Star Light

by Lady Hawk

 

"Computer begin recording... Personal log stardate 52965.1. Hello my name is... or was Lieutenant Commander Jason O'Shay, I was born and raised in Dublin Ireland. The son of a shuttle mechanic. I was short at 5' 5", always the kid everyone picked on. Stereotypical Irish boy, red hair and fair skin. The bullying got so bad that mother enrolled me into some self-defense courses, got pretty good at it if I say so myself. Though I worked out, I never got much taller than 5' 5". I was the chief engineer aboard the U.S.S. Ulysses, an old Ambassador class, assigned to patrol the hind end of space. But I would put this old girl up against those newer ships any day of the week...sorry just showing my engineer's pride. back to my story. I used to serve with my ex-girl friend, though we never let our old feelings show while we where on duty, she was an ensign in engineering one of the best I have ever served with. I still loved her, It killed me when she said it wouldn't work out.

Her name was Ensign Amy Sorensen, she was very beautiful. she had long silver hair, but she was only twenty-three her body was incredible, long legs that just wouldn't quit. She had hips, that while wide and child bearing, weren't too wide. she had a skinny waist, and 34C breasts. She had this cute little birthmark over her left breast, that was the shape of a heart. I thought it was rather sexy. her eyes where so blue, one could loose themself in them and spend eternity there dying happy.

Our captain was a very kind man, never asking too much or too little. His name is Captain David Amerman, he's been in command for 12 years. He always had a ready smile, 60 years old and still acting like a man half his age. he was a husky man, damn good poker player. I was told he had a wife and daughter that went missing when those outposts along the natural zone disappeared. He never let it show on his face, but I think he missed them. He was 6'1", grey hair green eyes and I fiery temper. He doesn't know this, but I think of him like the father I never had. my father died when I was two, so I never knew him. The first officer, Laura Windsong, was a rather prissy bitch... I guess she was insecure about losing her position as the second in command. she has a cute body, rather athletic but nothing like Amy's. We where rather close as ship mates go, I considered this my second family, we have been through hell and survived. Our ship's councilor, a handsome Betazoid, was named Thomas Jensen. He had those eyes that could bore into your soul, I think that's a trait that all Betazoids have. His hair was as black as a raven's wing. He is built like a brick house, but not to big to be intimidating. He was tall at 6' 5", some of our female crew where drawn to him almost like he was bit of meat in a sea of hungry sharks.

We where on patrol in sector 5 near the Tholian border, charting gaseous anomalies, when a High Priority message came in from starfleet command. At the time we were all curious as to it's content, but it was labeled captain's eyes only. I was on the bridge running routine maintenance when the captain called an emergency staff meeting. Naturally I was included, seeing as I was the Chief Engineer. Every one was there, science office Shezrin, our chief of security Mark Hansen, and our operations officer Heather Alison. Captain Amerman seemed to be... angry didn't seem to be the right word, spitting mad was.

"Starfleet has managed to track down this man." The captain said, tapping a few commands into the control console, and a picture of the man every member in the federation hated appeared. I swear I could feel the temperature in the room drop by several degrees. "Trevor Jade. This man is charged with selling secrets to the Dominion." Mark's mood seemed to change, if that were possible. His attitude was like someone shoved a burr up his ass. He was not very tolerant of other races, and points of view. He would have made those Nazis, I saw in the archives, proud. He was 6', blond haired blue eyed, and white as snow. He may have been a racist in every sense of the word, but he was a damn good security officer. He seemed eager to get this guy. "I assumed they are going to send out another ship?" The Captain shook his head "None within range. Starfleet wants this man caught before he can escape again. This is where we come in. Starfleet has given us cartblanch to use any means to catch this guy. They believe he is hold up here." The captain tapped a couple more commands into the consol. The image of a rather unimpressive asteroid took up the fore ground on the screen. "This may look like and ordinary asteroid, but looks can be deceiving. It is actually an old Federation Listening post, it hasn't been used in about 90 years. It was mostly used to monitor the boarder between the Federation and the Tholian empire, but then it was decided to abandon the station. She's been abandon ever since." "Why does Starfleet think he's here?" said Heather. She was a shy little thing. long mousy brown hair, short at 5'2", she was small in every detail, though she seemed to hide an inner beauty.

"Jade used to work as an agent for Starfleet Inelegance. Before he turned he petitioned the federation to reactivate these old bases. They thought it was a waist of resources and scrapped the idea. Jade was not overly thrilled about the outcome stating that it was a waist of a useful technology. Two weeks ago an unmanned probe was sent out this was looking for dilithium and other valuable resources. It uncovered this." Said the captain tapping a few more times, an image appeared of the face of the asteroid. "I don't see anything, sir." "Look closer." The picture zoomed into a crater. "Is that?" Heather asked. The captain nodded. The nacelle was sticking out of the shadows from the crater wall. "they've identified it as the shuttle that jade stole." The picture changed to the image of a cross section of the asteroid appeared showing the interior. "Now I believe a stealthy approach should be in order, this is where you come in Jason." I was shocked that the captain had singled me out. "Me, sir?" I blurted. "Yes. I remember in your record you studied cloaking devices at the academy, correct?" I nodded "Yes, sir. But what good... OH! You want me to build a cloaking device?"

"That's right."

"But sir, to build and equip the Ulysses, the power requirements alone would require us to reroute a power for several systems. I could do it though." I sputtered. "I don't want you to equip the Ulysses. I want you to build one for runabout three. I want you to command this mission." Mark seemed to be upset about this. "Sir, shouldn't I be in command of the mission?" Amerman turned to Mark, though he didn't seem surprised by this objection. "Do you know anything about cloaking devices, Lieutenant?"

"Well... no sir. But isn't this reason I was assigned here?"

"Yes, it is, but I need commander O'Shay in charge on this mission. You will still be in charge of the capture of Jade." The captain turned his attention back to me. "Well commander, can you do it?" I nodded "Yes sir, but I am going to need ensign Sorensen's help." "Any particular reason?" "She is the best engineer and pilot I have ever served with, sir. If the cloak should fail, I would need to think fast. She also has a good understanding of cloaking technology. If I am incapacitated she would understand enough to get the team out safely." Captain Amerman thought it over for a couple minutes. "all right commander. How long until you could have the runabout ready?"

I considered to variables... "Well... the sensors on those old outposts are old enough that the cloak doesn't need to be perfect..." I did the math quickly in my head. "One day to build it, four hours to install it properly." I said. "You have sixteen hours. You will launch in seventeen hours, the Ulysses will standby just outside the sensor range of the listening post. Mind you commander it will take us ten minutes to reach you, if we have to beam you out. So try not to get into too much trouble." I had to smile, could the old man read me so well? How did he know I always doubles my figures when I was working? The meeting was dismissed and I go right to work.

"O'shay to ensign Sorensen." I said tapping my comm badge.

"Go ahead." Came a sleepy reply. "Did I wake you Amy?"

"As a matter of fact, you did. What can I do for you Jason?

"I need you to meet me in the workshop?"

"sure, what's up?"

"I'll tell you when you get here" I closed the channel and ran to my quarters to get my notes I took in the academy. "Never thought I would have to use these." I muttered. After skimming through them, I headed off to engineering. When I got there Amy was waiting. "What took you?" She said with a big smile on her face. "What? I thought it would have taken you longer. Do you sleep in your uniform?" She giggled, god I loved that giggle. "Nope, I just know how to dress quickly. So what was so important that you had to get me out of bed?" I told her everything that the captain told us. "So you want me to co-pilot?" I nodded. "Shall we get to work?" I asked. She nodded and gave me a wink.

It took us fourteen hours to finish, when we finished Amy turned to me. "Still trying to impress the old man, I see." "Am I that transparent?" I chuckled. She just rolled her eyes and boarded the runabout, we ran through a pre-flight check and ran tests on the cloak. Satisfied we shut everything down and headed out of the shuttle bay. "O'Shay to Captain Amerman." "This is the captain." "Sir, we've finished with the upgrade to runabout three." "Two hours ahead of schedule. Good work commander, we'll be at the drop zone in four hours. Get some rest both of you and be ready to head out then."

"Aye sir." I replied.

"Want to get something to eat?" Amy asked.

"sure"

We headed to the team room. We sat and talked for about a half hour, finally I could suppress a yawn no longer. Amy smiled. "Go get some sleep, Jason. I'll see you in a couple hours." I nodded and kissed her cheek "What was that for?" She asked. "Just thanking you." I then left for my quarters and sleep.

Three hours later, I found myself back in the shuttle bay running through the pre-flight check. Mark was briefing his squad, Amy was rechecking the cloaking device. I heard the hiss of the shuttle bay doors open, looking up I saw Captain Amerman coming towards the runabout. I headed for the hatch. "Captain. Anything I can do for you?" I said, failing to hide the surprise in my voice. "just coming down to wish you luck." I smiled. "Thank you, captain." I turned and boarded the runabout. "All aboard." I called out and waited for the ship to load. Once we where fully loaded Amy seal the hatch. I then power up the engines.

"Runabout 3 to bridge, permission to take off?" I said hitting the ship to ship comm. "This is the captain, permission granted. Good hunting commander." I smiled "Thank you, captain. We'll try and bring back a present." "See that you do. Ulysses out." I closed the channel and activated the thrusters. Once we cleared the shuttle bay doors, I banked the shuttle to starboard, accelerated to full impulse.

"Ok lets engage the cloak." I said.

"Engaging cloak in 5...4...3...2...1" Amy counted.

The lights in the cockpit of the runabout dimmed, the runabout shuddered as the power was rerouted. "Cloak is stable, no anomalies detected. Looks like we did it." Amy commented. We entered the asteroid field. I slowed the runabout down to ¾ impulse. "Going a little fast aren't you?" Amy asked. I grinned. "Nope. I used to do this at full impulse. when I was back fixing shuttles in Dublin." I rolled the shuttle a couple times.

"Show off." Amy muttered. "We're entering sensor range of the asteroid now. If the systems are still as old as you think, they shouldn't detect us."

I nodded and stopped the showing off. I started using the passive sensors to monitor our target. I noted an odd energy reading. "Well if someone is there, they've modified it. I am getting an odd reading from the power plant." I noted. "Two kilometers from the target" Amy commented.

"Slowing to half impulse" I commented. The asteroid loomed dark and foreboding in the front view port of the runabout. "I see something." Amy called "It looks like the shuttle bay." I shook my head. "We're going to have to beam in. If we try to land in the bay they'll know we're there. I studied those old outposts, they don't have intruder sensors." Amy nodded.

"Hey are we there yet?" Came Mark's call from the aft compartment. Me and Amy looked behind us to see Mark standing in the hatch way. "Almost, prepare for transport." I brought the runabout into orbit around the asteroid. I stood up and approached the transporter, punching in a couple commands I looked to mark. "What do you suggest?"

Mark pulled up a diagram of the listening post schematics. "We beam in teams of two, we'll starts on the perimeter and work our way to the core." I nodded "sounds like a good plan." I commented. "You and Amy will take this area here." Mark said pointing to an area in the northern hemisphere of the station. I nodded, as Mark handed out the assignments. "Ok folks I am programming the coordinates into the transporter. Normally we can't transport with the cloak is engaged. But I have modified this one to allow it. Unfortunately we have to cut power to all systems except transporters and cloaking.

"So we wont be able to beam back if we need a quick escape?" Mark asked. I shook my head. "We'll be able to beam back, atmosphere would still be maintained and communications will continue to work." Mark nodded. "Good to know we'll have a means of escape, should the need arise."

I waited for the others to step into the transporter alcove, before drawing my phaser and joining them. "Computer... energize" I commanded. The transporter came to life and a few seconds later, Amy and I found ourselves in a dark corridor. I tapped my combadge, "O'Shay to all teams. Radio silence will be observed. O'Shay out." I turned to Amy. "Lets go." We started down the corridor, keeping an eye out for any one.

We hadn't searched for more than ten minutes when we came upon a man carrying what looked like an old fashioned phaser. I snuck up behind him and poked his shoulder. When he turned around, the surprise on his face was classic. I said "hi" then punched him, knocking him cold. "Guess those self-defense courses paid off." I muttered.

Amy came up to the man and disarmed him. "Wow, he had a glass jaw..." She commented. "Not quite" I muttered, shaking my hand. "Lets wake him and find out where our boy is." I slapped him a couple times, when he started to come to I trained my phaser on him. When he saw my phaser he didn't struggle. "Where's Trevor Jade?" I asked. He looked rather angry, "Section one, command level."

"Thanks." I said, then I stunned him.

Amy sighed "section one, where is that?" I shrugged. "Lets check this console, see if we can't find a map." I walked over to the consol and attempted to pull up a map, after two failed attempts I found a map. "Here it is. Two levels up" I said pointing to the area on the map. We slowly made our way to the ladder, seeing as these old bases didn't have lifts.

It took another two hours to make our way to the command section, we ran into another four patrols. Each one had to be dealt with, we stunned each one. When we finally made it to the command level we heard a voice coming from inside. "Patrol one, come in... Repeat patrol one, come in. Patrol two, come in... someone answer me damn it!" It was Jade.

I nodded to Amy and we stepped out onto the command level. Trevor had his back to us. "I'm afraid they wont be answering Jade." I said leveling my phaser at him. He spun around and leveled one of those old phasers at us "I see the lap dogs of the federation finally caught up with me." he said. "Lower your weapon, Jade. There needn't be bloodshed." Amy said.

"Oh, on the contrary. I have no intention of leaving witnesses." He said, turning his phaser to Amy, he pulled the trigger. A bright green bream leapt forth from the barrel of his weapon, hitting Amy in the chest. I aimed and fired...and missed. He turned his weapon on me and fired.

I felt intense pain when the beam struck me, but I was still alive. I crumbled to the deck, I couldn't move my legs. Jade appeared in my field of view. "I thought you were going to kill me." I said, the pain was getting worse. "Oh you'll die, just not right now." He gloated "that beam doesn't kill right away, it breaks down your DNA slowly and painfully. Rather nasty weapon if I say so my self. In about ten hours of excruciating pain you'll turn into a puddle of amino acids and peptides. Though you wont have to wait that long." He walked away, but I still heard him. "I've set the self destruct to go off in ten minutes. I think that should be just long enough for you." I was barley able to speak through the pain. "I swear, Jade, I will kill you with my bare hands." I said through gritted teeth. He walked back into my vision. "Ha. Such optimism, you'll be dead and the federation will never catch me." With that he tapped something on his wrist and vanished in the field of transporter effect.

"Damn" I mutter. I found I could still use my arms. I activated the emergency transponder embedded in my hand. Captain Amerman had asked me to report to sickbay half an hour before our mission was set to leave. When I got there he informed me that every person sent to catch Jade never came back alive. He asked doctor T'Mel, a rather attractive Vulcan, to give me a subcutaneous transponder.

I rolled over onto my belly and hauled myself to Amy. "Amy, Amy wake up" I nudged her shoulder, she moaned. "I... I guess... that didn't work out well." she said weakly. I chuckled, wincing in pain. "No it didn't. Oh Amy I'm so sorry. I should never have gotten you involved in this."

"Don't be Jason, we knew the risks when we joined starfleet. I never told you this, Jason, but I still love you." I smiled "my feelings have never changed, Amy."

"Self-destruct will initiate in nine minutes thirty seconds" came the voice of the computer.

"Well that's a mood killer" Amy muttered. I chuckled again and wincing in pain again. "That it is..." I said. Amy coughed in pain and moaned. "I guess you heard what Jade said?" I asked. She nodded "I don't want to die in this place, Jason." I shook my head. "We wont."

"How do you know? It would take the Ulysses ten minutes to get here, and we only have-"

"Self-destruct will initiate in nine minutes" came that damned voice of the computer, cutting off Amy.

I held up my hand. "We should be fine. Captain Amerman asked me to carry an emergency transponder in my hand. It's going to be close but we should be able to get out. And Doctor T'Mel should be able to reverse the effects of that weapon."

 

 

We spent the next eight minutes keeping each other conscious. But at the time passed I noticed that the numbness was creping up my spine. The pain was becoming unbearable, I felt like I was swimming trying to maintain consciousness. 'Stay awake Jason, you need to catch that son of a bitch.' I thought.

"Self-destruct will initiate in thirty seconds"

"Guess their not going to make it, huh?" Amy said

I shook my head. "The captain said it would take ten minutes for them to get here. Knowing him, he's probably driving Ulysses as fast as she'll go". I said. "I hope so" Amy said sleepily. I tried to reach out and shake Amy, but my arm wouldn't work. "Amy, Amy stay with me." No response, she wasn't breathing. "AMY WAKE UP! ...Please." My heart was up in my throat. "Damn it David hurry up. I'm losing her..." Tears where falling from my eyes.

"Self-destruct will initiate in ten... nine...eight...seven...six..."

"I guess your not going to make it, Dave. I'm sorry..." I said, I closed my eyes ready to meet my father again.

"Four...three...two..."

Suddenly I heard the hum of a transporter, as I felt the heat of a fire ball. 'It's too late, Dave, but thank you anyway.' Then oblivion came, I didn't fear it but embraced it.

I heard a buzzing, it seemed to be coming rom all around me... It started to clear up and separate, they where voices. I was soon able to differentiate the voices... Dave? T'Mel? Was the Ulysses destroyed in the explosion? "The DNA was nearly destroyed, captain."

"Will they survive, doctor?"

"One will, the other wont."

"What about the other teams?"

"They were not exposed to the weapon. They are fine captain."

I moaned. "He's waking up. Twenty cc's of Cordricine." I felt something push into my neck and hiss. I felt a sudden rush of energy allowing me the strength to open my eyes. I opened my eyes, the captain and doctor where standing in my field of view. "Had to cut it a little close, captain?" I muttered. A chuckle came from David's throat. I tried to sit up, damn I was sore, but I was able to use my limbs. "How's Amy?" I asked. The look on the captains face did a complete one eighty, changing to one of sadness. "What? What's wrong?" I asked, looking from the captain to the doctor, the doctor's face was unreadable.

The captain looked nervously to the doctor, then to me, then the ground. "When we got you, she wasn't breathing. The doctor was able to revive her, but her DNA was completely destroyed." I was surprised. "But Jade said it would take ten hours for our DNA to be completely destroyed. Speaking of which, was the weapon's effect reversed?" The captain spoke before the doctor could. "It was, but when the listening post detonated, it released an electromagnetic pulse that took out propulsion and knocked the computer out for a split second. You and Amy where stuck in the buffer when this happened. The remnants of your DNA where lost, but Amy's was saved. The buffer transferred her DNA to you.." I looked down at myself, I still looked like myself.

"So Amy should survive?" I asked. The doctor spoke up "there was no DNA left it was all transferred to you."

"So why can't you take some of the DNA and inject it into her?"

"because it would kill you. And it was her request that we kept you alive." the doctor said.

"Wait. Why would a DNA transfer kill me?"

"Because commander, that DNA is the only element keeping you alive. You have no DNA left, her DNA is replicating in you but slowly. There is not enough DNA to support you and ensign Sorensen." I glared at the doctor "she requested that you spend your efforts on me!? I don't care if I die, as long as she lives! Take her DNA and put it back in her!" I yelled, tears forming in my eyes.

"You must control your emotions commander, they will no doubt bring you trouble." The doctor commented. I stood up and glared at her "where is she? I can change her mind." The doctor pointed to another bed, Amy was on it. "Is she awake?" I asked. "she is, but she is paralyze from the neck down."

I stalked off to Amy's bed. When I arrived she looked at me. "Don't try to change my mind Jason. This is something I want." Her voice was weak. "But why, Amy? Surely you could go on without me, but I could never live without you." I said. Tears started to streak her face. "You'll never be alone, Jason. I'll be in your heart, and your memories. You will always have my love for you. But promise me you will live, for me."

I smiled, tears stinging my eyes. I reached out and stroked her face. "I promise, I love you." I leaned down and kissed her. "I...love...you...too, Jason." The air escaped her lips, her head tilted to one side eyes closed. She looked so beautiful. "Amy? AMY!" I cried. My knees felt weak, I couldn't stand. I'm not sure I wanted to, I wanted to stay there forever. I felt my heart crumble as she left our realm of existence.

I felt a hand on my shoulder. I looked to see the captain's hand. "I'm sorry, son. I know how close you two where." I looked up into the captain's eye. "Honestly, sir, before she called it off, I was going to ask her to marry me. I was going to give up my position, so she could continue with hers. But she wouldn't let me."

The captain smiled. "I know. She came to my office, asked me to turn down your resignation if you submitted it. She wasn't going to let you give up your life for her." I could no longer hold the captains gaze. "She was always so stubborn." The doctor came up to us. "Commander, there is something we need to discus."

I looked over my shoulder at the doctor. "What is it doctor?" I asked. She looked to her office then back to me "my office would be ideal, commander." I stood up and walked to dr. T'Mel's office. She motioned for me to sit in one of the two chairs, while the captain took the other. "As I mentioned earlier, commander, ensign Sorensen's DNA was transported into you. Normally this wouldn't be a problem, your DNA would maintain your body." I nodded.

"But your DNA was destroyed when the transporter malfunctioned." This caught my attention. "So what's going to happen to me, doctor?" I was getting worried. "Because your body doesn't have it's previous blue print, for which to rebuild. Your body will start using the DNA of ensign Sorensen to rebuild it's self." I was still confused. "You are going to... transform, for lack of a better word, into an exact copy of Amy, commander."

I was shocked. It's not every day that you find your going to transform into you ex-girlfriend. "You mean I am going to turn into her clone?"

"Not quite, commander, you will maintain your memories and experiences. But will have a memory of some of ensign Sorensen's life, and experiences. As a person grows their experiences, and memories are partially encoded in the DNA."

I nodded. "How long do I have, doctor?"

"The transformations have already started, most will be internal, but it should be complete in three months."

"We have transferred ensign Sorensen's belongings to your quarters" the captain said. "I have asked Tom Jensen to speak with you, and help you through this."

I nodded. This was a lot to take in. "Honestly, captain, I would like to be alone for a while." I stood to leave. "Commander, can I ask you to contact Amy's next of kin? You knew her better than any of us." I stopped at the door. "She doesn't have any next of kin, captain. ...Her mother died of a stroke four years ago, and her father disappeared during Wolf 359. She had no aunt or uncles."

"commander, before you go..." I turned, to face the doctor. "Yes doctor?" I swear I could see the doctor was sorry for Amy's death. "If you have any questions or concerns, I will be available." I smiled. "Thank you, doctor, but right now I would appreciate your discretion on the matter."

"Of course, commander."

I headed straight for my quarters, there I found all of Amy's belongings packed up in standard issue fleet crates. I couldn't bring myself to open them, I just went to my bed. There on the night stand was a picture of me and Amy, during our trip to Risa, god she looked sexy in that swimming suite. "Well Amy, you said you would always be with me...I guess you were right."

Right then all of the emotions that I had been feeling broke loose, and I cried. I had just lost the woman I cared about, killed by the man I was sent to capture and failed. "Jade, I swear, when I catch you I'm going to kill you the same way you killed me." I fell asleep, feeling sorry for myself. Kicking myself for getting Amy killed.

The dreams I had that night where...interesting. I dreamed I was standing before Amy, she and I where both naked. We stood there staring at each other, her eyes showed she was still alive, and vital. A sound off in the distance caught our attention, we turned to see Trevor standing with that same weapon aimed at us. I turned to Amy, trying to protect her. Jade fired, I felt the impact, I felt a force pulling me towards Amy. Amy opened her arms, she mouthed something to me, then I was pulling to her. As our skin came together Amy disappeared, and I was left standing alone.

Jade was gone, I was standing in a shapeless abyss. I felt a sudden sharp pain in my groin and in my stomach. I looked down to see my cock shrink, then disappear. My balls where gone as well, I reached down trying to find my manhood, but all I found was a slit. I felt my finger slide into me from the inside. as I pulled my finger out my whole hand was small, delicate, and feminine. It was tipped with well manicured nails painted the same color Amy used to wear.

I continued to look at the void between my legs, suddenly two mounds slowly began to push my chest out. My nipples became big and puffy, I reached up and touched my new breasts. My hand brushed against my nipple, I felt a tingle shoot down my spine to my crotch. I gasped, the feeling was incredible, but something seemed wrong. My gasp was to... high, more feminine. I looked up to see Amy standing before me again, only her hand was playing with her nipple like I was. Suddenly it came to me, this wasn't Amy it was a reflection of me. "I'll always be with you, Jason." I turned suddenly to see Amy before me. "You wont ever be alone, my love" she reached up and touched my forehead, her finger began to glow. "Amy, I don't understand..."

"Shh... my love, soon you will" she said.

Just as she was about to touch my forehead, I woke up. I woke up in a cold sweat, my heart was racing. My stomach was a bit upset. "Computer time?" I asked. "The time is zero four hundred hours." Two hours before I'm on duty. I decided to take a shower and head to the mess. Thirty minutes later I was dressed, and on my way to the mess.

When I arrived the mess was empty, except for Tom. He had his back to me, but I knew he was aware of my presence. "Please, commander, you needn't worry about bothering me" I chuckled to myself. "Can't get anything past you, can I?" He smiled and shook his head. His face changed to a look of sadness. "I heard about Amy. It's a terrible thing she's gone" I couldn't look him in the eye anymore. "It is." I muttered. "Did they also tell you about me?"

"That you are turning into an exact copy of Amy? Yes they did."

"I would appreciate it, if you wouldn't blab it to the rest of the crew."

"You know me Jason, I can keep the secret." He smiled.

"Thank you, Tom" I said, getting up and walking over to the replicator. I don't know why but I ordered a large plate of pancakes, sausage and eggs. I returned to the table and sat down. Tom looked at my plate, then up at me. "Are you really going to eat all of that?" I nodded. "I'm starving." Tom just shook his head and went back to nursing his drink. I started to eat, but found I couldn't finish it all. "Uh, I'm stuffed" I moaned. Tom chuckled "I knew you couldn't eat all that."

I shook my head. "I need to go, Tom. Thanks for the company." I said waving to Tom. "Any time, Jason." He called, as I rushed out the door. I walked along the corridor at a rush, my destination was sickbay. "O'Shay to doctor T'Mel." I said tapping my combadge. "This is T'Mel." Came the response. "How may I help you commander?"

"Can I speak to you... alone?"

"Of course. I am in sickbay, meet me in my office"

"Acknowledged." I said closing the channel.

I headed for the nearest lift "sickbay." I instructed. The lift started to move immediately. It took a couple minutes for the lift to arrive at it's destination. Once the doors opened I rushed out and made a beeline for sickbay. The doors parted at my arrival, I startled a poor nurse so bad she dropped the trey she was carrying. "Sorry." I muttered and headed for T'Mel's office.

T'Mel looked up from her computer "you wished to see me, commander?" I nodded. "I noticed something about me has changed already, when I ordered a large breakfast like I always do. But I couldn't finish it." T'Mel shook her head. "I don't understand, commander." I sat down in the chair across from her desk. "I can usually finish a meal that big, but today I ate half and was stuffed."

"Fascinating." commented T'Mel. "Please wait here commander." She stood and walked over to a counter and brought over a tricorder, and began scanning me. She consulted her readings. "It seems, commander, that your stomach has shrunk. Your intestines are moving to make room for your uterus, which has already begun to form. Your testicles have already begun to change into ovaries. I suspect in thirty-six hours they will have completed their transformation, and begin producing estrogen. They will begin migrating up into your abdomen shortly after. Your skeletal structure has already started morphing to suit your new body. Your pelvic bone should start changing in a two hours. This will be rather painful, but it will pass. When the pain begins call me immediately, I will come to your quarters."

"The captain has given permission for you to take leave." I nodded. "Thank you, doctor. You'll find me in my quarters." As I turned to leave the doctor called me. "Commander, one more thing..." I turned to her. "Yes, doctor?" "When your ovaries finish ascending, and your uterus is complete, you will begin menstruating. And you will be able to be impregnated. Normally a woman is born with her ovaries filled with eggs, but the weapon you where struck with made it so you will begin producing eggs on a regular basis."

I nodded "well at least I know what to look forward to." I headed to my quarters, lost in thought. My thought dwelling on Amy, my transformation, and my dream. I wonder what it all meant. I finally made it to my quarters. I spent an hour considering my fate before the transformation kicked into full swing. I went up to the replicator and ordered a snack. 'Funny,' I thought. 'I couldn't eat one bite an hour ago, why am I hungry now.' I went to my desk and pulled up a novel I had been reading before the mission.

I read and snacked for another half hour before a dull ache started in my hips. "O'Shay to T'Mel. It's starting doctor." The ache was staring to become worse. "Twenty-seven minutes early, your metabolism must be operating at a high rate than I anticipated." I started rubbing my hips hoping to sooth the pain. "Could that be why I'm hungry again?" The ache was getting worse. "Could you hurry doctor, the pain is getting worse." I had to sit down. "I'm on my way commander, please go lay down."

I did as the doctor requested, it hurt to walk. As I laid down I could feel my hips creak, it was rather disconcerting. The chime sounded a few minutes later. "Enter" I called through gritted teeth. The door slid open and T'Mel came in, to find me in a cold sweat and rolling from side to side trying to ease the pain. T'Mel moved with grace and speed as she pulled a hypo-spray from her bag, and injected me with it.

She reloaded the hypo and injected me again. "I have given you a painkiller, and a calcium supplement. The changes to your skeletal structure is going to sap you body of calcium. If we do not keep up, your bones will be too weak to support your body weight." The pain in my hips subsided to the point where I could sit up. "Thank you, doctor. Do you know how long it will take before this initial transformation is finish?" She checked her readings again. "I can not be accurate but it should take twenty-four hours, ten minutes, and forty-two seconds."

"That's not being accurate?" I said incredulously. "I did say it was a rough estimate." She said, raising one eyebrow. I chuckled, but stopped when I heard my hips creak again. "Is this going to happen all night?" She nodded. "That creak is pelvic bone spreading. It should stop once it reaches the same width as ensign Sorensen." I nodded, well at least I'll come out of this looking like a very beautiful girl.

A couple hours later, I noticed that my pants where becoming uncomfortably tight. "If you don't mind, doctor, but my uniform pants are becoming uncomfortable, would you mind if I changed?" T'Mel shook her head, but didn't move. "Doctor, I would like to change in private." She raised an eyebrow again. "It would be inadvisable for me to leave your side at this time, but I did take the liberty of replicating these." She pulled out what looked like a normal pair of slacks. I let out an exasperated sigh, took the slacks and headed to the restroom.

It was an odd experience walking to the restroom. My gate seemed off, I notice a slight rocking of my hips. I had to place one foot in front of the other, causing my hips to swivel more. And this was just the beginning, I wondered what it would be like to walk with Amy's hips. I finally made it to the restroom, when I heard the doctor. "Don't forget to remove your undergarments as well." I rolled my eyes but did as she asked, it was a little hard getting my boxers off, but once they where off I looked into the mirror. I could already tell that my hips where wider and taking on a more feminine curve. I grumbled and put on the slacks, they where a bit loose but they where comfortable. I walked back to the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed.

The T'mel walked up and stood in front of me. "You do miss her don't you?" She asked. I looked up into the doctors eyes. "Yes I do, doctor." I winced as the pain started to returned. The doctor took notice of this. "The pain is returning?" I gingerly rubbed my hips and nodded. She reached into her bag and hit me with another dose of painkiller. "Thank you, doctor." She then turned and walked back to her chair, by my bed. "I find this a fascinating experience. Not every race goes through a transformation this drastic. I would like to take notes, with your permission."

"Go ahead doctor. This may help others at a later date."

I was starting to feel rather sleepy. I tried to suppress a yawn, but failed. The doctor raised an eyebrow. "Sorry. I can't help it." She put the hypo back into her bag. "It is understandable, commander. Your metabolic rate has significantly increased, you will be hungry more often, and become fatigued faster. I suggest you get some sleep, your going to need your energy." I couldn't argue with that. I laid back and promptly fell asleep. My dreams... they where the same as the night before...why?

"Captain Amerman to O'Shay." Came the hail from the comm.

"This is O'Shay. What can I do for you captain." I said groggily. "I've called a staff meeting. I was wondering if you where feeling up to joining us" came the response. I looked to the doctor "I'll be there, captain." I rubbed my hips, feeling a noticeable flare. "How long was I asleep?" She looked up from a book she was reading. "approximately twelve hours, five minutes, fifteen seconds." "I think I should take a shower then, thank you for staying with me doctor." "You are welcome commander." I stood and went to take a shower and. "Because you are not aware of your pant size., I will have a clean pair of pants for you, commander. But I will only do this once, you must dress yourself from now on." I nodded.

"Thank you, doctor." I said stepping into the restroom. As the door slid shut, T'Mel said through the door. "Might I recommend you wear some of Amy's slacks. Seeing as how you will be her soon." I shook my head. "Ok, doctor." I stripped down, and got into the shower. The warm water felt heavenly on my hips. As I washed my hair I noticed it felt fuller, and longer. I finished my shower. I stepped out and looked at myself in the mirror. I had always been thin, but now my hips and stomach were look more feminine. I had Amy's flat stomach, and her hips. I was amazed how girly my hips were. I was beginning to take on Amy's hourglass figure.

I looked at my feet and legs, they where still mine... hairy. But as I got to my thighs and hips my skin took on a creamy color, spreading into nice wide hips, and a tight flat stomach. My cock seemed a little smaller, but not to noticeable. My balls didn't look different at all, which I found odd. I looked a little further up, my chest was hairless, and the skin was the same as on my hips and thighs. My face hadn't changed at all, I still had my brown eyes. Though on my head I could see the roots of my hair had already started to change to Amy's silver. I'll have to shave my head... I thought.

Then it occurred to me, why wasn't I freaking out? I should be going out of my mind, why wasn't I? I thought. I walked naked back to my bedroom still conscious of my gate and the swing of my hips. Amy did have a sexy walk, guess I have it now. T'Mel wasn't there, I guess she was respecting my privacy. I went to my dresser and pulled out a pair of boxers and tried to put them on. As I pulled them up I soon found that I couldn't get them over my hips. I tried three times before giving up, there was no way they where going to fit. Finally, in exasperation, I walked over to the replicator and ordered a larger pair of underwear.

What came out was not what I had expected. I pulled out a black, lace string thong. When I looked at the instructions I gave the computer, I was shocked to see that I had requested this thong. I guess Amy's memories where starting show themselves, I remember the doctor had said they would. Shaking my head I started to slide them up my legs. As the panties slid up my legs I noticed the hairs had become very fine. It was odd feeling the thong crawl up the crack of my ass. But they fit, though my manhood was a little crowded in the front of my panties.

Walking back to my bed I picked up the slacks, I could tell they where wider in the hip than my normal slacks. They where very comfortable, I noticed. I slid my tunic on and put on my boots. As I walked to the door I noticed a slight pressure on my balls. 'Must be the panties' I thought, suddenly I stopped. 'Why am I calling them panties, instead of underwear? Guess I am going to need to talk to Tom.' At the thought of Tom, I notice I was becoming erect.

My thoughts turned more carnal, more sexual. A smile spread across my face. Then I noted where my thoughts had turned, and tried to clear them. "I'm not gay. Am I?" I said aloud. As if hearing them would bring forth the answer I sought. Then it came to me, Amy thought Tom was sexy. "God, I really am turning into Amy..." I finally walked out the door, nearly running into Heather. She was a beautiful African-American, she was short at 5' even. Chocolate brown eyes full poutty lips, and a lithe beautiful body.

"Hi, Jason." She said.

"Hi, Heather." I returned. Normally she would have had me standing at attention, so to speak. This had me more than a little disturbed, was I turning into a woman in mind also? I realized Heather was talking to me when she asked me a question and I didn't hear it. "Are you alright, Jason?" I nodded. "Just a lot on my mind. Sorry."

"Not a problem." She said.

She smiled and nodded. "Still upset about Amy?" I stopped and just looked at Heather. "I guess I am. Just wasn't ready to say good bye to her." I said. She placed a hand on my shoulder and gave a gentle squeeze. "We never are." I smiled sadly. "Thank you Heather." We stepped into the lift and headed to the staff meeting.

Everyone was there as usual. Everyone had a sad look on there face, the loss of Amy had hit everyone hard. The meeting came to order as soon as we found our seats. The captain started the meeting "Unfortunately Jade got the better of us. He took killed one of our people and nearly killed another. We were unable to give chase to his ship, due to the fact of the E.M.P. shockwave hitting us and disabling our warp and impulse drives."

The captain continued on. "We where able to recover the logs from runabout three. Jason, what do you make of this wave pattern you discovered on your approach?" I looked up and saw the wave form displayed on the screen. "It looks like a wave form for a more powerful power supply, sir. We didn't have time to perform a detailed scan of the asteroid." The captain nodded.

He tapped a couple times and pulled up a picture of Jade's ship as it was making it's escape. "From what we can tell, after Jade shot commander O'Shay and ensign Sorensen. He beamed aboard this modified freighter and left the system. We where able to track him for five minutes before he left our sensor range. From the scans he has seriously modified his freighter. It has an unique signature we can track."

My blood began to boil at the thought of this lunatic getting away. "Starfleet wants us to track him and capture him. Commander, I want you to study that waveform, see what information you can gain from it." I nodded "aye sir." The captain continued to brief the rest of the staff. I became aware of Tom staring at me. I was acutely aware of his stare, I felt like he was boring into my soul. 'Get out of my head, Tom' I thought. He smiled and gave his attention back to the captain.

The pressure on my balls was getting worse, I shifted in my seat and tried to get comfortable. The captain called and end to the meeting, but before anyone could leave, doctor T'Mel requested that the captain, Mark, and Tom should stay. "What is it, doctor?" asked the captain. T'Mel looked at me, before she continued on. "It seems my estaminet of commander O'Shay's transformation was inaccurate. Do to his higher metabolism, the transformation will be finished in two weeks, one day, four hours, and twenty-three seconds."

The pressure in my balls was becoming increasingly worse, it was getting harder to get comfortable. "Less than your original estaminet, doctor." T'Mel nodded her head. "I am aware of that captain. I was not aware of the increased metabolism at the time." The captain look to me, but I couldn't return his gaze. "Commander, I assume you know soon you wont be able to keep this a secret any longer?"

I nodded. "I am sir. And I believe the name Jason would no longer apply."

"Have you picked a new name for yourself, commander?"

"I have, sir. Amy had a sister-"

"I thought you said Amy didn't have any family left."

"I-she didn't, she had a twin who was stillborn. Her name was Jocelyn, I thought it would be appropriate."

The captain suddenly looked up to me, his look was one of sadness. "Unless you would rather I choose another name." He shook his head. "No. No, that's quite alright, commander." He said in a whisper. "I noticed you used the vernacular 'I' instead of 'she', any particular reason?" Tom then turned to the captain. "I believe I can answer that captain. Jase- Jocelyn is having the memories of Amy leaking into his conscious mind." The captain nodded.

I then turned to Tom. "Tom, I have some questions for you. Can I ask you-" suddenly the ache in my balls turned in to a sharp pain, like someone had just kicked me there. I doubled over in pain. It was incredible it wouldn't go away, it only seemed to get worse. The doctor was at my side instantly. "His transformation is continuing." she said, tapping her combadge. "T'Mel to transporter room, I require an emergency site to site transport of two, to sickbay."

I was finding it hard to stay awake, the pain kept trying to knock me out. Soon the room dissolved and I found myself laying on a bed. The pain still hadn't lessened, the T'Mel was right beside me, pressing a hypospray into my neck. The pain was starting to lessen, but didn't go away completely. "I can not completely ease the pain, commander. You must remain conscious during this particular transformation." I nodded. "Thank you, doctor. Can you tell me how long this one will take?"

She looked into my eyes, that look seemed to calm me. "This transformation will take approximately two hours, and sixteen minutes." Two hours of this pain, I didn't think I could survive it. But if I knew the doctor, she would keep me alive through this torture. "Commander, if I may ask you something?" She asked. "Of course, doctor, what is it?" She seemed uncomfortable with asking me. "I considered ensign Sorensen my closest friends. I admit that I will miss her. But I was curious, are you aware of her memories of our friendship?" She did bring up a valid question. I tried to call up any of Amy's memories, but failed. "I'm sorry, T'Mel... doctor, but I'm not able to remember anything of Amy's memories."

T'Mel seemed a little downtrodden. "I understand, commander. And you may call me by my surname, if you wish. I believe in time Amy's memories will surface." I nodded. "I apologize, T'Mel, and you may be right. Amy's memories may just open up. And please call me Jocelyn, it's going to take me some time to get used to this name." I said.

Just then Tom walked in, he had a look of concern on his face. T'Mel turned and regarded him with a look that looked more irritated than calm. "Councillor, how may I assist you?" Tom looked a little hurt. "Just came to see how Jocelyn is doing." T'Mel consulted the reading above my bed. "Commander O'Shay is doing fine." I had to smile, T'Mel didn't like to be disturbed when she was working.

Then it occurred to me, how did I know that? I was getting scared, was I going to loose myself when Amy's memories came out? I turned to T'Mel. "T'Mel, can I speak with Tom? You can stay if you wish, but I have some important questions that I need answered." Honestly I hoped T'Mel would stay. I felt comfortable with her being there.

"I will stay, Jocelyn." T'Mel said.

I smiled, turning my attention back to Tom. "Tom, I know most people in my position would be going insane. Why am I staying so calm? Also, when Amy's memories completely surface will I loose who I am?" Tom seemed to take this in stride. He let out a sigh. "Your asking the tough questions, Jocelyn. I can only guess, but I think when Amy's memories fully surface you will remember who you where. But because you will have her memories, it will affect the person you will become. As for your staying calm, I can sens something from you, but I can't quite make it out. I think when the time comes you will understand."

He then looked deep into my eyes, I felt as though I would melt. "Amy's memories have already started surfacing haven't they?" I could no longer meet his gaze. "Yes, a couple times. When I selected my undergarments, then in the briefing I remember her memories of the crew, and finally here in sickbay when you entered. I remember T'Mel doesn't like to be bothered when she is working." Tom's voice became more serious. "That's not all is it, Jocelyn."

I turned and looked at Tom, no sense lying. "No, that's not all. I find I am no longer attracted to women." Tom nodded. "Amy was very much heterosexual. You may find that you will become aroused at the same people, Amy found attractive." I blushed when Tom said this. I can't believe something like that would embarrass me.

I couldn't take Tom's stare any longer. Just at that moment T'Mel spoke up. "Councillor, I must insist you leave. These transformations must be monitored, and with you here I am unable to finish my exam." Tom nodded turned and walked out. I turned to T'Mel. "You didn't have to force him out, T'Mel." She raised and eyebrow and looked up to the door. "I wished to continue your exam in silence."

I chuckled and winced as the pain in my groin returned. The next few hours where spent with T'Mel poking and podding me. I hadn't been that embarrassed since my entry physical. T'Mel poked and prodded me in areas I didn't think I had. T'Mel had just finished her final exam. "It seems commander you now have two ovaries. Your uterus is nearly complete, your body is now being flooded with estrogen. You may experience mood swings at a moments notice. Your birth canal will completely formed in two hours. Your ovaries will be in position in eight hours."

What a blow that was, I just found out I was not going to be male in eight hours. 'Well at least my panties will fit better...' I thought. 'Ok, why did I just think that?' Again I was not panicking, why? Tom said there was something helping me stay calm. But it would reveal itself in due time. I nodded, sat up and got ready to leave. "Jocelyn?" I turned back to face the doctor. "Yes, T'Mel?"

She seemed a bit... Is nervous the right word? "I would like you to where this." She said holding out a cordical monitor. "I have had this modified this monitor to keep track of the transformation." I took the monitor and attached it to my temple. "T'Mel, you said that the transformations would take two weeks to complete. Why is my uterus nearly complete, in under forty-eight hours?"

She nodded. "That is correct, Jocelyn. But that is not the complete transformation. You body will take longer to complete. Your breasts will take eight days to complete, your face will take one week, and the rest of your body will take an additional week. Also your urethra has migrated. And your clitoris is complete." I nodded and thanked T'Mel, before heading to my quarters to change and go to engineering. When I got to my quarters, I stripped down and looked at myself in the mirror. God, my cock was gone. What was left wasn't much bigger than the tip of my pinky. I realized that I needed to use the head, so much for standing to pee.

I sat on the toilet, when I tried to release the urine. I found an odd sensation, as T'Mel had said my urethra had moved. It came out from between my legs through a small hole. I got into the shower and washed myself like I usually did. While I was washing my groin, I brushed against my... I guess I have no choice but to call it a clit now. The shock wasn't unpleasant, in fact it was very enjoyable. I rubbed it again, letting out little gasps and moans. The rubbing sent shocks of pleasure throughout my body.

I started rubbing faster and faster. I found I couldn't stand and laid down and continued to rub. Oh the pleasure reached it's peak and I lost all control, I started twitching and shuddering. After a few more of those mind blowing orgasms, I laid on the floor of the shower gasping. That was wonderful. After my shower I went to the crates and started going through them. Most of it was Amy's clothes but I found some of her family pictures. Funny, I remember them being taken as if it was me instead of Amy.

Then I found it... it was a locket. I opened it and found a picture of Amy and her mother, I remember when she received this... It was shortly after her mother died, it was left to her, along with the house... after her father disappeared. I felt my heart start to ache at the memory of mom and dad... Amy's mom and dad. Suddenly a tear fell on the locket, and I realized I was crying. My emotions, T'Mel said that they would be surfacing easier.

I closed the locket then put it down in the box. I stood to get dressed, but something kept nagging me. I looked back to the locket and something made me pick it up again. Shrugging I put it on. I started going through the clothed and came up with Amy's favorite corset. God I remember when she wore it for me, she looked incredible in it. I looked up at the ceiling "I miss you Amy..." I walked back to the replicator and ordered my a fresh uniform and underwear...no big surprise it was a thong. I finished dressing and left my quarters to head to engineering.

Once there I set to work trying to figure out the waveform. There was something odd about it, I just couldn't put my finger on it. I felt something moving deep inside my stomach, suddenly I felt myself being split slowly. My vagina was forming...I could feel it grow millimeter by millimeter. I put it out of my mind, though it was rather hard when it felt like a snake working it's way up between your legs.

Finally it came to me...this waveform was from a modified anti-mater reactor! The output was high for an outpost, high enough for shields, phasers, and torpedoes. The waveform was a final booby trap, designed to take out the power systems of a starship giving Jade enough time to escape. He was turning the asteroid into a floating base. He could have taken on the Ulysses and won, not just the Ulysses... but a fleet. I walked out of engineering to the nearest lift. Suddenly I felt the last pinch of my vagina finishing it's journey to my uterus. Looks like I am a full woman now...

 

 

 

I stepped out onto the bridge. David, Laura and Tom where there along with the rest of the bridge crew. All but Tom didn't notice my entrance, I new Tom was hiding his knowledge of my presence. I stepped down into the command center. "Captain, I have a found out something important." Captain Amerman nodded and motioned to his ready room. "Commander, Councilor... join us. Mark you have the bridge." We all entered the Captain's ready room, Captain Amerman walked behind his desk and sat down. "Report, Commander."

"Captain, Jade was modifying that listening post's power systems. That wave that hit the ship, was designed to take out our power systems. It gave him time to escape, but that's not all. The power output has been increased. He wasn't finished modifying the base, Jade had the power to drive class ten phasers, shields, and torpedoes. He would have had the power of a starbase..." I said.

Captain Amerman nodded. "Sounds like he wants to start a little empire of his own." We all looked at the captain like he was nuts. "How do you mean, captain?" Laura asked. He chuckled and looked to us. "Think about it. An asteroid can be moved from one location to another... a mobile base. Also the firepower of the base can take out a small fleet. He could put that base in orbit of a planet and crush anyone who tries to stop him."

I nodded "but what about propulsion? The scans didn't show any signs of engines."

David nodded. "He doesn't need engine. He just needs a ship to lock a tractor beam on it and haul it where he wants it." This made a lot of sense, I was becoming determined to catch jade. I made a promise to catch that butcher and kill him. The meeting ended with me being assigned to track down Jade's shuttle. Easier said than done, the sensor logs from that time where nearly destroyed.

As I was heading out of the ready room, Mark walked up to me, something just didn't seem right about the look on his face. "Lieutenant" I said. "What can I do for you?" He smiled and I felt like running from the room and taking a bath. "Hi Jocelyn. I was wondering if you'd join me for a drink, when we got off duty?" Every thing told me to say 'no'. "Sure." What the hell was I thinking! I just told the biggest racist and bigot on the ship I would have a drink with him! I left the bridge and headed to engineering.

As I left the lift I was still trying to figure out why I had said yes. 'Jason...' I turned to what I thought was the source of the voice calling me. There was no one there... 'Jason...' I turned again, "who's there?" Again there was nobody there, I heard a feminine giggle. 'There is nobody, my love. And if you keep talking to yourself everyone will think you've lost it.' I looked around again to make sure no one was playing any tricks on me. "Amy?"

'Yes, my love?' Came the voice

I wasn't entirely sure what was happening, so I ran to my quarters to be alone. I made it, though I think I left my sanity in the corridor. "I thought you died, Amy." Again there was that giggle. 'You needn't use you voice to speak to me, Jason. Use your thoughts.' I chuckled, seemed like I was too surprised to think straight. 'How are you doing this, Amy?' I thought.

'When the transporter failed and my DNA was transferred to you, a part of my consciousness was transferred as well. I was weakened during the transfer, so I wasn't able to tell you I was here. I was helping you to stay calm during you changes.' I smiled, at least Amy would never leave me again.

'Amy, I missed you' I thought.

 

 

if it was possible for Amy to smile, she was doing so. I could feel it. 'I missed you too, Jason. Or should I call you Jocelyn?' I couldn't help but blush. 'It didn't seem right for me to call myself by your name. I hope you don't mind.' Amy seemed to take pride in this. 'I would be honored. Now, why did you accept that date from Mark?'

'It's not a date.' I said defensively.

'You're a terrible liar, my love. You didn't see the way he was acting?' Amy asked, she had the voice of a mother. 'He was acting different?' I asked she made a clucking noise. 'Yes. he was acting different. Lets go on the date and you'll see. But we have some work to do.' She said. I nodded and walked out of my quarters, and headed back to engineering.

I spent the next four hours trying to reconstruct the sensor logs. But as I told the captain, the where destroyed. This was going to take a few days to reconstruct them, even then they would be incomplete. "Computer, time?" I said, cracking my back. "the time is seventeen-thirty hours." Came the response. Damn I let time get away from me.

I left engineering and made for the nearest lift. It took a couple minutes for the lift to get to deck ten aft. I walked through the doors to find Mark in the back corner. He saw me and waved me over. I walked over and took a seat across from Mark. "Hi, Jocelyn." He said, with a smile that made me very uncomfortable. "Hi" was my only response.

"What will you have." He asked.

I looked at the glass in his hand. "What's that your drinking?" I asked. He looked down and smiled "tequila" he said. I shrugged and said "sure." He waved over a server and ordered the drink for me. My drink arrived and I took a sip, wow what a punch. Nothing like the ale I used to drink back home in Ireland.

"So, how's it going'." He asked.

"Fine, I guess." was my response.

"What's it like having a cunt, now?"

How dare he say that! "I would prefer you don't say that word again. And to answer your question, it is a new experience." He chuckled. I took a good long swig of my drink, wow that stuff was powerful. I was already starting to get buzzed. We spent the next thirty minutes talking, but I just wanted to get out of there. I finally came up with an excuse, I had some work I needed to finish. Ok not a total lie, I did have work I needed to finish but it could have waited until the next morning.

I made it to my quarters and opened the door. Suddenly an arm grabbed me and pushed me inside. I felt a hot breath on my neck. "Shall we try out that new pussy, you freak?" It was Mark, and he was slurring his word. "Mark, get out of here before I call security." I said, trying to keep the fear out of my voice.

"Have you forgotten? I am security." he said.

He then placed his hand over my mouth, muffling any further protests. "Your going to like this, freak." He hissed in my ear. 'Oh god, someone help me please' I thought. He dragged me to my bedroom where he tore my slacks off revealing my panties. "Well it looks like our little freak likes thongs." He said. He had an evil glint in his eye. I was crying, my heart was beating in my chest. I was too scared to move. No one was going to help me...

 

I felt his hand grab my panties and rip them off. "Too bad you don't have boobs. I would love to play with those." He said. His fingers started rubbing my clit. I tried to kick but he was too strong, he pined my legs and continued to rub me. What was happening, I should have been able to kick his ass. I tried to scream, to call for help, but all that came out was a pathetic squeal. "That's right you bitch, try to call for help." I felt something try to slide into me, it was too small to be a cock. It was Mark's finger! 'Amy I'm sorry I didn't listen to you.' I thought.

'Don't worry, my love. Just calm your thoughts, someone will help us.' She said with a voice calm and soothing. Just then I heard the buzz of a zipper being lowered, I felt Mark shift and his pants where gone. His cock was fully erect. "Your going to love this, freak." He said. 'Oh god, he's going to put that thing inside me.' I thought.

I tried to shake my head. "Don't you say no, freak, you don't get a say in this. You're going to give it to me every time I say." He then pulled back and smacked me so hard I felt my teeth rattle. He repositioned himself and pulled my legs open, I struggled to keep my legs closed. I was too weak to fight him, I didn't know why. I felt his manhood press against the entrance to my slit.

I saw something move in the corner of my eye, but I couldn't tell who or what. A shadow fell across Mark's back, he didn't see it though. The room was dark, Mark hadn't bothered to turn the lights on. Just as Mark was going to push in, a hand came out of the darkness and grabbed Marks shoulder. Mark's head snapped to the hand, but before he could make a move, the hand pulled him off me with a strength that was surprising. Mark let out an "oof" sound as he was thrown to the floor.

"Who's there?" Mark yelled

I grabbed the blanket off the bed and covered myself. I heard something slammed against the wall, then another "oof." A voice called out from the darkness, "Computer, Lights." I didn't recognize the voice, but it was male and he sounded angry. The lights came up and I was sunrise to see Captain Amerman, he was glaring at Mark who was coughing on the floor. The door hissed open, and T'Mel, Tom, and a security team stepped in. Tom came right over too me, and wrapped me up in his arms. I couldn't take my eyes off Mark. One second he's on top of me, the next he's on the floor coughing...

"Jocelyn, are you ok?" Tom asked with concern.

"She is in shock, Councilor." T'Mel said checking the readings on her tricorder.

Amerman grabbed Mark by the front of his tunic and pulled him to his feet. "I...can't believe your protecting this freak." Mark said, then spat into Amerman's face. I thought the captain was going to hit Mark, but he didn't. He pulled Mark away from the wall and shoved him into the security team. "Lock him in the brig. We'll dump him at the nearest starbase for trial." The captain said. Then he walked over and knelt before me. "I'm... I'm sorry Jocelyn. I was hoping he would keep his hatred to himself."

I was silent for a time before I could take it no longer. A sob broke from my throat, the another, and another. I couldn't make them stop, I turn and cried into Tom's chest and cried for what seemed like an eternity. I became aware of Tom's arms wrapped around me, surprisingly I felt safe and protected. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked to see who's it was. It was captain Amerman, he had a look in his eyes that I have never seen before. It was almost... fatherly.

 

 

 

I felt T'Mel behind me, I don't know how I knew it was her, but it was her. "Gentleman, I believe Jocelyn would like some privacy. I must speak to Jocelyn alone." I almost didn't want Tom to leave. "Are you going to be ok?" Tom asked. I nodded, and Tom unwrapped me from his arms. It hurt to not have his presence next to me, I wish he didn't have to go.

Tom stood and walked out, but before he left he looked over his shoulder at me. The then left my quarters, I heard the door hiss shut. "I am sorry, Jocelyn, but I must perform an examination. I thought you might be more comfortable if it was performed in your quarters. Was there penetration?" T'Mel asked. I looked up to her like she was speaking a language I have never heard. "Did he put anything into your vagina?" I nodded. "His finger...he put his finger in me." I began to cry again at the memory of it all.

"Why am I crying so much now?" I asked.

"Your body is flooded with estrogen, and your mental pathways are changing to match your body." T'Mel explained.

T'Mel spent the next ten minutes examining me. aside from some bruising and loose teeth, T'Mel said there was no permanent damage. She did recommend that I make an anointment with Tom. After T'mel was finished she packed up her medkit and started to leave. "T'Mell, I..." She turned and looked at me from the doorway. "Yes, Jocelyn?" She said raising one eye brow. "I was wondering if you would stay here. I don't want to be alone tonight. You don't have to if you don't want to."

T'Mel walked back into the room. "I will stay the night, Jocelyn. But first let us get you some proper bed clothes." She said walking over to my replicator and ordering a set of cotton pajamas. She gave me some privacy while I got ready for bed. I crawled into bed as T'Mel came back in. She took the chair next to my bed. "T'Mel, why couldn't I stop Mark? I used to be able to take care of myself. But just then I couldn't stop him, why?"

T'Mel regarded me with one eyebrow before answering. "Your musculature has already started to diminish. Your strength has diminished as well, you now have the musculature of a woman of twenty-three. You must become accustom to your new strength and body." I nodded that was a good reason.

I fell into a fitful sleep, nightmares of Mark and what he tried to do to me kept visiting through the night. On more than one occasion I woke up screaming, T'Mel finally had to give me a sedative. I woke up around oh eight-hundred, T'Mel was still in the same chair she sat in the night before. She seemed to be sleeping, in a stiff as a board position.

I sat up in bed, shifted my legs to the edge of the bed, and sat there for a time. For some odd reason, every time my pajama top brushed across my nipples, it made them itch. I tried to scratch them and found that to be a mistake. It hurt to touch them.

When I stood to wake T'Mel, her eyes opened and she gazed at me for a few seconds. "Sorry. Did I wake you?" I asked nervously "I was not asleep, Jocelyn, merely meditating." I had heard that vulcans didn't require that much sleep. "How long have you been meditating?" I asked.

"Approximately the hours." T'Mel replied.

"Didn't you get uncomfortable?" I asked.

 

 

 

T'Mel raised an eyebrow to me. "Comfort is not important, when meditating one tries to achieve balance." I nodded, as I absently rubbed my nipple again trying to sooth the itch. "Is something wrong, Jocelyn?" T'Mel asked. I nodded, but could not meat her gaze. "My nipples itch." She stood and grabbed her tricorder, and began scanning me.

T'Mel raised an eyebrow, taped something into her tricorder, and looked up to me. "Your breasts are beginning to grow. In adolescent terran females, breast growth is precipitated by a swelling of the nipples. This can cause discomfort while wearing certain clothes. "

'What did she just say' I thought

'She said that if you wear the materials you've been wearing, your nipples are going to chafe and be sore for a while. I can show you a was to take care of that, but first lets take a shower. We probably stink, and I don't think T'Mel can stand our stench.' Amy said with a chuckle. I told T'Mel I was getting into the shower. As I was waling into the bathroom, I felt a pain in my stomach. I thought nothing of it at first, then it came again, it wasn't enough to interfere with anything, just damned annoying.

I stripped out of my pajamas and got into the shower, but stopped there was a rather musky sent in the air. I looked around for the sent but couldn't find the source, then I looked down between my legs. The smell was coming from me, Amy was right I did stink. I finally got into the shower, the warm water on my skin felt good, but when I started washing my chest and rubbed my nipple. I let out a gasp, oh that was a wonderful feeling, but I stopped myself... there would be time for that later. As I started washing my stomach, I felt something warm and too thick to be water slide down my leg. I looked down to see a stream of blood oozing down my legs. What was happening? Was I injured, did my transformation fail in some way?

I was starting to panic when Amy called out 'Jocelyn, calm down.' I didn't calm down I started hyperventilating. 'Jocelyn, listen to me. Remember what T'Mel said, after your uterus was complete, you would start your period. This is just part of being a woman, you'll get used to it.' She said calmly. I felt Amy give me a mental hug, that had the effect she wanted. I started to calm down a little. 'Lets finish the shower, then I'll tell you how to use a tampon.' I finished my shower quickly, then after drying myself I went over to the replicator and ordered the tampon. Once it arrived I walked back to the bathroom. Amy "helped" me put it in. Filling that tampon pushing into me was almost as bad as having Mark's finger in me...almost.

I wrapped the towel around my chest and walked out to my room. Walking with something inside your vagina is an interesting experience. I felt like I was walking bowlegged trying to get used to the tampon in there. 'Now remember, Jocelyn, your going to have to change that several times until your period is over. As for your nipples I have an idea how to alleviate the pain.' She instructed me to replicate some adhesive tape, and some cotton pads. As instructed I placed the pads over my nipples and taped them in-place. I finished getting dressed and headed to engineering.

I spent the rest of my shift trying to reconstruct the log data. I couldn't get the image of Mark out of my mind the whole shift. I finished my shift and instead of going to my quarters, I went to the holodeck. I was not going to let this happen again. I pulled up a martial arts training program. I found I was quite rusty, I got my ass handed to me more than once.

I finally decided to start all over again. I spent the next four hours relearning how to move, how to punch, and how to kick. I left the holodeck sweaty sore and in a better mood. All of my muscles ached, I hadn't hurt this much since before I joined the academy. I went straight to the bathroom and stripped out of my clothes. I had changed my tampon several time that day and it was getting used to it being in me. I didn't put another tampon in, but got in the shower and put the water as hot as I could stand it.

After my shower I put another tampon in, put on another pair of "nipple covers", and got dressed for bed. I was still sore all over, but I was thinking a good night's sleep was all I'd need. I got into bed and was soon sound asleep, and strangely enough, I didn't have the dream of me and Amy or any nightmares of Mark.

I woke up the next morning, and I still ached. I must have worked a lot harder than I thought. I stood and started to walk to the bathroom to relieve the pressure on my bladder. As I walked to the bathroom door something seemed off. Everything seemed...bigger. Shaking my head I continued into the bathroom, and did my NOW daily ritual. I guess this would be the ritual every month for one week. I checked my hair and face in the mirror, my hair was now completely silver, Amy's heir color. My hair was down to mid back and very lustrous, I picked up a brush and started doing my hair. 'I think we need to braid it, Jocelyn' Amy said.

'Ok, but how do I braid it?'

Amy sighed 'you do know your going to have to do this on your own soon.' We spent the next half hour making sure my hair was perfect. It was an odd experience having a braid, I was conscious of it pulling on the back of my head and it's weight.

I left my quarters soon after making sure I was presentable. On the way to engineering I met Shezrin. He was your typical, blue skinned, Andorian. He was tall at six feet tall, silvery-white hair, grey eyes, and thin as a rail. His family was still on Andoria. I've seen pictures of his wife and two kids, a beautiful family. "Shezrin, how can I help you?" I asked. He smiled and looked down to me. 'God was he taller?' I thought. "I was just checking to see how your doing. I heard about the other night, I would have loved to get my hands around Mark's throat." He said.

He placed his hand on my shoulder in a brotherly gesture. He was always protective of me. I nodded and smiled. "I'm fine, Shezrin..." He gave me that look, like he didn't believe me. I couldn't stand it any longer. "Honestly I want Mark to pay for what he did to me. I want to strangle him with my own bare hands!" I said getting angry, then my anger turned to sorrow. I could feel the tears starting to form in my eyes. I couldn't hold them in, and cried. Shezrin wrapped his arms around me and held me while I let my emotion out.

After a while I pulled away and thanked Shezrin for being there, and supporting me. I continued on to engineering. God I felt bloated and grumpy, I chewed out one of the techs for doing his job too slow. I spent the rest of my day making sure the ships systems where being maintained, and putting the logs back together.

I finished my shift and headed to my quarters to change into some workout clothes. I went to the holodeck and worked out some more. I was defiantly becoming more graceful in my movement, where as a male my training relied on strength and power. Now as a female my training relies on gracefulness, and agility. I spent the next four hours training.

I left for my quarters soon after and strangely enough the aches that I had been I thought had gone away hadn't, I was just ignoring them. But they where back with a vengeance, I was too tired to take a shower so I went to bed and again was out as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I woke the next morning with my body aching, it felt like I had a pillow under my ass. I didn't of course, I just had Amy's cute butt. I did notice a gentle swelling under my nipples, I guess my breasts where starting to take shape. I did my morning ritual, adding of course to do my hair. But instead of going to engineering I went to sickbay.

As I entered sickbay, I saw T'Mel standing over a bed, giving a crewman a examination. "T'Mel, can I talk to you?" I asked coming up behind her. She turned to me and nodded. "How may I be of help, Jocelyn?" She said, motioning me to her office. "I'd like to know why my body has been aching for the last couple days."

She pulled out her tricorder and started scanning me. "It seems your bone structure has started changing. Your bone structure will be finished in three days." She said in a matter-of-fact way. "I am reading several fresh bruises. May I inquire as to your activities?" She asked. I couldn't look her in the eye. "I've be relearning my martial arts skills." I said quietly.

"May I enquire why?" T'Mel asked.

I looked up at T'Mel. "I'm not going to let, what mark did to me, happen again." I said firmly. T'Mel raised one eyebrow and just stared at me for what seemed like an eternity. "I have recommend that you speak with the ship's counselor, Jocelyn. That is still my recommendation." T'Mel said. I stood up and started to walk out. "I'm fine, T'Mel, really." Why did my words sound so hollow?

I headed too engineering and continued my work on the logs and keeping the ship running. After my shift I went to the holodeck and continued my training. I spent the rest of the week doing this. My breasts continued to grow and grow, until they reached Amy's C-cup. Walking with them was a new experience, they jiggled and bounced every time I move. Though I must say I was talking on Amy's attractive figure.

I made the mistake of going to practice with them fully grown and paid for it. My back was sore form them constantly moving. This was about the time Amy introduced me to a sports bra, god what a wonderful device. It kept me from moving too much and kept them out of the way. I was used to wearing normal bras, but the bra I was wearing where either lace, satin or silk. Oh the feel of silk across my nipples was enough to drive me to near orgasm. So I didn't wear silk that often.

One night after my shift, while I was working out on the holodeck, Tom came in while I was pounding on my opponent. I had just finish off with a move, I wouldn't have been able to do while I was male. Tom interrupted me with a clapping of his hands, this surprised me and I turned to see who had interrupted me. I smiled when I saw him, suddenly I felt my self become aroused. Not at all unpleasant, if I say so myself. I felt a tingle in my abdomen, followed by a wetness in my crotch, my nipples started to push out the front of my bra, and my cheeks became flushed.

"Tom, how can I help you" I said with a smile.

He crossed his arms and leaned against the arch, just seaming to size me up. "You've missed your appointments with me, Jocelyn, I just came down to see how you where doing." He said. I looked down at the deck and just focused on a cross section of the holodeck. I knew T'Mel had made anointments for me to see Tom, but I continued to go to the holodeck. "I just didn't think I needed to talk about it that's all." I said with a whisper.

Tom stood up and crossed the deck to stand in front of me. God had I lost so much in height? I used to come up to his shoulder, but now I wasn't much taller than 5'2". Amy was always a short, but now I was her size, and it was intimidating.

Tom reached out and gently took my chin and lifted it, until I was looking him in the eyes. "Jocelyn, just beating a holographic opponent isn't enough. You need to talk about what happened. If you don't it could eat you up inside and that could destroy you. I don't want to see that." He cared, oh how he cared about me. I started to cry and fell into his chest. I thought no one would care if I killed myself, but he actually cared about what happened to me. We stood there, and he held me close while I cried.

"Jocelyn, I don't mean to sound rude-" Tom said.

"Yes?" I asked.

"You stink, perhaps in you took a shower and met me in my office?"

I laughed and nodded. I walked out of the holodeck, promising to take a shower and meet him back at his office. I walked back to my quarters with a smile on my face, it felt good to actually laugh again. I entered my quarters and started to undress. I stared at myself in the mirror, god my body looked so much like Amy's now. I even had her birthmark over my left breast.

I turned and walked towards the bathroom. 'Aren't you going to lay out your clothes?' Amy asked. 'What?' Was my only response. 'When a woman is going to meet a man they are interested in, they lay out the outfit they feel will attract that man.' Amy said, like she was lecturing a child. 'Amy, I'm going to talk, not have sex with him.' I said, giving a mental pout.

'That's not the point. You want to attract him, don't you?' Amy said with a sigh.

I blushed at that statement. 'No. No I don't.' I said. 'Don't lie to me, Jocelyn, I know your thoughts.' Amy said. Finally I gave up and Amy helped me choose an outfit that was appropriate. After ten minutes of constant 'no's.' from Amy, we finally settled on a black satin bra, matching thong. A blue satin blouse, and finally a pair of tight black slacks that showed off my ass nicely. Next I headed for the bathroom to bathe and brush my hair. While I was taking a bath with scented oils, my thoughts turned to Tom standing in the door way to the holodeck. I felt that tingle in my womb and that same wetness in my vagina, my nipples decided to come to life and became hard. I started massaging my nipples enjoying the feeling. Every time I brushed my nipple it would send little jolts down to my vagina. There was an ache down there, an emptiness that demanded to be filled.

One of my hands left my nipple and began a slow journey downward, as it came to my clit it brushed it gently. The pleasure coursing through my body increased by a factor of ten. But the need was still there, while continuing to stroke my clit, two of my fingers slowly started to stroke my vaginal lips. Again my pleasure level increased, and still the ache was there. I let out a frustrated sigh and ever so slowly inserted my two middle fingers into my moist vagina. I let out a slight gasp as my fingers started to slowly pump into me. The whole time I was picturing Tom was there instead of my fingers. I spent the next few minutes pumping my vagina, until my orgasm hit. I started thrashing about and panting, and yet I was hit again by another orgasm, and yet another.

After losing count I was left panting in the bath while being satisfied, at least sexually. The whole time I pictured Tom. "Computer, time?" I asked, I had lost track of time. "The time is seventeen hundred hours." I was in a panic now, I had been in the bath for over a half-hour. I quickly washed and got out of the tub. I brushed my hair and styled it. Running to my room I put on my lingerie and clothes.

I ran out the door, and to the nearest lift. I ordered the lift to take me to Tom's office. It was a matter of seconds for the lift to take me to my destination. I reached the office and rang the chime. "Come in." Was the response, and the doors opened automatically. I entered to find Tom sitting behind his desk going over some paper work. I looked up and smiled at me, "I thought you weren't going to come. I like the outfit by the way." I blushed and heard Amy 'see.' She had that tone that said, told you so. 'Fine you win.'

"Thank you, Tom." I said.

To Be Continued...

  

  

  

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