Prescribed Femininity

By Suzi Page

 

Foreword:

I’ve found stories about men being hypnotized into cross dressing to be exciting, and yet I always felt that being forced against one’s will was not right. This story is a hypnotism story with a twist: both spouses are voluntarily hypnotized to achieve a state that, in the end, they both want: a loving couple made up of a woman and an androgynous man. It is also a shorter story than my previous two, in response to those who felt the earlier ones to be too long. I’d be interested to hear opinions about whether the resulting lowering of detail is well repaid by the advantages of brevity.

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Bernard Coffey sat at his desk at work, freshening his lipstick. As he looked into his compact, he saw his smooth, hairless, made up face. He felt the nylon camisole, panties, and stockings next to his body. He saw the pretty pink silken blouse reflecting the light at his breasts, which were supported by a 38A brassiere. He felt his elasticized pants, high on his waist, tight on his legs, and free of zippers, and he delighted in the lightness of his skimmer shoes. His fellow workers had become used to his unusual but pretty way of dressing, and Bernard thought how much he had to thank hypnotism for his beauty and his wife’s willingness to join him in using hypnotism. He thought back to the events of the previous years.

Three years before Bernard was a married man in his mid-fifties who had crossdressed intermittently ever since college, though as early as four years old he had dreams in which he was a girl. Married for 30 years, his crossdressing had always been in private. Since he’d been married, he’d crossdressed only twice per year or so, only when his wife Karyn was away, because she had deeply disapproved of the idea in general and he loved her dearly. She had discovered his stash five years ago, and this had led him to admit that he crossdressed infrequently. That he crossdressed at all freaked her out. They had not discussed the matter since. When she was away, perhaps twice per year, he got his stash out of the attic and dressed up. Sometimes during these periods, while wearing feminine underwear, he would go out to Payless or Walmart and buy a new pair of shoes or a piece of feminine clothing. This would excite him greatly, but afterward he felt a great anticlimax.

As the worldwide web developed, he was running the search engine and decided to search for "transgender". He was astounded at the long list of websites this turned up, and over the next year he found many, many more such websites via successive linking. He was particularly taken with androgynous and transsexual sites. Looking at these sites generated considerable excitement and sexual release, which substituted for his own crossdressing, but eventually he became moody and withdrawn, spending too much time on the internet. He would not show his wife what he was doing and yet was uncomfortable at hiding part of himself from her.

The tension and his addiction, stimulated by this whole mix of behaviors, led him to contact a psychiatrist to limit his urges. After three interviews the psychiatrist chose a hypnotic approach to lead Bernie to feel uncomfortable each time he began to think about feminine clothes. Bernie agreed with this plan. In the hypnosis he accepted the suggestion that the activities to which he was addicted would cause him physical pain. Now and then he would begin to think about looking at a transgender internet site but quickly dismissed it when he began to get a headache.

However, this approach had a side effect of making him touchy, really making his wife unhappy. She asked him what was wrong, and he was open with her, telling her that he was seeing Dr. White to affect his behavior. Karyn said that his new behavior was pretty bad, too: that having a headache with some frequency was not only uncomfortable for him but made him grumpy. Bernie then suggested that they might visit Dr. White together. This was originally a shock for her to contemplate, but over a number of days after considering that Bernie was trying so hard to accede to her point of view on crossdressing, she felt for him and began to appreciate their problem.

Feeling she should prepare herself for a session with Dr. White and Bernie together, Karyn suggested to Bernie that she should have a discussion with Dr. White alone first and asked him to give the doctor permission to discuss Bernie’s case with her. Bernie quickly agreed and called Dr. White. After Bernie introduced Karyn and told him that she wanted to consult Dr. White to help him, Karyn took the phone. She was surprised but pleased that Dr. White was a woman, and after a short discussion she made an appointment for herself.

When she was ushered into her first appointment with Dr. White, she immediately was struck at what a sensible woman the doctor was, and she felt at ease to discuss her stance relative to Bernard. She said that she loved her husband but became very anxious when she thought about him dressing in women’s clothes. When Dr. White pointed out that the literature suggested that Bernard might get mentally ill himself if he was prevented from crossdressing and that hypnosis seemed the only way to avoid that, Karyn replied that having him be grumpy and frequently have headaches was no way to live. After an hour Dr. White suggested that perhaps she could help Karyn become more at peace with Bernard’s crossdressing and thus allow him some emotional and physical peace. Karyn went home to consider that idea.

After a few days Karyn arranged another appointment with Dr. White, and at that appointment she told Dr. White that she had decided that the better action was for the doctor to help her lower her extreme discomfort with Bernie dressing as a woman and her fear that if she accepted him doing that she would be leading him to femininity. Dr. White then said that she could lower her inhibitions via hypnosis and that at the same time he could hypnotize Bernard so that he did not feel uncomfortable at following any suggestions she made. Then Karyn would be free to suggest what she felt was in the best interest of her husband and herself. Karyn wondered whether losing self-control to this degree was something she was willing to do. But after thinking about it at home for some days, she realized that the hypnosis would not change what she wanted to do but would just make it psychically easier. She therefore decided that this was the right way to go.

During the next week each of them had an appointment with Dr. White, and, as Karyn and Dr. White had discussed, both appointments involved hypnosis. Bernie was given the suggestion that his wife’s ideas in regard to his appearance were convincing, to the point that they overcame any of his other inhibitions. Karyn was given the suggestion that she would feel OK about permitting and even helping Bernie to wear small, undetectable pieces of feminine clothes because it would help their marriage.

Over the next few days Bernie found himself looking forward to Karyn’s suggestions, and he was impressed over the next few days that his headaches had ceased. On the following Saturday Karyn and Bernie were discussing his good health, and she found herself saying that she understood how pleasant he found nylon panties and that perhaps he might try wearing them. Responding to Karyn’s suggestion, Bernie went to the Roses store and, much more comfortable than when he had bought single panties at Walmart, he selected 9 pairs of panties in his size, 7. Six were two 3-packs of simple white nylon hip-huggers, but for the other three he chose to treat himself with feminine decorations: bows, satin panels, and lace. Upon returning home with his new undies, he scrunched his men’s briefs into the back of their drawer and lovingly laid in his new panties in the space made available. He drew on one of the silky wisps of fabric, and wearing them for all his waking hours that weekend, he felt good for the whole time. Karyn really appreciated his relaxed, loving behavior.

On the next workday, Monday, he woke up in a very good mood. After his shower he went to his underwear drawer, picked one of the plain white nylon panties, and pulled it on. How pleasant it made him feel! He pulled on the rest of his clothes, all male in style, and went down to breakfast with a glow on face and kissed Karyn. For the rest of the week at each breakfast and dinner their conversation was so pleasant that both of them felt their relationship renewed. During each workday the slippery feel of the panties against his belly and penis and the lowcut elastic made Bernie most aware of his underpinnings and happy to be alive.

And Karyn had to admit his flat bum covered with shiny nylon looked rather nice when he disrobed before going to bed. And his frequent hugging was so very nice for both of them. He did that both because he felt such love for her accommodating his dressing proclivity and because it left him really excited by their pelvises rubbing while he was feeling the texture of nylon against his penis.

On the next few weekends when they went out to a movie or a concert he wore one of the more feminine panties under his pants. The first time he did that, their sexual relations were really hot after they got home, and for weekends after that it was still really good. Karyn really started to like what this small change in her husband’s attire had done for them. And Bernie was just in heaven over the feel the panties gave him all the day long.

This feeling for both of them became even more exciting after Karyn suggested that Bernie could replace his vest-style undershirts with a short nylon slip, just covering his panties. The wide strapped slips that he bought, with minimal lace at the top of their bodice but pretty lace at the bottom hem, could be mistaken for his undershirts when they appeared through his shirts. But the slippery nylon against his chest as well as his pelvis and the double layer of nylon at his hips as he hugged Karyn close made him even more loving and a more excited lover than before.

During the two months that Bernie was wearing panties and a slip, Karyn was encouraged that the approach was working to make him a better spouse. However, as time went by, it was clear to her that his tension was returning, though so far not to the level at which it had been. Karyn had another consultation with Dr. White, and that night, responding to a new hypnotic suggestion, Karyn told Bernie that she thought he would look younger and nicer if he removed his beard of many years and became clean shaven. She said that she would like kissing him more if his face was never scratchy.

So Bernie shaved his beard. Indeed he shaved twice per day to accommodate Karyn’s feelings. And when Karyn said how nice his face felt but how itchy his legs made her in bed, he also shaved his legs and used Karyn’s perfumed oil as after-shave for them. Immediately Karyn said how nice his legs felt in bed. So each morning and upon returning home from work, Bernie shaved his face close before kissing Karyn, and twice per week he shaved his legs and put on the perfumed oil whose smell he liked so much. Now and then one of his friends wondered about the flowery smell surrounding Bernie.

The smoothness of Bernie’s face and legs in bed gave Karyn another idea, that his pubic region could be softer and smoother, too. With her suggestion, Bernie also shaved his pubic region, and after each shower he applied the perfumed feminine spray that Karyn used. From then on Karyn found that foreplay was much nicer with his genital region so pretty and smelling so nice. And Bernie felt his panties especially sensitively while sitting at work.

Karyn was really getting into these improvements in her husband. After some weeks, Karyn’s attention moved to his chest. She told him that she found both that its hairiness made her itch and that it was uncomfortably hard. Shaving his chest was an easy solution for Bernie, but he wondered how to respond for his wife’s desire that his chest be softer. Then one day on the web he saw a discussion of breast implants, and it occurred to him that to satisfy Karyn’s request he should have minimal implants inserted. Karyn wondered about such a step, but after getting used to it, she suggested he discuss this possibility with Dr. White. Bernie’s response to her saying this was to initiate a passionate romp in bed.

Dr. White was rather surprised at Bernard’s request, given how uncomfortable Karyn had been before, but she told Bernard that breast implantation could be done by a plastic surgeon colleague in his HMO. It took a more than a little consideration for Bernie to decide whether to go ahead with this step, because it was more permanent than previous ones and it was the first change that might make him appear feminine to outsiders. Finally he decided that his own delight in having a rounded bosom and his wife’s pleasure in it was worth the derisive remarks he expected from certain males at work. So he made an appointment for outpatient cosmetic surgery.

Discussing his upcoming operation with Karyn, she pointed out that with implants, his present shirts would not fit. In particular, he would need something to wear coming away from the operation. So Karyn got one of her old bras that she did not mind getting stretched out, put enough tissues in it to simulate an A cup, and then measured Bernie’s chest. Armed with his blouse size and with Bernie in a sweater over his padded chest, they then climbed into their car and went to a women’s shop in the mall. Till now Bernie had shopped in department stores where both men and women shopped, but now he was shopping in a store in which he was the only man. Moreover, Karyn was picking out blouses for him to try on that were white but with darts and in women’s dainty fabrics. Bernie was not yet used to the chagrin he felt as they went together into the changing room for him to try on these blouses. Nor with the excitement he felt as they purchased three of them while he was wearing one.

Bernie’s surgery was done under local anesthetic. On the operating table, he saw the surgeon making small slits below his breasts and inserting pouches which rounded and softened his chest. Wow, he thought, this is going to be something else. Preparing himself to leave the surgical recovery room, he put on the loose women’s blouse he had brought with him, accommodating his new curves without putting pressure on his chest that would be painful for a few weeks.

His new form, the fact that his chest was still healing, and his desire to avoid ribbing, meant that he had to wear a bulky turtleneck sweater to work for the next few weeks, covering the blouse that he needed to wear. Thank heaven it is winter, he thought. After a few weeks, though, his breasts had healed and Karyn was really turned on by their sex together, in which she could snuggle in his breasts just as he could in hers. During the days Bernie was finding that the nylon of his slip against his breasts made them feel super but that the sweaters were too hot. So eventually he gave in to convenience and began to reveal the women’s blouse that he was wearing. While these were man-styled, they had darts for his breasts and were not of a masculine fabric.

On the first day that he went to work with a blouse on, he had a sweater over that, and when he got hot, he took off the sweater, in the privacy of his office. However, when his colleague knocked at his door, he automatically said "Come in," and the jig was up. Actually, his colleague did not notice anything at first, but all of a sudden he said "My God!" and asked Bernie what was going on. Bernie explained, haltingly, that he and his wife had agreed he looked nice that way, and so he had taken more or less permanent steps to appear the way that felt good to him. A bit shaken, his colleague left the office and stopped down the hall to share his surprising news. Bernie’s other coworkers were even less discreet, tittering when they saw him. But Bernie began to get used to their reaction and that of other surprised people on the street, now that he walked without a sweater on.

A number of weeks later, Bernie began to feel a bit tense again, but he found he could assuage the problem by the simple step of buying himself a delicate anklet with a butterfly in the middle and beginning to wear it under his sock. Of course, when he came home, he took his socks off and walked around with his anklet for him and Karyn to see. A few months later he obtained another release of his tension by buying a pair of men’s tassel loafers and a pair of women’s penny loafers and wearing one then the other of these two pairs of shoes as his regular footwear. And a couple of months after that, with the tension building up once more, Bernie purchased taupe panty hose and began to wear them as his regular footwear, first with his penny loafers and later with delicate black skimmers that he purchased for himself. Of course, this revealed his anklet, but he and Karyn really liked how the pretty anklet and the top of his foot, smoothed by the panty hose, combined to make an attractive impression. His coworkers became more and more amazed.

Four months passed, with Bernie feeling really relaxed with his androgynous image and having very good sex with his wife. He even put up with the continuing jokes at his expense at work, but these lessened as time went on. But then the tension began to return, and Karyn decided to suggest facial electrolysis. She told Bernie that his face would be more kissable and he would not irritate his face with such frequent shaving if his beard was gone entirely. Excitedly, Bernie took the opportunity to seek out an electrologist who would with confidentiality take on the process of removing his beard, which had covered part of his face for so many of the previous years. After the first few weekly appointments, he realized what a long and painful process this was going to be, but he also realized that for the whole 2-year process, having these electrolysis appointments and seeing the results on his face would keep his tension down. In fact, it took months to have an effect on his face that Karyn could feel, but when that happened, she really appreciated Bernie’s face feeling less scratchy when they kissed.

As his face began to appear clearer, Bernie began to feel that his prominent Adam’s apple was a detriment to his appearance. Removal of Adam’s apple was an easy operation, he learned, and after Karyn’s approval he underwent that outpatient procedure with the same plastic surgeon who had implanted his breasts. Its results made some people begin to take him as woman at first glance, and Bernie did not know at first what to make of this.

But this became a real turn-on to Bernie for a while. However, after a few months he began to feel a need for an even greater degree of femininity, so Karyn helped him decide to shape his fingernails. After two weeks of growing his fingernails, he began to file them in an oval shape. He kept them only a quarter inch beyond his fingertips, but keeping them nicely shaped made him feel good, and his friends began to be relaxed about this man nearing sixty who looked pretty in a feminine way.

Bernie had long felt the desire to have longer hair, and now his wife’s hypnosis allowed him to let it grow. However, Karyn insisted that with longer hair he be more concerned with keeping it clean and shiny. As it grew, it sometimes got into Bernie’s face, and Karyn helped by showing him how to use curlers to style it and keep in under control – he now appeared frequently with a ponytail with curl at the end.

At Bernard’s next appointment with Dr. White, he complained about his tension beginning to return, and as a result the doctor planted the suggestion in Karyn that Bernard see the plastic surgeon in their HMO to discuss improving his body shape. The result was an outpatient operation that consisted of a fat injection from liposuction of his waist to round his bottom and narrow his waist. The appearance of Bernard’s body made him feel much more comfortable about himself, and Karyn found herself peculiarly attracted to him now, even though some of their friends thought that this was a wacko decision for Bernard to have made. His new softer body shape was made even more apparent by the women’s pants Bernard bought and began to wear regularly because they fit his new body shape so much better.

The softness of Bernard’s body would be complemented by a softening of his face, Karyn thought. So one day she presented Bernard with a bottle of foundation and a compact of face powder and said she thought he’d look well with this on his face in all waking hours. Even though Bernard’s beard was now quite thin as a result of the electrolysis, the foundation and powder smoothed his facial appearance greatly and gave him an even more androgynous look than ever. Even though intellectually Karyn knew that her acceptance of this look was allowed by the hypnotic suggestions she had received and was continuing to have maintained, she was emotionally engaged by her pretty husband.

After a few months with makeup on, Bernie decided that his face would look nicer if it was surrounded by a fuller head of hair. Asking Karyn what he should do, she recommended a beauty salon that could put a body perm in his hair. Bernie made an appointment for the following Saturday morning, explaining to the beautician that it would be a first treatment for his hair. Still the beautician was surprised when a man, albeit one with small breasts and wearing a women’s blouse and makeup, appeared for the perm. Still she gave him the book with the same choices she gave to a woman, and he chose a simple pageboy style. After the lengthy process of perming, which Bernie found smelly but entrancing, a look in the mirror showed a prettily coiffed head surrounding his feminized face; hard to think of as the head of a man. Nor did most people on the street react to him as a man most of the time.

When Bernie arrived home, Karyn found herself at some discomfort at her husband’s appearance, but she could not work out for herself what the problem really was. She finally figured out that she found the dissonance between his smooth face and his bushy eyebrows jarring. She went to the fridge, got out some icecubes, and thinned his eyebrows. On the next day she bought a pair of tweezers for Bernie and presented them, commenting that she hoped he would keep his eyebrows consistent with the rest of his face from now on. A few weeks later a gift from Karyn to Bernie of a light but shiny lipstick set him to regular decoration of his lips. This left his appearance on the street so feminine that almost no one noticed him anymore, but as soon as he began to speak, for example, at a store, the cashier or whoever would be amazed and confused that this was a man.

Each new cosmetic improvement over some years had led for a few months to less tension and nicer behavior, but then tension built up again and required a new cosmetic improvement. Discussing this situation in a way that was never possible before their psychiatric treatment, Bernie and Karyn finally realized that there was no real solution but to live with some amount of tension, and Bernie realized that he could keep the tension under control by regularly examining his dresser drawers and closet. In his underwear drawer he found nothing in cotton but rather nylon panties and minislips. In the drawer where he had kept shirts he now found white and pastel colored blouses with darts, and in the closet there hung rayon and silk blouses. The only pants in the closet were women’s pants with a high rise and tapered legs, and on the shoe rack sat delicate shoes. On his dresser were ponytail elastics with pretty colored balls, and foundation, lipstick, and face powder.

Realizing that Bernie’s reverting to his original appearance would cause great psychic and physical pain and great cost and that he could keep his tension under control, Karyn and Bernie, with the advice of Dr. White, decided that he would stay permanently with his androgynous appearance. This meant that he would always wear clothes that fit and thus the nylon panties and women’s pants that fit his round bottom and the slips that accorded to his rounded bosom. He would always wear a little makeup and keep his hair of a medium length for a female, but long for a male, and curled. But, he realized finally, this was exactly the state he had been so turned on by when he appeared masculine. And Karyn realized that, after her long conditioning by hypnosis, she no longer needed the suggestion to love her feminized husband, just the pretty way he was.

 

 

 

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