On Becoming A Squaw
by: Betsygirl

 

Part 4

For a few months after the tribal council had returned me to my status as a woman of the tribe, Fair Dawn continued to nurse me at her breasts, just as she had when I was ordered by the tribal council to become her surrogate daughter. It was exciting each morning, during our communal bath, to see Fair Dawn's heavy milk-filled breasts and know that I would again taste her sweet fluid soon. Due to the reduced number of times I was now nursing each day, I noticed a gradual decline in the quantity of the life-sustaining fluid that I tasted from her breasts. One day, Fair Dawn told me that, for now, her milk no longer flowed. However, she still would welcome me to be with her and to kiss and suck her breasts in an erotic sense rather than in a nourishing one.

A little while after I had ceased nursing on Fair Dawn, several of the women of the tribe were again summoned to appear before the tribal council. It turned out that we were there at the request of one of our own, rather than at the order of the council. Fair Dawn, White Dove, Pale Moon, Little Deer and I were seated in the council chamber before the tribal council. At a signal from the chief, Fair Dawn arose and began speaking to the tribal elders.

"Oh chief and tribal elders. I come before you this day with two special requests, both for myself and for another. My first request is that Pretty Maid be allowed to withdraw from having to take her daily female hormone pill. While the effects on her body will never be completely reversed, stopping of the pill will restore a portion of her previous existence. This restoring of a portion of Pretty Maid's previous existence is the reason for my second request. Ever since Pretty Maid was selected to be my surrogate daughter and receive my life-sustaining fluid, I have sensed within me that the Great Spirit, in her movements among our people, has intended that Pretty Maid and I be united in accordance with our ancient traditions and ways. Due to Pretty Maid's hormone regimen, we certainly would not be husband and wife in the truest sense of our people. However, by allowing Pretty Maid to stop her hormone treatment, there is the possibility that, over time, she could give me the child that I truly desire. I have requested these others of my sisters to be here today to express their support of my requests."

Obviously, the chief and the elders were not expecting this type of request from Fair Dawn. I know that I was not expecting to hear Fair Dawn make these requests. After the council talked among themselves for several minutes, the chief stood and addressed several questions first to Fair Dawn and then to the rest of us. "Fair Dawn, are you asking that Pretty Maid be returned to her former status as Little Bear and be allowed back as a warrior of the tribe?" Fair Dawn responded that she would hope that, even without the hormones, I would continue to stay as Pretty Maid. However, if the tribal council agreed to her requests, then that decision would be based on the wisdom of the elders and perhaps, upon what I would wish also.

The chief then asked Fair Dawn why she wanted to unite with Pretty Maid if she wanted Pretty Maid to remain as one of the women of the tribe. Wasn't there a man of the tribe better suited for her wishes and her desires? Fair Dawn carefully looked at each member of the council before responding. "Pretty Maid is a unique individual, created partially from her own inborn traits and characteristics and partially from the wisdom of the tribal council that was first implemented in making her a woman of the tribe and then in briefly making her my surrogate daughter. This has resulted in an individual in the tribe with a kindness and tenderness one would usually not associate with our warrior brothers."

Still at somewhat of a loss to understand what was being requested, the chief then turned to White Dove and asked, "In a previous time, this woman of the tribe now known as Pretty Maid was your husband. How do you feel about another woman of the tribe seeking the council's approval to become as one with her and provide her a child?" As White Dove stood to face the council, she carefully smoothed her buckskin dress over her shapely figure. I had forgotten until this instant how nice a figure my former wife had. White Dove told the elders that she abided by all of their decisions and their wisdom. She had previously seen the same characteristics that Fair Dawn had just described prior to her husband becoming Pretty Maid. However, becoming Pretty Maid had tended to refine these traits and make her a more loving and lovable person. If the council approved of Fair Dawn's requests, then she would accept their collective wisdom. She would rejoice, along with her sisters, if Pretty Maid could give Fair Dawn a child. As long as the decision resulted in Pretty Maid being happy, she would accept it and be glad.

I could see that the wisdom of the chief and the elders was lacking at the present moment, as they still seemed perplexed as to what action they should take. Little Deer and Pale Moon were then asked what they thought of Fair Dawn's requests. Pale Moon stood and answered for the two of them when she said, "Pretty Maid has become a trusted friend to all of us women in this room and a good worker among the women of the tribe. We have accepted her as one of our sisters and she, likewise, has accepted us as her sisters. Her appearance at our morning communal bath now causes no more of a sensation than the appearance of White Dove or Little Deer or one of our other sisters. Pretty Maid has been completely accepted as a woman of the tribe. If granting this request will give our sisters, Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid a degree of happiness, then, speaking as a woman of the tribe, on behalf of all of the women of the tribe, I say that the council should favorably consider Fair Dawn's present petition."

Needless to say, I was amazed at these comments from my sisters. I had been Pretty Maid for some time and had come to think of myself as merely another woman of the tribe. I had become accustomed to wearing satin lingerie under my buckskin dress, the softness of which I felt on my body even as I sat there before the elders. The corset that had been placed on my body much earlier felt nice and supportive on my hormone-enhanced feminine frame. The hormones that I had taken from the first day of the council's directive that created Pretty Maid had widened my hips, narrowed my waist, made my breasts fuller and had softened my voice. It also diminished the last trace of my previous existence from when I was still known as Little Bear.

As I had not been allowed previously to say anything before the tribal council, I figured that my appearance this time would be similar to the others. The chief and the council seemed to be in great discussion on the question. Finally, the chief spoke and said, "Pretty Maid, you have heard the requests of Fair Dawn and the comments from your sisters. The council now asks you for your thoughts on these matters."

I was so surprised that I almost fell off of the bench. I nervously stood to address the council. I carefully smoothed out by buckskin dress down over my hips. Pale Moon and Little Deer tenderly touched my hands. Fair Dawn and White Deer smiled as they looked into my face. I hoped all of these displays of affection would steel my courage, so that I might speak my words to the elders without faltering.

Haltingly, I spoke. "Chief and tribal elders. You have afforded me a great honor, allowing me to speak before you at this time. I appreciate my sisters from the tribe speaking on my behalf. Fair Dawn is a sweet and wonderful sister that I came to know when I was designated as a daughter of the tribe and her surrogate daughter. Yes, I would like to unite with Fair Dawn in accordance with the traditions of our people. I would enjoy being off of the hormones, even though I know that most of their effects cannot be reversed, nor would I want them reversed. However, if you are asking if I want to become Little Bear again, the answer is no. In having me become Pretty Maid, the wisdom of the elders was quite evident. I am almost completely a woman of the tribe and I am accepted as such. This being said, if my choices are either that I become Little Bear again or that I remain Pretty Maid, then my answer to the council is that I will remain Pretty Maid." With that I sat down as my sisters all smiled at me.

While the elders watched, the chief thanked us for appearing and asked if we would wait outside until they reached a decision. As we walked out, I looked lovingly at Fair Dawn. She had spoken before the council on my behalf, seeking the best parts of both worlds, if possible. We waited outside for what seemed like an eternity while the chief and the elders discussed all of the consequences that their decision might have. Finally, we were summoned back into the council hall.

The chief stood and addressed us. "Women of the tribe, you have come here today in support of two of your own. Fair Dawn has made a request concerning Pretty Maid that is unusual and out of the ordinary. However, I would think any request involving Pretty Maid would be that way since she herself is uncommon and out of the ordinary. It has been decided by the elders that Pretty Maid may stop taking her female hormones immediately. Also, Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid may be united in accordance with the traditions of our people. However, Pretty Maid will continue to live as Pretty Maid and will not be returned to her former status as Little Bear. She is a woman of the tribe and will be considered as such. Finally, the council feels that the celebration of the union of Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid should occur only among the women of the tribe rather than throughout all of the people. In accordance with the traditions of our people, the joining will occur at the next full moon."

We were all surprised by the rulings of the tribal council, yet we knew that we should not begin speaking of what had happened until we left the council chambers. However, Pale Moon indicated that she wished to speak. When the chief recognized her, Pale Moon arose. "Chief and tribal elders. Again you have demonstrated the collective wisdom that has been passed down to you from all the generations of our people that have preceded you. Per the traditions of the people, the joining of these two will be in accordance with our people's ways. With your permission, Little Deer and I will assist Pretty Maid with her joining preparations while White Dove will do the same for Fair Dawn. Also, I will inform the rest of the women of the tribe of the celebration that will occur at the next full moon. Thank you, on behalf of Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid for the wisdom that is evident in this decision." With that, she sat down, allowing the chief to properly dismiss us from the chambers, which he did in short order.

Pale Moon told me afterwards that, until the ceremony was concluded, Fair Dawn and I could not be alone anytime, whether it was after the communal bath when I had typically nursed on her life-sustaining fluid or at night when all would be sleeping. While I understood this tribal tradition, I was sad that Fair Dawn and I would be chaperoned for the next two weeks. Fair Dawn also understood but, like me, was similarly sad.

By the next morning, during our communal bath, the news of the tribal council's decision and the upcoming joining celebration had spread throughout all of the women of the tribe. Many of my sisters came by and offered me their best wishes, although some giggled as they said it. I later learned that best wishes offered from a woman of the tribe to one of her sisters meant that she hoped you would be fertile and fruitful, bringing forth many fine children.

Each morning at the communal bath, Fair Dawn and I would longingly gaze at each other. Her breasts looked so appealing to me, even while she bathed. I hoped that the next two weeks would pass quickly.

Two nights before the full moon, Little Deer and Pale Moon came to get me ready for a pre-joining celebration. They helped me into white satin lingerie. There were definite stirrings in my crotch as the satin panties slid into place. Pale Moon, sensing this, helped me properly tuck myself in and then placed a sanitary pad in my panties. She reminded me that I needed to still appear feminine in as many ways as possible, even if I was off of the hormones. When the satin slip slid over my body, I realized how sensuous the material felt against my skin and was grateful for the pad in my panties. When I first had worn the satin lingerie, I was too upset about having to become a woman of the tribe to notice the effects of the fabric on me. Now that I had been off of the hormones for a few days, my body responded to these wondrous sensations that I had previously ignored.

A buckskin dress was placed on my body and moccasins were slipped on my feet. Little Deer did my makeup to perfection. My cheeks glowed from the blush, my lashes fluttered with their mascara coating and my lips were red, full and so invitingly kissable. A garland of flowers was placed around my neck and flowers were pinned to my hair. Little Deer and Pale Moon then escorted me to the celebration.

All of the women of the tribe were gathered together at the ceremonial clearing. Fair Dawn appeared with White Dove and another of our sisters. She had the same flower garland around her neck and the flowers pinned in her hair as I did. She was seated at the front of the women on one side while I was seated in the front on the other side. Many of the women of the tribe spoke about the Great Spirit and her wish that the women of our tribe would be fruitful and multiply.

We were told that the garlands of flowers we wore around our necks signified the continuing of our people's ways from the ancient past to the present. The flowers in our hair signified the presence of the Great Spirit with us and our request that she find us worthy to fulfill our duty.

We were handed containers of a fruit beverage. As we drank, one of the women told us that it was the belief of our ancestors that drinking this beverage would ensure our fertility. All of the fruits used to make this beverage produced large amounts of seeds that grew and produced more fruit. After drinking the beverage, we heard prayers from various of our sisters imploring the Great Spirit to guide and protect Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid in the days ahead and to allow them to quickly show the Great Spirit's approval of their fertility by becoming great with child.

Finally, each of us had to stand before our sisters, thanking them for being our sisters and for providing the guidance we may need in the days after the joining. We both declared that if the Great Spirit was with us, we would soon be with child. Fair Dawn said it with more fervor and intensity than I did. Some of the women giggled discreetly as I made my declaration. After that, each of the women came by, hugged each of us and offered us their best wishes.

The day of the full moon arrived at last. Early in the morning, we all gathered at the stream, as usual, for our communal bath. There was great excitement and much chatter about our upcoming joining. I followed the example of others as I carefully washed, paying special attention to my breasts. I simply loved the weight and the feel of my breasts. I was glad that, even though I was off of the hormones, my breasts stayed full, firm and feminine.

After I was dry, Pale Moon wrapped a special white satin robe around me. She said every woman of the tribe, on her joining day, wore a robe like this after the communal bath. The satin felt so wonderful against my clean skin. I noticed that Fair Dawn was also clad in a white satin robe.

We went to Little Deer's cabin and started to get me properly attired for my joining. First, my white satin garter belt, bra, panties and requisite sanitary pad. White stockings were slid up my legs and attached to my garters. A very lacy satin slip was placed on my body. As the fabric of each of these items caressed a portion of my body, I experienced the wonderful sensations that they bring. Little Deer then worked on my makeup. Two nights ago, I thought she had done my makeup to perfection. However, today, if possible, she did a better job. Today, I thought my lashes looked longer and fuller, the blush on my cheeks glowed more and my lips were redder and fuller then before.

Before Little Deer did my hair, I put on my dress. While it was styled like the traditional buckskin dresses that all of the women wore, it was not made of buckskin. Rather it was white satin. The dress was form fitting, with long sleeves and fell to the knee. There was a fringe of white satin all over my dress, especially hanging from my sleeves and from just under my breasts. My moccasins were also white. I was seated and my hair was combed and brushed. Pale Moon and Little Deer then completely covered my body, from head to toe, with white netting, similar to the material used in bridal veils. A flowered wreath was pinned to my hair, giving me the appearance of having a halo over my veiled head. Lastly, I was given a bouquet of flowers to carry under my body veil.

Pale Moon and Little Deer then led me to the ceremonial clearing for the rite of the joining. As I entered the clearing from one side, I saw Fair Dawn, similarly attired and veiled, enter from the other. She looked lovely as she entered. She looked at me and shyly smiled. As this had been decreed to be women's only ceremony, our female religious leader was there in her traditional robes to officiate at the joining of Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid.

As we stood side by side in front of all of the women of the tribe, our leader began to speak. "Women of the tribe. We gather to be witnesses as Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid are joined together. The Great Spirit and the spirits of our ancestors are present with us today to bless this continuation of our people's heritage."

She then looked at us and said, "Fair Dawn and Pretty Maid, you come here tonight to publicly declare before your sisters that you will live under the guidance of the Great Spirit, our chief and the tribal elders according to the traditions of our ancestors. Is it your intention to live your life together in accordance with the traditions of our people? Do you now declare before your sisters that you will work with each other to make this a lifelong commitment and not just a temporary vow? Will you work to have your home as a place where love will always be present?"

Fair Dawn and I both answered 'Yes' to all of our leader's questions. She then looked at us and said, "The Great Spirit moves among us at special times as these. Her presence here tonight blesses your union. Be at one with each other." With that, Pale Moon and Little Deer lifted the front of my veiling and draped it over my back. White Dove and another woman of the tribe did the same for Fair Dawn. We embraced and kissed deeply. I loved the taste as our lipsticks mingled. I felt her satin clad body against mine. The feeling of two satin covered bodies touching is electric. I felt Fair Dawn's hands slide down and squeeze my satin covered bottom. I sighed at her touch. It reminded me of my time as her surrogate daughter, when she would apply lotion to my bottom and gently probe me at the same time.

There was feasting and dancing throughout the rest of the day and well into the night. The women of the tribe all came and again offered us their best wishes. Every woman first hugged Fair Dawn and then hugged me. Many told me that they were genuinely happy for me and hoped that everything would work out with Fair Dawn. White Dove, my former wife told me that if she knew how good I was going to look in my white satin joining dress, she would have insisted that I wear one when we were joined. Little Deer almost cried tears of joy as she hugged me.

Pale Moon reminded me that I was still a woman of the tribe. As such, she handed me a box. I noticed Fair Dawn received one also. Pale Moon looked at us and told us that we were to wear the ceremonial garments in these boxes on our first night together. When we looked inside, we found that they each contained a beautiful white satin negligee. The robe was sheer, including the long sleeves, and tied at the front with a satin ribbon. The gown was an ankle-length, form fitting white satin creation with white spaghetti straps.

The women then escorted us to the special joining cabin. Pale Moon helped me out of my clothes and into my negligee. White Dove did the same for Fair Dawn. Before she left, Pale Moon said that the women of the tribe would keep a vigil around our cabin, chanting and singing so that the evil spirits would be kept away from us at this special time in our lives.

She and White Dove then quietly withdrew from the cabin. Fair Dawn and I moved tentatively toward each other. Quickly we embraced, kissing each other deeply. As I started to caress her satin clad body, I heard the clatter of the alarm clock, as its physical reality intruded into my state of reverie. It's incessant ringing reminded me that another day had begun.

I did make it a point though to purchase a white negligee identical to the one of my dreams. Now, when I go to sleep at night, I wear my new negligee and eagerly wait for my Fair Dawn to come to me similarly attired.

 

 

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