The following FICTION contains ADULT material that is not suitable for minors and should not be read by those who are under eighteen years of age or not yet legally an adult under the laws governing the reader. It also should not be read by those who find graphic depictions of sexual encounters between members of the same or opposite sex offensive.

 

Northwest Bound                  by: Virginia Kane

 

PART EIGHT

Continued from part seven

My head was reeling as I slowly crossed the street, headed for the hotel. I knew what the doctors at the sanitarium were going to do to transform Jerry, into Geri, for real. I knew that they’d remove the stump of his penis, reshape his scrotum and create vagina lips, salvaging what they could. I knew all of that. The careful explanations made to me during the weeks of my own counseling interviews were clearly detailed and seemed thorough. The doctors were so considerate and helpful to make sure I would continue to stand by her and help her get used to being female. I understood that this was the best course of action for her. Geri wanted to do it so badly. Her surgery completed, was healing up. It was done.

I was carefully prepared for that moment. There should be no reason for me to be shocked when I saw the stark reality of her changes. Why did seeing her red, swollen groin make my skin crawl? Why did I get dizzy when Louise pulled back the coverlet? I knew what to expect, didn’t I? All I could think of was comforting Geri. Up until the moment they operated on her, she bore the travesty alone, and I was too blind to comprehend her anguish over the finality of loosing manhood. She knew it would be for the best, but there was no longer a chance for any other alternative. It was irreversible. She’d be a woman from now on.

Did she do it for me, or was it for herself, as well? Did it matter? Would the boy Jerry have become the girl Geri if she had not been raped and beaten in my place? Were her rapists to blame, completely, or was I at fault, too? It should have been me, not Jerry, beaten to within an inch of my life instead of him!

Those bastards! They caused this! I desperately wanted revenge on them!

Waiting for the elevator, I pondered what to do. I had to make them pay for their putting Geri through hell. I felt responsible. I had to do something. But what?

Should I invite exposure to our lifestyle by calling up the police back home? If I did, my family would soon know about the way I look now. I’d have to report that my brothers knew who beat up Jerry, but that would cause more embarrassment to Geri’s family and my own over what we’ve become. There had to be a better way to get revenge. I couldn’t let them continue to get away with it!

How would our families react to her sex change or to my new appearance? Would they scorn and banish us for the lifestyle we chose to live? How would they react to what I’ve become, after all the love and support my family gave me while I grew up, keeping my feelings about the way I felt locked up inside?

Still, those bastards are free! They got away with Geri’s rape and assault. Who will they harm next? Who have they harmed since? I had to do something to right the wrong! My hatred was eating me up. Guilt and shame consumed me. I paced back and forth in my suite for over an hour, trying to decide how to do what I felt I had to do! I lifted the phone to call Louise.

"I know we’re supposed to go out tonight, but I’m feeling tired. I’ve a lot on my mind. I won’t be good company to anyone, and I’m not interested in meeting any men tonight. I’ll call you in the morning. "

"I expected to hear from you an hour ago. Want to talk about it? I know it was a shock, seeing Geri, but you knew what to expect."

"Yes, but I didn’t expect to feel bitter. I didn’t expect the hatred to return. I felt I cleared it out of my system during those long interviews at the sanitarium. They were so confident, the psychologists convinced me I got over hating those guys."

"I think I know what’s bothering you. I’ll be right there. We’ll talk."

I answered her knock and let her in. "Thanks for coming over, Louise. I’m glad you’re here. I’ve got to talk to someone. Who better than you? What I feel I must do may not be in the best interests of the mill. It may cause some bad publicity, but I feel I have to do something about the guys that raped and nearly killed Geri. They have to be punished. I’ve got to go back and finger them, somehow."

"For justice or revenge, Jamie? Or do you have to purge yourself of guilt?"

"I don’t know, and I don’t care! Those bastards have to pay for what they did. They should be hung by their balls! They got away with it!"

"Did they? Jamie, perhaps I should have told you about the recent developments sooner, but you already had so much to on your mind. I thought it wiser to leave you out of all that’s happened back in your hometown until after you and Geri settle in living together. Getting ready to teach and should be more important for the time being, but maybe you’ll feel better about everything if I fill you in.

Hospitals have to report all crimes to the police. The local police investigated the incident, but kept things quiet at the request of her family. Geri’s family whisked her away and hid her. They were afraid for Jerry’s life and couldn’t tell the police much because of the way he was dressed during the crime.

The police did their best to follow up without exposing them but never closed the case. After interviewing you, the sanitarium discreetly filed the compulsory police reports of clues to a crime they discovered, that you provided to their own local police, which were then forwarded to your hometown police to afford you total anonymity by virtue of patient privilege. That’s why you were analyzed instead of questioned by the doctors there. They could protect your identity that way. You gave essential missing information about the crime to the staff at the sanitarium.

The psychologists gathered sufficient information between the two of you to identify Geri’s rapists without exposing either of you or your families to needless adverse publicity. In conjunction with our research, they forwarded follow-ups to Doctor Shields and me. I saw no need to involve you, until now. You had enough to contend with over the past weeks. I’ll share what I know with you now.

In your interviews, you mentioned that some friends tipped off your brothers, so they could beat up four guys who were planning to rape you. The friends of your brothers were identified from the high school records concerning the proposed expulsion of your brothers. The disclosure of that key element enabled the police to interview the friends to identify the culprits without involving your families.

For years, neither your family nor any members of Geri’s family were willing to divulge any connection between you and Geri, not the beating your brothers were involved in giving the four nor Geri’s subsequent rape. They were reluctant to draw public attention to you or Geri. They heard some rumors about how Jerry was dressed, and said no more. You tied the two incidents together, and fingered the suspects.

The school chums not only vindicated your brothers with the school back then, but recently provided sufficient testimony after questioning, to show cause for a court order to secure DNA samples of four guys tagged by school records to be suspects in Geri’s rape, without involving either family, because the four also foolishly bragged about ‘fixing a fairy, but good’ at the time the rape occurred. The must have fallen into disfavor with the people they bragged to, because those people told others about the bragging and the police traced the story to the four, once they had a firm lead, the missing links, you provided.

Current DNA samples from the four suspects matched the DNA of semen from Geri’s clothing and from body fluids extracted form Jerry in the emergency room. Amazing how the forensic pathologists were able to isolate the samples even back then. A semen match alone wouldn’t suffice to result in a conviction on a rape charge. It was possible Geri’s beating could have been caused by someone else, after Geri provided oral and anal sex to the four, willingly. Geri admitted to offering herself to the four, dressed completely as a girl. The evidence wouldn’t assure a conviction, if the four had a sharp lawyer show that she pursued them for sex.

When the four were arrested and interrogated, they unwittingly tried to blame each other, thereby convicting themselves. The testimony from six independent reliable sources merely revealed that they bragged, quote ‘fixing some fairy, but good!’ at a local school hangout, the day after Geri’s assault."

"Doesn’t someone have to press charges against them? Doesn’t someone have to come forward and be the plaintiff?"

"Not in a criminal trial, Jamie. The police officials can use evidence to secure a warrant and file the petition in the name of the state. Geri won’t have to press charges. It may not be necessary for her to even appear in court, due to health conditions. Geri’s family will be spared further embarrassment."

"Won’t publicity about the trial cause the mill’s teaching program more problems? I’m sorry you and Doctor Shields had to get involved with what happened way back then. Drawing attention to what we’ve become is going to be difficult for the mill to explain, when the trial hits the papers."

"The mill won’t be involved. Discreet private detective agencies often provide the police with a lot of useful, verifiable information to help solve crimes, without any need to divulge the identity of their sources. Using a professional and reliable agency, the sanitarium filed the compulsory crime information disclosure reports.

The police know they won’t get anywhere trying to glean more information from them, as the hired detective agency knows the regulations and can advise the sanitarium how to respond, maintaining confidentiality. The detective agency won’t let the police use tricky questions to divulge identities of patients receiving treatment, so they don’t try, ‘cause they’d only jeopardize future cooperation from the detectives. They don’t even let the story ‘leak’ to the press.

The detective agency also insures the police won’t ignore new evidence provided should anyone try to influence the police. The police are aware that someone is very concerned that the evidence be used, the case solved, and the criminals punished. It isn’t necessary for them to know ‘who’ is interested.

Besides, bringing a conviction to an unsolved crime makes the police look good in the public eye. They have much to do and little budgeted for investigating, it’s hard for them to be everywhere. They appreciate the help private detectives can provide.

More help from concerned citizenry to secure convictions of criminals would be an effective crime deterrent. Remember what we discussed about our society being complacent about crimes against those who provide sexual pleasures to others? Geri got dressed up as a girl and went to show four guys a good time. She got more than she bargained for."

"But Louise! Her whole life is drastically changed because of her rape, not to mention the pain and anguish she suffered. How can you accept society’s banal attitude so calmly?"

"Calmly? What good would standing on a soapbox and shouting about society’s ambivalence do? Would that change anything? I’m hardly calm, but getting angry and shouting won’t help. Don’t blame ‘society, either. Like ‘Pogo’ said: ‘We have met the enemy, and we is them.’ We’re society. It’s up to us to take the time and energy to make sure we care, not others.

Don’t just talk, do something. Do something to deter crimes like Geri’s. Isn’t that what you’re doing her, right now? Won’t you be preventing otherwise nice guys from becoming reckless and demanding with unwilling women, and end up doing something they’d later regret for the rest of their lives? Don’t you feel that’s an important contribution to society?

Think about the cards life dealt you. You like men. You enjoy sex with them. You prefer sex with men instead of women. You’d rather be the seduced than be the seducer. You’re a compulsive submissive. You love being taken, used for sexual release by men, many men. Is that so bad? Is that a real crime? It’s unusual, but who’s to say what is or isn’t normal for you?

If you ever feel serious guilt over your sexual preference, either change, or have your sex changed, so you can relocate where no one knows who you were and fulfill all your sexual desires without feeling you are doing something wrong. Save up your money, get the ‘big one, like Geri did and go to Nevada where selling sex is perfectly legal. Once you’ve had enough of trying to make some airhead learn to be a responsible, educated member of society, retire. Go as you are. There are plenty of men that like to sleep with a ‘tranny’.

Jamie, we hired the detective agency to forward the info you provided and do the legwork on Geri’s assault and rape so that you wouldn’t have to try to accomplish something that you weren’t trained to do, something that could put you in danger. You’re concerned that you have to do something to rectify the injustice of what happened to Geri. You already did it. You supplied the key element to bring in a solid conviction. We let trained professional handle it from there to assure it’ll get done right, without undue exposure to either of you or your families.

You are being trained to be an equally important professional. Do what you’re being trained for, that’s the best thing for you to do at this time. We’re all a tight group here. We take care of one another. We’ll take care of Geri and you, too. Together we can get a lot of things done right. When Geri’s ready to hear about what’s going on back home, you can help me to fill her in. We’ll both advise her about the recent apprehension of her assailants and the progress made to get a conviction She’ll like that, but let her get well, first.

Aren’t you at least a little hungry? Slip into something real sexy, and we’ll see if we can get two lonely loggers to buy us dinner."

"Well, I guess there’s nothing left for me to do but wait and see those guys go to jail. I can’t believe it’s over. Ever since that night out in the hall, when I first saw Geri, I felt guilt for what she endured, in my place. It should have been me."

"It shouldn’t have been anybody, Jamie! Besides, Geri didn’t do it for you. Geri did it for herself. She wanted to keep you from experiencing other men, to keep you from discovering your repressed preference for men, until she could seduce you and encourage you to be her exclusive little submissive lover. She already admitted that to you. She planned to seduce you at her earliest opportunity. It did require a lot more than she anticipated, but she did succeed, didn’t she? You are her little submissive lover now, aren’t you?"

"Yes, I am, and I’m glad. I love Geri and I’ll do whatever she expects me to do, even if she wants me to get the big one, like she did. I need her as much as she needs me. If that’s what it takes, I’ll go all the way."

Are you forgetting what she told you to do this evening?"

I was, but not now. Knowing those bastards will get what they deserve; I feel like celebrating! I’ll be ready in a jiff, Louise! As soon as I find something real sexy to wear, let’s go find some men and party all night! Come with me, help me pick something daring to wear for the occasion."

 

Continued in part nine.

 

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