"Like an angel standing guard, There you are..." -- Martina McBride
"Give me a reason now that I can understand,
...I close my eyes and there, There you are..." -- Goo Goo Dolls
"There you are - when my heart is doubting..." -- Carolyn Arends

  

A Life Ever Changing

by Angel

#34 There You Are

  

Shortly after that I felt the car move and we were on our way...

I sat there in this huge car and asked my Auntie Helen what kind of car it was she told me it was called a limousine or limo for short. It was used to take people to important events or special outings.

She said, "Angel, a limo is a status symbol, when people see a limousine pull up they will usually stop to see who gets out of it." She chuckled and continued, "Honey, if you wish to make an impression or even just to be able to pull right up to an entrance a limo lets you do just that.

She smiled and I said, "Auntie, I like this limo, it's big and it's real neat!"

She laughed and said, "Oh, Angel, I do to."

She gave me a hug and a kiss, which I returned. I started to think then looking around taking in what I saw. The huge car had two back seats facing each other with a lot of room between them. There was a phone a little bar with ice and glasses some bottles of booze and soda pop. There was a screen covering a window to the front seat where the driver was and there were curtains on all the windows. It felt good to sit on the red leather seats not having to wear diapers anymore. I was a young girl now, and no longer a big baby! We were off to my Auntie Harriet's house and I was going to get my hair done real nice to make my mommy happier. I knew she would like me to look real good and I wanted to look as pretty as I could for her. I also knew I would need to stay looking pretty for my new jobs and my singing. I just sat there and pondered some more on what my life was going to be like in the future. I glanced at Auntie Helen and it looked like she was thinking about something as well. She had that far away look and was deep in thought.

I was a girl now! I looked like a girl and I sounded like a girl. Everybody always said I was too pretty to be a boy before and now I wasn't a boy any longer. My penis was completely hidden inside of me, one of the ladies said I had a cute little cunny. I had little breasts, a small waist and a girl's bottom. That is what the ladies had told me anyway, during the picture shoot. They said my eyes were my best feature and I had natural long curly lashes, a cute nose, and my lips were a perfect cupid shape, whatever that meant. My hair was thick full baby-fine and soft. My ears were made for piercing, so they said. Then there was my singing voice and I already knew how that sounded. I guess I was much better off as a girl than as the boy I was born as. One thing I didn't want to think about and pushed out of my mind real fast when I did was school!

The car slowed and came to a stop. John opened the door nearest Auntie Helen and offered her his hand to help her out. My door opened a short time later and John helped me out of the limo. He closed the door and just stood by the limousine and waited for our return. We headed into Auntie Harriet's house and she was there waiting for us.

She must have driven real fast like Sylvia does because she already had the hair stuff for me out and waiting. She had me undress to my bra and panties then slipped a pink plastic robe with a wide opening at the neck on me. She shampooed my hair and conditioned it, rinsing it real well. Auntie then used some gel and little papers then rolled my hair on rollers of different sizes. My whole head was covered in curlers! She put some cotton in my ears then she put a hair net on my head tied it in the back and lowered a big hairdryer over it. I was glad for the cotton in my ears because this machine made a lot of noise! Auntie gave me a hairstyling magazine to read I saw many different styles and some were real pretty but I didn't have enough hair for most of them. Before I knew it the dryer was turned off and Auntie took off the hairnet and removed all the curlers. She brushed out my hair and I saw Auntie Helen smile real big and she said, "Angel, you look just like your name, a beautiful angel."

Auntie Helen took my hand and led me to a mirror and what I saw was a beautiful young girl with flowing curls all blond and shining. She sat me down and did a little plucking of my eyebrows and then she smiled saying "Now my little beauty, we can go see your mommy and make her very happy."

I was very excited and jumped up and hugged her and kissed Auntie Harriet a lot.

She laughed and said, "Now, my dear one, you have to get dressed."

Both Aunties Helen and Harriet helped me get dressed again. Auntie Helen asked Harriet to join us in the limo and she agreed with a big smile. Auntie Harriet washed up and dressed real fast. When she came back down stairs she looked real pretty and we went to the car and John was their holding the door for us. We all got in and we were off to the hospital at last! I was going to see my mommy!

I really wanted to see out the window so I pulled the curtain aside so I could and it was real neat! Almost everybody we drove by, were trying to look into the limo to see who was inside. Some when they saw me peeking waved so I waved back and they smiled. This was so cool! Auntie Helen was chuckling watching me and Auntie Harriet started to laugh.

In no time at all, I saw through the window we were arriving at the hospital's main entrance. Some people who were walking outside stopped and were looking at the limo. John got out and opened the door on Auntie Helen's side. Helen and Auntie Harriet got out and as Helen whispered to me to wait for John and get out on my side.

I waited and John opened my door and said in a voice just loud enough to be heard by those standing around staring, "Miss Angel, do you wish me to wait for you here, or shall I park and await your call?"

I giggled and knew my Auntie Helen had asked him to do this while she was on the phone. She must have been setting this up with him. So I played along and said loud enough for all to hear, "John, you may park and await my call, I will be awhile."

He answered, "Yes, Miss Angel," and he gave me a wink and a smile and I giggled again.

Auntie Helen and Auntie Harriet each took one of my hands as we entered the hospital with everyone gawking at me. We all giggled and I thanked Auntie Helen and told her it was a lot of fun.

We got serious real quickly as we entered the main lobby and arrived at the visitor's desk. Auntie Harriet talked to the elderly lady volunteer behind the desk and soon we were on our way to the elevators with visiting passes in hand. We got onto the elevator and we noticed that two young boys from outside had followed us and also got on the elevator. One was about ten and the other was an early teen they looked like brothers. Each held a visitor's pass and they were openly staring at me so I said Hi and they both answered with Hi and blushed.

I chuckled, as did both my auntie's. They didn't stare but looked at the floor for the remainder of our ride up to the fourth floor. We all got out as I followed Auntie Helen to my mommy's room. The two boys went into a room a few doors down from my mommy's. As we entered my mommy's room I saw her sitting up in bed and she was talking to Mrs. Russell and Glena who were also visiting.

I ran to my mommy but was careful not to hurt her as I gently hugged her and kissed her. She smiled and looked real happy to see us. She looked real bad though, her face was bruised and swollen and one of her eyes had a bandage over it. Her hands and arms were bandaged as well. I knew she had fought my daddy with everything she had. Her lips were swollen and broken but she smiled anyway as she hugged me and kissed me. I wanted to hurt my daddy real bad for doing this to my mommy!

She told me how pretty I looked and that was when Auntie Helen came over to her and showed the photographs of me in the big baby clothes. Everybody loved them and we all laughed at some of the funny poses especially the ones that I had my Bottom stuck up in the air while holding my ankles and smiling to show off the fancy plastic panties. We talked about everything and anything but no words were ever said about what my daddy had done to her.

My mommy asked me to model my outfit and I did and then just before visiting hours were over she asked me to sing her a song. She wanted me to sing "There You Are" it is a song of how God can be seen everywhere if you just look and it was a very beautiful song and just before the end of it you sang in one long breath a variety of notes and ended it with, "There you are." My mommy really loved that song. A nurse came in just then to tell us we had to leave and my mommy asked her if I could just sing a song for her before we left and the nurse said yes and waited in the room with us. I took a deep breath and calmed myself and went within and started singing.

When I was done I looked at my mommy and she was smiling but crying. I looked around and there were now four nurses in the room and people in the hallway as well. My aunties were smiling and so were Glena and Mrs. Russell, the other people were all saying things at once in low tones so I just went over to my mommy and told her I loved and missed her. I hugged her gently and kissed her. I told her to get better real soon and not to worry because I was going to be the best girl ever. She smiled and still crying told me she loved me and that she knew I would be real good and she would be home soon.

Mrs. Russell and Glena were talking to the nurses and the people outside in the hallway. I couldn't make out what they were saying because they were talking in soft whispers. One of the nurses went over to my mommy and asked her something and my mommy said, "Ask Angel, I am sure she would be happy to."

The nurse came over to me and asked, "Angel, you sing beautifully, can I ask you to sing that song for someone who really needs to hear it? This woman is very old and tired she has no one to visit her and she is very lonely."

I said, "Yes, if I can make her happy and not feel lonely I will sing to her all night long!" Everybody chuckled and smiled as the nurse led me, my aunties, Mrs. Russell, and Glena to the lonely ladies room.

We took the elevator down to the second floor and the nurse asked the others to wait out in the hall as she took my hand and led me into a room. There was a very old lady who did not look well at all lying in bed and she did look very lonely. The nurse said gently to her, "Mrs. Wentworth I have someone with me who wishes to sing you a song."

With that said Mrs. Wentworth looked over and saw me she smiled and asked me in a very weak voice what my name was. I told her my name was Angel and I wanted to sing her a song called "There You Are" and I hoped it would make her happy. She motioned me closer and when I went to her she gave me a gentle hug and asked me to sing it for her. This time when I looked around there were already six nurses in the room and the hallway looked like it was filled with patients and more nurses. Why were all those people hanging around?

My aunties were in the room as were Glena and Mrs. Russell and that made me feel better. I walked up close to Mrs. Wentworth took a deep breath went within and started singing once again. When I was done singing I was once again aware of my surroundings and it was very quiet.

I looked at Mrs. Wentworth and her eyes were filled with tears. I hugged her and kissed her saying, "Oh, please don't cry, I wanted to make you happy not sad."

I started to tear then as she hugged me to her and patted her bed, asking me to sit with her and I did. The nurses broke the crowd up, sending them back to their rooms, leaving my aunties with me. Glena and Mrs. Russell said goodbye to us and left.

Mrs. Wentworth said, "Oh, my dear Angel, and that is what you are, a living angel sent from Heaven to bring us sad and lonely old ladies joy and happiness in our final days. These are not tears of sadness dear child but tears of joy and happiness."

We sat and talked for a long time and she seemed to come to life then. She no longer looked tired and lonely but full of life with an eagerness to share the stories of her long life with me.

When the nurse came over and said that it was late and we really had stayed way over visiting time already, Mrs. Wentworth asked her to write down my full name and address. My Auntie Helen gave her the information and I gave Mrs. Wentworth a final hug and a kiss and said goodbye.

Auntie Helen asked to use a phone to call John and have him pick us up so the nurse had her go to the nurse's station. I waited with Auntie Harriet while several nurses came over to tell me how pretty I was and how I sang so beautifully. I thanked them and Auntie Helen said we were ready and we left, holding hands.

It took us awhile because we kept being stopped by nurses and patients who wanted to talk to us and thank me for singing. I must have been hugged and kissed a hundred times! Finally we made it to John and we were all inside the limo sitting down and happy. As we drove away I was looking through the curtain and had to wave because there were more than a few people standing outside waving at me. My aunties chuckled and as I sat back I started to laugh as well.

Then I looked at my aunties and said, "My mommy looked like she was hurt real bad."

  

  

  

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