Methinks Thou Dost Protest Too Much

by Teddie S

 

Part 4

Is This Really Me?

 

A few days before the cruise, I was at Abby's place, and she seemed different. I couldn't put my finger on it, but she was somehow different. We were cuddled up on the couch, and just listening to music. She started kissing my neck, and nibbling on my ear. Nothing unusual. This progressed to some deep kissing. Still nothing unusual. But, was I, if it was possible, feeling more passion than usual in her kisses.

It wasn't long before her hands were very busy. We had petted heavily before. But, there was something different in this. And, I was feeling different, the special panties were becoming uncomfortable. Abby gave me a very deep kiss, sat back, and looked at me. I'd never seen this look in her eyes before. Then, in a somewhat husky voice, she whispered, "Maddie. I can't wait any longer. I want you." She stood up, took my hand, and led me to her bedroom. There was no resistance on my part.

Abby became the aggressor. It wasn't long before all of our clothes were on the floor, and we were on her bed. She took control of the situation, and . . .

About an hour later we were laying, cuddled together, on her bed. She looked at me, and whispered, "I'm sorry."

"For what?", I asked.

"We were going to wait."

"I know. I'm surprised we made it this long."

"Maddie. I really do love you."

"I know you do. And, I really love you. And, don't be sorry. I love anything we do together. And, that was fantastic."

"You don't mind that I took the lead."

"No. I loved it."

Two days later as we were boarding the cruise ship, and Katie was handing us our stateroom keys. As she usually does, she handed me the key to the room that we were to share. I looked at Abby, smiled, and swapped keys with Nan, who usually rooms with Abby. Katie looked at me, then Abby, then back at me, and said, "Little sister!"

All I did, was look at her, and smile.

This cruise was a little more crazy than the others, but not too bad. What made it crazier was that the guys doing the recording were also here, and not only did they record the performances, but all the rehearsals. We were able to listen to a number of the recordings, and some of them sounded great. The recording guys told us that the area that we performed in wasn't really that good for recording, but that they could compensate for it. By the end of the cruise, they had more than ten hours of recordings.

I was slipping further into being Maddie. In fact one afternoon, Nan and I were standing at the rail together, and she said, "I've been watching you on this cruise, and I'm not seeing anything of Mat. Everything you do is feminine, almost to a fault."

I looked at her, smiled, and said, "I know."

"You're happy with your new self. Aren't you?"

"Yes. And, thank you."

"For what?"

"For pushing me into being Kyla. If you and Katie hadn't done that, I would never have found myself, or Abby."

"You and Abby are really an item. Aren't you?"

"Yea. I think I've found that one person that really makes me happy. Maybe my soul mate. And, I'm really surprised that we have so much in common."

"Maybe? No maybe about it. Do you think you make her happy?"

"I hope so."

"You do. She and I had a nice long, sisterly, talk about the two of you."

"Really?"

"Yea. And, she feels the same way about you. She told me that you make her very happy. And, that you're stuck with her."

I smiled at Nan, and said, "She's someone really nice to be stuck with. But, why me as Maddie?"

"I asked her that. And, she's not really sure. She liked you when you were Mat, but it was a sisterly thing. Then, when you decided to help the group, and went through all of that, she saw something else in you. And, she just felt that you were someone that she wanted to be with. And, the more you became Maddie, the deeper she fell in love with you. I guess she just saw you for who you are, and fell in love."

Also, during this cruise, Abby became a teacher. She taught me how a woman likes to be loved. Hugging, kissing, cuddling, and touching. Not rushing, but enjoying each other to the fullest. The first time, at her apartment, we had sex, during the cruise, we became lovers.

Two weeks later, Katie received a telegram. And, she wouldn't tell anyone what was in it. I even tried to swipe it from her, but she wouldn't let me see it. All she said was, "Later."

That evening the five of us got together to practice. Katie was the last one to walk into the practice room, and as she did, she said, "I don't think we're going to have a practice tonight."

Everyone looked at her, and Nan asked, "Why?"

"Oh. I just thought that we should celebrate."

"Celebrate what."

"Our first CD."

"What!"

"I got a telegram today from the record producer, and he loved what he heard. And, they are in the process of putting it together. And, it should be released in a month or so."

Everyone got excited, screaming, and hugging, and kissing each other. After we had calmed down a little, mom walked in with six glasses, and a bottle of champagne. We finished that bottle in no time. And, there was no practice that night.

The record company sent a photographer with us on the next cruise, and she took a large number of pictures of the five of us. Both individually, and as a group. The cruise people were very happy, as their ship was featured in publicity for the CD.

A few weeks later, we were looking over the pre-release publicity, and listening to a rough cut of the CD. As we listened to it, I looked at Abby, and whispered, "Do we really sound that good?"

"You had better believe it lover."

The proposed cover photo showed the five of us in one of the ships lifeboats, and the name of the ship was in plain view. There was going to be a total of twenty songs on the CD, Katie had a single, and she and Nan had two duets. The producer had told Katie that the few record people that had heard some of the cuts were very happy with what they heard. And, he felt that the CD would be a hit. Maybe not a gold, but a hit.

A month later, just as we were ready to leave on another cruise, the CD was released. And, we even found some copies in the ship's gift shop. We couldn't believe that we were seeing ourselves on a record cover. On the last day of this cruise, we were all sitting down to lunch, Pam was the last to join us, and she had a big grin on her face. Nan looked at her, and said, "Okay, What put such a big smile on your face?"

"I was just at the gift shop.", Pam answered, "And, they've sold out of our CD's. A hundred copies. And, they had more people asking for them."

This brought smiles to everyone. I looked at Katie, and said, "I sure wish that Gary, and his group, was sharing this with us."

"Me to sis. I do miss those guys."

A few days after this cruise, Abby and I were cuddled together on her couch, and I said, "Abby."

"Yea love."

"I've been thinking."

"That could be dangerous."

"Come on. I'm trying to be serious."

"Sorry. Thinking about what?"

"Me."

"You?"

"Yea. About me, and these forms and panties."

"What about them."

"How much I hate them."

"Hate them?"

"Having to put them on to look feminine."

"And?"

"I've been thinking about the implants again."

She turned so that she could look at me straight in the eyes, and said, "That's a very big step."

"I know. I've been thinking about it for a long time."

"Really?"

"Yea. Every time I look at myself in the mirror, when I'm not wearing my forms and panties, I see my feminine face on a boys body, and I hate it. This face belongs on a girls body."

"I've noticed that too. And, you're right that face does belong on a girl's body."

"You really think so?"

"Yes. You've become a very feminine person. You look very pretty. And, you deserve to be who you should be, and to be happy."

"Would it make you happy?"

"Honey. What ever makes you happy, makes me happy."

I smiled at her, and she kissed me.

The next day, we talked to Katie about it, and she was a little apprehensive. But, only because I was still underage, and mom would have to give her permission. She was concerned about how she would take my decision, and if she would go along with it.

I took the four of us, Abby, Katie, mom, and myself, out to dinner that night. And, as we were enjoying an after dinner glass of wine, Katie winked at me, and said, "Mom. The three of us have been talking about something, and Maddie needs your permission for something."

Mom looked at me, then at Abby, then back at me, and said, "Maddie, you're too young to get married?"

Abby, with a big smile, replied, "Not yet, Mrs. Linton."

"That's mom. And, good. He . . . She's too young. So, what do you need my permission for?"

I told mom my feelings about the forms, and everything. She sat there in silence, and just listened. When I was done, she looked at Katie, then at Abby, then back at me, and said, "I figure that your sister and Abby are going along with this?"

"Yes.", I replied.

"So, I'm going to loose my little boy for good."

"Mom. I'm Maddie. You've known that for some time. You've known that I've been happier since I've been Maddie, then I ever was as Mat."

"I know honey. It's just hard for a mother to loose a son."

"Mom. You're not losing me. I'll always be here. I'll just be who I feel I should be. Someone who can contribute in a way they feel they should."

"I know honey. I know I should have sensed something earlier. I guess I just didn't want to see it. How far are you going?"

"Just breasts, hips, and butt."

"Just! It's a big step."

"I know. I have to go see a psychologist first, to see if this is right for me. And, live as a girl for awhile. I guess I've been doing that already."

"Yes, you have. Our house has become fully feminine. There no sign of Mat anywhere. So, I guess you want my permission to start on this."

"Please."

"I guess if I don't, you'll just wait until your eighteen."

"Mom!"

"I'm sorry honey. But, I'm having a little trouble with this. I'm losing my only son."

"But, you're gaining something better. You're gaining a daughter.", I said, trying to lighten the conversation a little.

"Mom.", Katie said, "Remember back when we had the talk about Mat being depressed. And, we all agreed that he was so much happier when he was a girl. We paid for that session at the spa, and how you said, that he appeared so much happier. Well, he was when he was her. You should see Maddie on the cruises, she is a bundle of energy, and is very happy."

"I'm losing this argument, aren't I.", mom said.

"Mom. If you tell her no. She won't go against you. But, I know she won't be as happy as she could be.", Katie added.

"Maddie.", mom said, with a little sigh, "I want you to be happy. And, if looking like a girl is what it takes. Then, you have my permission to do this. Just be sure."

"Thanks, mom. I am sure. I've thought about this for a long time. And, Abby, Katie, and I have really talked it over. And, we feel that it's the right step."

"Are you going to go all the way with your transformation to a girl?"

"I really don't think so. I'm happy with it as it is. I just want to see a girls body when I look in a mirror, even if I still have to hid some male parts."

"Well girls.", mom added, "Anyone for another glass of wine? I need one."

The next day, I an appointment with a psychologist, Dr. Randall, that Dr. Newsome had recommended. Dr. Randall did some work with the transgendered community, and she could see me the following week.

Two days later, a bouquet of flowers was delivered to the house. I was looking at them when Katie walked up, and asked, "Who are these for?"

"I don't know."

"Did you look at the card?"

"Card?"

"Here silly.", she said, handing me a card that was in the flowers.

I looked at it, and all it said on the envelope was, 'Maddie.'

I slowly opened the envelope, and removed the card. It said, 'Congratulations to you and the group for a hit CD. I finally got a copy of it, and it sounds fantastic. Hope it goes gold.' And, it was signed Gary.

I looked at Katie, and said, "Why just to me, and not the group?"

"I don't know.", Katie said, "Did you read the p.s?"

"P.s?"

"Yea at the bottom."

I read it out loud, "To the prettiest boy that I've ever kissed. If you and Abby ever break up, give me a call. Gary"

I looked at Katie, and said, "How did he know?"

"I have no idea. Unless he saw something in Kyla, that he also saw in Maddie. And, put two and two together. But, I have no idea what it was. Or, how he knew that you're a guy."

This was going to drive me nuts until I figured out how he knew. I talked with Aby about it, but she had no idea either.

Abby went with me to see Dr. Randall, we sat in the waiting room for only a few minutes before she came out, and asked us to come back to her office. After we had made the usual introductions, she asked, "I thought that one of you was a boy, and wanted to transition to a girl?"

I said, "Yes. I do."

"You're not a girl?"

"No. I was born male, and have been living as a girl for the past few months. Dr. Newsome did some work on my face, and said that before I went any further that I had to see a psychologist."

She sat there, and just looked at me for a few seconds, and then said, "Yes it's part of our way to be sure that it's what you really want. So, you've already been living as a girl for a few months. Tell me how all this came about."

We talked for a good hour, and I told Dr. Randall how the whole thing had come about, including the cruises, and my problem with Mark. When I finished, again, she just looked at me for a few seconds, then reached into her desk drawer, and took something out. Then she said, "I thought I had seen you two before." And, she held up our CD.

I looked at Abby, then at the doctor, and said, "That's our CD."

"Yes. I was on the cruise where they were selling these in the gift shop, and I saw your show twice. I can't believe that you two are now sitting in my office, and that Maddie is a boy."

"That's us.", Abby said.

"Your group is really very good."

"Thank you.", Abby and I said in unison.

"So, Maddie, you want to transition to a girl?"

"Not completely."

"By not completely, you mean you don't want to go through sex reassignment surgery. Correct?"

"Right."

"So, you want to do what?"

"Dr. Newsome suggested that I get breast, hip, and butt implants. She also talked with me about hormones. But, I don't like some of the side effects that I've found out about."

"You want to keep your male parts working?"

"Yes."

"You two are more than friends, aren't you?"

I looked at Abby, then said, "Yes. Is that a problem?"

"Not at all. In fact it's good that you have the support that you do. How does you're family feel?"

"My dad is dead. And, my mom had a problem at first, but I think that she is really seeing that I am happier as a girl. In fact, she gave me that name Madeline when we were looking for a girls name. And, she signed a consent form for this. And, my sister, who's the lead singer of the group, is fine with it."

"Lets see you're seventeen. And, you really want to do this?"

"Yes. Very much."

"I have some testing that I need to do. And, I'd still like you to spend another couple of months as a girl, full time. Then, we'll meet again, and make a final determination. And, to be very honest, I see no problem with it. From what I've already heard, and seen, here and on the cruise, you know who you are, and you seem to be very sure of what you want."

"Thank you. I do really feel that I'm now who I should be. And, spending more time as a girl full time, is no problem. What kind of tests are these?"

"They're psychological tests, to basically determine who you are."

"When do you want to do them?"

"We can do them today if you like. It'll take a couple of hours."

I looked at Abby, and she said, "You might as well. I'll go shopping, and come back."

Kiddingly, I said, "Go shopping! Without me?"

Abby looked at the doctor, and said, "She's a real shopaholic."

After Abby left, the doctor took me to a room with a desk in it, and said, "Maddie, I already feel that you know who you are. But, we have to at least go through the motions. And, the tests will tell us for sure. And, I would like to talk with you a few times over the next couple of months. I'm also helping with a research paper, and I think you'd make a nice addition to it. Of course it would be completely anonymous. Would you be willing to do that."

"Sure."

"I'd also like to talk with Abby. Do you think she'd be willing?"

"I don't know why not."

 

I spent the next two and a half hours taking a group of tests. And, Abby was waiting for me when I was finished. The doctor had one last request before we left, and that was to autograph her CD. Our first autographs.

Over the next couple of months, the doctor and I had some long talks. As did the doctor and Abby. And, at the end of our last one, she said, "Maddie, you are very interesting person. Most transgendered people know early in life that they are that way. You found out in your late teens. And, then you found someone, in Abby, that accepts you for who you are. She's a very rare person. When you first walked in here, I was honestly surprised that you weren't a girl. And, after talking with you, you are a girl, really a young woman, or at least as much as you want to be. I've sent Dr. Newsome my report, and I told her that as far as I'm concerned you can transition as far as you want to."

All I could do was sit there and smile. Finally I said, "Thank you. You don't know what this means to me."

"Maddie. You are very welcome. And, I wish you, and your sisters group, all the best."

As I walked into Abby's apartment, she looked at me, and said, "The doctor approved your surgery. Didn't she?"

"How did you know."

"I've seen you happy before. But, you are just glowing."

"Want to go out to dinner?"

It was two weeks before I could see Dr. Newsome. And, again Abby was with me. We went over all the options. And, two weeks later, I was again waking up in her clinic after surgery. And, again my mom, sister, and Abby were there, and they told me that everything went just fine. I just had to be careful of things for a week or two, wear a bra full time for a week, but I was able to go home later that day.

I had to miss one cruise, and we used the excuse of me having the flu. The girls knew the real reason, and by the time they returned, I was back to normal. One day, I had just finished a shower, and was standing naked, looking at my new body in my mirror. My 34C breasts, 25 inch waist, and 32 inch hips. I hadn't closed the door to my room completely, Katie happened to see me, and stopped to watch. I heard her say, "It looks like you're happy with the doctors work?"

I turned around, covering my self, and said, "Very happy."

"You know. I've said this before, but you do make a pretty girl. Now, you have a pretty body to go with it."

I smiled at her, and said, "Thanks. I feel so much better without the forms, and it's nice to have a body to go with the face."

I got to thinking that it was about time that Abby got to meet the new me. We hadn't been together, intimately, since just before my surgery. I think it was because she was afraid of hurting me. So, that evening, I took her out to dinner, and then we went back to her apartment. We sat, cuddled, and listened to music for awhile, and I finally said, as a ruse, "I need to use the bathroom. I'll be right back." But, instead I went to her bedroom, stripped, and put on her short, red, silk robe.

I walked back into the livingroom, and just stood in front of her. She looked up at me, and with a sly grin, said, "What are you up to?"

"Oh nothing much.", I replied, as I undid the robe, slowly slipping it off my shoulders, then lower, exposing my new breasts. And, finally allowing it to drop to the floor.

She smiled, and said, "Nothing much! I'd say that you're up to a lot."

"I just thought that you'd like a formal unveiling of the new body. You've never seen it. Do you like?"

"Very much."

I walked closer to her, smiled, and said, "Want to try it out?"

She reached up, pulled me down on her lap, and kissed me very deeply. And, as I usually do, I just melted in her arms.

Later we were laying on her bed, cuddled together. She cupped one of my new breasts in her hand, and said, "These are so much better then the forms."

"And,", I said, "you sure know how to treat them properly."

My birthday was in late September, and Abby had gotten me, along with other things, a very expensive evening gown. She said it was for special times.

When Christmas rolled around, Abby spend the day with mom, Katie, and I. We had gotten each other some very nice things, and it was really nice spending Christmas with her. After dinner, Abby and I went back to her place, and just cuddled up on the couch. We sat there for a long time listening to music, and just enjoying being with each other.

Finally Abby said, "Oh. I almost forgot. There's another present for you."

"Huh? You've already gotten me such nice things."

"I know. But, you deserve so much more."

"No I don't."

As she handed me a small box, she said, "Don't argue love. This is for you."

I unwrapped it, opened it, and inside was a small black velvet box. I took that out, opened it, and there was a ring inside. An engagement ring. I looked at her. And, all she said was, "Will you marry me?"

And, the tears started. I think I cried more then, then I did when Mark attacked me. But, for other reasons. Abby held me close, and said, "There's nothing to cry about."

"I'm sorry. But, I'm so happy. I . . . I never expected this."

"And?"

"Yes. I'll marry you. But, shouldn't I be asking you?"

"Does it matter who asks who? As long as it's asked."

"No. I guess it doesn't."

I looked at the ring again, and said, "It's so beautiful."

"Just like you my love."

Abby took the ring out of the box, and slipped it on my left ring finger. I wrapped my arms around her neck, and hugged her for all I was worth. I finally sat back, looked at the ring again, looked at Abby, and said, "I couldn't love anyone any more than I love you." And, we kissed.

We sat there for a long time just cuddling with each other. There was a gentle knock on the door. I looked at the clock it was ten-fifteen. Then I looked at Abby. She asked, "Honey. Would you see who's there?" I got up, opened the door, and there was my mom, Katie, Nan, and Pam.

My mom, smiled, and said, "Surprise honey."

I just stood there, and looked at them.

"Little sister.", Katie said, "Can we come in?"

"Sure. Sorry. Yes. Come on in."

"We came over to celebrate with you and Abby."

"You knew about . . . "

"Sure. We all knew a little while ago that Abby was going to ask you this Christmas. In fact Abby even asked mom's permission."

"And, you kept the secret?"

"Yea. And, it was hard.", Nan said.

We sat around and chatted for a while. Abby, got everyone a glass of champagne. And, they toasted us. Then, Mom said, "Usually the boy gives the girl a ring. But, with two girls I just don't know. Abby gave you a ring, so I guess maybe you need to give her one."

And, mom handed me a small velvet box. I opened it, and it contained an engagement ring. An old engagement ring. I looked at it, looked at my mom, and said, "This is grandma's?"

"Yes. She wanted you to have it, to give to your wife. And, I guess that's going to be Abby."

I looked at Abby. And, she was grinning. I took the ring out of the box, and slipped it on her left ring finger, as I asked her, "Will you marry me?"

"Yes, my love. In a heart beat.", Abby answered.

And, we kissed.

The six of us sat there, and talked well into the night. The only one getting sleepy was mom, she wasn't use to being up this late. Abby and Katie told us how they had planned this whole thing, and how hard it was to keep it a secret from me.

On the following cruise, Abby and I were walking on deck, and I said, "You know what would be neat?"

"What?"

"To be married on the ship."

"You romantic you."

 

"So, you like the idea."

"No. I love it."

We went, and talked to the Cruise Director, and she told us that we'd have to talk to the Captain. And, that she'd set up an appointment for us.

The following afternoon, Abby and I sat down with the Captain and Cruise Director, and talked about having a wedding on one of the cruises in June. A small private wedding. The Captain told us that he would be very happy to perform the ceremony for the couple. And, that since he was a Notary Public he did have the legal right to do so. The Cruise Director also said that they had a stateroom for special couples, and it would be the couples for that cruise. And, that they also needed to sit down with her to do the actual planning.

I guess we neglected to tell them that it was Abby and I that were getting married, because the Cruise Director said, "I figure that one of you is the bride, but who's the lucky guy?"

Abby and I looked at each other, and then Abby said, "Well. Actually it would be a double bride ceremony. Maddie and I are the couple. Is here a problem with a same sex marriage?"

"I haven't ever performed one.", the Captain said, "But, I guess I could."

The Cruise Director smiled at us, and said, "I had an idea that you two were more than friends."

"It's that obvious?", Abby asked her.

"Yes."

The Captain added, "As long as you have a valid marriage license I can perform the ceremony."

The next day, while Abby and I were eating, the Cruise Director found us, and asked, "Do you mind if I join you?"

"Not at all.", Abby replied.

As she sat, she said, "I did some checking for you two. And, you can obtain a same sex marriage license in the States only in Massachusetts. And, overseas in Belgium, Canada, the Netherlands, and Spain. And, we really do look forward to helping you two."

"Thank you.", we said in unison.

We sat, and chatted with Cathy, the Cruise Director, for a while. Finally Abby asked, "Cathy. How did you know that we were more than just friends?"

"Just watching you two together. You hold hand, not like friends, but like lovers. I've seen you standing at the rail, with your arms around each other. And, I guess that it takes one to know one."

"Takes one to know one?"

"I'm a lesbian, too."

Abby smiled a little, looked at me, and said, "Can I tell her."

"What?", I asked.

"About you."

"I . . . I guess."

"Tell me what?", Cathy asked.

"About Maddie."

"What about Maddie?"

"This is in complete confidence. Okay?"

"Okay. I'm not out to anyone either."

"This is just a little different. Maddie isn't a she."

Cathy sat back in her seat, looked at me, and said, "She's not a she?"

"Right. Maddie was born a boy." And, Abby went on give Cathy a short version of our story. When she was done, Cathy just looked at me for the longest time, then said, "No way. There is no way that I would have ever thought of you being anything but a girl. You have transitioned so completely. But, you're not going to fully transition?"

Smiling at Abby, I replied, "No. We like it this way."

Cathy looked at Abby, smiled, and nodded.

Just then one of the ships officers walked up, and Cathy said, "Maddie and Abby. This is Gina, she's the ships third officer. Gina, this is Maddie and Abby."

Gina was a very pretty girl, and appeared to be of Italian descent. If I wasn't so much in love with Abby . . . What am I thinking!

We exchanged smiles, and hellos. And, Cathy continued, "Sit, and join us."

Gina sat, and said, "I've seen at least one of your performances on each cruise that you've been on. I just love your sound."

"Thank you.", Abby said.

"Gina and I are lovers.", Cathy said.

Gina looked at her, with surprise in her eyes, and whispered, "I though we were going to keep that our secret?"

"Sweet heart. From what I've just heard, our secret is completely safe with these two."

"They're lesbians too. Right?"

Looking at us, Cathy asked, "Do you mind if I tell her? She's very good at keeping secrets."

Abby looked at me, and said, "Do you mind?"

"No. As long as it doesn't go any further."

"It won't.", Cathy said. Then looking at Gina, she said, "They're really not lesbians. But, they're lovers."

"Not really lesbians. But, they're lovers. And, this is the couple that wants the same sex marriage?"

"This is them. And, they're not lesbians. Which one isn't a girl?"

"They're both girls!?"

"No. One isn't. Which one?"

"You are kidding me?"

"No."

"I . . . I don't know."

I couldn't help it, I just grinned at Gina.

"No.", Gina said, "You're a girl?"

I slowly shook my head no. And, Abby and Cathy laughed at Gina's reaction.

The four of us sat and chatted for awhile longer, filling Gina in on my story. Finally Gina and Cathy had to go back to their duties. And, Abby and I had made two new friends.

That night after our performance, Abby and I were getting read for bed. And, I suddenly had a very nasty thought, and I guess my face showed it. Because, Abby said, "What's wrong love?"

"Don't I need a birth certificate, or drivers license, or something like that to get a marriage license?"

"Yes."

"I think we may have a real problem."

"What?"

"My birth certificate has my male name on it, and says that I'm a male. And, so does my drivers license."

"Oh."

"And, I look no more male than the Mona Lisa."

As soon as we were back from the cruise, I was on the phone to Dr. Randall explaining the problem, and hoping that she knew an answer. She chuckled a bit, and said, "Maddie. You're in luck. This state will not only allow you to change your name and sex on your drivers license. But, also on your birth certificate. All you need is a letter from me saying that you are living full time as a female, and are undergoing treatment."

"But, I'm not undergoing treatment.", I replied.

"Yes you are. You are a patient of mine, and Dr. Newsomes'. And, you are undergoing treatment."

"But . . . "

"Don't worry. I'll have a letter for you tomorrow. And, I'll call Dr. Newsome as soon as we hang up, and she'll also have a letter for you just as quick. We've both done this before. And, all this will cost you is an invitation to the wedding."

Within two weeks, I had both a drivers license and a birth certificate that said, Madeline Jean Linton, female. And, then we started looking for someplace that would issue us a marriage license. We found that Massachusetts requires you to be a resident, so that was out. But, Canada was a possibility, you don't have to be a resident, only have proof of who you are, and two witnesses.

At the end of one cruise in early May the five of us, instead of flying home, flew to Toronto. Abby and I only needed two witnesses for our marriage license, but the five of us were like sisters. We spend two days in a very fun city, and returned home with our marriage license.

The second cruise in June was the big one. We had a special guest with us, my mom. Abby's parents, we won't talk about. So, after our gig the second night of the cruise, Abby and I almost ran back to out stateroom to change. And, what a stateroom it was. I was going to wear that special dress that Abby had gotten me. And, I hadn't seen her dress yet. When we got to the stateroom, we helped each other out of the dresses that we had worn for the gig.

That evening, Abby and I had both worn identical lingerie, a thong, garter belt, demi bra, all in white satin. And, white nylons.

As I stepped out of my dress, Abby said, "Love. You look so sexy in those."

"So do you babe."

"Like the thong?"

"Yea. This is the first time I've worn one, except for waxing. And, it's kind of nice."

"Guess we'll have to get you a few sets. You really do look sexy in them."

Abby helped me into my dress, and zipped it up. I changed shoes, to a pair of white pumps, as she put her dress on. It was identical to mine. I looked at her, and said, "You look so pretty. You got these dresses at the same time, knowing that we were going to be married. Didn't you?"

"I saw these, and just had to have them. I figured that you wouldn't mind me picking out your wedding dress."

"I just love everything you buy me. You know me better than I know myself."

"We'd better hurry, or your mom is going to fall asleep."

I smiled, and laughed a little, then said, "I doubt it. It's not everyday your son, who looks more like a daughter, gets married."

We were going to be married in the Captain's quarters in front of special friends. Mom was there, Katie, Nan, and Pam. Cathy, the Cruise Director, and her lover Gina. And, Dr. Newsome. Abby and I had written a short ceremony, where each of us swore our love to each other. The Captain did his part, with, "Do you Madeline take Abigail to be your lawfully wedded spouse?"

I replied, "I do, with all the love in my heart."

He then said, "Do you Abigail take Madeline as your lawfully wedded spouse?"

Abby said, "With all my heart, yes."

Then he said, "I know pronounce you spouses for life."

Abby and I kissed each other, and we were married. There was a nice round of applause when the Captain said, "I now present to you Miss Madeline Jean Robinson-Linton and Miss Abigail Beth Robinson-Linton." We had decided to hyphenate our last names, and we tossed a coin to see whose would be first.

After the ceremony, there were hugs and kisses all around. Cathy and Gina were the last to congratulate us, it was a very warm kiss on the lips, and hugs. As we were leaving the Captains quarters, Cathy and Gina walked with us.

Cathy said, "You two got us thinking. And, I think we're both going to come out. And, then in time, hopefully we're going to marry."

"Why wait?", Abby asked.

"We've only know each other for a couple of months. And, want to be sure. But, we both feel that it's time to let everyone know who we are. You two are the only ones that we've told so far."

"I guess it's best to be sure."

We said goodnight to Cathy and Gina at our stateroom door with hugs and kisses. This stateroom was something else, it was the owners suite. It had a king size bed, full bath, private balcony, big screen television, bar, and a large sitting area. As I walked in, I kicked off my heels, turned around, wrapped my arms around Abby's neck, and gave her a long, deep kiss. I felt her unzip my dress, and it fell to the floor, and I stepped out of it. She turned around, and said, "Unzip me?" She didn't have to ask twice.

She stepped out of her dress, and looked just so sexy standing there in her demi bra, thong, garter belt, nylons, and heels. I kissed her again, and I felt her undo my bra. I reciprocated. And, our bras hit the floor at about the same time.

She ran her hands down my body, sending chills through me, and looped her fingers through the waist band of my thong. And, as she bend down, she slowly slid my thong down my legs, and I carefully stepped out of it. I can't describe what I was feeling, but I knew my knees felt like they were ready to buckle.

I wrapped my arms around her neck again, she was still wearing her three inch heels, so she was five inches taller than I was. I had to stand on my tip toes to kiss her, but it was another long, deep, kiss. After we broke the kiss, she started to remove her thong, and I stopped her. I knelt down in front of her, and slowly removed her thong, then helped her step out of her heels.

She helped me to my feet, took my hand, and lead me to the bed. That night, and it was the whole night and into the following morning, we consummated our marriage.

We were only on a few more cruises, as our CD really took off. The record producer had us go on tour, first in the States, and then in Europe. And, today we are a well know girls group.

Well that's the story of my life so far. I started out as a somewhat typical boy, coerced into helping my sisters all girls group when one member was hurt. Somehow I became a passable black girl. Then the four girls decided that they sounded better with a fifth voice, mine. So, when the injured girl returned, I became a very passable white girl. And, in doing so, I found that I was happier being a girl than a boy. Then there was Abby, one of the girls in the group, we fell in love. She had a thing for my female side, and I had a thing for her. And, we ended up getting married in a double bride ceremony on one of our cruises.

We never did figure out how Gary knew I was a guy, and may never figure it out. And, Mark is far out of the scene. Did Abbey and I live happily ever after? You bet.

 

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