Shawn's Addiction

by Starhawk

 

Chapter 17

Jake and I were studying in my bedroom a few days before finals and enjoying the time together. We had been hitting the books hard for an upcoming Trig test, but I was having trouble keeping my hormones in check. That was nothing new though. They had been running rampant since I got these breasts of mine. I wondered if I should ask Jake if he could help me relieve some of the tension I felt. My only problem was how to let him know. Sure I could play it straightforward and jump his bones. That would be fun, but there were other ways that were just as satisfying too. I could give him a hint or two to see if he would pick up on what I wanted. Or maybe I could simply tell him. Nah. That was too easy and I wanted to make this fun for both of us. After all, isn't that what lovers should do?

I put my book down and turned to face Jake. For almost a minute, I just looked at him and gave him my best bedroom eyes look hoping he would get the message. When that didn't work, I moved my hands slowly up to my breasts and caressed them. 'Man this feels good.' I let out a soft moan as the pleasure started to rise within me.

However, Jake still didn't respond. Or at least so it seemed because he just kept staring at me. There were no eyes bugging out of his head. No mouth dropping open. I was beginning to think I wasn't doing things right. Not until I looked down at his groin did I see that I was indeed having an effect on him. He was standing straight up in his pants. I smiled and he blinked.

I stood, walked over to him, and gently sat down next to him. I took my left hand and gently rested it on his thigh. I used my fingernails to leisurely caress him. He gasped and let out a moan.

"Do you like this, Jake?"

"Ohhhh yeah," came the reply.

I pressed my hand into his groin and felt him shudder. I could even feel the gentle throbbing beneath my fingers.

I shifted position until I was in his lap with my arms around his neck. His arms went around my waist locking me into position.

"Wow. That feels wonderful, Erin."

"Would you help me with something Jake?"

"Your wish is my command."

"Would you please knead my breasts? They need a man's firm hand."

"Sure," Jake replied.

I shifted position again so that my back was to his chest so he could begin to fulfill my needs. He began with a slow caress with the occasional tweak of my nipples. He was so slow that it was maddening, but I suspected that he knew exactly what he was doing to me. My body began to move with the rhythm of the emotion building within me. I was barely aware of my hips grinding into him until he let out a gasp in response. Jake continued to knead and caress my breasts. I was about to explode when suddenly he stopped. I wanted to scream, but decided to trust him and was glad I did because when he restarted he had the mink gloves on. Talk about going into orbit. I was at full thrust and accelerating. I grabbed hold of his thighs and squeezed with all my strength. My body was now moving in all sorts of ways. It was going up and down as well as side-to-side. My hands shot to my head as I grabbed handfuls of my hair.

My back arched as I exploded into ecstasy.

Jake collapsed onto his back and I followed landing on top of him – breathless, but very happy.

I stood briefly then lay down next to him. "Thank you."

We lay in each other's arms for several minutes before Jake said, "Where on Earth did you ever learn to do that Erin?"

"Do what?"

"That lap dance thing you were doing." Jake's forearm went over his eyes before he added, "That was one of the most amazing things I have ever experienced."

"I take it you liked it?"

"Oh yeah," Jake replied with a big grin on his face. "But where did you learn to do that?"

"I didn't learn anything Jake. I just couldn't help myself. After you started working on my tits my body just began to move on its own."

"Well, you can do that to me anytime you want, Erin."

"I am glad you're happy."

"And you? Are you happy?"

"Oh yes. I am very happy, but I suspect I will need more of your skills in the future. Would that be okay with you?"

"I am at your beck and call."

"Mmm. That sounds nice," I replied as I leaned down to kiss him.

"I look forward to it." Jake's hands moved down to my butt and patted it gently.

"So will I."

We lay on my bed for another hour or so wrapped in each other's arms. The warmth of Jake's body and the strength of his arms made me feel protected.

I felt Jake stir and looked as he turned toward the clock on the bedside table. When he saw the time he gently moved me off of him and sat upright.

"As good as this time has been Erin, I have to go. My mom is expecting me home."

"No worries Jake," I said as I stood up next to him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him soundly.

"What was that for?"

"Because I love you."

"Ditto, Erin."

"Promise?"

"Cross my heart."

Jake and I walked downstairs to the front door where we kissed again before he headed back home.

I went back upstairs and laid down on my bed. I stared at the ceiling and dreamed of what might be in my future. How would this all turn out? Then I heard the garage door open. I put on a loose fitting sweatshirt, checked my makeup, pulled my hair back into a ponytail, and went downstairs just as mom came in from the garage with groceries. I walked past her and checked the car for anything else that needed to be brought in. I retrieved the remaining three plastic bags and carried them into the house. After setting them down on the kitchen table I helped mom put things away. Mom and I exchanged glances, but she didn't let on that she suspected anything.

"How was your day Erin?" mom asked.

"Okay. Jake and I were studying for finals next week."

"Really, where is he?" mom asked.

"He left about a half hour ago."

Mom looked at me with a knowing smile on her face as if to say 'Yeah right, sure that's what you were doing.' She winked and then returned to her task of putting the milk into the fridge.

"Is that all you two were doing?" mom added.

"Yes, mom," I replied. "I mean it's not like I was going to jump Jake's bones or anything." Even though I thought about it.

"Erin," mom exclaimed. "I don't want to hear that kind of talk again young lady."

"Sorry, mom."

"Okay. Now why don't you go get washed up for dinner while I get things ready?"

"Alright." I returned to my room and shucked my sweats for a nice pair of jeans and a loose fitting sweater.

I went to my computer to shut it down, but decided to check my email first. It had been a while since I heard from Mark and was beginning to wonder where he'd gone. Was he all right? Did he still think of me? My time was rewarded with a couple of emails. One of which was from Mark. Eagerly, I double clicked on the message and began to read it.

Erin,

 

It has been such a long time since I wrote you last, but I wanted you to know that I remember our kisses on the houseboat. I wish we had had more time together, but sometimes we don't get to choose how much we have, just how we spend it.

I have enclosed a picture of me from a recent trip to the Bahamas that my dad took. Do you have one you could send me?

Take care,

 

Mark

 

I opened the attached picture file and looked at Mark holding up a fish he'd caught on the fishing trip with his dad. He looked as good as ever. My mind flashed back to that night on the upper deck where we kissed and I remembered how good it felt to be in his arms.

Absentmindedly, I began to twist some strands of my hair in my fingers. "I remember too Mark," I said to the computer screen.

I looked through my computer and found a fairly recent picture of me that mom had taken before school one day. I was dressed in jeans, a lime green blouse, and denim jacket. My hair was braided and my face made up simply. I used a paint program to convert it into JPG format, so it wouldn't be too big, and then shot it off to Mark with a short message.

Mark,

 

Got your message and here is the best picture I could find. It was taken a couple of weeks ago. Not much has changed since then. I hope you like it. I know what you mean about how much time we get. We can only make the most of the time we are given and that is a good thing.

I think about that night on the upper deck with you too, Mark. I really enjoyed it.

Have a great week.

Erin.

As I clicked the Send button I almost wanted to take the message back right then and there, but it was gone. I was committed. Maybe I should be committed for doing this, but there was something exciting about having two guys stuck on me. I tried to rationalize the message I was sending to Mark. I didn't want to mislead him, but the rush proved too much for me to resist. However, since he was in Florida and I was in Texas we weren't likely to see one another soon. At least that is what I thought.

I hoped I was right.

 

Chapter 18

Jake and I were walking home one day when he stopped and turned to me. He took my hands in his and drew me close. I looked up into his deep brown eyes and wondered what was going on, but I trusted that whatever it was it would be okay. My Jake was here to protect me.

"Erin?"

"Yes, Jake," I replied.

"I was wondering if . . . "

"What?"

"Well, I was wondering if you would go to the Harvest Ball with me next week?"

Part of me wanted to go if for no other reason than to be with Jake. However, the other side of that coin told me there could be trouble if I did show up. Yes, most of the kids who would be there would be okay with my attendance, but there were still a bunch of holdouts who could, and likely would, cause trouble. Then again, I would be with Jake and that gave me the courage to answer, "Jake, I would love to go with you." I put my arms around his neck and kissed him warmly and reveled in the heat of the moment.

As we broke, I looked up into his eyes and asked, "Are you sure Jake?"

"What's to be sure about? You're the prettiest woman in the whole school. I would be a fool not to ask you."

"Okay then, I will do the best I can to be the prettiest woman there. Just for you."

"Yeeehaaaaa," Jake yelled out. He lifted me off the ground and spun us around. "Awesome. Thanks Erin. You've made me the happiest man on Earth." He spun us around a few more times before gently setting me back down on the ground.

"That was a great, Jake." I leaned up to his ear, closed my eyes, and whispered, "I love you so much."

"I love you too, Erin. With all my heart."

After Jake got me safely home and we said our goodbyes, I ran up to my room and started thinking about what I would need for the prom. I would need a gown for sure, but what else? I didn't have a clue so I would ask mom for help, maybe Heather too.

That night I took mom aside after dinner and asked her to help me get ready for the prom. She accepted and we began to make a list of what I would need.

"First things first, you will need a gown. Do you have any ideas?" Mom asked.

"No, but maybe I should ask Jake's sister, Heather. She has pretty good taste and might be willing to help."

"Well then, I suggest you get on the horn and ask her."

I grabbed for the phone and called Heather. I told her what I needed and she readily agreed to help. Some twenty minutes later she was knocking at our door with an armful of magazines.

The three of us sat down and poured through the mags looking for anything and everything I might need for the prom. It was a fun time and I enjoyed the time with Heather. We found several styles that I liked with colors ranging from lime green to sapphire blue. All of the gowns were beautiful. Mom and Heather helped me narrow my choices down to five styles and colors. We then made plans to go shopping at the nearby mall the upcoming weekend.

Over the next several days we finalized our plans and we hit the mall to get me outfitted for the dance. After several hours of browsing the shops, we found the perfect dress for the evening. It was a strapless, deep azure blue, which graded to a white band at the hem. I thought it was a great choice. I figured it would make Jake mine forever once he saw me in it. I tried it on and found that it was a little long, but the lady in the store said it

would be no problem to have it altered in time for the dance. She said she could have it ready in a about a week. Since the dance was three weeks o We found a pair of white shoes with 3-inch heels at another store. When we got home mom had me put my new purchases away. With Heather's help it didn't take long.

"You'll have Jake eating out of your hands when he sees you in that gown, Erin."

"I know. I can't wait," I said. I also secretly hoped he would like to see me take it off too. Maybe he would even take it off of me. I smiled at the thought and closed the door to the closet. "You have to promise not to tell him anything about this Heather. I want him to be surprised when he sees me for the first time."

"No problem, Erin. As long as you let me help you get ready. After all I want to see Jake's face when he sees you for the first time."

"You've got a deal."

 

* * * *

 

On the morning of the Harvest Ball, mom woke me up bright and early. "Erin, wake up. We have tons to do. Get a move on sleepy head."

My mind climbed out of the morning fog as my eyes opened to the day. Mom pulled the curtains back to let the sun in so I had no choice, but to wake up. I resisted for a moment or two while I stretched my body out in the comfort of the warm sheets.

When I didn't move fast enough, mom moved to the side of the bed and roughly pulled back the covers revealing my nightgown clad body. "Mom!" I tried to reach for the covers to pull them back over me, but mom wouldn't have any of it.

"Enough Erin. Get cracking young lady or you won't be ready for your dance tonight. Now move it!"

I heard the tone in her voice and knew I had pushed her too far so I rolled out of bed and headed to the shower. After drying off, I got dressed in a pair of jeans, a button down shirt, and a coat since it was cool outside.

Mom and I headed off to the salon where the lady, Cheryl, was ready and waiting for me. She handed me a book of hairstyles that mom and I flipped through until we found one that we both liked.

A couple of hours later I walked out with my hair and nails done. My hair was styled in soft ringlets that flowed down past my shoulders and my nails were a deep blood red. Mom drove us home where we entered the next phase of the preparation for my prom.

After a quick bite of lunch mom and I went into my bedroom where we got to work on my makeup. I wanted to do some of it myself, but I was simply too nervous to hold my hands steady enough. Fortunately, mom was prepared and dove in full tilt. She got to work on my face while I tried to remember to breathe.

After a half hour, mom took a short break to step back and check her progress. She smiled, picked up another bottle, and got back to work.

"How do I look, mom?"

"Erin, you need to hold still while I finish things up here. You don't want to have a giant red smudge on your face now. Believe me, it wouldn't look very pretty." Mom leaned down and added, "Don't worry Erin. You look great. Jake is going to melt in his tracks when he sees you." Mom smiled and I tried to keep still.

When my makeup was completed, she handed me my under things and told me to go into the bathroom and put them on. Oh yeah, and she told me to hurry up.

Once I had my bra, panties and nylons on I returned to the bedroom where mom and Heather, who arrived a few minutes earlier, were waiting patiently, or at least as patiently as they could. I raised my arms and slipped the dress on over my head. I wriggled the dress down and smoothed it with my hands.

Lastly, I stepped into my high heels and turned to the mirror to get my first look at myself.

My jaw dropped to the floor.

I couldn't speak.

I felt my breasts stiffen and felt the rush as they did so.

"Erin, you look stunning. Jake doesn't stand a chance."

"Mom," I replied, "I just want to be beautiful for him."

"Then you have nothing to worry about Erin. You are beautiful and Jake will be yours for the asking."

"Thanks mom," I said.

"You're welcome."

"You're right, Mrs. Jensen. Erin, you are drop dead gorgeous." Heather walked up next to me and added, "Jake is going to totally flip out when he sees you."

Mom glanced at her watch and then said, "How about we go show your father?"

I smiled and nodded. Mom went downstairs to prepare dad for my appearance and then called me down.

I took a deep breath and cautiously walked down the stairs. Heather followed close behind me in case I needed help. After all it wouldn't do to trip, fall, and break a leg or something now would it?

I made it down to the bottom landing with no problem and went into the living room where dad sat in his chair. When I entered the room, all he could do was look at me and smile. When he found his tongue he just said, "Erin, you look amazing."

"Thanks daddy," I said beaming my best smile back at him.

We stood and talked for a few minutes until we heard the doorbell. Jake was here.

Mom grabbed my arm and told me to get upstairs so I could make a proper entrance. Heather helped me up the stairs just as the second ring of the doorbell sounded. Once I was in my room I turned to check my appearance in the mirror and smoothed my dress one last time.

"Okay, Erin. Take a deep breath," I said to myself.

I complied.

"Take another one," Heather urged.

Done.

Dad called me down.

"Ready?" Heather asked.

"Yes."

I wanted Jake to get the full effect. He was the man I loved and I wanted him to know that I loved him too. I wanted him to know that I was doing this for him. Okay, maybe some of it was for me too, but mostly it was for him.

I smiled and took the first few steps slowly and let my breathing match the rhythm. My chest rose and fell with each step I took. Oh God, what am I doing? Be quiet silly. You are going on a date with your guy and you know you want this. Enjoy yourself. This is your night.

As my head appeared, I found Jake looking up at me. His face told me all I needed to know. His eyes locked onto mine and never let go. My stomach went all jittery inside so I grabbed hold of the railing to steady myself.

I winked at Jake and smiled warmly at him.

Why did I feel like one of those beauty queens from those pageants you see on television? All I needed was a bouquet of roses and to be waving my hand to make the image complete. Argh.

I caught sight of dad who had his digital camera in hand and smiled as he snapped a few pics of me. I heard my heels click on the final landing and I found Jake right smack dab in front of me. He brought up a wrist corsage and I allowed him to put it on me.

I gave him a quick peck on the cheek so as not to mess up my makeup. There would be plenty of time for that later, I thought to myself. "Okay, you two. I want a couple of pics for the scrapbook," mom said.

I looked at Jake and smiled before walking over to the fireplace. Jake stood on my left and took my hands in his as we turned to face the camera. Dad took a pic or two of us. Actually, he took about half a dozen or so before mom finally told him enough. Dad and mom saw us to the door.

As Jake opened it to let me out I looked, and there, in the street, was a huge white stretch limousine. I looked at Jake and he just grinned at me before saying, "I thought you should have a trusty white steed for our journey to the prom." He paused a moment, "Is my lady pleased?"

"Oh, Jake it's wonderful, but you really shouldn't have." I wanted to tell him something else, but not in front of my parents.

"Nothing is too good for you, Erin."

I took his hand and squeezed it gently.

Dad and mom waved to us as we walked out to the limo where the chauffeur opened the door for us.

Once we were inside, behind the darkened windows, I leaned over and gave Jake a kiss.

"What was that for?"

"Let's just call it a taste of things to come, handsome."

"Oh," he smiled.

What I didn't tell him was I was so horny it took all the strength I had to keep my hands to myself. Seeing myself dressed to the nines like this had turned me on something fierce. I knew that it wouldn't do to enter the prom with stiff nipples and an even stiffer cock. If that happened, I would lose it and totally embarrass myself. Fortunately, Heather had helped by getting me a gaff to keep my male bits in their place. It was uncomfortable, but it worked.

The driver took us to the hotel where the prom was being held and opened the door for us. Jake got out first and then offered me his hand. Taking hold of it I stood up and put my arm through Jake's. We walked towards the hotel door where a doorman opened it. Jake allowed me to go in first and placed his open palm on the small of my back as he guided me through the doorway. I'm not sure why, but that little touch, with the open palm, helped me calm down. It made me feel like I was safe with him. I already knew that, of course, but I liked the feeling just the same.

Once we were in the main entry Jake took hold of my hand and led me to the hall where we signed in. Several of the guys eyed me as we passed, but I let them know, in no uncertain terms, that I was taken by snuggling closer to Jake. I glanced over at Jake and he was grinning from ear to ear with pride at having me on his arm. That made me happy.

There was a good-sized group of people already gathered. Some were dancing to the band. Others were mingling and talking at various places around the hall. Jake and I decided to mingle with some of our friends before getting out onto the dance floor.

As we moved through the crowd we found Michael Kelly with his date, Amber Morton.

"Hi, Jake," Michael called out above the music.

"Hey, Michael." He turned to Amber and nodded.

Amber, while not the brightest bulb in the bunch, was pretty and a genuinely nice person. I could tell she liked Michael from the way she clung to his arm. She had the greatest red hair I had ever seen, next to Angie Everhart, the supermodel. It hung like long tresses of fire down to her shoulders. It was so thick and shiny too. It just made you want to run your fingers through it. What I wouldn't give to have hair like that, I thought. She wore a pine green gown that went well with her hair. Amber had been one of the few girls who had accepted me from the very beginning. She had admitted that it was pretty weird to find a guy look so good as a girl, but she also found it a major turn on. Not that we ever did anything about it since Michael was my friend. I told her that I would never do anything to come between them. Not ever.

Michael faced me and said, "Hi, Erin. You look incredible."

"Thanks, Michael."

Amber smiled and nodded her agreement. "Yeah, I love that dress. The color is perfect on you, Erin."

"Thanks, Amber. I just love your hair."

Amber's face lit up at the compliment and Michael just smiled and said, "Yeah, it is great, but you know what they say about redheads."

"Careful Michael," Jake warned. "I was just going to say that redheads are some of the most beautiful women on Earth and they have the passion to go along with it." He turned to Amber and added, "Personally, I think Amber is the hottest babe here."

I half heartedly shot him a look, but all he said was, "Sorry Erin, but while you are a babe in your own right, Amber has you beat in my book."

We all looked at each other and laughed and I had to admit he was right. There were simply things Amber could do that I could not. Not that I didn't want to, just couldn't. Jake put his arm around me to let me know it was okay and that he loved me just the way I was.

The four of us found a table and sat down with two other couples.

The first couple consisted of Jack Morris and Jill Conners. Yeah, I know, the first name thing and all, but it worked for them. They were really good friends and were always there for one another. Jack was a tennis star and a real brain in Physics. It was a strange combination, but he once told me he liked playing with lasers and so naturally felt attracted to the subject. Jill, for her part, was attractive with brunette hair that hung just below her ears and was styled in a short bob. Jill liked languages, Spanish most of all. She was wearing a beautiful white gown that accented her busty figure to the max. Of the two Jill was less accepting of my change, but didn't want to make a scene in front of everyone else. The best I can say was that she tolerated me, but didn't go out of her way to be nice. Jack was more accepting though sided with Jill for the sake of their relationship.

The other couple consisted of Mark Williams and Rosa Flores. Mark didn't go for sports, but was a nice enough guy. He was into computer games and science fiction novels. He and I could talk about sci-fi for hours and never get bored. His short cropped blond hair and bright blue eyes gave him classic Scandinavian looks, which the girls drooled over. Rosa was a cinnamon-skinned, raven-haired Latina beauty with a figure that would make Sophia Loren jealous. She had breasts that would satisfy any man and the rest of her body caused many a case of whiplash around school. In short, Mark was a dude who was envied by the other guys in attendance.

God, how I wished I had her body. Then I could satisfy Jake anytime I wanted. Just having that thought made me shiver with excitement. Absent-mindedly I touched the inner part of Jake's thigh causing him to look at me and gasp slightly. I just smiled innocently at him and said, "I'll tell you later."

"Okay," he gently took my hand in his and intertwined his fingers with mine.

The eight of us had a great time talking and celebrating. Jake and I danced several times and I loved being in his arms. The way he held me close with one arm around my waist and the other holding my hand tenderly to his chest made me feel special. I put my head on his shoulder and followed his lead as we flowed through the other dancers.

For most of the evening things went smoothly. I had several dances with Jake and even one or two with Michael and Mark. While they were nice and all, I didn't feel the same thing as when I was in Jake's arms. I just felt more comfortable with him. However, towards the end of the evening I saw several guys from the football team looking my way. Normally, this would not have bothered me except they had had a bit too much to drink and that made them meaner than usual. Having seen them, I let Jake know that it was time to leave. He asked why and I simply motioned with my eyes towards the gang of four over in the corner.

Jake, ever my protector, moved towards the other guys, but I took his arm and shook my head. I didn't want any trouble tonight, especially, not tonight. I had other things on my mind and didn't want anything, or anyone, to spoil those plans.

Fortunately, one of the teachers, who was acting as a chaperone for the evening, spotted the four guys and saw their target, me. He got one of the other men and quietly walked over to them and squashed any plans they had by escorting them into another room.

Jake and I made our goodbyes to the rest of the group and headed back to the limo where the chauffeur was waiting. Once inside Jake asked him to drive us around town for a while. I took that moment to snuggle up to Jake and put my hand on his chest. As the limo pulled out Jake put his arm around me and used his other to lift my face up and kissed me deeply. We shifted position until he cradled me in his arms and went back to our kiss. As it progressed I felt my nipples get rock hard. Man, I wanted Jake. I wanted him next to me, skin to skin. I wanted him inside me. If only I was a woman.

Jake cupped my right breast with his left hand and began to stroke it. I let out a sigh and felt my mind losing control of my body. My hands roamed over Jake's face and the back of his neck. I couldn't get enough of him and he seemed more than willing to give me all that I wanted. My body moved fluidly as my back arched and my breathing quickened.

I reached up, pulled his face to mine and kissed him thankfully.

"Erin, can you help me out?"

"How?" I sat up.

"I need some ah – help, Erin."

"Oh." I gave a quick look up towards the driver and wondered how much he could see, but then figured Jake was far more important than what the driver thought. Besides he had probably seen more bizarre things in these very seats.

I got his zipper down and found his manhood fully engorged and ready for me. I looked up at him nervously because I had never done this before. "Oh my. Did I do this to you, Jake?" I asked impishly.

"Yup. So it is up to you to make it right." Jake looked into my eyes and added, "Don't worry Erin. I trust you." He put his hand on my cheek and added, "Just give it your best shot."

"Okay, but at the first sign of pain you will tell me?"

"You'll be the first to know." Jake smiled.

Gently I pulled it out and gave it a gentle kiss right on the tip. Jake gasped and his hands gripped into the leather seat. I let my lips remain where they were then let my tongue caress him. I pulled my hair back behind my ears and continued to focus on what I was doing.

I opened my mouth and took him. Having his penis in my mouth definitely was strange, but I found myself actually enjoying the sensation. Jake's member was warm and soft. Not at all like I thought it would be. I couldn't think of anything else quite like it, but it was all mine.

My head started to move up and down his shaft. It was like sucking on a lollipop that throbbed with life. It was truly an incredible experience. As I continued to work on helping Jake I found that it wasn't so bad after all. I didn't even hear Jake anymore, but felt his manhood respond to me as it throbbed. After several minutes of work he was stiff and throbbing madly. Jake's moans became almost guttural as he neared orgasm. He put his hands on me to encourage my efforts. I was just thankful that I wasn't hurting him.

"Almost there, Erin."

He finally exploded into my mouth. I just about gagged, but managed to control my reflex.

When I was done I looked up into Jake's face and found him smiling. I felt like I had gone through some rite of passage into womanhood at that very moment. From the look on his face, I had passed.

I took out some tissues and wiped up any mess left on his manhood and stuffed it safely into my purse. Jake looked down at me, wiggled his pants back up, and zipped up.

"Better?" I asked.

"Much," he replied.

"I didn't hurt you did I. I mean I've never done that before."

"You did great Erin."

"I imagine that with practice I will get better."

"I know, but don't worry about that now. There will be other times."

We kissed and I found myself wondering what it would be like to sleep with him. My face burned at the thought as I turned my focus back to the kiss.

"Erin?"

"Yes, Jake?"

"Can I tell you something?"

"Sure."

"Do you remember when I first proposed pretending to be your boyfriend a few months ago?"

"Yes."

"Well, at first I wasn't sure how it would all turn out. I mean I wasn't sure if it would work out."

"How come?"

"Because, in my head, I knew you were both Shawn and Erin. To make it all work I figured I had to keep your two identities separate. After all it wouldn't be good for me to see you as Erin and call you Shawn, or vice versa for that matter."

"Good point."

"Anyway, as it has turned out I think you are the best thing to happen to me in my entire life. It's like having the best of both worlds in one person. First, you are my best friend. A person I can tell anything to and know that you will keep my trust. A person who knows and accepts me for just who I am."

"Secondly, you are one of the most beautiful women I have ever known, even with that 'something extra' between your legs. I have to admit that you are an incredible turn on for me. I love being with you and you make me better than I would be without you. In short, I love being your boyfriend more than I can ever tell you." He ran his fingers through my hair before adding, "I don't know what I did to deserve you Erin, but I am glad I did it. Whatever it was."

I watched and listened to him tell me his thoughts and found myself vibrating with emotions that made me wish I were a woman at that very moment. If I had been I would have ripped his clothes off and made love to him right then and there. If only . . . Instead, once he was done, I leaned over and kissed him like never before. "I love you Jake. I can never tell you how much you mean to me. There are simply no words." I nuzzled my lips up into the crook of his neck and whispered, "but I want you to know that I will do whatever I can to make you happy."

"You make me happy just by letting me be a part of your life."

We rested in each other's arms as the limo traveled around the city. I closed my eyes and listened to the rhythm of Jake's heart beating. An image flashed into my mind and I saw the woman I had seen several months ago. She smiled at me as she walked toward me. Her arms enveloped me as we embraced. We merged and became one.

 

Chapter 19

It was Senior Weekend and all of us were going to head out for one last fling before graduation. We had organized a trip to one of the nearby lakes where we would have a chance to let off some steam by doing anything from water skiing to barbecuing outdoors where the food tastes so much better whether it was hotdogs, hamburgers, or steaks.

Each person was assigned to bring something to eat and some of the other accessories like plates, cups, etc. I got assigned to bring a bunch of hot dogs, mustard, and napkins. Jake got potato salad, jalapenos, and cups. In preparation for the trip, mom and dad let me borrow one of the coolers to store the stuff in.

Jake and I were really excited about getting away for the weekend and while I did not know what would happen during the outing, I did have my hopes for a close encounter with Jake.

Friday afternoon all the seniors got out early and hopped into their vehicles. The roar of so many engines sounded like thunder in the school parking lot with several of the guys gunning their engines in celebration. Others just started up and moved on out.

The day was beautiful and Jake and I were together in his Chevy truck, which made the day perfect in my book. I even rolled down the window and let my hair blow in the wind. As we drove, I reached over and took Jake's free hand and held it. I just couldn't stop smiling when I was with him.

The trip out to the lake took a little over an hour. Once we arrived we found the biggest campsite where we could settle in and get things ready for the day of activities. There were trees all around the area so we had lots of shade to get out of the heat, if needed. There were also several picnic tables and even two barbecue grills for the cooking. The lake was not even 50 feet away from us.

Before getting into the cooking and other celebrations of the weekend we decided to cool off in the lake after the drive up from school.

The gals, including me, all stripped down to our bikinis and the guys to their swimming trunks. The lake water wasn't quite up to swimming temps yet, but it was close and felt good on this hot Texas day. There was even a rope swing that several people used to get their first dip and it was great fun to watch the flips and twists some did off of it.

As the sun began to set we got to work getting things ready for the cooking. The guys got the barbecues ready while we gals got the food prepped. Onions and tomatoes were chopped and sliced. Jalapenos were put out along with plates, cups, and napkins. We did have slight breeze so we had to weigh down some of the lighter items so they didn't blow away. Jake and a couple of the other guys acted as cooks while everyone else sat around talking and waiting for the food to be ready. I hung around Jake, for obvious reasons, and acted as his go-fer. Most of the time we just talked though there was the occasional water run for him. We also managed to sneak in a kiss or two during his time at the grill.

"Mmm. You taste sweet, gorgeous."

"So do you handsome."

Jake flipped a few of the burgers to make sure they didn't burn and checked on a few others to see how done they were. "A couple of minutes more and we should be ready to start serving these babies. Do you want to get the others rounded up?"

"Sure," I replied. I walked around and let everyone know the food was about ready.

The queue for the burgers and dogs built rapidly and everyone got their choice dressed up with their favorite toppings. Jake and I got ours last and built our burgers with the remaining bits. I added some jalapenos and ketchup on mine while Jake went with just a splash of ketchup and some mustard on his. He liked things simple when it came to his burgers. Me I liked some zing, hence the jalapenos.

We walked over to a nearby log to join Mike and Amber who were munching on theirs and sat down next to them.

"Great burgers, Jake," Amber said before she took another bite.

"Thanks," Jake replied.

"Yeah these are awesome," Mike added. "Food always tastes better cooked on a grill for some reason. Why is that?"

"Don't know, but you're right," I replied. "Maybe it's the dirt on the grill."

After that, we were too busy eating to say anything. It was a true testament to the cooks.

When everyone had finished, we cleaned up and put whatever food was left back into the coolers. Then we moved our logs, chairs, or whatever else we were using to sit on into a circle so we could enjoy the evening. We talked about what we hoped for our future, where we were going to school, and other stuff like that.

After a while though, I noticed that the couples started disappearing. I knew what they were up to, as did everyone else. Following their lead, Jake took my hand and we walked off towards his truck. However, instead of just staying in his truck for some hot lovin', Jake drove us to a nearby motel where he had booked a room.

Once inside the room Jake said, "Now this is more like it."

"Yeah, it's more comfortable than the cold hard ground."

"You bet."

"So what do we do now, good-looking?"

Jake pulled me into his arms and looked deep into my eyes. I felt myself melting. I wanted Jake so bad I could taste it. My breasts tightened up as he leaned in to kiss me.

"I just thought this would be better and more private."

"And just what do you have in mind, Jake?"

"Oh I don't know," he said as he put his left hand so that it gently cupped my right breast.

My eyes closed involuntarily with the sensations I felt. I moaned softly. "Well if you don't, I have a few ideas." I moved my hand down to his groin and caressed him slowly, purposefully, in the hopes of something more.

It did not take long for him to respond. "Dang, Erin, that feels great."

"Good. That means I'm doing it right."

Jake made the next move by lifting my t-shirt up over my head revealing my bounty. The cool evening air within the room made them tingle with excitement. Once the shirt was on the floor Jake moved his hands to them and began to rub.

My head tilted back as the sensations welled up within me. I put my hands on Jake's shoulders and pushed back slightly so he could have more room to work. My mouth opened as my breathing quickened. I ground my hips into Jake, which intensified my own response.

Then he stopped.

I felt my body shiver and let it continue for as long as possible, hoping it wouldn't end, but it did.

I lifted my head and looked into Jake's eyes, "Why did you stop?"

Jake didn't say a word, but quickly shucked his shirt and pants. I took the hint and did the same. Within seconds we were in our birthday suits standing inches apart.

Jake put his hands on my butt and let them rest there for a moment. Then he led me to the bathroom where we took a hot steamy shower to get the smoky smell off of us.

After we dried off we walked over to the bed.

I put my arms around his neck and said, "Jake, are you sure you want to do this?"

"Absolutely."

"Then take me Jake. I am all yours."

In one fluid motion Jake swept me up in his powerful arms and put me down gently onto the bed. My body felt like it was electrified.

"Oh my," was all I could say as I felt our bodies make full contact. I put my arms behind his shoulders and pulled him to me as hard as I could. I locked my legs around his hips and squeezed for all I was worth. My body shivered with joy.

I felt Jake's hardness against my own. I kissed Jake before shifting position so that I faced his rapidly stiffening cock once more. I took him in my mouth and was only vaguely aware of his fingers digging into my shoulders as I worked on him.

Just as I thought he was going to explode he pulled me off, flipped me around, and shoved his rigid manhood deep within me. At first, it hurt like the dickens, but Jake continued to work and gradually the pain receded and a new sensation entered the picture. The only word that I could think of was - ecstasy. In all honesty I wouldn't have cared if I had died right then and there. I was so happy that it would not have mattered anymore.

I was complete. I was a woman, and more importantly, I was Jake's woman.

Jake and I slept together that night and it was so much more than I can begin to describe. Having him inside me like that bonded me to him way beyond friendship. We were truly lovers now.

 

Part 20 – Reflections

As graduation day arrived I found myself sitting in my room thinking back on the past year and all that had happened to me.

First, and most obvious, were my physical changes. While I hadn't taken to them at all well at first, I had come to accept them. They had proven themselves to be both a source of enjoyment and a powerful weapon. They had also been the cause of a great deal of pain, both physical and emotional. However, I believed that the positive outweighed the negative so; on the whole, they were good.

I had also learned who my true friends were. Jake was not only my best friend, but my first love. I would never be able to thank him enough for standing by me over this last year. He helped protect me when I was in danger. He encouraged me when others attacked me with their words. Most of all he loved me unconditionally and accepted me just as I was. Yes, Jake was my best friend and that, I knew, would never change.

There were other friends like Mark, Will, Jack, Terri, Amber, and Heather. They could have 'cut and run' when things got tough, but they didn't. They proved, over and over, that they were loyal through thick and thin. Such friends were more valuable than any amount of gold.

As for those who could not, or would not, accept what had happened to me. There were some of those too. I won't mention names because I am doing my best to put them behind me.

I will say that I learned that the girls were far more vicious than the guys. Yes, the guys were more physical in their attacks, but the gals delivered verbal assaults that struck deeper, and hurt longer, than the worst physical wounds inflicted by the guys. They also held their anger longer and were far more manipulative. In fact, the only guys who kept up any kind of attack against me were the boyfriends of these unforgiving harpies. Whoever said girls were made of 'sugar and spice and everything nice' hadn't met these malicious females.

In thinking about their boyfriends I could only find pity in my heart for them. To be associated with such bitches would only bring them pain in the long run. Then again maybe they deserved each other.

Fortunately, the emotional wounds inflicted by their hateful words were patched by the tender care, and love, of my family and friends. Without them I would not be where I am today.

I had learned a great deal about myself in this last year. For example, I learned that I could adapt to weird situations far better than I would have ever thought. Having adapted to the role of a young woman being the most obvious. Yeah, I know I wasn't a complete woman, but according to Jake, I was pretty darn close in many ways, and that was enough for us. I also learned that my body was full of surprises and was the source of intense pleasure. It was like every nerve in my body had been supercharged in its sensitivity and I liked it.

Yes there was much to be thankful for in my life. However, I was most thankful for my family and Jake.

Terri had come home so she could see me graduate and she told me several times how much I had changed since she'd left. She said she much preferred me as Erin, though I reminded her that Shawn was still alive and well within me.

As we headed off to the ceremony I was filled with the anticipation of moving on with my life. I had no clue what college, and life in general, held for me, but I hoped for the best.

Graduation went off without a hitch and no one gave me any hassles. I wasn't sure why, but was nevertheless grateful for the respite. It was good to be able to enjoy the celebration of graduating and marking the transition from high school to college. When I got my diploma I heard Jake let out a big Texas yeeehaaaa.

I gave him my best smile and turned to mom and dad just as dad took a picture of me flipping my tassel.

It was official. I was a graduate.

When the graduation ceremony was over we, like all other classes before us, threw our caps into the air and let out a big war whoop. It was an awesome feeling to be done with this part of my life.

Now if only college provided some excitement.

Part 21 – Epilogue

Summer was here, Jake and I were together, and school was out. What could be better than to be in love and free to dive in the deep end of life? To know, without doubt, that someone accepts and cares for you so deeply is a wondrous feeling. What an amazing year this has been.

Jake and I had spent countless hours together enjoying everything from movies to long walks in the nearby woods. Simply being with Jake brought joy to my heart, a heart that had seen more than it's share of trials over the past few years. His love was good medicine and had served to heal many of the scars within me.

I hope I don't sound too selfish, because I like to think that I return his love in equal measure. I know I love him with all of my heart and would do anything in my power to make him happy. I'd even become a real woman if he wanted me to, though he told me on many occasions that he loved me just the way I was. Like I said, Jake is the best.

With college just a few weeks away I was becoming sad at the thought of parting from Jake. I mean, I knew we would keep in touch, but being physically separated from him was already beginning to hurt. It was like someone had grabbed my heart on both sides and was literally pulling it apart. The only thing that helped was spending time with Jake. Just having him hold me in his arms or kiss me deeply satisfied my heart's need.

It was on one such occasion when my world took an unexpected turn.

I was on my bed anticipating Jake's arrival when the doorbell rang. I looked at the clock near my bed. Yes Jake could have run over from his house, but that wasn't like him. Maybe it was one of our neighbors or someone making a delivery. Anyway, I rolled off my bed and headed downstairs to see who it was. Terri, who was back from college for the summer, was just opening the door when I hit the bottom step. I looked at the figure that stood in the doorway and my brain went into panic mode. Mark Forester. What on Earth? Why was he here? Oh God, not now. Why now? When things were so good. Why now?

Mark looked up at me and smiled. My mind couldn't handle the overload and shut down.

Thump. Blackness filled my mind as I fainted.

The kiss I felt on my shoulder brought a smile to my face as I opened my eyes. I rolled over to find myself face to face with Kevin. My arms wrapped around him and pulled him into a warm, wet, kiss that lasted for several minutes.

"Good morning, gorgeous."

"Good morning, handsome." I replied. I rolled over on top of him, looked down at his hard shaft and whispered, "Now, how about you put that where the sun don't shine and make me scream."

"With pleasure," he said smiling.

He did, I did, and it was wonderful.

  

  

  

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