Rebirth

by J.L. Williams

 

PART THREE

 

CHAPTER TEN: BACK HOME

The sun was streaming into her bedroom when Jamie was awakened by the sounds made by Eve as she busily moved about Jamie’s room. Eve was putting away clothes from the gathering. Jamie lay between the satin sheets and took stock of herself. She ached all over. The night before had been a nightmare. As she opened her eyes she could see Eve in the far corner of her bedroom gently caressing the soft satin bikini briefs that would soon adorn Jamie’s slim girlish body. Jamie empathized with Eve. She knew exactly what Eve felt. That desire to have that soft feminine attire transforming you into a beautiful woman, yet sadly it can only be in your mind. You are burdened with the knowledge that you have the wrong body. Not wanting to be one hundred percent a woman, but enough to be able to look into the mirror and not look like a guy trying to wear women’s clothes.

Eve must have felt Jamie’s stare. She turned and said, "Good afternoon Jamie. Are you all right? You gave us a terrible scare last night. The doctors were worried to death. Janet is not one of their favorite people. When we couldn’t find you, they were sure that she was going to harm you. Please come into the bathroom, I need to bathe you, and then Dr. Leslie wants to examine you. We need to be sure that you’re fine."

Jamie sat up in the bed. She wasn’t sure that she could walk. She had bad bruises on her ankles, and on her wrists. Her nipples were so tender she was afraid to touch them. There was a mark around her waist from the chain placed there by Janet’s pets. Her legs ached, and she could barely lift her arms. Eve, sensing Jamie was hurting, helped her to the bathroom, and into the tub. The bath was just what Jamie needed. The hot water, the mysterious oils that Eve was telling Jamie about as she poured some into the water, and some she rubbed into Jamie’s grateful skin. But Jamie was not listening. She was trying to sort out the night before. Finally, she let it go. She was safe; she was back "home". It was funny, she couldn’t remember saying that word about the mansion until last night, and again now. But she felt comfortable saying it. She was indeed, "home".

Jamie was still sore, but felt much better as Eve dried her off with her usual gentle strength. Eve had returned to the Eve Jamie loved. Not the one she saw up in the mountains. She wanted to tell that to her, but Eve hushed her, and said Jamie should listen to Dr. Leslie before making any judgments about the last few days.

Eve had Jamie put on just the pale green satin panties and bra. She then complimented them with a long satin robe that was the same color. She didn’t even bother having Jamie don slippers. Eve and Jamie went downstairs, and met Dr. Leslie in the bright sunlit kitchen. Leslie jumped up and hugged Jamie. "We were so worried about you. We never should have let you go to Janet’s cabin! We searched Janet’s cabin and everyone was gone! Oh Jamie I am so glad you are here and you are safe! How did you get away?"

Jamie sat next to Dr. Leslie at the kitchen table. The words had tumbled out of Leslie. She was truly emotional, and Jamie was too as Leslie took her hands into hers. Jamie could feel the concern in her touch. They both started to cry. Finally, they let go of each other, only to find Eve standing beside them with Kleenex for both of them. Leslie led Jamie to the den and started to ask her questions again. This time more like the doctor she was. She probed slowly and surely. Jamie told her the story in detail until she got to her ride home. She said that the people who gave her the ride back to the mansion were part of the gathering, but she had vowed to keep their identity secret. Leslie didn’t press her for those details. She simply sat quietly while they finished their coffee.

Once they were done eating Leslie said that she needed to examine Jamie. So they made their way to the medical office that was set up in a separate wing in the mansion. Aside from the bruises, and a couple of scrapes Jamie was physically fine. Leslie appeared to be greatly relieved. Leslie said, "Lets go celebrate your safe return to us. Dr. John is at the clinic, but he wants to see you. He can meet us for lunch in town. Why don’t I call him while you go upstairs and get dressed."

As Jamie started out of the examination room, Leslie added, "Plus I’m sure that there is a waiter at the restaurant that is going to be very excited that you are back home so early!"

Jamie blushed, she hadn’t thought about him, but she did now, and school, the picnic, and too many things that were soon to come!

Thank goodness the weather was cool. Eve needed to dress Jamie in a way to cover her bruises. Soon Jamie was heading out the door looking much too cute. Her hair was in a ponytail, it was the first time ever--and she loved it! A long sleeve white silk blouse with a high collar, to cover the neck and arm marks. A navy blue cardigan sweater, plaid Bermuda shorts, navy blue knee sock, and penny loafers finished her ensemble.

"Well, if it isn’t Suzy co-ed," laughed Leslie as Jamie slowly lowered herself into the front seat of the car. "You look great. Too bad you hurt so much; I’d love to hold you in my arms right now, but I’m afraid I’ll have to let your bruises heal just a little before that happens."

The ride into town was uneventful. Dr. Leslie told Jamie that as far as she knew everyone from the gathering had managed to avoid the sheriff. She also surprised Jamie when she told her that school started in less than a month. Jamie had really lost track of the time, and while she knew school was looming in front of her it was now right around the corner.

Dr. Leslie pulled the car into the spot directly in front of the restaurant, and right next to Dr. John’s Mercedes. As the two girls exited the car they could see the good doctor at a table right against the window. He waved, and stood to meet them as they entered the restaurant. Dr. John kissed his beautiful wife, and then turned to Jamie. "Jamie, you must forgive us, and me especially. I should never have left you with Janet. I should have taken you with me when I first went to Janet’s cabin. I am truly sorry." Dr. John’s eyes were locked on to Jamie’s and he seemed to look right into her heart as he said this to Jamie.

Jamie felt tears welling up in her eyes. She fought back the tears, and said, "Forgive You? I owe both of you for being the people who have brought my dreams to reality. How could you have known that Janet would lie to you? Actually, this has turned out to be a wonderful thing. I now know the depth of your feelings for me. I know that this is my home. I love both of you, and from the concern that both of you have shown me today, I am sure that I am loved by both of you."

Dr. John hugged Jamie, and he held her tight. Dr. Leslie suggested that they sit down, before they started to draw a crowd from this display of emotion. As they sat down, the bus boy appeared to pour water for them. Before they could resume their conversation their waiter, Dick Brodnowski, stood before them asking if they would like to order something to drink. He didn’t notice Jamie until after he took Leslie’s iced tea order. When he saw her on the inside of the booth, he blushed noticeably. Jamie, trying her best to stay composed, ordered a diet coke, and Dr. John asked for coffee. Dick beat a hasty retreat to the kitchen. "Well, it looks like young Miss Jamie has made a conquest," said Dr. John to his wife. He had a broad smile on his face, and winked at both of them.

Before Jamie or Leslie could respond, Dick was back with the drink orders. Dick efficiently took their lunch orders. Lunch went without anything-special happening or being said. The doctors were happy to have Jamie back safely, and Jamie was glad to be with them. Dick was attentive, but silent. The three of them assumed that he was intimidated by the presence of Dr. John. The usually outgoing young man yielded to the older man. When lunch was over, and Dick presented the check, Leslie said, "Dick, when is the senior beach party? Jamie, whom I believe you have met, is our niece. She is new to town, and she is going to be a senior this year. I’m sure that the beach party would be an excellent opportunity for her to meet the rest of your classmates."

Now it was Jamie’s turn to blush. Dick looked over at Jamie and said, "It’s three weeks from this Saturday. It’s down at Miller’s Point. It would be great for Jamie...er...your niece, to come."

Jamie’s mind was racing. She was afraid the next words out of his mouth would be that he would pick her up--a date! She wasn’t ready for high school dating, not yet anyway. But Jamie was saved. Terri Montini walked into the restaurant, and when she saw Jamie, a big smile appeared on her face. She came over to the table and without introducing herself just blurted out, "Jamie, thank goodness you’re back from vacation! The beach party is in three weeks at Miller’s Point! Oh, hi Dick. Good afternoon Dr. John and Dr. Leslie. Oh, Jamie it’s great to see you. A bunch of us girls are going out there in my aunt’s car. Can you come with us?"

The doctors, Jamie, and even Dick were smiling by the time Terri stopped to take a breath. Dr. Leslie answered for Jamie, "of course she can. We were just asking Dick when the beach party was coming up when you walked in to the restaurant. I hope the weather stays warm. I don’t like the idea of young studs like Mr. Brodnowski here suggesting my niece huddle under a blanket with him to keep warm."

All three teenagers blushed. Dick quickly took the money for lunch from Dr. John and went to get the doctor his change. Terri dropped into the empty space in the booth across from Dr. Leslie, and started to tell Jamie who would be coming with them. Leslie suggested that Jamie stay here with Terri, and she would go with Dr. John to the clinic, and get a ride home with him later that day. Jamie could then take Dr. Leslie’s car home. She said she was sure that this conversation was destined to take a while, and she was just as sure neither she nor Dr. John would be missed.

On their way to the door Dr. John gave Dick an extra twenty dollars for Terri’s lunch, and an unlimited supply of diet coke for Jamie. The balance was the biggest percentage tip Dick had received all summer.

Terri was genuinely glad to see Jamie. Jamie was glad to see Terri as well. Jamie enjoyed listening to this tall teenaged beauty. Jamie found herself listening not quite as another teenager, and not quite as a former middle-aged man, but as someone else. While she couldn’t figure it out she enjoyed looking into Terri’s big green eyes. Jamie had to remember three things from this conversation: three weeks from Saturday at 11:00 am; she needed to bring two cases of soft drinks, no food; and that no matter how warm it was when they left in the morning, she needed to bring sweats. They would be out at the lake, and it always got cool at Miller’s Point after dark.

Poor Dick, he was trying to be cool and get into the conversation, but the busy lunchtime crowd, and the nonstop talking by Terri kept him from saying anything else to Jamie. Finally, Terri finished her lunch and the two girls got ready to leave. Dick hurriedly told them that he would be looking forward to seeing them at the beach party, if not before. Jamie said she would be looking forward to seeing him as well, and Terri just grunted and smiled.

As they exited the restaurant, Terri said, "Jamie, why don’t you come over to the shop. It’s totally dead over there, and I haven’t had anyone to talk to all day. Please, please!"

Jamie couldn’t refuse. It was the combination of the enthusiasm of this girl, her beauty, and tucked back in Jamie’s mind--being with all that lingerie! Off they went. Terri taking nonstop about who would be at the beach party, who wouldn’t, who was cool and who wasn’t. Jamie just nodded. She was sure that in time she would learn the names, but right now Terri was moving too fast for her.

They got to the shop, and the two girls entered laughing. Terri’s Aunt Betty was in the back working on the books. She called out to Terri letting her know where she was, and asked if Terri could come back to help her for a moment. Terri left, and Jamie was free to roam among the sweet smelling lingerie. Her fingers lingered along the satin borders of the teddies. She was especially taken with a stunning black ensemble that included hose, bikini panties, a great bustier, and a sheer silk robe. Jamie was so taken with the softness and the sensual ness of the outfit that she never even heard Terri reenter the showroom.

"Pretty sexy, huh?" was all Terri said.

Jamie jumped. Her new friend had startled her. "I’ll say. It’s beautiful. How much does this whole thing cost?"

Jamie was trying to figure out how she could buy it, and have Terri think that it was for Dr. Leslie. But at this moment she was too turned on by the prospect of wearing the outfit herself to think clearly. In fact she never heard Terri tell her the price. What she picked up on was only the second part of Terri’s response that Jamie should try the outfit on right now.

Jamie said that she’d love to, but right now she didn’t have the time. She really should be heading home. Terri said that it would only take a minute, and asked what there was to hurry home to anyway. Jamie was at a loss. She had no reason to go home, and she wanted to try the outfit on very badly. "Oh, I suppose I can be a little late. So you have this in my size?"

Terri smiled broadly, "of course! Why don’t you go into the changing room in the back and I’ll bring everything into you."

Jamie was now caught. How would she ever get undressed in front of Terri? She needed to keep her out of the dressing room while she undressed and dressed. Jamie walked to the dressing room and began to think of some kind of plan.

Jamie slowly began to undress. She had her sweater, blouse, shoes, knee socks, and shorts off when Terri entered the dressing room area, "here this should fit you." Terri said. She handed the soft sensual black outfit to Jamie. Jamie thanked her, and before she could ask Terri to leave, Terri said, "You need shoes, or at least some slippers. If you are going to try this on--you need the whole look."

With that Terri disappeared. Jamie sprang into action. She had her panties off, and the bikini panties on, in the blink of an eye. She carefully tucked her manhood up and under so that she continued to look like a she. By the time Terri had returned with a pair of four inch black paten leather pumps, Jamie had completely dressed herself.

"Where did you get these?" Asked Jamie. She was fairly certain that there were no shoes on display in the store.

"Aunt Betty keeps some stuff downstairs for some of her clients. What she has down there runs a little more exotic than most of our customers normally buy. I hope that these fit."

Jamie slipped into the shoes. They fit remarkably well. The height of the heels, and the excitement of wearing this gloriously sensual outfit in front of Terri, caused Jamie to wobble as she tried to walk. Terri reached out and grabbed Jamie around the waist. She steadied her, but continued to hold on for just a second too long. Both girls sensed it, and they both seemed embarrassed for a moment.

Then Terri asked, "Do you like the outfit? I hope you do, you look great in it. Do you like lingerie? I have never gotten into it myself. Most of the time when I’m not working, or when I don’t have to be dressed up, I’m in sweat clothes. In fact I’m not looking forward to the party at the beach. I hate my bathing suit, and all the boys staring at our bodies. I hope that it’s cold. That way I can wear sweats. What about you?"

Jamie smiled broadly, "Terri, that was three questions. First, yes I love this outfit, but this is for a woman. I am eighteen years old, and have no reason to wear this, and no one to wear it for----yet. Second, yes I like lingerie. I love dresses, and soft feminine clothing. Before coming to live with Dr. John and Dr. Leslie, I never had the chance to wear frilly things. It is such a nice change for me to wear them. Third, I too would prefer it to be cold at the beach party. That would be one time when wearing sweats would be a good idea. I want to meet the rest of the senior class, but like you I’m not crazy about the idea of a bunch of eighteen boys staring at my body either."

When Jamie finished her answer both girls laughed. "Well," Terri said, "I certainly know more about you, and you know that I’m a slob. But we both agree that we’re not looking forward to sunbathing at the beach party."

"You are certainly not a slob Terri. I just hope that the rest of the girls in the class are half as nice as you. If they are, coming here and going to school here will be terrific." Said Jamie.

For some reason Jamie was overcome with a desire to hug Terri. She did. Terri returned the hug. Jamie found herself snuggling into the tall brunette’s shoulder. Suddenly the bell on the shop door rang. Both girls jumped back. As their eyes met the each started to blush.

"I better get out of this, and get dressed," said Jamie.

"I better see who that is," answered Terri.

Jamie hurriedly changed back into her shorts, knee socks, blouse, and sweater. She exited the changing room to see Terri helping a middle aged woman selecting some basic white foundation garments. Jamie waited a few minutes; she could see that this was going to take a while. She placed the beautiful black ensemble on the counter. She said to Terri, "I’ll be back in town tomorrow. Can we go to lunch?"

Terri looked towards Jamie with a touch of embarrassment mixed with eagerness as she nodded yes.

 

CHAPTER ELEVEN--A GREAT NIGHT

Jamie really never remembered the drive home. She was convinced that Terri’s hug was more than girlish friendship. She wasn’t sure if hers was more than that. What she was sure of was that she was very attracted to Terri, and she had better be careful around her. Too much time alone with Terri, especially dressed in lingerie, could lead to having the ‘Secret of Jamie’ exposed.

It was four o’clock by the time Jamie wheeled the car into the driveway. She walked in the front door and called for Eve. She really didn’t need to; Eve was already on her way into the foyer to meet Jamie. Eve informed Jamie that they were the only two home at the moment, but that the doctors had requested that Jamie get dressed for dinner. There was a fancy dinner at the local country club, and Doctor John was going to be honored. Jamie would need to be there as the niece of the eminent physician. It was also a chance for Jamie to be formally introduced to what passed for the upper class in the community. Jamie was t be ready by seven o’clock. Dr. Leslie had come by earlier and picked up her dress, and would be only stopping long enough to get Jamie. The doctors apologized for not telling Jamie sooner, but they had originally planned on having someone accept for Dr. John. Plus all of the excitement with Jamie and Janet, the entire dinner had slipped their minds until after lunch when they returned to the clinic to discover the dinner on Dr. John’s schedule, and had no way of not attending.

That was about a long winded as Eve had ever been with Jamie. When she finished her speech, she silently motioned for Jamie to head upstairs to begin her transformation from Suzy Coed to eighteen-year-old beauty queen.

Once upstairs and in her room, Jamie stripped naked, and went into the bathroom. Eve had already drawn a bath, and began to carefully wash Jamie. The manner and formality of the procedure reminded Jamie of the procedure that lead to her first night with Dr. John.

"Eve, is there something else I should know about tonight?" Asked Jamie.

"No, why?" responded Eve.

"Well, the way you’re washing me. It reminds me of the way you washed me the first time I was with Dr. John."

Jamie, the doctors told me not to say anything to you, but they both want to be with you tonight. It is a special night. It is a very special anniversary. They want to celebrate it with you, and they are going to the country club, but not for an awards dinner, just for dinner, and they want to come back here for dessert--a dessert of Jamie."

Jamie was totally turned on. She had been to bed with both of the doctors, but normally just one at a time. The rare occasion of a threesome had led to the greatest times in either of Jamie’s two lives. Jamie then told Eve she wanted to look her all time best for the doctors. She wanted them to have the best time of their lives that night. Jamie also needed a release. She reached over to touch Eve, but Eve said no. There was no time for that now. She would see to it that Jamie would be able to wear a dress and not have an unsightly bulge, but there was only time for something quick.

Eve helped Jamie out of the bathtub and gently dried her off. She then knelt down in front of Jamie and took Jamie’s rigid penis into her mouth and began to expertly suck on Jamie’s dick. Jamie’s mind wandered. She began to think of the pleasures to come in the next few hours. These thoughts coupled with the soft pressure of Eve’s lips and tongue, caused Jamie to come in only a few minutes. Jamie’s cum shot into Eve’s mouth. Eve sucked and swallowed every drop. Eve continued to suck Jamie’s now flaccid penis until Jamie asked her to stop. Jamie reached down to help pick Eve up. As she rose, Jamie kissed Eve on the lips, and forced her lips apart with her tongue. Jamie could taste herself on Eve’s lips. The kiss lasted a few seconds until Eve broke it off.

Jamie then said, "Eve thank you. That was wonderful, and so are you. You have been wonderful to me and I feel as though I never take the time to properly thank you."

"Mistress, you thank me enough by letting me serve you. I, like you, have been freed from the constraints on the normal world by the doctors. I have been blessed by them, and you have been more than blessed, you have received a miracle. I have now been further blessed by being able to serve you. There is no need for you to do more than to let me be of service to you. Now enough of this. You want to look your best, I insist that you do. Let’s get busy."

Eve took Jamie by the hand and led her back into the bedroom. Eve began the procedure by selecting a beautiful pale green strapless cocktail dress. It was complimented by matching bustier, garter belt, and the wispiest bikini briefs Jamie had ever seen. Eve showed all the items to Jamie, and knew by Jamie’s huge smile, that she approved of the selection.

Eve then knelt in front of Jamie and rolled the sheer hose up Jamie’s slim shapely smooth legs. Next came the garter belt. Eve expertly hooked the sheer hose, noticing that Jamie was already getting excited again. Eve looked up at Jamie, and laughingly said that she would have to try and learn some self-control. She patted Jamie on the thigh, and then stood to help Jamie slip into the strapless bushier. The green lingerie looked lovely on Jamie’s tan body.

Eve hated to cover this lovely body with the white satin robe, but she knew she must if she was going to apply Jamie’s make up and fix her hair and not have to worry about possibly ruining the lovely undergarments. Jamie didn’t mind. The robe felt wonderful. However, it did increase Jamie’s growing discomfort as she had already tucked her manhood ‘up and under’, as she was now saying each time she got dressed.

Eve set t work on Jamie’s hair. The young girl’s blonde hair was fashioned into a stylish flip that came just to her shoulders. Eve then put green jade earrings on Jamie. They were long and nearly touched her shoulders as well. Eve then applied some make up. Pink lipstick, some green eye shadow, and just a touch of blush finished that stage of the process. New nail polish came next. It exactly matched the lipstick. Eve was her meticulous self, taking her time and doing a perfect job.

As usual, the entire time that Eve was working Jamie sat with her back to the dressing table mirror. Eve always enjoyed making Jamie wait before she could have a look at the ‘finished product’ as Eve liked to call it. Eve walked back to the closet and found the shoes that matched the dress. They matched the dress with the same green shade and finish. They also came with the now customary four-inch heels. She gently placed them on Jamie’s feet. Eve then went to the bed and got the dress. Jamie removed the robe, and Eve helped Jamie step into the green satin dress. It felt wonderful as it slid up Jamie’s silk encased legs.

Eve then zipped up the back of the dress. She came around to the front and helped Jamie position the dress correctly over her pert breasts. She smoothed the dress, and fussed with the hem, and the bow on the back of what seemed like an eternity to the anxious young girl. Finally, Eve said all you need now is the jewelry, and you can turn around. Jamie wanted to turn around right then and there, but she was willing to wait for Eve to complete this last step.

Eve went back to the dresser and returned with an assortment of rings bracelets, and a beautiful green necklace. She placed the rings and the bracelets on quickly, then carefully placed and centered the necklace around Jamie’s bare neck. Jamie sensed that there was something special about the necklace even before she saw it. She asked Eve about it, but was told to wait until she saw it.

Finally, Eve turned Jamie around to fact the full-length mirror. Jamie had gotten rather comfortable about how she looked, but she wasn’t expecting this. She looked absolutely radiant. The blonde hair, blues eyes, the beautiful dress, and the magnificent emerald necklace accenting her bare shoulders and daring cleavage, caused tears of joy to well up in Jamie’s eyes. Eve had been true to her word. Jamie looked her best. Jamie turned to Eve to try and thank her, but Eve would have none of it. She merely said, "don’t you start crying now miss. You’ll ruin your make up. Let’s go down stairs, and wait for you dates."

Jamie carefully made her way down the winding staircase, and went into the study to wait for the doctors. Eve motioned for her to sit down, but Jamie said she didn’t want to wrinkle the dress. Actually, she was too excited to sit. Plus, there was a full-length mirror across the hall that Jamie could see herself in from the study. She spent the entire fifteen minutes that she waited for the doctors secretly staring at herself. Once again she fell in love with this young supple body.

She admired the long slender legs, perfectly accentuated by the four-inch heels. She marveled at the curves she had acquired. She was so very proud of the body that could wear this beautiful dress, a dress that showed off her shoulders, her cleavage, her curves, almost all of her legs. That was when she notices that the dress stopped about six inches above her knees. Jamie was so overcome with joy, the joy of having her wildest dreams answered; she was once again one step short of crying. She once more mentally thanked the doctors who had performed this miracle. She stared at herself once more, all the while getting more and more turned on. Eve pretended not to notice.

Dr. John’s Mercedes pulled into the driveway, and Jamie was waiting there waiting for it to stop. She poured herself into the back seat as best she could, and sat as ladylike as possible considering how high up on her thighs her dress rode as she settled into the soft leather of the Mercedes. Dr. John wasted no time in the driveway. The happy trio were on their way to the club as soon as Jamie closed the door.

Dr. Leslie asked Jamie how the rest of her day went. She asked about Dick Brodnowski, and pretended to forget his name. Jamie truthfully answered that she and Terri didn’t talk to him much; he was too busy with the rest of his tables at the restaurant. Dr. Leslie then asked about Terri. Jamie said that they had a great time, and that she went back to the store with Terri. She told Dr. Leslie abut what she needed to bring to the beach party, and that she and Terri were both hoping for cold weather.

Dr. John joined in, and said that neither she nor Terri had to worry; the long-range forecast was for well below normal temperatures, highs would barely make seventy degrees, if that. Doctor Leslie said that was too bad, because she wanted to see Jamie in the beautiful two-piece bathing suit she had just bought for her. Jamie laughed and decided it was time to change the subject. She wasn’t sure about bringing up the rest of the trip to the lingerie store with Terri. She didn’t want to talk about trying on things in front of Terri, or the fact that Jamie felt herself attracted to Terri. Instead, she asked about the ‘dinner’.

"What’s the occasion?" chirped Jamie sounding every inch the inquisitive teenager.

"It’s an anniversary of sorts," said Dr. Leslie. "It is the eighth anniversary of Dr. John and I discovering that we enjoy the same sexual idiosyncrasies."

"Congratulations! I know am thrilled that the two of you got together, and that you found that you were so ‘compatible’ sexually," said Jamie.

"Thank you, Jamie, you are the living highlight of our lives---so far." Replied Dr. John.

"So far? Does this mean I’m going to have a brother or a sister?" Laughed Jamie.

"One never knows," said Dr. Leslie, "we never thought we would have such a lovely niece, and one who adapted so quickly and completely. In fact, one who probably would have volunteered!"

The Mercedes rolled into the circular driveway in front of the club. The young parking attendant was less than subtle as he eyed Jamie exiting the rear of the car. He dropped the keys that Dr. John tried to hand him. As he bent down to get them he hit his head on the door, and as he stood up he blushed furiously. Jamie smiled. This was wonderful she thought, this poor boy was totally overcome with her beauty! The three of them entered the club and walked up the few stairs to the entrance to the formal dining room. Jamie again was pleased by the ease with which she ascended the stairs in the short dress and the four-inch high heels. She was becoming very proficient in walking like a lady.

"Good evening, doctors" effused the Maitre ‘d, "your table is waiting. If you will please follow me." He then turned and the three of them followed him to a secluded table in the back of the room. As they took their seats Dr. Leslie teased Jamie to try and not show quite so much thigh. She also told Jamie that the parking lot attendant, who tried to kill himself looking at her, was another senior at her new high school. Dr. Leslie added that from what she had heard around the club, he is quite a ladies man. In fact, he has had several conquests with some of the ladies of the club. Jamie seemed to have made quite an impression on this young man. He usually was very suave, but tonight was apparently a different story.

Jamie blushed, and said that she wasn’t trying to do anything but get out of the car as ladylike as possible.

As she finished talking and blushing, the waiter approached and asked for drink orders. Dr. John ordered a bottle of white wine, and Jamie said that water would be fine. The three of them chatted about nothing in particular until the waiter arrived with the wine. Dr. John tasted it, and said that it was fine. The waiter filled all three glasses, and asked if they were ready to order dinner. Dr. John said they would like some time to enjoy the wine, and they would order later. The waiter made his retreat, leaving the three of them alone at their corner table. Dr. John then raised his glass and proposed a toast to the ladies seated around him.

"To my wife Leslie, the love of my life. My partner in all things, from the bedroom to the operating room, to the boardroom, you are everything to me--and more. You have made me happier than any man deserves." He then looked to Jamie, and added, "To Jamie, the newest member of our family. How could we have ever guessed that you would be so lovely, so willing, so sweet, and so much a part of our lives in so little time? I love both of you."

Their glasses and their eyes met over the center of the table, the glasses softly clinked, and they each looked to the others with love as drank the wine. Then Leslie said it was her turn.

"To my husband John, a man who has fulfilled my every fantasy with more than I ever imagined, the man for whom I dedicate my life. And to Jamie Lynne, who has brought joy, excitement, and exotica into our lives. May I spend all my life as happy as I am right now." Leslie smiled as she finished her toast, and again their glasses and their eyes met over the center of the table.

"I would hate to be left out of this, said Jamie. She was trying very hard to think of what to say. "To both of you, though I have said it to each of you, thank you. Thank you for saving my life. Thank you for giving me this life. Thank you for letting me be with you tonight, and please let me spend every second of this night with both of you." Again the glasses clinked over the center of the table.

"Oh, Jamie you will," said Dr. John. "Enough of this toasting. Let’s eat and get out of here. We have much to do this evening, and we can’t do any of it here at the club!"

"Well we could, but we would never be allowed back here!" Laughed Dr. Leslie.

The dinner was uneventful. The food was great and the service was impeccable. As they finished dinner with coffee, Dr. Leslie turned to Jamie and said, "tomorrow is registration for school. We will need to go to school in the afternoon and pick out your classes. It should be no problem for you, look at the confidence you have sitting here with us tonight. In fact if you casually look to you left, you will notice that you are causing lust in the hearts of the two men sitting at the table near the door."

Jamie knew that Dr. Leslie was right about the confidence. She felt totally at home in this new body. As long as she was able to keep everyone except the doctors and Eve at arms length. "You are right Leslie. I feel confident that everyone sees an eighteen-year-old girl when they look at me. But what concerns me is the interpersonal relationships that are going to begin with high school. What if a boy asks me out on a date? What abut physical education?"

Dr. Leslie laughed, "Jamie, if you get asked out, and he seems like a nice boy--or girl--go out! You are beautiful. Dick Brodnowski, or that parking lot Lothario here at the club will probably ask you out at the beach party for sure. As for PE, I have taken care of that. Your transcript shows that you have more than fulfilled you PE requirements. Now, if you go out for girls’ sports or cheerleader, that could be a problem."

Jamie assured them that she would stay away from sports, and maybe even Dick Brodnowski.

Dr. John had signed the check, and it was time to leave. Jamie tried to look bored and uninterested at the stares--leers even, from the men in the restaurant. They walked to the exit of the clubhouse, and Dr. John asked for his car. The same young man returned with it. This time he was ready for Jamie. He jumped from the car, ran around to the passenger side, opened the door for Dr. Leslie, and then the rear door for Jamie. As he opened the door he handed Jamie a note, and smiled like this was the greatest day in his life. Jamie took the note, said thanks, and then for some unknown reason, made sure that her dress rode practically to her waist as she sat down in the back seat of the Mercedes. She looked up at the boy, and smiled again. He was caught staring at her legs, and trying desperately to see beyond them. He blushed as he closed the door.

Once he heard the door shut, Dr. John had the car moving. Jamie went straight for the note.

It read: Jamie, yes I found out your name, my name is Jason Bracht. I will be a senior this year as well. I am looking forward to seeing you at the beach party. Jason.

Jamie smiled as she folded up the note and put it in her purse. She wasn’t sure why she was so pleased with herself, but she was certainly happy with the way she handled young Jason. She was brought out of her thought by the turning of the car into the driveway. She was home, and about to celebrate with the doctors. Jamie shifted nervously in the back seat of the car as she felt her excitement grown, or at least try to, since she had the physical proof of her excitement tucked carefully under her, as to not cause an unsightly bulge in public.

Eve met them at the door. She informed the doctors that there were no telephone calls, and that things had been quiet all evening. She finished by saying that if they did not need her she would be retiring for the evening. Dr. John bid her good night, and then complimented Eve on the excellent job she did of helping Jamie get ready for the evening. As Eve left for her quarters Jamie realized she had no idea where Eve went at night. She made a mental note to look for Eve’s room the next morning.

Dr. Leslie said, "let’s go upstairs. I can’t stand being dressed or polite for one more minute. I need both of you, right now!" There was an air of desperation in Leslie’s voice. She was at least as excited as Jamie. Dr. John, as always, looked cool, calm, and collected.

Dr. John led the way upstairs to the doctors’ room. Jamie and Leslie followed, with Leslie taking Jamie’s hand as they climbed the stairs together. The room was lit only by several candles that were strategically placed around the room, and it smelled faintly of roses. Dr. John went to the wine bucket and near the oversized circular bed and removed a bottle of French champagne. He poured three glasses, handed one to Jamie and one to Leslie, and toasted once more, "to the ladies in my life."

They drank the champagne, and with that, John turned and kissed Leslie on the lips...a long wet kiss. Leslie brought her hands down to his waist and began undoing the belt, button and zipper that held up his pants. Jamie stood there enjoying the scene, but wanting to participate. The doctors broke their embrace, turned to Jamie, and John said, "Jamie don’t just stand there, take off that dress!"

Within seconds, they were each at the proper level of disrobing. Dr. John was completely naked, and lying on his back on the bed. Leslie was wearing only nylons and a garter belt. She was lying next to John, also on her back. Each was casually stroking various parts of the others body. Keeping each other in just the right amount of sexual tension. Jamie was wearing her bustier, panties, nylons, garter belt, and still in her shoes. The doctors asked Jamie to parade back and forth in front of them, as if she was a model. Jamie said she felt silly doing it, but did her best. Finally, the doctors asked her to take off her shoes, her bustier, and join them in bed.

Jamie was in bed in an instant. She found herself nestled between the doctors. The doctors immediately turned their attentions to Jamie. They began caressing Jamie’s pert, and now hardening nipples. Jamie had hoped to at least attempt to remain calm for a little while. She couldn’t. She was writhing on the bed within seconds. Her hands went to each side. She groped for John’s manhood, and for the femininity that was Leslie. They each stopped her. They continued to caress Jamie, and added their lips to each of her nipples, they began to kiss her neck, and then her lips to make Jamie even hotter.

Finally, Jamie sat up straight in the bed, "If you don’t slow down I’m going to have an orgasm right now!" She cried.

"Jamie, come to me, I want you to be in me right now," said Leslie. She was breathing almost as hard as Jamie.

Leslie lay back on the bed and spread her legs. She threw her arms up to embrace the beautiful man/girl. Jamie breathlessly climbed between Leslie’s legs. She slowly lowered herself into Leslie. They each gasped audibly. Leslie felt the warmth of Jamie enter her, and Jamie shuddered as she experienced the joy of entering this beautiful woman. Jamie slowly started to move in and out of the female doctor who was moving her pelvis up and down in perfect union with Jamie.

Dr. John wasted little time, as Jamie began her love making to Leslie, John reached over to the night table, and picked up the tube of lubricant. He applied a generous amount to his already totally erect penis. He then turned and positioned himself directly behind Jamie. John soon had his right index finger, the one covered with lubricant, sliding in and out of Jamie. She gasped, with both enjoyment and anticipation. Her mind was racing. This was going to be the greatest night of her young life. Within a minute, Dr. John’s hand left Jamie’s butt, and she felt him repositioning himself. She was having a hard time concentrating on anything. The sensation of being inside Leslie, and the excitement of the expected penetration of Dr. John, was almost too much to stand.

Suddenly he was inside of her. There was virtually no warning. Jamie cried out--in surprise more than pain. She was getting more and more familiar with this, and found it wildly pleasurable, once Dr. John was in her, but still hurt initially. She liked to think it made her more feminine, but knew she should ask Leslie about it. Jamie was desperate to please John, no matter how much it would hurt. She owed him her life, and she would do anything for either of them. Jamie felt John’s hands grasp her butt and start to caress them. He then bent over and started to kiss her. She knew this was heaven. Having Leslie and John both making love to her at the same time. All three of them were in a rhythm, each sliding wonderfully in and out of each other. There was no pain, no time, there was nothing but sheer joy.

Jamie hoped this would last forever. To be totally filled, front and back by people who loved her and people that she loved. Her thoughts of forever were disrupted by the increased speed of Dr. John’s piston like movements behind her. She knew by now that he was going to have his orgasm. The very thought of him shooting his sperm into her made Jamie want to "come" as well. She simultaneously sped up and clenched her butt cheeks. This caused Leslie to begin breathing even faster. Jamie felt Leslie speed up her thrusting, and to feel the increased pressure of the female doctor’s hug around Jamie. Then it happened. All three of them "came" at once.

Dr. John exploded into Jamie, who did the same to Leslie, who received it in total ecstasy. Jamie felt Leslie "come" as well. Leslie gushed onto Jamie’s penis, and Jamie could feel it surround her legs and soak the sheet. Jamie collapsed onto Dr. Leslie. It was one of the most intense orgasms ever. She was so happy she couldn’t control herself. She was crying. They were tears of absolute joy. Both Dr. John and Dr. Leslie continued to kiss and caress Jamie as she fell asleep between them. Later she was certain that she slept with a smile on her face.

 

CHAPTER TWELVE--REGISTRATION

Jamie awoke alone in the doctors’ bed. The doctors had already started their day. Jamie got up and started to go to her room when she was met by Eve. Eve directed Jamie to the bathroom, washed her, and dressed her in an electric blue skintight spandex workout suit. Eve added the cross training shoes, and sent Jamie out to the pool area to meet Dr. Leslie and Riccardo the aerobics instructor. Jamie smiled as she saw Dr. Leslie, nodded politely at Riccardo. They spent an exhausting hour doing nonstop high impact aerobics. Upon completion, Leslie quickly dismissed Riccardo. She informed Jamie they would only have time for a quick breakfast, a shower, and then off to get Jamie registered for school.

Jamie opted to skip breakfast. She hurried back to her room to get ready for school registration. Eve began selecting clothes for her, and for the first time Jamie didn’t notice what Eve was putting on her. She was nervous. She was confident that she could convince the people in the administrative offices that she was an eighteen year old girl in body and mind, but she was getting more and more worried about life as an eighteen year old girl. Jamie was getting very concerned about the interpersonal relationships, the confusion that she was starting to feel with sex. She knew that she loved being loved by both of the doctors. She felt sexual stirrings with Terri. She enjoyed teasing both Dick the waiter and Jason the car parker, but what else would she enjoy with those boys?

Eve brought Jamie back to reality before she could answer her own questions, by asking her, "Do you like this outfit? You seem so distracted. What is it girl?"

Jamie looked into the full-length mirror and almost forgot what she had on her mind. The vision that stared back at her was lovely. Eve had her dressed in a beautiful floral print summer dress. It was all bright splashes of green and blue and yellow and white. It had spaghetti straps, and a scoop front, and it was cut just above Jamie’s knees. It showed off her beautiful tan, body, and pert breasts to perfection. She didn’t need nylons. Her hair was perfect as always, and Eve helped her on with the matching jacket. Eve said that it wouldn’t do to go to school with bare arms. Eve was certainly showing her age thought Jamie. She should see what kids wear to school these days. White shoes with conservative two-inch heels completed the outfit.

Jamie started to tell Eve why she was so distracted when she heard Dr. Leslie call her through the intercom. Eve quickly finished Jamie’s look with a watch, two silver bracelets and her earrings. She then pointed Jamie towards the door, and off to school.

Dr. Leslie noticed Jamie’s trance like state as soon as they pulled away in the car. She was immediately concerned that Jamie was upset about last night. They really hadn’t had a chance to talk this morning. Once they were through the gates, Dr. Leslie turned to Jamie and asked, "What’s wrong? Was it about last night? What’s troubling you?"

Jamie was quick to say that the night before was the greatest and most fulfilling night of her life. Falling asleep between her and Dr. John was wonderful. She loved both of them, and was anxious to repeat last night. She could never thank them enough, and she could never do enough for them. She also said that her caring went way beyond thankfulness. Dr. Leslie was beautiful, and turned her on totally. She had a fabulous body, she was extremely sensuous, and Jamie loved her as a person as well. Dr. Leslie was the total package.

Dr. John was another matter. He was a guy. She had to admit that taking his manhood into her mouth and swallowing his semen was extremely satisfying, and knowing that she pleased him was a great turn on. She even enjoyed having Dr. John enter her from the rear. She had to admit that she felt very feminine; it was as close to being taken like a woman as she could get. She also said that with Dr. John she didn’t care about herself, or anything, she just cared about pleasing him.

Jamie said that wasn’t bothering her. She loved both of them. What she was concerned about was school. She told Dr. Leslie about her concerns in dealing with 800 high school students and more and 50 faculty members. She told Dr. Leslie about her feelings for Terri, and she told her about her confusing emotions for Dick and maybe even Jason. She added a third concern about her fidelity to the doctors. What wee the rules about dating? Dating?? How could she even think of it!

"Oh, Leslie, I need your help! This has got me so confused."

"Jamie, you are experiencing normal jitters. First of all, Dr. John and I would expect you to date. Obviously you will need to be careful. We will have to work together to be sure that you are taking all the necessary precautions, and that we don’t expose our identity, unless we are all sure that it will remain a secret. What I mean is that maybe the person you’re dating will like you better the way you are, like John and I do.

Second, I am flattered. Thank you for telling me how much you like me. I’m afraid I love you just about as much. You still take a back seat to my husband, but I think John is jealous of how close a second place you are!" Dr. Leslie laughed, and then said, "as far as your confusion about your feelings for males, that is also very normal. What you were, in your previous existence, said you would not have an interest in men. What you are, in this existence, is a whole different matter. You may still mentally object to the idea of intimate relations with a man, but what you are externally screams "sex!!" to every man who sees you.

You are going to be bombarded with guys trying to take you out. You are going to find some are jerks, some are nice, some are slobs, and because of your female exterior, and the gradual acceptance of being female all the time, and the hormones that we have given you, eventually, you will want to do intimate things with one or two.

Whether it takes a week or a year, eventually you will want to kiss a boy. Then nature will take its course. What we need to be sure of Jamie is that you are able to handle yourself with that boy. That you don’t get embarrassed, or even worse, beat up. There are a lot of people who are not as open minded as we are."

Jamie sat in silence for a few minutes, and then she reached over and placed her left hand over Dr. Leslie’s right hand as it gripped the gearshift of the car. Dr. Leslie lifted her hand, squeezed Jamie’s hand, and smiled. Jamie could feel the calmness and confidence flow into her from Dr. Leslie. She was sure that with the help of the doctors she would manage to not only get through the year, but to have a great time doing it.

The car swung into the school parking lot, and Jamie noticed that it was virtually empty. She was glad. She didn’t want to deal with a mass of humanity just yet. She was feeling more confident, but she wanted to register and get out. Dr. Leslie parked the car and the two women entered Jefferson High School together. They walked to the principal’s office, and Dr. Leslie announced who they were to the school secretary. She looked up and directed them to room 104. The short walk down the empty hallway took only moments. Jamie was taking all of the sights into her brain. The school was probably fifty years old. It was in good shape and seemed to be modernized within the last few years. She noted the lockers, and the graduation class pictures above them. She thought the place looked friendly enough. They entered the room and found it occupied only by a matronly woman who looked to be about fifty-five years old. She smiled, and said, "You must be Jamie."

"How do you know?" Asked Jamie, suddenly feeling exposed.

"Well, all of the returning students registered last spring. Only new students are registering today. The freshmen were here yesterday, so today is very quiet. In fact you are one of only two new seniors. By the way, my name is Mrs. Brown. You will be in my home room this year."

"I am very pleased to meet you Mrs. Brown," said Jamie.

"As am I," said Dr. Leslie, "I’m Jamie’s aunt, Dr. Leslie Roberts."

"Dr Roberts it is indeed a pleasure to meet you and your lovely niece. Let’s get down to getting you registered. It is much too nice outside to keep you here for very long. Let’s see, based on your transcript you have successfully completed your language, science, and math requirements."

Jamie silently thanked the doctors. What a relief to not have to worry about those three subjects.

Mrs. Brown continued, "Your preliminary forms have you taking typing, home economics, American History, English Literature, speech, and theater. Are you sure that you didn’t want to take some honors courses? You did so well at your other school, this doesn’t seem like enough of a challenge. What do you think Dr. Roberts?"

"You may be right abut the lack of challenge Mrs. Brown, but with the trauma that Jamie suffered with the loss of her parents and this new environment, my husband and I feel that Jamie will be best served by taking these courses. If she does well in her first semester we will look to get her some honors courses in January, and finish with summer school if it appears this semester will impact her ability to get into college."

Jamie was smiling to herself as she sat there and quietly listened to Mrs. Brown and Dr. Leslie discussing her future as if she wasn’t even there. She knew that this must be very frustrating to teenagers. She didn’t care. She was happy with her classes, they were all things she was good at or could be good at. She made a mental note to ask Dr. Leslie about college. She wasn’t too sure about that as an option.

Finally Dr. Leslie and Mrs. Brown finished discussing Jamie’s future, and they all shook hands. Mrs. Brown said she was looking forward to having Jamie in her homeroom, and that she was sorry she wouldn’t have Jamie in her calculus class.

Jamie and Dr. Leslie walked out of the school, and Jamie couldn’t help but think how this had been a total nonevent. She was so worked up, and it was painless. Dr. Leslie seemed to instinctively know what Jamie was thinking. "See, it was nothing. Now I know that you skipped breakfast, let’s go downtown and have lunch."

Jamie called Terri at the lingerie shop on the way into town. Terri happily agreed to meet them for lunch. When the two women arrived at the restaurant they found Terri waving happily at them from the sidewalk. Terri, Dr. Leslie and Jamie entered the Midtown Restaurant and were seated immediately at their usual table by the window. A smiling Dick Brodnowski greeted them. He filled their water glasses and handed out menus. He looked straight at Jamie and asked if she was going to the beach party in two weeks. Jamie, feeling the exhilaration of getting through the school registration ordeal, wanted to have some fun with Dick.

"When is it? Terri, I thought you told me it was in three weeks." Jamie said, trying to keep a straight face, and hoping Terri would pick up on the humor.

Terri never missed a beat. "It is in three weeks isn’t it Dick?" I mean Jamie and I will be out of town in three weeks. This is terrible."

Jamie was amazed at how well Terri picked up on this. Jamie glanced up at Dick. He looked stunned. You could see the obvious disappointment on his face. Jamie couldn’t keep up the act anymore; it was too funny and too mean at the same time. She started laughing uncontrollably. As soon as Jamie started to laugh so did Terri. Neither could stop laughing long enough to tell poor Dick that they were teasing him.

It took Dr. Leslie to tell Dick that the girls were having some mean spirited fun at his expense. Of course they would be at the beach party. Dr. Leslie decided to help Dick get even, whether he wanted to or not, so she added, "In fact Jamie and Terri are hoping that the weather will be hot for the party. They both have new bikinis that are absolutely ‘X’ rated. I hope you can wait to see the magnificent sight these two hot beach bunnies will be at the party!"

That brought the laughter to a halt. All three teenagers blushed. Dick mumbled something about the soup du jour and left to get three diet cokes.

"Leslie, I hope that Dick knows you’re kidding." Said Jamie, "I mean, there is no way I’m going to my first event with my new classmates in a bikini!"

"Well I don’t even have one!" exclaimed Terri

"Well you girls can certainly give a bad time to Dick, but it seems that you can’t take it," laughed Dr. Leslie. "I’m sure that Dick knows I’m kidding. By the way, what is the agenda for the beach party Terri? Or can’t you tell an old fogey like me?"

The girls laughed. The rest of the lunch was uneventful. They were even nice to Dick. They told him that they were going with some other girls, and that they were looking forward to seeing him at the beach. Jamie wanted to ask about football practice, but was afraid to seem too interested in him.

After lunch Dr. Leslie said that she would call the clinic for someone to pick her up, and that Jamie could stay in town with Terri for a while, and the two girls could get all of their plans organized for the beach party.

Dr. Leslie made her telephone call, and returned to the table. The girls were talking to Dick about who was bringing what to the party. Dr. Leslie said that it would take fifteen minutes for her ride to get there. Terri suggested that they wait over at her aunt’s shop. They could see the car from the clinic from there. So, Leslie paid the bill, and as usual over tipped Dick, and after saying good-bye to him and the owner, they went over to Terri’s shop.

Jamie was always excited to be there, and after the last time, there was even more electricity in her. She could feel the stirring in her loins, and was glad that she had herself secured. It would not look right to have an erection tenting up the front of such a pretty dress.

As usual, Terri’s aunt Betty was in the back. And the three of them called out "hello" to her when they entered. Terri moved right through the store with a purpose. She went straight to the black boudoir ensemble that Jamie had worn the other day. She called Dr. Leslie over and said that Jamie looked absolutely terrific in this, and it was too bad that she couldn’t buy it. Dr. Leslie studied the outfit and let out a low whistle.

"Jamie, please try this on. I’d love to see you in it," Dr. Leslie said.

"But...." Jamie protested, "Your ride is almost here."

"Don’t worry, they’ll wait. I really want to see you in this." Insisted Dr. Leslie.

Terri took Jamie by the hand and led her to the changing room. Terri said she would get the shoes so that the outfit would be complete. As soon as she left, Jamie changed out of her underwear and into the outfit so that Terri would not notice her secret.

Jamie was quickly dressed. The bustier made her breasts look larger, and added to her cleavage. The garter belt and the stockings felt wonderful on her soft sheer legs. Even the silk robe made her feel "soooo" sexy. When she added the four-inch heels, it was an outfit she wanted, and wanted to wear for Dr. Leslie. She stepped out of the fitting room to catch Dr. Leslie and Terri whispering, and Terri nodding. They both stopped when they heard the rustling of the curtains. They turned and both smiled broadly. Jamie looked ravishing, and they both said so in unison.

"What do you think Aunt Leslie? Too bad there isn’t anyone to wear this for," said Jamie coyly.

"There had better not be," said Dr. Leslie in mock sternness.

With that the door to the shop flung open and Dick Brodnowski burst into the group of women. "Dr. Leslie your ride...."

Dick stopped in mid-sentence as he saw Jamie. He turned bright red, and stammered, "Is here. I’m sorry, I didn’t know...." He turned and tried to leave.

"Dick, what do you think of Jamie’s outfit?" asked Dr. Leslie.

"It’s, ah, great, er, I’ll tell your bride, I mean ride, that you are over here." With that Dick bolted from the shop.

All three women burst into laughter. They had been picking on poor Dick all day. Jamie then went and changed back into her summer dress. When she came out of the changing room Dr. Leslie was gone. Terri told her that the Doctor would see her at home that evening. The girls spent the next few hours talking about what they were going to wear, and what time Terri was going to pick up Jamie for the beach party. Both girls were careful not to talk about bikinis or lingerie.

 

END OF PART THREE OF REBIRTH

 

 

 

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