anne Dellner

  

When I was born in 1985 the doctors told my Mom that they should bring me back when I was a year old and they would look towards doing some kind of surgery on my genitals. My Mom asked what they should do about bringing me up, they were told to raise me as a normal boy.

When I was taken back a year later I was examined and sent away again, I believe that the proposed surgery was most likely considered to difficult, when you take into account the surgical techniques of their time. The same happened again the next year and I don't know why, but after that I was more or less left alone.

I grew up as what I considered a normal boy; I liked to do boys things, train sets, model planes, etc. There was never a time when I doubted being a boy.

When I started school there were no special arrangements or disclosures to the school's staff. I suppose this was when I realised that I was not the same as other boys. Where they would stand to urinate, I had to sit down. This led to my being very private about these things.

One thing that I hated, occasionally the school doctor and nurse would visit and school and class by class would line up outside the nurse's office to check for head lice and God knows what else. Part of this examination was to check that the boy?s testicles had descended. When I entered the nurse's office I was told to strip to my underpants. I left on my shirt as I was developing breasts at this time and was very shy about it. The nurse asked me to remove my shirt. Reluctantly, I did what she asked. In single file It was my turn to follow the nurse behind the screen where a doctor sat. He examined my eyes, ears nose and throat. He seemed very concerned by my nipples, which seemed to comment to the nurse about. I new I looked different than the other boys!! Finally he asked me to pull my underwear out and he plunged his hand down my underpants. Not finding quite what he expected down there he partially pulled down my underpants in order to have a look, this was done in front of the nurse, though it is fair to say that they were not be able to see my penis. I felt that I had been completely humiliated.

The worst was yet to come, as at the age of 12 years I began to develop breasts, this devastated me as I was so into sports and so this made me withdraw and avoid all forms of activity that would result in me having to wear T shirts etc.

I found that I could not always avoid such situations and so devised a method of strapping that would hide my embarrassment, this was ok as long as I was not to take my top off. This sometimes happened when the teacher would insist that only shorts were worn in the gym, to avoid this situation I would hang back in the changing room until everybody had gone and then go somewhere else to avoid having to be humiliated.

I was happy at school, apart from the fact that I never took part in gym, because I could not change and shower with the other boys. I managed to get away with this because I made various excuses. Until the gym teacher forced me to participate and shower.

I was showering in gym class, one of the kids began to tease me saying I had a pussy and tits. It spread through the school like wildfire. I was called a fag, queer, pussy, and the kids would make up stories about me being gay. It was unbearable I refused to go back to school. After missing several months of school I was declared truant. My mother was summoned to appear in court, instead we packed up and moved to a small town in Georgia. We rented a trailer on the outskirts of town and my Mom began home schooling me. Life seemed to settle down. My mom found a job at the Walmart and began dating this guy named Rex. that she met there. After about a month Rex moved into our trailer.

My mom must have told Rex about my condition because he sometimes would ask question about my body, if I had a vagina or a cock. If I had a girlfriend or boyfriend. I was always very embarassed which only seemed to encourage more questions and teasing. Several times I complained to my mom when he pulled my towel off when I was coming out of the bathroom after taking a shower. Rex constantly insinuated I was pretending to be a boy. My mom downplayed the whole thing saying he is teasing me.

After a year of living with us Rex lost his license because he got a DUI. Things only seemed to go down hill from here. My mom began going out a lot with Rex and she started drinking and doing drugs. I finally turned sixteen and was able to get my driver license. My mother did not seem to care and started driving her current boyfriend Rex to work because he didn't have a license. Rex treated me and my mom like shit. Rex would sometimes pay me, but his beer and dope came first. I would drive him and sometimes my mom to get their dope. I would wait out in the car as my mom and Rex went into these ghetto like building not to come out until later completely senseless. I was always scared shitless sitting in the car as these blacks wandered around outside of the car. It looked dangerous and I never wanted to find out.

One rainy night Rex had me drive home and pickup my mom. My mother was dressed in a short skirt and her hair and makeup was done. Rex had me drive back to Atlanta. He barked directions at me, this was a new area. It looked worse than where we were going before. I was glad it was raining so nobody would be outside. Rex made several calls for directions, and relayed them to me. When we finally arrived Rex and my mom got out of the car. Rex escorted my mom into the building and returned about 15 minutes later. He looked stoned. I asked where my mom was he just drifted of to sleep. about two hours later Rex woke up. He was confused, and pissed off . He got out of the car and disappeared into the building. Rex returned and opened the glove box and pulled out two guns and gave me one. Rex said come on your mom is in trouble. My instincts took over and I got out of the car and emulated Rex by putting the pistol in my coat pocket. As we walked up to the building I could see how it was run down with windows broken out. Near the entrance two black guys stood . Rex and I walked past them into the building, I dared not look at them. We went up the stairs to the third floor and down a hallway to a door. The hallway reaked of piss and vomit. Rex knocked on the door a black guy answered the door. He said Rex I says you can pick her up tomorrow thats the deal. Rex began to argue with him I peeked in and saw my mom naked, moaning in pain as this black guy was having sex with her on a blanket spread out on the floor. There was other men in the room all naked sitting on the couches and chairs. Rex pulled his gun out and shot the black guy in the face at the door. I was shocked I fumbled to pull the gun out of my coat pocket it went off hitting Rex in the back. I still couldn't get the gun out of my pocket as I heard other shots like firecrackers. I turned and ran, I ran down heard the stairs, it seemed many others had the same idea as I did I ran to the car and took off. I was trying to get as far and as fast away as possible I floored the car as I pulled out into the main highway several cops in the oncoming lanes with lights and sirens passed. I looked in the rear view mirror as two cop cars turned around to come after me and the second wave of police cars moved to block the road in front of me I slammed on my brakes crashing into the police cars in front of me.

Before I could regain my senses I was roughly pulled from my car and thrown the ground. I felt my arms being pulled behind my back and cuffed. while I was being paddded down the police found the gun in my coat pocket. I was put into a police car and driven back to the complex. The entire complex was surrounded by police cars and ambulances. I was questioned by two detectives on what had happened I cried realizing what ahd happened I told them evrything hoping I could just go home. I think I was identified by the two black guys who were at the entrance of the complex. That was when a detective informed me everyone in that room was either in critical condition or dead. I immediately asked about my mom. I started praying she was ok. The detective said he wasn't sure and read me my rights. At that time I was so naive I wasn't sure what was going on.

I was taken to the police station led to a room and ordered to strip. I tried to explain to the cop what had happened she listened and repeated her order to remove all of my clothing. I started to cry as I took my clothes off the officer examined my shoes and each piece of clothing. I was confused wondering what she was looking for. The officer ordered me to remove my underwear I reluctantly did, he picked up the underwear and placed it with my other clothes. The officer asked how old are you? I told him seventeen. I raised my arms opened my mouth I moved my toungue around like he asked. Almost finished turn around place your feet in the painted circles on the floor, squat and rise three times. Ok,, bend over and spread your cheeks. Scared I turned around and said wait the officer sternly repeated the order. Wait, why are you doing this, I am looking for contraband we can do this easy or the hard way. I was so humiliated as I was roughly examined I didn't understand how I could conceal anything there, let alone had an idea what contraband was. Her only comment was get used to it looks like your going to be in her a long time. I was then processed, and fingerprinted. I was isssued a jumpsuit and lead to a small room. I was again questioned about what had happened. Over and over again I told the police what happened, the detectives just kept asking. I cried only wanting to find out what happened to my mom. I was so damn scared I begged the detective to help me. The detective said if I find out what happened to your mother, and keep you out of general population until you are transferred will you help us. I agreed, and spent the next three hours waiting in the interrogation room. Finally the detective returned he informed me two people are in critical condition the other four have expired. One of the critical condition patients was my mother and the best way was to admit to my part. I was eager to sign the confession.

I was transferred to a small isolation cell until the next morning. I didn't sleep at all running the whole thing through my head, I accidentally killed Rex. God what is going to happen to me?

I received breakfast and was taken out of my cell while walking past the areas I think are what they call general population guys where screaming and whistling at me. I was escorted to the infimary where I was led into an exam area. The guard remained when a nurse came in and pulled the curtain closed "Please remove all of your clothing." She handed me a piece of paper to cover up with. While she started asking questions, "Do you have AIDS?HIV, NO!, or any sexually transmitted disease?,NO!, Any surgeries? No, Have you received all immunizations? I don't know, Are you sexually active?, NO!. Do you smoke? No! Any drug use? NO. Ok Are you a member of a gang? No?. The Nurse then quickly took my temperature, and checked my blood pressure. Before she was finished the curtain pulled back Hi Dana I am Doctor Jetyure. Ok lets have a look at you. The Doctor examined my chart. Dana are you undergoing any hormone therapy? No! He put down my chart and began examining my eyes, ears, nose and throat. He listened to my breathing. Dana please lift up your arm, Dr Jetyure then began examining my breast. After he pulled a recorder from his pocket, "On physical examination, he was 165cm in height and weighed 55Kg, his facial expression was female-like. Development of breast tissue; in side view, areola and nipple protrude. The breasts are pubertal in size" Neither webbed neck nor cubitus valgus is noticed."

Dana, " have you ever had a complete Physical Exam? No, "I need you to lie back put both feet in the stirrups, okay good now slide your but down to the edge of the table. Just relax " Dr. Jetyure pulled the paper sheet covering me and began pushing around in my lower stomach. He then began examining me down there. Spreading me apart as if looking for something. Dr. Jetyure stood up between my legs, "Dana I am going to want to to relax you are going to feel like you want to have a bowel movement" He put his left hand on my stomach and inserted his finger into me. Immediately I tensed up, Ouch He pushed around on my stomach, "Just Relax Dana" He removed his finger and pulled off the rubber gloves. " you can get dressed now. He again pulled out his recorder, "Axillary and pubic hair is present, A gynecological examination revealed genitalia have a normal female appearance. small size of the phallic structure 1 CM. A single urogenital opening at the root of the phallic structure. Rectal examination no palpable uterus. Gonads were palpable in the

inguinal regions.

While I was getting dressed the Dr. left the room. I could hear him talking to someone. " He is biologically a male. " Typically this would be identified at and corrected at birth." I could hear someone else in a deeper voice say, He has a female appearence but is by definition a male, we can't house him here we don't have the facilities." even in protective custody they'll get to him. We'll have riots. The Nurse took several vials of blood and a urine sample.

I could hear obviously who I think was the Warden say, "settle down, Don. 23 and a half hour lockup in Segregation. No one in No one out. After his trial he'll be someone elses problem.

I was appointed an attorney and denied bail due to the seriousness of the crime. I consulted with my attorney who recommended pleading guilty to a lesser charge, the judge would take into consideration this is my first offense, I was cooperative and hopefully I could avoid being charged as an adult. I agreed with her and felt like everything was going to be ok. I was tranferred back to prison, I went through the same embarassing ordeal before being escorted to my cell. I spent about 23 1/2 hours a day in my cell, I was allowed one supervised shower a week I had literraly no contact with anyone except my lawyer and occasionally a guard. My attorney informed me my mother and the other guy had passed. I cried for weeks until my court date came.

Court was nothing like I had seen on TV. My attorney entered a guilty plee, I started crying when the judge me if I had anything to say before sentencing, The Judge asked me to rise and began to speak, "I deny the recommendations for juvenile status and sentencing Regardless of your cooperation, the evidence is overwhelming of your part in this horrific crime. The fact your first offense happens to be a capitol one, does not grant you special consideration. I sentence you to serve the maximum sentence of 25 years to life for your part in this loss of life. Please remand the prisoner to the department of corrections for the term of incarceration. I cried even harder as I wasn't certain what will happen as I was dragged out of court and brought back to the county jail to endure another disgusting strip search. The officer that originally searched me the first time was doing my search again. She said one piece of advice, I heard the news. When you are transferred you will be transferred to a maximum security facility, be careful. Suprisingly, and to my relief, the guard did not search me there.

The weeks that followed I met with attorney, she was very apologetic but was optimistic that with good behavior and maybe an appeal? things will work out. I found out I was to be tranferred to a supermax prison tomorrow. I packed what little things I had. I did not even get the oppurtunity to eat breakfast as I was loaded on a bus with thirty other inmates. When I got on the bus I looked around I knew I did not belong here I sat down and my leg chains were locked into the floor. A large unshaven black guy was put next to me and "locked in" He said hows old are you boi. 18 I said. Whats your bit? I didn't know what he meant, how many years boi? 25 years... I started choking up. Yous was the one in seg everyones was talking about. Yes, I think so. Hey white boi, just stick close to me I'll make sure your ok. I asked him what his name is he told me Marcus. This is my second trip. I got a 3 year bit so I'll make sure you get in with the right guys. Throughout the ride Marcus asked a lot of questions about how all of this happened, any family, money. I guess I was glad to talk to someone and spilled my whole life story even about school seeing what happened to my mom and feeling disgusted at the strip searches. Trust me when these see you theyll be killing each other for a taste of you. You need some protection white boi I will make sure you get hooked up with the right people. Take my advice skip the haircut and get one later, the intake haircutters are butchers. He didn't look it, but Marcus is a really nice guy.

The bus pulled into the yard of the prison I was shocked as I looked out the window a wave of fear hit me again it was like a fortress. The bus door opened and the guard that entered did a count. Everyone unloaded and was brought into the facility. While we were all waiting in entry a guard spoke up file in line up on the circles. Remove all of your clothing and place it in front of you. This I thought was even more degrading I did as everyone else. The strip search was very uncomfortable especially in front of 30 other men. I was called into another room where I could see everyone, and they could see me. All of the men including Marcus stared at me, whispering to each other, shyly I tried to cover myself with my arms. That was why I hated Gym in school and everyone teased me. I never liked people seeing me naked. The Guard singled me out immediately KEEP YOUR ARMS TO YOUR SIDE. The Doctor came in , Hi Dana my name is Dr. Carl I am going to ask you a list of personal questions I would appreciate your honesty. Most of the questions I was asked before. The doctor asked if I had sex before, with a woman or man, if I used drugs. I could hear the other guys laughing at each of my answers. Dr. Carl examined me. The doctor asked after reviewing my file asked me if I was taking any hormone therapy. I didn't even know what he was talking about. He reviewed my file, "so you saw Dr. Jetyure." Yes, I replied, I tried to quietly say that "they" keep getting larger. The doctor asked me to repeat louder. I replied, "they keep on getting bigger. " The doctor nodded, well I would have to see you again. This facility doesn't have the resources to hire specialist like Dr. Jetyure. The doctor asked me to bend over the bed. I yelped when the doctor inserted a finger in me, and probed around. I heard other inmates laugh on the other side of the screen. Dr. Carl said to his Nurse, "Order some additional bloodwork, I recommend protective custody. I would like a followup in two days."

When I exited the room I noticed a guard talking to Marcus, I opted out of the haircut, (even though I needed it ) and was I was escorted out of this room and issued a new jump type suit.

While I was waiting in an orientation room the guard that was talking to Marcus came in with the biggest scariest looking man I have ever seen. I immediately looked away, the man turned around and handed something to the guard. I couldn't see what it was.

A few minutes later later Marcus came in and said it was difficult he was able to arrange safe placement for me. When the counseler asks if you know of anyone that would want to hurt you say the Aryan Brotherhood, LaNuestra Familia, Mexican Mafia, Neta Association. When he asks if you have any friends or member of a gang say the Black Guerilla Family. I said who was that guy who came in here earlier. Marcus laughed, He's cool like me, he's my Brother for life. You'll do good. Just remember what I said. I did Like Marcus said the Counseler and the Guard shared a nod I was to be placed in D-Block 3 Tier Cell 313. I gathered my issued blanket pillow and clothes and thanked Marcus. I was escorted up to my cell the guard called out to open it I entered and walked straight in to Tyreese. He was a giant atleast 6'6" and very muscular. I have never seen someone so big and so many tatoos. I was very intimidated and was not really certain what to say. The cell reaked of I think it was pot. The door closed the guard checked it and walked away. I thanked Tyreese for helping me out. Tyreese smiled..and exhauled a large cloud of smoke. He handed me the joint and said smoke it. I had never done drugs before but did not want to piss Tyreese off. I took a small puff and coughed I tried to hand it back but he said no you finish it. After three or four hits my head was swimming and I felt funny. Tyreese laughed and we started talking about how I ended up in prison, I told him the whole story. Tyreese seemed a lot nicer than he looked. Listen, "When yous around me you don't have to worry about anybody hurtin ya.

Tyreese pulled a blanket off of the bed and hung it on the bars, he said strangely "we need some privacy take off your clothes". I was confused by this request until he grabbed me by my hair. I said git out of your fuckin clothes" I removed my jumpsuit. Tyreese looked at me and smiled. "Holy shit" He began fondling my breasts, and painfully pinched my nipples. I tried to squirm away, my head was swimming I wasn't certain if this was real. Tyreese reached his other hand between my legs. Yous got nothing there. "Where's yo dick". Yes, I do have a dick! " Where is it?, shos it to me. " Embarassed I pulled my pubic hair apart and spread my lips showing him my penis. Tyreese laughed, "Oh, White boi that is no fukin dick, thats a clit. They put you in the wrong jail. You got a pussy? , NO! I don't have a pussy. How'd you git them titties? I have a medical condition which make me look kind of like a girl, my mom couldn't afford to fix. " No No No Tyreese interrupted we don't need to fix notin" "Has anyone turned you?" I don't know what you mean. "Turn around and bend over," he commanded," I starting shaking wait I, I, Marcus said, you. "Do as I FUCKIN say," Tyreese swung me around and bent me over, he roughly spread my cheeks a couple times examining me. " Has anyone taken your cherry? I wasnt certain what he meant... " Fucked you?" NO!, I replied. This only added to my fear? Tyreese licked his finger, I wasn't certain what was going to happen as I stuttered TY, TYRE Tyreese PLEASE OWWW no wait. Tyreese shoved his finger inside of me I writhed in agony Tyreese grabbed my right shoulder with his left hand and forced his finger deeper. Due to the pain, I clenched as tight as I could letting out a series of gasps. Tyreese finally removed his finger and let go of me I quickly turned around shaking uncontrollably not knowing what to expect next. Tyreese laughed, " sweetie don't worry your not ready yet." looking at his finger I could see poop all over his finger. Tyreese smeared it by my nose walked over and washed his hands off in the sink. My cock better never look that way. Wait Tyreese, Marcus said you would take care of me ? " Don't worry baby I 'll take care of you. No one will mess with you knowing yous with me, I run this fuckin place." Tyreese pulled out a lighter and a piece of thick wire shaped like a T and a M and began heating it with the lighter until it was red hot, again he said " I said lay over my lap." Shaking so bad I did like he wanted. Tyreese put his right leg over mine and pushed my body down with his left arm over his left leg. I was immobile as he branded my right butt cheek. It was so god damn unbearable My skin sizzled as he held it there. He then admired his work and slapped my ass hard. " Nows everyone will know who your my gurl and you belong to me". Tyreese let me up, I huddled in the corner of the cell naked and crying. Tyreese reached under the bunk and pulled out a box about the size of a suitcase. He took the top off of it and there was a large assortment of panties, and girls lingerie that I had never seen. I was startled by Tyreese snapping his fingers. "Listen up I'll call the gaurds you tell them your stomach hurts and you want to go to the infirmiry. Tell the nurse you haven't shit for a week and can't go. You can get your pussy cleaned out. After that they will let you shower, tell her you want to shave. Leave the pussy hair but get around you pussy". "Get dressed", Tyreese commanded. I hurridly picked up my underwear, Tyreese grabbed them and pulled them from my hands. He threw them in the garbage and pulled a white pair of cotton panties and a matching bra from the box. "No one can see what is going on in here, and no one will know what you are wearing under that, you'll wear these from now on" . I struggled with the bra and pulled the panties on. I was so ashamed as he had me turn around. Tyreese stood up and pulled me close to him. He began kissing me and playing with my breasts. Suprisingly he was very gentle, and I began to feel warm as the heavy buzz from before returned. Tyreese grabbed my hand and put it inside his pants. I could feel his large penis grow in my hand Tyreese moaned as he pulled his sweats down exposing himself. My hand felt so small against his penis as I tried to rub it at the faster pace set by him. Tyreese pulled his hand away as I continued the pace set by him. He pulled my bra cup down and began to suck on my nipple His hand wandered inbetween my legs urging me to spread them apart, uncomfortably I complied as he reached in between the elastic and touched me. It began to become painful as he tried to insert his finger into me I clenched my legs together when I felt Tyreese tense up. I thought for a second he was going to hit me, except he grunted " OHH OHHH IM CUMMING AHHH, as he squirted his stuff all over my side and hand Tyreese moaned as his penis convulsed over and over. He put his hand on my head pushing me down towards his penis. I was startled at how bad it stunk and the size as he directed my face towards it. "Comeon sweetie suck it" I put my mouth on it not quite certain what to do, or what he wanted. Tyreese moved his penis further in my mouth and moved my hands back on to the shaft one last squirt entered my mouth I immediately gagged. The taste and act was so appaling. tyreese grabbed my head and directed me back onto him. I gagged again I was horrified at the act I had just performed. I think Tyreese knew what I was thinking. "You'll get used to it, and don't worry no one will ever know sweety." I went over to the toilet and threw up. I wiped globs of semen off off my side and panties. Tyreese reminded me to always sit. I wasn't going to tell him but I had to sit anyways. Tyreese called for the guard and told him my stomach hurt. I saw Tyreese pay the guard some money when he came in the cell. The guard escorted me to the Clinic where I registered my stomach pain complaint and was escorted to a bed. Part of me wanted to scream out help me!!!!! I was to scared and confused The nurse asked me to remove my prison issue jumpsuit, leave my underwear on. If the doctor needs me to take it off he will ask later. I removed my prison clothes and put on the cloth gown. After about 15 minutes a female Dr. entered she was escorted by a guard. Hi Dana my name is Dr. Harrison.. As she reviewed my chart she asked Whats seems to be the problem? I told her what Tyreese told me to say, she said ok lets have a look. Dr. Harrison asked me to lie back and pull up my gown. I did, while she was pressing around my stomach and then breasts.She commented on the bra and panties Tyreese had forced me wear. I couldn't even look her in the face and she paused looking for an explanation. I was too emabarassed to speak. Well everything seems fine Dana, you can get dressed. I stuttered, wait Dr. Harrison ple, please can I need to speak to you in private. That is when she asked the Guard to leave. The guard only seemed to go on the other side of the curtain. Dr. Harrison asked me to sit up and remove the bra. She undid the back of my gown and explained the examination she was going to perform was a breast exam. Given the size of my breasts she encouraged periodic self examinations. I would do these monthly after or during a shower. She examined my breasts and seemed very shocked at how developed your breasts were. She asked if I was taking a medications. I was never on any medication, and would love to get rid of them. I have been teased my whole life around twelve they became worse and each year got larger. Dr. Harrison noticed I became very emotional, she made several notes in my medical records. She then looked at me and quietly said I know what you are looking for. "Please get up, remove your underwear, and bend over the table." I got up and bent over the table she immediately noticed and examined the brand I had received earlier. She spread my cheeks apart and examined my rectum. "Dana, is there is anything you want to tell me I can help you now. Once you leave here I can't help you." I paused, as I began to tear up trying to explain what happened. The guard popped his head around through the curtain. I immediately got the message. No I don't. " Dana, your lifestyle is very risky. After working here for eight years I realize it is a way of life for some of the inmates. I will provide you with some condoms and lubrication to help prevent the spread of diseases like hepatits, HIV, and many others. I want you to use them and see me after your first time atleast montly. If you change partners experience any bleeding, or have multiple partners, I need to see you immediately. Do we have a deal? I agreed realizing what Tyreese has planned for me. Please also followup with Dr. Carl on you other medical conditions. Dr. Harrison left and her nurse and the guard returned. I was escorted to a showering facility in the Clinic. I entered a large stall with a shower curtain. The nurse hung a large full bottle on a stand she asked me to bend over and roughly inserted a tube into me. I felt this uncomfortable pressure as the nurse said she would be back in five minutes. My stomach ached as I felt so much pressure inside of me the cramps are so unbelievable, finally the nurse returned and removed the nozzle as a flood of poop and water shoot out into a temporary toilet set up in the shower stall. The nurse returns with another bag and a prison orderly who only stared at me and smiled. He removed emptied and cleaned to portable toilet as the nurse prepared to repeat the process. After the fourth one the nurse says that is good everything is cleared out. I only saw clear water in the toilet when the orderly removed it. I asked the nurse if I could take a shower and shave She returned with a bottle of hair remover and said I will leave you have ten minutes. I applied the hair remover to my armpits legs and around the other areas Tyreese wanted me to get. After five minutes I started the water and washed away any masculinity I had. I was coming down from the joint I smoked and was having deep regrets about everything and wanted to escape. Dr Harrison startled me when she pulled the shower curtain open. She had a tube of lubricant with a plastic applicator she handed me also several lubricating suppositories and condoms. Please Peter remember our agreement have Tyreese use the condoms. I want to see you after your first time. Remember to use the lubricant: use the suppositories 10-15 minutes before and after intercouse I would use one applicator full, three times daily before or during intercourse by applying it externally or to his penis. If it is painfull use more lubricant, remember pain equals tearing which will cause bleeding. When Dr. Harrison left I inserted a suppository into myself. and finished washing up. I put my clothes on and was escorted back to my cell. When I got there Tyreese was there smoking a joint. The door cell was open I was glad the blanket was still hanging up in the cell I felt like I entered safety. Tyreese asked what I had in my hands I showed him the condoms and lubrication Dr. Harrison gave me and that she "knew" Tyreese said " shes a smart girl how about yous get out of those clothes." I put the condoms and lubrication on the bed.I was so nervous, my legs were shaking uncontrollably as I removed the orange jump suit. Tyreese handed me another joint, he urged me to take several hits, "Com on baby its almost Rec time movie night I aints got all day". I handed the joint back to him and quickly removed my bra and panties. Tyreese seemed to inspect me. he rubbed his hands all over me, "god dammit you one hot bitch" while rubbing his fingers through my pubic hair. This is alls you have left rights. I nodded my head. " You are so sweet baby, bend over and let me check yur pussy. Tyreese spread my cheeks and repeated his original assault on me with his finger, It still hurt like hell only seemed to go in easier for him. Tyreese pulled his finger out and smelled it, he then tasted it. Now look, smell, and taste like my girl. I was so humiliated. I quickly picked up the panties and put them back on. "baby, come here" Tyreese started french kissing me. "yous did so good" He as played with my nipples and slid his hand into the fromt of my panties. He started rubbing me. Actually it kind of was feeling good. I started to I think this warm feeling turned on. Tyreese's hand directed my hand into his sweats. I felt his penis get hard in my hand. He pulled his hand from my panties and pushed my head down like before. He pulled his sweats down exposing himself to me. I hesitated from the smell and before, Tyreese grabbed me by the hair forcing me on him. I gagged several times from the smell and taste. This only seemed to piss him off. Tyreese slapped my face almost knocking me out. "Dont fuck wit me." I started rubbing him, "Ohhhh yeah thats it". He grabbed my head again and directed me onto his penis.I trying to keep my hand in front of my mouth so he didn't push it in any further. all the sudden I felt Tyreese's body tense up, he grabbed my head with both hands and held me there, OHHH FUCK UHHHH OHHH I felt squirt after squirt of slime into into my mouth. I immediately started gagging, and opened my mouth Tyreese held me there until he was done. Tyreese let go of me, I rushed to the toilet and heaved for several minutes. I jumped when I heard the Buzzer sounded signaling rec time. "Settle down girl" Tyreese handed me the joint I never finished . "This best be gone when I git back. Yous need to stay behind and get prettied up for me." He pulled some thing out of the box he wanted me to wear tonight. Tyreese smiled as I put on put on the white gown he began to rub my breast through the gown I could see my dark nipples through the light material, as my nipples hardened a wave of shame came over me. Tyreese said thats right yous likes this dont you. He handed me the white stockings, I struggled trying to put them on, I could hear guys gathering outside the cell joking and laughing several of them where peeking in adding to my embarassment. Tyreese picked another pair of panties and threw them on the bed, Tyreese kissed me on the cheek and left I could hear them all making jokes and laughing as they walked down the halls.

I smoked more of the joint and rummaged through the box. I found makeup, nail polishes, perfume, all types of lingerie some even with the tags on it some high heel shoes, I didn't what to do with all of this stuff when I heard, knock knock, a mans voice trying to pass as a females, this black guy was dressed in cut off shorts and a half shirt. his face was painted like I am not sure it looked gross. Hi honey I am Chandra oh its true honey you look like the Tyreese must of paid a fortune for you. Tyreese asked me to stop by and help you. Chandra rummaged through the nail polishes. She picked a red and painted my fingernails and toenails. While my nails where drying Chandra pulled back my dark and put it in a pony tail. She made small talk with me telling me her story, she kept on encouraging me to finish the joint. At this point I was so fucking stoned I could barely keep my eyes open. Chandra put lipstick and finished the makeup. I will teach you tomorrow, honey you don't need very much honey, You are the real deal. I looked in the mirror I was shocked, I looked beautiful. I looked like a woman maybe this was my place? Chandra said girl you are the pretiest I have ever seen. She saw the condoms and the lubrication on the bed and seemed to know I was to Dr. Harrison I sat down on the bed unable to carry on a conversation Chandra asked me a question but I was having difficulty understanding her, she kept on repeating herself, baby, did you lubricate yourself? I nodded to stoned to be embarassed, and pointed to the suppositorys. She helped me put on what she called a Garter. I had never seen one. Now put ththe pair of panties and a pair of white heeled slippers. She helped me put on a white style robe which seemed to match the material, and sprayed perfume on me. I dozed off for what seemed only a second and I heard Tyreese come in Groggily I awoke Tyreese said I was gorgeous, he pulled me out of bed several of his friends peeked in or came into the cell, saying jesus, making all kinds of offers, saying all kinds of stuff I didn't understand. My head was swimming when the buzzer sounded and everyone seemed to scramble out of the cell, a little later the cell door closed I wasn't sure what time it was. Tyreese pulled me towards him and started kissing me putting his toungue in my mouth, he played with my nipples and slid his hands up and down my figure returning back to my breasts. I felt the warm arousing feeling between my legs only much stronger than I have ever felt. Tyreese continued kissing me as he directed my hands to his shirt setting the gesture to remove it. I pulled his shirt up he broke the kiss and finished removing his shirt. I could believe how muscular he was as he pulled me close to him again He undid the robe slidding it off of my shoulders it slide off of me onto the floor. Tyreese kissed me and played with my nipples more, I had never experienced these feelings before as my heart raced, Tyreese broke our kiss again and took off his sweat pants he was fully nude and he came close to me his body pressed against mine as he directed backward onto the bed. He positioned himself off to the side grabbed my right hand directing it to his penis. As my hand touched it, it responded by thickening. Tyreese directed my hand to his testicles and he whispered in my ear, Oh yes, rub em. He moaned in pleasure and moved his hand from my breast to my leg pulling up on the gown his hand worked its way up my leg over my hip pulling the panties down he moved his hand accross my back to the other side pulling my panties down off of my other hip by gesturing me to shift my weight allowing my panties to be pulled down my legs. Tyreese moved as he pulled my panties off he dropped them on the floor. He moved back and started fench kissing me as his hand returned inbetween my legs. His hand directed my legs apart and his finger touched me I knew what his was going to do. He pushed his finger into me and began working it in and out. My original warm feelings quickly disappeared at the disgust and discomfort I felt. I closed my legs slightly restricting his probing. To my relief he removed his finger. "Whats wrong baby" , Tyreese it just doesnt feel good! Tyreese pulled my gown up to expose my belly. he began to kiss my stomach gesturing my legs apart he climbed between my legs he kissed my stomach again and worked down and disapearred between my legs. Tyreese pushed my legs up I was so nervous trying to figure out what he was doing, he spread me apart. I felt him begin to start to lick me, I squirmed not quite certain how to react. Baby you taste so sweet. He continued licking me I felt his hand move off of one of my cheeks and he pushed one of he fingers into me again. I immediately tensed up. Tyreese I don't like this! Fear came over me as I felt his weight shift on top of me I tried to say wait, He only sushed me working his legs and body which pushed my legs up and apart. I could feel his hard penis to the side of my cheek. Wait Tyreese, please I am scared, I pushed on his chest, I think I going to get sick. He started kissing me again ignoring my request, I broke his kiss begging him to stop, anything to stall him, I have to go to the bathroom, I can do what I did for you before. Tyreese ignored me and continued. I asked Tyreese to use the condoms, I knew he would have to get up for that. Tyreese only laughed, "Dont worry baby you aint goin to git pregnant." I felt his weight of his body shift onto my chest leaving me breathless as his arms reached down to push my legs up he grabbed his penis with right hand and put it up to me. I gasped as I felt him push into me I tried to tighten myself to stop the entry, Tyreese only pushed harder I yelped in pain as I felt the solid warm mass enter me. Please no, Tyreese, ohhh nooo OUCH TYREESE!!! I could hear someone scream " Bust her cherry Tyreese" and other inmates cheering. Tyreese grabbed my cheeks and spread them apart allowing him to lunge inside of me. Sharp stabbing pains filled my rectum as I screamed OUHHH NOO OHHH STOP, I tried to push him off of me. Tyreese covered my mouth, "SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH", as he repositioned himself to pin my arms. I started crying and trying to scream through his hand. He pulled out slightly and thrust into me again and again each time I could feel it becoming more lubricated allowing him to push deeper into me. I felt like I was tearing apart I was so desparate to stop the pain, anything to ease the pain. I tried to wriggle out from under him, close my legs. It felt like he started pulling out, I instictively pushed, I felt a rush of liquid into me, this time horrible sharp pains and spasms filled my stomach and rectum as Tyreese now moved unrestricted inside of me. When his pelvis made contact with me I shreiked in pain as I felt him hit something inside of me. "OHHH yeah, your pussy is so tight, UHH UHH" Tyreese moaned in pleasure each time as he pulled out and pushed back into me. His body began slapping against mine making the bed creak. I screamed into his hand each time from the intense sharp unbearable pain. Tyreese's pace increased until he was slamming into me. His body began to tense, and he removed his hand and tried to kiss me, I screamed as loud as I could, HELP, OUHH NOO OUCHH , TYREESE, STOP! He only grunted as he violently pushed into me I felt his penis tighten and release inside of me. Disgust overwhelmed me as his pace slowed and Tyreese collapsed on top of me. He moaned," oh baby that pussy of yours is so sweet." He withdrew from me and got out of bed, painful contractions and spasms filled my stomach and rectum, my leg muscles were cramped from him being on top of me, and cheeks were sore and ached. I felt slimey and disgusting as my rectum painfully pulsed. I carefully closed my legs trying not to make any noise. I couldn't believe what just had happened to me, the events racing through my mind. Dr. Harrison was trying to help me, why didn't I say something, and I scaredly played along. I was still crying as Tyreese pissed in the toilet. I just wanted a friend, I didn't want to be locked up in a cell without being able to talk to anyone. Tyreese came over and kissed me, and crawled back into bed and put his arm over me. Out of fear I didn't say a word or move until I heard him snoring. I slowly moved his arm off of me and got up out of bed. I felt warm liquid running out of me, and down my leg I pulled up the babydoll trying to not make a sound I quickly sat down on the toilet it sent a shooting pain up inside of me. Horrible pains filled my lower stomach ached like I was going to get diahhrea. I pushed to try to relieve the cramping, slimey nasty disgusting filth exited me, I new what he just did to me, and I let it happen. I finally was able to relax enough to pee. I gently wiped some of the lubrication from in between my cheeks, when I heard screams from someone else..... What if somone heard, ohhh my god, I don't want anyone to know what just happened to me. My thoughts were broken by Tyreese, "Hey baby git me a glass of water. " I funmbled in the dark my hands shaking as I located the glass and filled it in the sink. Tyreese drank the glass of water and handed it back. I crawled back into bed

I awoke laying on my stomach with Tyreese rubbing my butt. I pretended I was asleep hoping he would leave me alone. I could see it was starting to get light out. He continued sliding my panties down to my ankles. Out of fear I did not move praying to God he would stop. Tyreese sat up and pulled my underwear off of me. As soon as he layed back down his hand returned to my butt. He slid his finger down my crack and inserted his finger into me. Wait, I started crying uncontrollably as I grabbed his hand trying to push it out from between my legs. Tyreese please no. Tyreese pulled his hand away, "come on rolled over on top of me spreading my cheeks he forced himself into me, AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH, NOoo.... started to push himself into me harder TYreese AHHo Ouuuuu no, AHH ohh AAHHH nooooooo OUHHH stop AHH STOP!! your OUHHHH hurting me OUH STOP TYREESE Ahhh NO AHHH PLEEASE. Tyreese's pace picked up, Ummm OHH god I cummin UHHHH UGHH OHHH fuck your cunt is so fukin tight. He collapsed on top of me I could feel his penis jerk inside of me as he whispered in my ear " your a woman now, my woman... I only cried as Tyreese slowly humped me.

I heard a loud buzzer

  

  

  

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