I Am Me

by Bythe Spirit

 

Chapter one - Ego Problems

 

My new stepmother (to be) was not only beautiful. She was young, well Ok she was 30. She was fun and she just adored her new son to be. Mummy Emma!! She cooked fabulously, served ice cream 'cos it was fun and always slipped me a few extra dollars when dad wasn't looking. Just as good she was a very successful children's illustrator and so she worked from home. So she was all ways there for me. I was totally infatuated with her. I adored her! I'd die for her! Which is probably why I'm now her stepdaughter and not her stepson.

The romance was whirlwind to say the least. They met, got engaged, and finally agreed to be married all in 16 weeks. Christ she even had a son, Alex who was a couple of years older than me and away at boarding school, The first time I was going to meet him was a week before the wedding. We'd spoken on the phone and he seemed really cool. The big brother I'd never had! We moved from our cramped flat into her much, much bigger house. Gee not that I minded. I had this huge bedroom all to myself, even its own bathroom

The first surprise of my new life was a few of weeks before the wedding. Susie had come into my room to tuck me in. She had started that the very first night we moved. Even at 12 being tucked in by a beautiful stepmother to-be was a real ball, never mind the hugs and little good night peck on the cheek and more lately, right on my lips.

"Simon," she started, "I have something very important to tell you and even bigger favour to ask of you!"

I had never seen her this serious… "Whatever," I declared valiantly, "just ask and it's yours." (Silly boy!)

"It's about Alex."

"Gee I can't wait to meet him I know we'll be great mates."

"Oh I do hope so but you see Alex has a problem. A really big problem and we need your help."

I stared into her big blue eyes, oh how could I resist. "Anything! Anything at all! Just tell me!"

"Well," she smiled so sweetly, "Alex has a very rare disorder. It's not life threatening, but they can't cure him until he's much older." She paused which just heightened the tension. "You see Simon, when Alex was about your age, a bit younger really, he started to go through puberty and things went wrong, really wrong for him."

I looked at her in absolute bewilderment. I knew….. well sort of knew, about the puberty stuff. So what could go wrong. Christ had his willy dropped off or something!

"Alex is scared you'll laugh at him. Scared you'll hate him. Won't be his friend. Won't want to be his brother."

"Oh Mummy," Yes I was already calling her by that lovely name. A name I had not been able to use since I was three, Alex is great, at least on the phone. He makes me feel great! He takes such an interest in me, just like a big brother would!"

"Yes sweetheart I know but……..," tears came into her eyes, "he's threatening to stay at school and never come home and not even come to the weeding unless…."

I was panicking. I was about to lose my big brother, even before I had one! "Unless what? Tell me what can I do. I want to know?"

"Unless you ask him personally and promise not to make fun of him."

"I will! I will! But why would I make fun of him? I've never even met him. And what's that got to do with puberty. I don't understand?"

Susie took a deep breath. "Simon sweetie." I loved it when she spoke like that to me. It made me feel so loved. She hugged me tightly. Gee I could even feel her nice boobs pressing against my chest and I was getting excited. Good job my duvet hid the evidence.

"Sweetie it's like this. Alex stated growing in all the right places, but also in one, well two wrong places. You see darling, he has little boobs all of his own."

I was shocked. Absolutely dumbfounded.

"The doctors say it's really rare. It'll go away eventually but not until he's an adult. Only then can they treat him with the drugs he needs. Failing that he can have them surgically removed, but that'll scar of course. So you see Alex is very nervous …….., scared …….., about meeting you. That's why she's away at boarding school. It's only small, 40 odd kids. And they all have some sort of physical or intellectual difference, so there's no harassment, just acceptance and lots of support for each other."

"So Mummy what do you want me to do? I don't mind I really don't! Its not Alex's fault!. I won't laugh. I'll be really sensible. I'll ring him and tell him. I'll even beg him to come home. I really can't wait to meet my new big brother."

"Oh sweetie, your daddy said you'd understand, but unfortunately that's not all. You see Alex will only come to the wedding if he can be a bridesmaid. It's the only way he can appear in public. He looks so like a girl now. He just can't hide his boobies anymore not like when she was only 12 or 13. Like all young girls they just get bigger."

"You mean he has to dress as a girl?" I asked incredulously

"Yes Simon I'm afraid he does. All the time! He's actually very good at it. Look!" She pulled out a small snapshot from her skirt pocket and handed it to me.

I was amazed. The photo was of a gorgeous young blonde teen, about 15 years old. She was wearing a pink crop top, which really showed of her boobs nicely and a very short denim skirt. Her legs were just awesome.

"Boy he.... oops she's beautiful!"

"I know I'm very proud of her, she really does carry of the role well. Even I call her Alexis her these days. Nobody ever realises that he …. she's really a boy. I can take her anywhere. In fact she's even been chatted up by the local boys when she goes into the nearest town, which is much more often now a days."

"I'll ring him, oooops her..... Oh I mean Alexis right now." I declared, "she can be big my sister for as long as she likes,"

Susie hugged me tightly again and kissed me again. Not a motherly little peck on the cheek, but full on the lips. I was over the moon. No girl had ever kissed me like that before.

She pulled the duvet off from me. "OK let's do that right now."

She looked down at my groin and gasped. My little willy was standing quite erect and had slipped out of my PJ bottoms. I went bright red. "I'm sorry mum it's just…."

She smiled nicely. "Oh Simon I do understand these things. In any case just like your father, he gets just as excitable just as easy."

Then to my utter amazement she reached down and grasped my hard little willy popped it back in my PJ's and pulled them closed. She stood up and smiled sweetly. "See you downstairs in a couple of minutes OK"

No sooner was she out of the door that I almost ripped my cock from out of my PJ's and began beating frantically on my meat. She had left the photo by the bed and I picked it up. God Alexis was so sexy. Beautiful tits, those long legs. She was a dreamboat. Then much to my embarrassment I shot my load all over her picture. One drop even landed on her open mouth, which caused me to shudder even more with pleasure.

If only had I know that both Susie and as my father were watching through a crack in the connecting door to the bathroom. "See" Susie said "I knew he'd come along and did you see him shoot? I don't think there'll be any problem of him and Alexis getting along."

My father just chuckled softly. "Yeh," he whispered, "just like his old man eh." And with that they scuttled off to their own bedroom

It was a good ten minutes before I appeared down stairs this time safely wrapped in my dressing gown. A few minutes later Mummy came downstairs, my father a few minutes later. I was on the phone telling Alexis as Susie now insisted I called him, that I was really excited by the prospect of him being a bridesmaid at his mother's wedding and I'd never forgive him if he piked out now.

Alexis sounded so pleased. And promised to be there as soon as term finished. Just as I was as about to hand the phone to Susie. he asked me one last favour. My face went bright red, but I stuttered out an affirmative reply before passing the phone like a hot potato to Susie.

"What's up sport?" my father smiled.

I gaped for moment Alexis still wants to share a room with me. But…….?"

"So?' said my dad seriously, "he's still your new big brother. This'll be the best way for you to reassure him that you meant everything you said."

As I slipped back into bed having got another goodnight hug and kiss from Susie and also from my father, I could only think of one thing. Alexis's boobs! Only this time she wasn't wearing her crop top. She wasn't wearing anything. I couldn't wait to see if my mental image; no fantasy, matched the real thing. I didn't see how I wouldn't get to see her. Crying out loud we were going to share a room!

As I snuggled down to at least try and get to sleep I glanced across at what was Alex's bed, now to be Alexis's. It was only an arms reach away. I reached out and touched the edge of the pillow and patted it. "Good night Alexis, Sweet dreams," I murmured out loud, more to myself than anything else.

Watching in the wings again, were Susie and my dad. "This is going to be so, so easy and so much fun for us all," whispered Susie. "Now I think it's time you and I adjourned to bed. Or should I say Chrissie and I."

My dad just giggled softly, a girlish laugh. "Oh yes I'm sure Chrissie would love that. I'll just go and get her ready!

The next few days passed in a whirl. If I hadn't been so excited by all that was happening and so gullible, I may have seen what was coming a lot, lot sooner. There were no big change just lots of small things. And I was conned by each and every one of them

Firstly the bed sheets. They were swapped for satin ones, so grown up, so smooth, so utterly wonderful to the touch. That first night sleeping on them and laying back playing with myself it was so sexy.

Second accidentally finding a photo album in Susie's room, no I wasn't snooping, she sent me to get something for my dad and there it was in the bottom of the walk-in wardrobe. The photos were all of Alex or should I say Alexis. Starting about 12. His boobs were just beginning to sprout. I knew that 'cos there were several shots of him in his underwear, you know training bra, sexy lace camisoles, sweet embroidered vests and even in bikinis, as well as some just in his cute little knickers. The photos basically catalogued his growth from a tiny twelve year old to a very sexy nicely developed fifteen year old. He .... oooops she, wasn't that big in that department, but they were by then quite prefect, Small pointed little titties capped with the most delightful nipples. As I lay awake I bed that night after I assumed Mummy and dad had gone to bed. They hadn't --- they were watching --- yes again --- as I flicked thru the album and jerked off over the sexiest pics of Alexis.

 

 

The following day passed in a whirl. There was so much to do and by early evening I was ready for bed. I went off for my shower

Then came my PJ's! I should have seen it coming, but I was so besotted by Mummy I just hopelessly agreed. They were on the bed after my shower. I thought they were Alexis's perhaps, Susie came in as I was rummaging through my drawers for my own clean pj's.

"I bought you new ones Simon, you liked your new sheets I thought you'd like matching pj's; your father likes his. "Oh mum," I protested. I thought they were Alexis's, they're tooo…. Girly for me."

At that moment he walked in wearing his own soft light blue ones. They looked awfully effeminate but hey dad was wearing them. I picked them up and slipped the top on. They were the same, but different, dad's were plain but mine had sweet lacy edges.

"Of Simon I'm so sorry, I didn't realize they were like that." A little tear ran down her cheek. "I can't take them back now you've worn the top I'll just have to throw then away.

I was really shocked. She was so sorry and so upset. What jerk I was. They were only pj's and they did feel quite nice. So cool and so soft. "Oh Mummy don't worry. They're very nice, I will wear them. It'd be such a waste!"

"Oh Simon," she gushed happily, "you are so sweet!"

"That's the go buddy," said Dad "You're so grown up and so sensible."

Egos have a lot to answer for. I felt so proud at that comment.

Mummy picked up the bottoms and held them out for me . They were short bottoms, not like dad's long pants. But hey I wasn't going to complain again was I?

Dad walked out muttering nice things about me, which was really lucky, 'cos my willy was doing its own thing again. As I lifted one leg to slip into the bottoms it was extremely obvious to both Susie and I.

"Oh Simon you really are a big boy," she smiled nicely and as she pulled up my PJ bottoms she gently held my hard willy in her hand. I nearly came there and then. She gently massaged it before she slipped me inside my PJ's. She made me lie down and gently rubbed my crutch thru the silk p.j.'s. It was too much and I came then and there, right into my new silky p.j.'s

She pretended not to notice and pulled the duvet up. Before leaning over and kissing just like last time long and hard her tongue playing with my lips. I was just totally under her spell. After she left I curled up all tingling. I did enjoy the feeling my new pj's and it was OK 'cos dad wore similar ones and in any case who was to know. Hey I could live with this pleasure anytime.

The following morning I woke with a huge hard on. I pulled out the photo and wanked over the nearly nude ones of Alexis. Even at 12 she was quite beautiful. Had she always had shoulder length hair even before her medical problem?

Susie came I just as is slipped the album back into my drawer.

"Hey sleepyhead," and she kissed me full on the mouth again Gee I could get to enjoy this especially as she was only wearing her own silky nightie which gaped open as she leant over displaying her beautiful boobies.

She saw me looking downwards. "Tut! Tut! What would your father say, "then she whispered mysteriously, "perhaps one night soon when your father's out you can be my baby. Alex used to love it when he was younger. Now up and shower, put your pj's in the wash you can't wear them again tonight not like that," she giggled. "In any case there three more pairs in your drawer. And if you like the feel of them so much, there's another couple of other surprises too."

She helped me out of the bed and stood and watched as I very self-consciously stripped off at her bidding. "Now sweetie, don't be shy I see Alexis all the time and he's much older than you."

She chased me into the shower. And I washed myself thoroughly. The only soap and shampoo smelt a bit girly, but I didn't have much choice and soon I was finished.

I returned to my room just as Susie was opening the drawer of my chest. "Now sweetie what will you wear to day, your old scratchy jocks or something much nicer. And with a faint flourish she pulled out a white satin vest and matching jocks, no not jocks panties, knickers.

I stood there dumbfounded. "But they're girls I can't…"

"Shush silly they're not girls they're unisex, both boys and girls, your father has a pair just like them." Again I was sucked right in.

"You sure?" I gasped. "Does he?"

Does he what. My father stood in the bedroom door dressed in a white satin robe, very smooth and very ..well sexy!

"Wear unisex jocks silly?" said Susie nicely

"Oh yes of course," and he slipped open his robe to show a pair of identical white briefs and matching vest. "And sometimes.' he added with a loud whisper, "I even wear a camisole. See you later sport I got things to do."

"Cami... what?" I gasped

"Camisole," said Susie. "Just like yours and she pulled out a pale blue camisole, lace trimmed of course. You have some of those too.

What could I say 'cept, "OK!"

Susie sat on the bed and beckoned me to her. I positioned myself between her open legs, once again able to enjoy a perfect view of her delightfully pert and very sexy boobs.

"Oh you men," she teased 'you're all the same !" But she made no move to change her position.

First of all came the vest, it slid down over my chest. It was such a nice feeling, not at all rough like my cotton vest. The came the sweet little panties. Once again my willy had ideas of its own. Susie just smiled and without missing a beat she pulled out a silk handkerchief from her nightie pocket and wrapped it around my hard little cock. And proceeded to play with me.

"Just like your father, no self control and Alexis he's just as bad."

I came quickly I was thankful at the time, only later did I wish it had lasted longer. Wiped clean to her satisfaction the panties were pulled up into place.

She walked me over to the big walk-in wardrobe and selected a white shirt, only it was much shorter and when she had it buttoned up it left my midriff showing, then a new pair of blue shorts, only they weren't shorts more like the culottes the girls wore at school. Then to the dressing table. And my long hair was brushed and tied into a ponytail. I often wore it like that when playing sport but not normally round the house. So it only felt a bit strange.

She took my over to the mirror. I was dumbfounded. There staring back at me … well…… I thought immediately of young girl and was just about to voice my vehement protest when Susie exclaimed loudly.. "Oh Simon you look just like one of those sexy boys from Busy Boys."

Hey my favourite boys band. I had all their records I was mad about them and wished I could sing as well as them. I stared back at the reflection but I couldn't see it.

Then dad arrived back "Hey sport you like one the singers from that band your always playing too loud."

Well that was that, two of them telling me I looked like one of my idols I was hooked.

"Yeh," added dad, "the girls are always screaming over them, careful how you go out, you'll be mobbed by all the girls!"

Gee that bloody ego again!!! I stopped protesting and looked harder at myself. Well the blouse and midriff was sexy… on a girl normally, but yeh the guys did wear clothes, well short t-shits really, like that.. and the shorts well shorts were shorts, hey so what. My hair was always long and often in a ponytail and nobody had ever commented. Lots of guys wore their hair long.

Yeh I did look good. A superstar in the making. Now if only I could sing.

Mummy grabbed my hand and whisked me off to breakfast where food soon took top priority in my life. And in any case I did feel sorta good, no real good. That vest and jocks ….. OK panties, felt really nice on my bum and chest. Gee I was feeling very sexy very sexy indeed.

The morning sped and after lunch mum asked if I'd like to go shopping with her next big mistake! I changed. I was not self-conscious around the house, but I didn't feel happy parading around town in my new unisex look.

Soon we were at the shops. Mum had explained on the way she wanted to buy Alexis a whole lot of new clothes for homecoming and she'd value my opinion as a boy on what would, look good on her. Again I was totally flattered and beguiled.

We started the afternoon at the surf shop and selected a whole lot of trendy tops and boards shorts even a biking and one-piece bathers. Then on to a teen boutique, half a dozen dresses, some blouse and skirts followed suit, to be honest Mummy did most of the choosing only asking me if I thought they were nice. But she kept telling me I had such good choice. I was embarrassed a few times when she held up some blouses and dresses against me to check the look and the length. But I just blushed and smiled. After all this was Mummy. Gee she could have chopped my hand off and I wouldn't have companied.

The lingerie shops were a bit awkward especially when she asked me to choose bras, (including training bras, but why she would want training bras for Alexis I couldn't fathom, I'd seen the photos she was past training bras, but I couldn't say anything like that with out giving away my little secret.) Knickers camisole nighties and even garter belts and a thing called a waspie. Pulled Alexis in, so she looked even prettier so I was told. Luckily the shop was empty and the shop assistant though slightly amused by my presence and Mummy's insistence that I did most of the choosing, at least didn't laugh. Though when she measured my chest and waist I thought that was going a bit far!! However I must admit handling all those sexy bras and knickers and the like was rather nice. It made me sorta wish I had girlfriend I could shop for. It'd be a real buzz I was almost an expert!!

What did sorta amaze me was the growing pile of clothes. It just seemed to grow and grow. In one shop we left with five bags, but Mummy was like a whirlwind and I didn't have time to argue even if I had wanted to. Finally she was all shopped out. Then almost as an after thought she asked me what I'd like. I was too tired to want to go in a shop again, so I just brushed her off with perhaps another day, I'm shot. Next big mistake.

We unpacked the car and eventually all the clothes were packed did away in one of two chest of drawers or in the very large walk-in wardrobe Alexis and I were to share. I was right though there were lots of things. There were two of lots of things and especially with the lingerie. There were definitely two sizes. Susie wouldn't answer my questions as she carried on her whirlwind way emptying stacking, hanging cleaning up bags and wrappers. I did get to see the packet for one cute and very lacy pink little bra and pantie set. It read:

"Sexy Underwear for the

Modern Little Miss!

 

"Girls Ten to Twelve!"

Then it was whisked away in a frenzy of cleaning and was soon forgotten. Should never have done that.

It was two days before the next mistake. I'd had my shower and was trying to find clean underwear. "Mummy," Susie insisted on Mummy not mum! "Where's my clean underwear?"

"In the drawer"

"No none there"

"In the basket"

"Nope"

"Try the new chest of drawers!"

Well that was were all Alexis new stuff was but I though I'd try. I fished around for a moment. No only Alexis little girl underwear, though how she'd fit into some of I didn't know. Then Mummy came in. "Any luck?"

"No!"

"Must be all I in the wash or waiting to be dried"

"So what now? I need clean jocks. I ain't putting yesterdays on again Yuk!"

"Easy," Susie smiled, "borrow a pair of Alexis's I won't tell."

"But they're girls I can't!"

"Silly boy they're unisex, just like your pink pj's you wore last night!" (Yeah hadn't told you about that yet!) In any case that's what Alexis wears, he's a boy or have you forgotten!"

"Yes but that's different you said he… she… oh drats you know what I mean, you said Alexis was girl."

"No Simon silly, I said Alexis dressed like a girl sometimes 'cos he couldn't pass for a boy any more. He still chooses what to wear underneath and he chooses unisex things like this. Now your choice is these or yesterday's dirty underwear. You're not going round half naked."

I looked into her big blue eyes. Her face was so trustworthy. How could I refuse. "OK then but just for today."

"Susie smiled sweetly, "we'll see!"

I tried to find a pair of white or pale blue panties but there were only, pinks and lemons and dark quite sexy colours, especially the maroon ones. And I was getting yet another hard-on to prove it."

"Oh stand aside silly let me choose." And with that she selected a pair of pink panties I had been trying to ignore and no …………. not a matching vest this time, but a pink lacy camisole."

She led me over to the bed and my towel dropped to my feet. My election was more than plain to see.

"Tut! Tut!" she tease again, "you are persistent. I think you really like all this unisex stuff a lot more than you let you on!"

I just blushed

She stroked my chest and said how cute and smooth and sexy I was and then her hand trailed down and cupped my tight little balls and smooth little cock.

"Oh so sweet," she smiled, "so sweet I could eat you all up!" With no more ado she leant forward and licked my nipples. First one and then the other. She gripped my cock jumped in her hand. She sucked on my nipple again, teased it with her tongue and teeth. She was stroking my prick up and down. My nipples were on fire. I'd never felt like this ever. They were rock hard as she nibbled and pulled them with her teeth and lips. She stroked me to the edge of one orgasm after another, but every time she felt my impending orgasm brew she ceased. Then quite amazingly she dropped to her knees and licked my belly button, then my lower tummy and then finally, unbelievably, she licked the tip of my cocks. I jerked to her soft touch

"I'll stop if you want to me," she whispered. "I'll understand if you don't want me to."

I shook my head and she sucked little smooth cock right into her mouth. It only lasted seconds before I came. Right deep into her sucking mouth. It was the most incredible feeling I had ever had. I was shooting my hot load right down my stepmother-to-be's throat.

She greedily milked every last drop from my wilting prick before resuming her position on my bed. "There that should do at least for now, you would like me to do it again wouldn't you?"

"Oh yes I gasped Oh yes but dad…." My voice trailed off I was horrified, "what if dad finds out!" I was white with shock

Susie took me in her arms and hugged me tightly "I won't tell if you won't. Not if you do everything: and I do mean everything: I tell you to do in the future. I won't tell and we can do that time and time again …… and so much more."

I could only gape. Christ I'd do anything for her now, so what else could she demand of me. "Yes I promise, I promise anything, anytime!" (The next big mistake. Sucked in more ways that one!)

She and made me lift my arms and slipped the camisole over my head and smoothed it over my slim chest. My nipples were still very hard and erect and mad big points under the silky top. She stood up and chose one of the new surf shirts and board shorts at least that looked normal. That was until I saw the writing back to front in the mirror.

BAD

GIRL

And she wouldn't let me change; only saying it was like an advert. That I was looking for a bad girl, besides her of course. When dad came home he just laughed and said I'd be lucky! Then he told us he had to go away on business until the end of the next week. An emergency at work. Mummy and I would be on our own for 10 whole days.

  

  

  

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