How JB Became Famous

by Toni B.

Chapters 11 to 20

  

Chapter XI: JB's New Day (The Beginning)

I thought I was dreaming at first. I felt like I was floating on a cloud, and I could hear a humming that was real pretty. It smelled real, real good and sweet too, and I didn't feel all wet and sticky. I rolled over and moaned and kept my eyes shut to keep the dream going.

I heard Marnie say, "Did I wake you, baby? I'm so sorry. It is still very early."

Then I remembered where I was, and I smiled and opened my eyes. The only light in the room came through the bathroom door. Marnie was standing over by a dresser, and she didn't have any clothes on at all, naked. Her breast stuck out from her and pointed at me and they had pencil erasers in the middle of a dark circle on them; I could see a triangle of light colored hair where her legs came together.

I sat up, and she come over and sat on the bed, like being naked was no big deal at all. She kissed me on the head and I crawled into her lap. She asked if I slept well. I nodded. Then she asked if I was wet.

"Don't think so," I said, but she stuck a finger under the leg of my diaper and told me I was soaked. "See how good those diapers are, sweetheart."

I just laid my head on her breast, because I didn't feel good about wetting at all; I'd hoped I hadn't just for once. She rocked back and forth. She smelt so good. And I put my hand on her other breast, and she let me feel it, even the eraser. Then she laid me down on the bed and got a towel to put under me and removed my wet thing. I rubbed my eyes and pretended to eat some candy off my thumb while she did all the changing stuff. She didn't put a new diaper on me though; after the powder she picked me up and carried me to the kitchen.

She sat me down on the counter top and gave me some juice - yeah, in a sippy cup, but I didn't care about that anymore - and poured herself a cup of coffee that was already made. She told me she wanted to be at my house when my mother came outside to wake me up. I thought I was going to have to go with her, but when I gasped she said she was going to drop me at school first, so I would be there very, very early. We talked about what my mom would do and other stuff until we had finished our drinks. After a bit I forgot all about sitting there in just a t-shirt and that she had on nothing at all.

She got us new drinks, and we went back into the bedroom. I sat on the bed while she got on clothes. She put on some white panties that had lace on them and just a string in back that went right in her crack! Then she put on nylons over them and a white lacy bra, then a white blouse with a lot of fluffy frills that she put a gold pin into by the neck. Then she pulled up a black skirt that had pleats in it and was a lot above her knee. She took out her black shoes with real high skinny heals but didn't put them on yet.

She said, "How do I look, JB?"

"Beautieeeful!!" I said. Well she did! But she grabbed me and gave me a tight hug and wet kiss for saying it.

When she was dressing me she started to put me in the shirt I had had on last at my mom's house, but I didn't want to wear that anymore. I asked if I could wear the yellow shirt with the big star on it that Ms Marks had given me. I still had to wear my same pants and underpants from yesterday though and hoped Ms Marks would have something nicer for me.

I was the very first kid at school and, though it was light, you still couldn't see the sun in the sky. Marnie made me finish the juice I'd brought in the car before she lifted me out of the back seat. She said, "I hate to leave you all alone, sweetie. Please, stay by the door. They should be open soon and then you go right in. OK."

I said, "It's 'K. My mom's dropped me off before the doors opened 'fore."

"But I'm not you mom, and I don't like doing it," she said. That made me very sad because it made me wish that she was. I put my arms around her and kissed her really hard and then kissed her again, and she kissed me on the lips and said, "Be good, little one. I think you are going to have better day today, and I'll see you later."

I sat on the steps by the door. After a few minutes more and more of the breakfast kids started coming and they all stood around alone or in little groups. I don't know how long it had been, but I heard some of the kids gripe about the door opener being late. I started needing to take a pee about then. I wasn't sure if what Marnie said about holding stuff in just meant poop, or if it meant the water too, but it is sure a lot harder with number one.

When it got to where I needed to keep my hand between my legs to hold in the pee, I decided I'd better just use the bushes. There were only a few of them next to the school but it was either there or way across the sports field in some trees. None of the kids noticed as I walked into the bushes, but when I got to where I didn't think any one could see, two boys and a girl were there smoking cigarettes. They all yelled at me to get lost and that I'd better not tell, and one of them threw a rock at me. I ran out to the fields and headed for the trees, but when I stopped running I forgot to hold it and peed my pants - again.

I sat down on the grass by the football field. I didn't even try to stop the rest of it; I just let it go out onto my pants, and I wasn't even crying. It was a whole lot different from the last time this had happened - was it really only a few days ago? I didn't feel embarrassed about doing it now, just worried. But if got to Ms Marks office before any of the big kids saw me, I knew she would take care me and of everything and not be mad or mean or try to make me feel worse or anything like that, and neither would Ms - Marnie.

When I saw people going inside, I walked slowly to the building and made sure the smokers had gone in too. I carried my backpack in front of me to the nurse's office. Then I sat on the floor with it in my pack in my lap and waited.

It was only a couple of minutes before I saw Ms Marks coming from the cafeteria with the breakfast trey and I waved. She said, "You're not as happy today, Jade. Something happen?"

"I had an accident," I whispered

See put the tray on the ground real fast and said, "Are you hurt, baby!?"

I moved my pack and showed her my lap, and she asked if someone had thrown water on me again.

I shook my head and mumbled, "It's real this time. I couldn't get inside."

She smiled and said, "Oh, too bad. It happens, little Jade, but we can get it fixed right up right now though."

We went back to the same room again and I got on the bed and held up my feet without being told. She took off my shoes and wet pants and the pretty yellow shirt. "So you decided you did like this shirt, huh Jade?"

I nodded, and she washed me and then put all the creams and powders and stuff on me.

When she had done all that she open some more store bags. She got out some more of the thick, soft kind of underpants like yesterday. She showed them to me, these were white like yesterdays but with red, yellow and blue stripes and small little ruffles around the leg holes and waist.

I thought they were nice, and Ms Marks slipped them up my legs. They didn't cover my crack, but I knew that was how they were supposed to be, and they held all my front parts real tight which I kind'a liked.

Ms Marks put my socks on my feet and folded the tops down to my ankles. She showed me a new pair of white shorts and pointed out they did have a fly. But the fly only went down about a third of the way. They had a built in belt that had a vine with little flowers on it of lots of colors. I hoped the shirt tail would hide it and, luckily, it would; it was a knit three button shirt like lots of boys wore. It was bluish-green like the star on the one yesterday, and I asked if was jade.

Ms Marks said, "No. You are Jade, but this is jade colored." Which made us both giggle.

She wanted to eat breakfast before I got dressed. I didn't even think about being in her front office in just my panties and socks. She didn't want me to use the rolling chair and I couldn't reach from the others so I stood at the desk. She felt my hair and told me how nice it felt and what a good job I'd done cleaning it. I smiled, and she told me to sit in her lap and she would brush it while I ate. I could tell she was twirling it around the brush even more than yesterday, but it didn't pull nearly as much. She kept going after I'd done with the cereal and then she did the front, and said it was "Wonderful!" Then she put a green bow in it, just until I had to go, and I didn't mind.

I stayed in her lap, and we talked about my classes (I could tell she didn't like it when I said I liked History and Ms Evens, so I didn't say much about that.), and about getting picked up and thrown yesterday, and she told me silly jokes, and I lean my head up against her breast as I giggled and laughed.

As we were cleaning up the breakfast stuff, and I was on tiptoes leaning across the desk to wipe it off, the door opened behind me and Abby said, "Hi, Ms Marks; Hi, Jade," and she was giggling.

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Chapter XII: JB's New Day (The Middle)

"OHhhh, noooo," I yelled, and I ran around the desk and hid behind Ms Marks.

Abby said, "Oh, Jaden, don't be so shy! I saw you in your panties yesterday too, didn't I?"

Ms Marks pulled me out from behind her and picked me up. I didn't really want to do that, but what could I do? She said, "Abby's right, pumpkin. You're too little to be so worried about this."

"I'm not little! I am thirteen," I reminded her, then added, "She's laughing at me and gonna tell all the big kids!"

"Am Not and Will Not!" Abby said, sort of mad. "I guess I giggled about the way you were standing and because you looked so cute. But I wasn't laughing at you like that. I wouldn't. And I didn't tell anyone yesterday, did I? "

"Look at me, Jade," Ms Marks said, "I told you before that Abby is very good at keeping secrets. And you ARE little, which is not a bad thing, and I think you like acting and being treated little too, don't you? Or do you want to put on your old clothes again and stop visiting me for breakfast?"

I didn't really want that. I put my head on her shoulder and said, "She took me by surprise, 'guess. But you will keep it a secret?"

Abby said, "Cross my heart a hundred times, Jade. 'Cept sometime I might tell some of my best friends so they can be your friends too."

"I don't want kids to know. Never."

"I'll tell you before, and we can decide who we can trust to know how really cute you are. 'K? Nobody for now."

Ms Marks said, "OK, you feeling better, pumpkin? We need to get you ready for class, and I want you to go potty first."

"I don't need to go now."

"We'll try anyway, Jade."

"Can I dress him, Ms Marks?" Abby asked.

I gasped! She was in my class!!

Ms Marks said, "I think not, Abby. You need to take down the names of the people in line."

Ms Marks kept holding me and carried me to the bathroom which was the last door in the infirmary. She pulled my underpants down to my knees then sat me on the toilette, and she sat down on the bathtub that was next to it and pulled my underwear all the way off.

I said, "I really don't need to go, Ms Marks."

"Jade, I want you to just sit there for about three minutes and see what happens. Don't strain, but let's see. It's best to go soon after eating. OK, sweets?"

I nodded; I realized that I liked to do what she said just because she was so nice, even it some of it was just silly stuff.

She put her hand on my back and pushed me forward just a little, then she started rubbing my back. She said, "And, Jade, you can call me Nora when it is just us or even around Abby, if you want?"

"OK, Nora?" I said grinning.

She kept rubbing my back and hummed a little. After a while she made me lean forward more and looked in the toilette. "Not very much, but there is a little bit of poop, Jade, and you tinkled a little already too."

I stood up to look because I didn't even know I'd done either of those, but sure enough the water was a little yellow, and there were two quarter size piece of brown and a little bit bigger one too.

Ms Marks - Nora - used a damp-wipe to clean my bottom and wiped off my wiener too. Then she told me to walk back to my room - she always called the middle one that now - and she carried the striped underpants. I went really fast and kept my hands in front on me, holding my bits, just in case Abby came in, but I made it without being seen.

I got on to the bed and grabbed Holly, my bear, to hold. Nora wiped my bottom again and then but some new cream and powder on me. I asked her, "Is Abby as nice as Holly is?"

She grinned at me and said, "I really think she is, Jade. You can trust her, baby."

She put the green shirt and the white shorts on me, and tucked the shirt tail into the shorts. Then she opened another box and showed me some new shoes. They were canvas sneakers with toes that were rounder than most of the shoes I had worn, and were the same color as my shirt, jade. I smiled, I was starting to like that color, but I still hoped that no one would start calling me that around school. The laces were yellow, but very pale, so I hoped no boys would notice.

When I was paying Ms Marks - oops, Nora - with a big hug, she kissed me on both of my cheeks and on my mouth, and I kissed hers too.

I need to leave before the bell because I hadn't put my books in my locker yet, and I took a deep breath before I opened the door and went in to the crowded hallway. Abby asked Nora if she could help me with my books, and as we left the infirmary she pulled my hair, then showed me the bow we forgot to remove. It was so crowded and noisy we couldn't talk in the front hall; Abby just pulled me through the crowd.

When we got into the corridor she held my hand and said, "Your hair looks very nice, Jade, but I don't think ribbons will be a good idea."

I blushed and nodded. Abby said, "Ms Marks is real, real nice but she does like frilly, sissy things - even on boys - you should have seen the lacy pink shirt she gave me last year, and I had to wear it three times just to be nice."

"I like her, but she does silly stuff sometimes, like ribbons."

"She won't get mad at you if you say 'no' sometimes. And be careful not to let some people see all the things she gives you, OK. Like when you sit on the floor or a table in shorts. A cheerleader saw the polka-dots on your panties yesterday but we talked to her and it will be OK, and no boys did or I'd 'a heard by now - that was lucky."

I cringed, and Abby said, "Also, don't let Ms Marks know you are Ms Evens pet too if you can keep it from her. They had a big, huge fight last year and really don't like each other."

"I know that. Why?"

"Supposedly, there was -- but it's just gossip, I won't tell you. It will be OK. They're different now."

We got to the Science room before first bell, and Abby got on her knees, which made her head close to mine, and talked real quite. She pulled out my shirt tail and said, "Be sure to hide that flowery belt too, Jade, and I guess you didn't notice the rows of flowers on the collar and cuffs of that shirt, but at least they are real small, huh?"

I said, "'K, thank you lots, but don't call me Jade, OK? Please."

Then she got even more serious and said, "I'll be real careful around people, but can I call you that in secret? It is a very pretty name."

I nodded, and she smiled at me then said, "JadeN, there are going to be some girls that want to walk with you between classes today. So, stay with them, all right?"

That sounded good, and I really was less scared just knowing it, but embarrassed to. "Did you ask 'em? Did you already tell them about seeing my underwear and stuff?"

"NO! I told you I haven't told anyone. I'm not supposed to tell you, but Ms Evens asked some of the volleyball team to keep an eye on you is all. We can't fight the kind of people that would try to throw you but it's better to have people around. OK?" And then right in the hall by the science room door, she kissed me too, and whispered, "Bye bye, Jade." Then she walked away real fast, and I guess no one noticed.

Most boys would hate having girls trying to be their body guards probably, but most of them haven't already been tossed around the school hall or had other things happen that have happened to me at other schools. I knew it made me weird, but I was happy they were going to do that, but I also thought that eventually it would go wrong. I knew that girls could be real, real mean too. But they probably wouldn't be for one day.

At the end of each class that is what happened. A girl would come up and start asking me about the class or something and be real friendly, and they would go with me to the next room. Sometimes they would put there arm on my shoulders while we walked.

We had a real, real mean substitute for History, but I knew that would happen today already, and Abby went with me to the Math room although it wasn't her next class.

That Amanda came up to me after Math though, and her I told to go away. I hoped the other people Marnie had talked to weren't like her. Amanda acted like she was surprised and then just followed to art. Even at lunch a bunch of girls sat with me and even talked to me. Amanda was there too, but I ignored her, and at least she didn't say how cute my shirt was or anything stupid where boys would hear again.

I was worried what would happen at PE, because I knew I couldn't change clothes in the locker room. I went to the infirmary, and Ms Marks was busy with another kid, but she gave me a note letting me sit out and not have to change and to come back at the end of class.

Going back was the first time all day that I had been alone, but the halls were mostly empty since it was class time. When I got to the infirmary, the girl at the desk smiled and called Ms Marks. She came out of the first room, the one I never used, and told the girl to go in and talk to the kid that was sick in there.

Then she took me to the bathroom and made me sit there like this morning, and I did make a big poop and peed too. While she was dressing me I asked her to let me wear the same unders and other stuff home and could I take Holly home for the weekend too. I said my mom would be working and I was sure I could hide everything. She let me and told me to be sure to not wear any wet stuff over the weekend and hugged me real tight until the bell rang.

The girl that had been at the desk turned out to be in my English class and to be one of the girls that I had lunch with too. She tried to hold my hand as we walked to class but there were lots of people in the hall, and I knew that wasn't a good idea.

During English I kept waiting for Marnie to send for me. I hadn't even seen her in the halls all day and was getting worried. She had been sure things were going to be OK this morning, but I didn't know what would happen with my mom, and I knew how mean and mad my mom could get too. But Marnie never did send for me. When the teacher gave us time to do home work at the end of the period like usual, I asked if I could go and help Ms Evens with a project. But the teacher said no, and that Ms Evens wasn't even at school.

Then came announcements, and she still hadn't sent for me. I pretended to eat some candy from my thumb and tried to imagine I was sitting in Marnie's lap. Then the last bell rang. I guessed I should head to the busses and go to my mom's house.

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Chapter XIII: JB's New Day (Continued)

When I walked out of English after announcements a girl came over and asked why I was crying. I hadn't even known I was, but I touched my face, and it was wet all right. I sniffed and said, "I just sorry I got to get on the bus, and I miss somebody."

She rubbed me on the back and asked who. Since school was over, everybody, especially the boys, were in too big a hurry to notice me.

I told her it was Marnie (I said Ms Evens to her of course.), and she said, "Just come to volleyball practice and see her; they didn't tell us it was cancelled so she must be coming."

"But what if she couldn't call, or if there is a substitute, or something? I'll miss the bus." I didn't want to go to my mom's house, but I didn't want to be at the school all weekend either.

"Well, let's hurry and find out, and someone can give you a ride. Come on, JB!"

We didn't even go to our lockers first, but went to the girl's gym. I wanted to she Marnie there so bad I didn't even think about it as I walked in to the girl's locker room and tried her door. But it was locked. I knew I was crying this time when I sobbed. Then some girl in soccer uniform said, "Hey, what are you doing? Get out of here!"

It wasn't like I could see into where the girls were changing but I ran out of the locker room. The girl that I had been with hollered, "Wait, JB," but I kept going, and she didn't follow. I went straight to the busses. Ms Evens - I had to think of her that way again - hadn't worked anything out with my mom, and I hoped my mom hadn't hurt her or something.

Lots of people laughed as I walked down the hall All day long the girls I had walked with had told jokes or talked and distracted me when people said all the mean things, but now I was alone and heard them better. I KNEW that every laugh in all the halls was just about me.

As I got in the bus line the other kids all called me baby, and or said things about my clothes and hair, or said "JB baby," or asked if I wanted to play catch. I had stopped crying, and didn't even look at them, but I was real, real scared and mad and sad.

Just as the bus doors opened a girl called my name real loud. It was Amanda and I tried to ignore it, but she ran over and said, "Ms Evens just got here, and she wants to see you! We're all looking everywhere."

I thought that Amanda was probably teasing and tricking me, but I got out of line and slowly followed her around to the back of the building, she kept trying to make me hurry.

Then just as I turned the corner I saw her coming out of the back of the girl's gym, still wearing her pretty clothes. I ran to her. Marnie got down on a knee and I threw my arms around her neck and she hugged and kissed me. "I was worried about you, Marnie," I said, and she hugged me more tighter.

Then I heard a car roar out of the teacher's parking lot, and I looked over, and saw Nora driving it. I didn't think about it, but Marnie heaved a big sigh.

We went to the back door of the gym - I think I almost dance - and Marnie picked me up when we got inside and carried me into the locker room. Some of the soccer players and cheerleaders were coming out, and they stared at us but didn't say anything.

Only the volleyball team was still changing, and she called them over; some of them had to put on there tops real fast before they came, and I didn't even think about that. Marnie said, "Girls, for those who don't know him yet, I'd like to introduce you to JB, my godchild, who is going to be living with me for awhile."

A bunch of the girls clapped, and I blushed and hid my head in Marnie's shoulder which made them clap more, and I saw Abby, and she had a big, big smile and so did lots of them. And Amada's smile wasn't so big, but she was rubbing my leg as Marnie held me.

Then Marnie said, "Everyone, five laps around the court and start stretching while I get changed.

We went into Marnie's office and she set me down on the couch. She was in a big hurry to change and did that right in front of me. While she was doing that she said that she had worked out things with my mom, and I could stay with her. That made me real happy, and I thought that it probably made my mom even happier, but Marnie said my mom had been real mad at first, but knew that if the parole board heard about my outside room she would get in trouble.

Marnie said, even after my mom agreed she was real sad, and she cried. I had never ever seen her do that before, and I started to feel sad for her. Marnie had bought my mom a cell phone so she could call me any time, or in case the parole officer was coming to her house; and every Monday my mom was going to pick me up after school and maybe another day too, but only 'til the end of volleyball practice each time, and I'd never have to sleep in that stupid room again!

But I didn't want to even thank about any of that stuff right then. I just wanted to hug Marnie and play with her! But she had to go teach volleyball practice first.

Marnie let me practice with the girls for the first part when they were warming up and stuff. When they had to sit and spread there legs way-way out and touch there toes, I'd not wanted to do that 'cause I was wearing just short-shorts again and remembered what Abby had told me about not letting people see the unders Nora gave me and stuff, but Abby was right next to me and said not to worry in this group, and so I spread my legs out and no one said anything about seeing what I was wearing, and it turned out I could stretch my legs further out than lots of the girls on the team could, and everyone was real impressed, and that made me proud!

Then they did some practice knocking the ball up in the air, and I chased the balls that got away, and the girls tried to beat me to them and sometimes didn't.

After I fell down twice, Marnie called me over and gave me one of those bottles of water that you open by pulling the top up on and it comes out slow. She asked if I was having fun. Boy was I!! She hugged me for saying that, but said I need to sit on the bleachers and watch now so the girls would pay more attention to their practice.

I didn't mind because I was getting tired by then, and Marnie said she thought I'd run more than any of the girls and to finish all the water because I was so hot. As soon as I sat down that Amanda came over and sat next to me, and I moved away, and she asked why I was so mad at her.

"'Cus you tease me," I said.

"When?"

"Yesterday, about my shirt."

"JB, I said it was cute is all, that's not teasing. It wasn't. It's a compliment."

"Not to boys! It was mean. And those boys with you laughed too. And you just wanted 'em too."

"NO. JB, I forgot. Girls say clothes are cute all the time to each other, and that boys are cute too. I forgot how boys can take it sometimes. Don't be mad."

"Why do you care anyway, huh?"

"Because you are so cute!"

I smiled, and she said, "See it didn't make you mad that time."

I said, "That's because there aren't big boys around listenin'."

"If I promise to be more careful will you not be mad? Please?"

"Don't know, maybe."

"I really am sorry. Please?"

"OK, 'guess."

"Friends! Promise." She had a big smile, like it was important.

"Promise," I said.

"Double Promise?"

"Double Promise."

"With a cherry on top?"

I looked at her like she was being annoying now, because she was, but I said, "With a cherry."

She grabbed me and tickled my sides, and I laughed, and she said, "Sealed with a kiss, JB?"

And she kept tickling me until I kissed her cheek, and then she kissed me back and said, "'K, I got to get back before coach gets mad. You better cheer for me, if we play a game at the end of practice, because we're friends.

I didn't say anything, because I'd cheer for all of them of course, and didn't really know haw to play that game. I drank more of my water and decided I like pulling hard on the opening better than letting in come out slow. Girls were so weird, but nice when they were nice. And I thought about how nice it was to not be lonely. Maybe I won't be lonely again ever!?? Then I went and got Holly Bear from my back pack, and put my head on the bench and watched the practice with her while finishing the water.

The next thing I knew some girl said real loud from just above me, "Whoa! Hey watch out some little kid is asleep here!" A whole crowd ran past, some of them on the floor, some on the bleacher seats. It was the girl's soccer team (I could tell by their shoes), but I kept pretending to sleep until they were gone because I could tell that my shorts were real, real wet.

Once the soccer team had gone past I sat up and looked around. The girls, the volleyball team, had stopped and were standing around Marnie talking. One of the girls that I didn't know came over and said, "Come on, JB, you need to join the huddle with us!"

I shook my head, and all the girls started calling to me over, but I didn't go. Then Abby came over to get me and pulled on my arm, and then when she saw my shorts she called to all the others way across the gym, "He's had an accident." Just like that, she just yelled it out.

I screamed, "I was sleeping, I couldn't help it!" As if that made any difference at all for a thirteen year old eighth grader. It was such a stupid thing to say.

But none of the girls started laughing. I don't know why. One loud one said, "We don't care about that, JB. Get over here and do the cheer with us!"

I stood up, still holding Holly, and shuffled across the gym. I knew my white shorts showed up the wet a whole lot and even my green shirt was wet too. But when I got to the girls no one held there nose or anything. Some of them patted my head, and Abby held my hand. Then some of them yelled, "Cougars!" then the others yelled "Cats", and they did that three times, then all yelled, even louder, "Spike." I just figured out that Cougars was our school team's name.

One of the girls said, "Coach Evens, JB's got to be our team mascot. You should get a little jersey for him."

And Amanda said, "There's a little one in the training room." And they all went on like this, like me being in peed clothes didn't matter, and Marnie was smiling, and I thought the whole team was weird, and when were they going to be mean?

Marnie said, "I think that would be nice, girls. Would you like that, JB?"

I was rubbing between my legs without thinking about it because it felt all sticky there, and I said, "What would I have to do?"

One of the girls said, "Come to practice with us and to all our games and cheer for us."

"'K," I said, and they all said, "Yea," and stuff.

Marnie said, "That shirt might be too big for games. Amanda, why don't you bring it to my office while I get our mascot cleaned up, and the rest of you go and change. Good Pratice, Cougers!"

I took Marnie's hand and we walked through the girl's locker room to her office. Some of the soccer team and cheer leaders stopped what they were doing and stared but didn't say any thing, but then they all started talking to my girls.

Marnie had me lie on a towel on her couch in her office and got a washrag. I had left my shoes in the gym, and she took off all the wet clothes, which was all my clothes, 'cept my socks. After she washed around my wiener, she started putting powder around it.

I reached out and brushed my hand on her face; she didn't mind, and I said, "I'm glad I get to go home with you."

She kissed me on the belly button, and I giggled. Then I ask, "Are those girls really not going to make fun of me? And tell everyone?"

"We will have to see, JB, but most of them won't, and if a few more learn you wet yourself while sleeping, so what? Many, many don't care, sweetie. You have lots of friends now."

I smiled. There was a knock on the door and I rolled up into a ball. Marnie went out and got the jersey from Amanda without letting her look in. Then she slipped it on me. When I stood up it came half way to my knees. Marnie said, "Will that do for now, Honey?"

"But I got no unders on," I said.

"That shouldn't be a problem just for a car ride, should it?"

I shrugged, and Marnie looked out the window that was behind the couch. (I'd forgotten all about being able to see into the locker room through it.) She said, "The team is waiting to see they're new mascot, we better go out."

"Can they see in here?!" I asked.

"No, it is made so it looks like a mirror from the other side."

I felt better; they hadn't seen me naked and being dressed at least. "Do they know I can look out?" I asked.

Marnie said, "Yes they do, JB, but I don't think they worry about it much. Come on. We need to send them home, their rides are waiting."

I was still holding Holly, and I pulled on my shirt with one had as we went through the door. I smiled up at Marnie and whispered, "Know what? This feels like a dress."

"And do you like that feel - a little."

"Uh-huh." One of the things I liked about it was how I could rub my little tube through it, but just then it was Holly that was rubbing it.

When we got into the locker room, all the volleyball girls clapped because I was wearing there jersey. One of the real big girls tried to pick me up, and I would have let her too, but I was afraid they'd see my bottom because I didn't have anything underneath.

There were some cheerleaders waiting too, and they wanted to talk to Marnie. That looked like trouble to me.

Marnie sent me out to find my shoes with Amanda. Amanda got my shoes, and I got my backpack. She made me sit down on the bleaches and took my foot and started to put my foot in it. I said, "Amanda, I can do this. Geezz."

But she shook her head and said, "No way. I got to be nice to you to make up for teasing you by accident." And I let her do it. When she was done, she grabbed me for a hug and whispered, "Since there's no boys around, I get to tell you again that you are very, very cute, and that I just saw your wiener, and it is very, very cute too."

"Amanda," I yelled and pulled down the bottom of my shirt real hard, "I knew it was just a trick!!"

Amanda just smiled and hugged me again, "Don't be so worried about it, JB. I got brothers, you know?"

I didn't, but I decided not to worry either. Now there was one girl that had seen me naked, at least the most important part; and one girl that had seen me in my underwear, and girl's underwear at that; and at least twelve girls that knew I wet my self, at least when I was asleep. And they still seemed to like me???

I saw Marnie and ran over to her. I stuck my arms up in the air, and she picked me up with one arm.

I asked her if those girls were mad about me being in there, and she said, "We will work that out, dolly. Mostly they wanted to talk to me about cheering at volleyball games."

Abby had come out with Marnie, and she pulled at the back of my shirt, then said, "I think they want to steal our mascot too!"

"Huh?" I said.

"We will have to see about all that later. Abby, Amanda, can you help me carry some things, please?"

"Sure," Abby said, "I'll carry Jade-en."

I grabbed Marnie's neck, and Abby took Marnie's sports bag, while Amanda got my book pack and then reached for the bundle in Marnie's hand.

"Those are JB's wet things, Amanda."

"That's OK," Amanda said.

When we went out the door some lady in a car waved at us, and the girls had to hurry. They ran to Marnie's car and dropped everything behind it then got into the car and went off.

The back of Marnie's car had lots of stuff in it, and Marnie said she had spent most of the day shopping. When she opened the back door for me there was a baby seat in my place; I stared at her, and she said, "It's just a boaster seat, JB. Not a baby seat. Lots of children like them because they can see out better, and they do make small people safer in cars. Now climb on up."

I did, without saying anything else. It did make me a lot higher and able to see out better. Also it was soft. The bad part was that it had straps over both of my shoulders so I couldn't lean over very far either way, but it had soft sides sticking out that did made a good place to lean my head.

Marnie had to reach down between my legs to get the seatbelt hooked in the middle, and got into her seat. A couple of blocks later I was hugging Holly and pretending to eat some thumb candy. A man driving a car stopped at a light next to ours looked over at me. He smiled and waved. I smiled back at him and kept licking my thumb. When the car was going again I said, "Marnie, are we going home?"

"We sure are, sweet thing, you new home. And we do have lots to do tonight to get it fixed up for you."

I smiled because that was a happy thing, then I said, "Marnie, can I ask you something?"

"Of course you may, little guy."

"Am I turning into a baby?"

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Chapter XIV: JB's Neighbor

"I don't think you are turning into anything, sweetheart. You had an accident while sleeping, but that's not new and lots of boys and girls do that even at thirteen, honey. Last week you didn't make it in time; that happens to lots of people."

I told her about this morning and, because she asked, I told her about the times it happened last year, and the times with number two too, like when I was driving down here from my old town.

She said, "People have more accidents like that than you think, JB. You think that you have more because it is only your own that you know about. Maybe you do have a hard time holding it for a very long time, but that doesn't make you a baby. Are there any other reasons?

There were only a ton of reasons, but I started with, "'Cuz that man just smiled at me."

"He smiled because you are very cute, and even cuter when you are sucking your thumb.

I said, "I wasn't sucking it I was per-tending to have some candy on it." Marnie smiled.

I told her about the girls not caring that I peed my self, or caring that I was in the girl's room and walking me to class. And about what Abby and Amanda had seen.

Marnie said, "JB, sweetheart, why are you so surprised that people are nice to you? You happen to be a very, very sweet, adorable little boy, and people like you and what to do things for you. That's all"

"Huff," I said, or maybe I just did it rather than say it.

"What else, sweetie?"

"That I like it when people hug me and hold me and pet me, and I wasn't so embarrassed about what Abby and, even, Amanda saw really. Thirteen year olds shouldn't be that way, should they? I'm weird."

She laughed real loud and said, "And you like playing with trucks and bears too, don't you? And that is so terrible a thing to like, isn't it? -- JB, do me a very, very big favor, please. Stop worrying about if it is OK for you to feel good - It is, my love. We will do some things about your bathroom emergencies, and some things to help you feel nice and safe, because I want you to feel that way, baby. So stop thinking about how old you are and just act the age that makes you feel nice, OK?"

I didn't say anything, so she said, "OK?" again, and I said, "'K."

"You job is just to let me take care of you for a while, JB, all right?"

"And to be a mascot," I reminded her.

"And to be a sweet mascot, yes. And, JB, may I tell you something else?" she said, "A very important something, little love."

"What?"

"You may be my baby for as long as you want!"

I grinned, and I huffed again too, and I pretend to eat more thumb candy for a minute, then I said, "Marnie, can I tell you something else."

"Yesss, baby."

"I'm hungry enough to eat a pony."

She was pulling into the garage and said "Again? Well, I don't have a pony, but I have apples and carrot sticks right inside. Well that hold you until dinner, cutie?"

"Don't you believe in cookies and chips?"

"Nope, except for special occasions."

When we got inside Marnie gave me a cup of juice (with a top on it) and made me finish it while she cut up the apple, then we went into the den, and she turned on a cartoon show.

Last night it had been dark, and I couldn't see out into her yard. It was huge. Because her house was on a curve in the road it spread out like a huge fan, and behind it was a hill that went down real steep to a little creek and big park. There was a big stone patio with a table and stuff, and bushes and trees on the sides and fences on the sides by other houses and a big lawn too.

When I saw it I said, "Wow, can I play outside?"

"I have to make dinner, but you can bring out you truck and bears if you stay right where I can see you from the kitchen."

I drove both Holly and Howie, my bears, all around the back yard. And I looked over the back fence down to the park, there was a path down the hill, but it was real, real steep and a long way down. I also looked at the houses. There were only two widows you could see from anywhere in the yard and they had closed curtains, so no one was going to come out and yell at me.

Marnie came out and called me over. She told me we had about thirty minutes while the oven did its job, and she pulled my shirt off me - I'd totally forgot that that I had nothing under it while I'd been running and crawling around the grass - then she told me to leave my toys on the table and stand in the middle of the yard. I did it. No one could see me from the other house, but it was strange being naked outside, and I tried to hide my pieces. She turned some knobs on the patio wall, and I heard this rushing and then a gushing and water came up out of the ground all around me. I screamed and almost ran over to Marnie, but then realized it was sprinklers like they had at parks and places, and I started to run around and try o find spaces in the water.

Marnie asked me if she had scared me, and I did admit it had just at first. She suggested I do flips, and I did kind 'a. My old city even September was too cold to swim, but here it was still hot. I don't think it ever got cold here. Then I sat down right on top of one of the sprinkler heads and let the water squirt right up my bottom and giggled, and Marnie was laughing.

Then I heard this kid's voice calling from the other side of the fence, and I stopped and ran to Marnie.

A woman's voice said, "Marnie, can I bring Glyn over? It sounds like you're having fun without us."

Marnie said, "Great, Trish. Sure, there is someone here you need to meet."

"Marnie! I'm naked," I said and grab for my shirt, but Marnie took it.

She grinned and said, "So?"

She turned the water off and this woman and little kid came through the gate on the side of yard. I tried to hide behind her, but she would let me because I was sopping wet all over from the sprinklers, so I crawled under the table.

"Hello, Trisha. Hi, Glyn. This is JB, who is going to be staying with me, but you can't see him right now because he's pretending to be invissible."

"Hi, JB," the lady said, and the little kid looked under the table and said, "I can still see him."

Marnie and the lady laughed, and Marnie said, "Would you like to play in the sprinklers, Glyn? I think that might be the best way to get him out. Do you have time, Trish? You can eat with us too. It will be ready in about fifteen minutes."

The kid was sitting on the ground taking his shoes off, and I noticed his hair was a little bit longer than mine, and he was about the same size as me, which meant he was a lot younger. His mother said, "Georgie and his dad are both out tonight so we are free. Would you rather do that then get a hamburger, Glynie?"

The kid nodded and started pulling on his shirt every which way until it came off. When he unbuttoned his blue jeans he said, "Can I take off my panties too?"

"That seems to be the fashion," his mom said. And he did, and he didn't have a thing! There was just a crack in the front where his bag and wienie belonged. I realized he was a girl all the sudden.

Marnie had turned the water back on and said, "Come on out, sweetheart, and show Glynda how you can do flips and summersaults in the water." And I did. Slowly at first then I sprinted so no one would get a good look at anything. I did some somersaults and almost cartwheels, and she did them just about the same as me. I showed her about sitting on top of the sprinklers, and she like that too. And I forgot about being dressed or not except when I looked at her there.

She started grabbing me and pulling me down, and I thought she was too rough, and at first I didn't like it, but her mom told her to be gentler, and she was. Sometimes she would brush her hand up on the things between my legs by accident too, and I giggled when she did that.

Marnie brought the food outside. She said it was fish sticks, but they weren't crunchy or crusty at all but were good, and she didn't give Glyn or me a fork but let us eat with our hands, even the vegetables. Glyn said her mom made her use sippy cups a lot of the time too, and she didn't mind using one tonight because I did.

When we finished eating Glyn put her hands down between her legs and said she had to pee. Marnie told her to run an empty spot of the flower beds. I wet along to watched, and it was funny how it sprayed out, but I didn't need to go, because I let some leak out while I was sitting on the sprinkler one time, but I didn't tell anyone about that.

While the ladies were talking I let Glyn use Howie, and we took the two bears on a shopping trip around the yard. When we were putting the bears to bed, and giggling like mad, I realized how much fun I was having playing with a little girl, a naked little girl while naked. And that made me giggle more and I didn't know how to x-plain it to Glyn or Marnie when they asked.

Marnie had taken some dishes inside, and Glyn's mom called over to her, "Glynie, are you ready to nuzzel?"

Glyn looked shocked and said, "Mommy! JB!"

Her mother said, "Oh, JB is such a nice little boy I think we can let him in on our secret. Don't you? Come on over here," and she opened her blouse and undid her bra, and Glyn climbed into her lap and put her mouth over her mom's little eraser head thing. I was watching her, and she was watching me watch her as she sucked. And I grinned and she grinned and then closed her eyes to concentrate, and Marnie came up behind me and sat me in her lap and made me lean back.

She said, "We can't do that, baby, but try some of this," and she put a big sippy cup full of warm milk in my mouth. It tasted kind'a different, and came out real slow, but it was real, real good.

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Chapter XV: JB Tries Some New Things

Just after I finished my cup of milk Glyn finished too. She sat up and said, "Aaaahhh," real loud, and we all giggled. Then she pointed at me and said, "Look, JB has a stiffy!" I put my hands over my parts and blushed.

Glyn's mom said, "That happens, Glyn, your brother used to get one whenever he nuzzled. He still does actually."

Glyn looked at Marnie and asked, "Can I touch it, please?"

"That is all up to JB, but you must be very, very gentle."

Glyn said, "Pretty please, JB?" and I moved my hand, and she touched it, first with a finger, and then she held it in her hand softly.

Glyn's mom said, "Glyn, JB and Marnie have some chores to finish tonight, so we need to leave. Bring me you clothes."

Glyn wanted me to spend the night with her, but I didn't want that! I wanted to stay with Marnie! Luckily, Marnie said we had way too much to do, but promised a playdate soon.

As soon as we got inside Marnie made me lie down on the floor and put a diaper on me, just because all my other clothes were in the wash again. She told me she had done a lot of shopping for me today, but had waited to buy clothes or toys until I was with her. Tomorrow we were going on a spree!

The chore we had was moving stuff out of the room that was going to be mine. It was just stuff she had stored in there, and we had to load boxes. Some of them she put in another room that was like her office, some she took up to an attic, the giant ones she left for the painters that were coming to paint the room tomorrow while we were shopping.

Just after we got started I said, "Marnie, I need to take a dump," because I did. Marnie got down on one knee to look me in the eye. I knew I had done something wrong.

She said, "JB, I know that is what you hear the big kids say, some of them even say that or 'take a leak' to me when I'm teaching, but I do not want you to say it. You tell me if you need to peepee or to poo or go potty. If you want, especially when others are around, you can say you have to use the bathroom to sound all grown up, but I'd prefer you say which thing you need to do. Understand?"

I whispered, "Sorry, I gotta poo, Marnie."

Marnie smiled and said, "OK, sweetheart, I just want you to do it the nice way," and she undid the tapes on my diaper and carried me into the bathroom with doors from my room and from the office and sat me down on the seat. It was a funny kind of seat and had this part that stuck up in the front. When some pee came out I realized it was to keep the pee in the toilette if I forgot to push down on my thing; that seemed like a good idea.

She left me there and told me to call when I was ready to wipe. When I was she came back and cleaned me with some wet wipes and then I lay on the floor again while she put on some powder and redid my diaper.

Then we had to pick out the new colors, and I got to pick and chose two really pretty ones.

When we had gotten all the boxes out of the room that we could move we took a brake, and I got more juice. We swept and dusted until Marnie said it was bath time. That didn't make any sense since I'd played in the sprinklers, but Marnie said it did, and I would have to take one every single night from now on. Blaaah.

She made me sit on the toilette, just in case again, while she filled up the big tub. When she got sure I wasn't going to go she lifted me into the tub. Then she took her clothes off and got in with me.

We played together with my duck and boat for awhile, and I kept looking down there - at her - you know. Finally I said, "The hair makes you look a lot different than Glyn."

I thought she would either get mad that I looked or think that was silly, but she said, "Well, I am a bit older and even ladies change some. Lots of ladies have more hair there, but I cut some of it off."

I went over to her, and she held me, and I touched down where the hair was, and it was OK with her. I even let my finger slip inside a tiny bit, but it didn't hurt her, but she did whisper, "Gentle." Then I leaned my head on her breast and touched the thing that looked like a pencil eraser and she asked if I wanted to kiss that, so I did and started giggling.

She washed me, and then I washed her back for her. She got out of the tub and dried off before she took me out. I lay on a towel on her bed again while she put ointment, oil, cream and powder all over me. She slipped a yellow and blue striped pajama top over my head and then started to put some blue PJ shorts over my diaper, but I didn't like 'em, and she took them off.

We went to the kitchen, and she said, "One more cup of milk, little one. Then it is time for bed."

I said, "I'm really, really not tired at all. Can we play or watch TV?"

She stared at me, and I thought she was going to be mad, but she said, "You know, you are much perkier than last night, JB. I think that little nap this afternoon did a lot of good. We should try to do that more often."

"Oh no," I said, "Another baby thing."

She laughed and carried me over to a chair. I sat in her lap facing her, and she said, "Are you really still so worried about being a baby? You do have a lot of fun doing things for younger children, you know?"

I said, "Nah, not with you, not here, it is really nice, Marnie." I was looking down at her breast, she had never put any clothes on, and I touched her nipple. "But I don't want to be a baby all the time, and I don't want to be one and get beat up and teased by people if they find out."

"Oh the big world and little world problem," she said. "JB, lots of people are going to think you are the age to do most of what you do just because you do them. We discussed this already, right?"

I nodded and kept playing with her nipple.

She said, "The rest of it is my job to keep secret, OK? Trust me, baby."

I grinned and nodded, and she said, "Do you want to taste that, JB?" meaning her nipple.

I grinned real big. "It would be nice to drink the way Glyn can," I said.

"You can pretend to. I'd like that, and I've started taking some pills that will make it possible soon, and sooner if you pretend to enough."

"Really?"

"Yes, really. But we have to keep it a secret from most people; can I trust you to do that?

I laughed and she said we could do it in the den where it was more comfortable. We listened to some music and I pretend nuzzled. It gave me a stiffy, as Glyn called it, and I had to pee too. I didn't want to stop in the middle, so I just went in the diaper on purpose. I learned a new good thing about diapers, it's easier to pee with a stiffy in them because you don't have to bend it down.

I felt really good and happy, and Marnie turned on a movie to watch about a boy that could turn into animals. When it was a good stopping point she went to the kitchen and came back with things hid behind her back. She said, "JB, for your real bed time drink would you like to use this?" She showed me the big sippy cup I had used last night. "...Or this?" She showed me a real baby bottle!

"It is up to you, little guy. And it is different from what we did before, but you know Glyn and even her big brother, once in a while, still use these too."

I pointed to the bottle, and she went and filled it with the funny warm milk like I'd had at dinner. After the bottle I still wasn't sleepy , but Marnie said she was, and we both went to bed.

Marnie put on a long shirt and got into bed beside me. I had forgot to tell her I was wet, but decided it wouldn't matter. And Marnie sang songs to help herself get to sleep. I made her stop and said, "Marnie, I got to tell you something."

"What now, hon."

"I love you."

"Well that's weird, because I love you too," she said, and we kissed, and she sang some more.

When I woke up the next day I was real, real wet because I had gone to sleep wet. Marnie was still asleep, and I didn't know what to do, so I kissed her cheek. She smiled, but didn't open her eyes, so I did it on her lips, and she rolled over and said, "Morning, sweetheart."

I cuddled next to her and said, "Hi."

"It's still very early, but we do have another very busy day today. Wait here a minute, sweetie."

She came back real fast with a baby bottle of milk and held me while I drank it. For the second time I wet my self on purpose. Well sort of, I felt it start on its own but could have stopped it if I'd wanted to. Really I could have.

When the bottle was empty she asked me to pretend to nuzzle for five minutes. She said we should do that at least three times every day to help her make milk. Again doing that gave me a stiffy.

While she was changing me I said, "Marnie, could I call you something else 'sides Marnie?"

"Why, honey? Is something wrong with Marnie."

"Nuh-uh, but I thought of something better that sounds kind 'a like it."

"What's that, honey?"

"Mommy," I said, and right in the middle of putting powder on my bottom she stopped and grabbed me for a big hug until I said, "Aaagh."

"Of course, you can call me that, baby! And JB, I have to tell you something. - I love you."

"And I love you!" I said

She got me some juice, this time in a cup with a top again, and let me sit in the den and watch cartoons while she got dressed and stuff. Just when she called, "Come back here. It's your turn, love bug," the door bell rang. She went to answer, and I watched from around the corner.

It was Nora, the nurse, and I jumped up and ran and gave her a hug. She got down and hugged me back and said, "Marnie, we are going to talk about this." Then I saw a lady walking up behind her. It was Dr Spinner, my school principal, and I pulled away and went to hide again.

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Chapter XVI: JB and the Argument.

I ran all the way down the hall, went clear to the other side of Marnie's bed and got down on the floor. I could hear all the ladies talking but I couldn't tell what they were saying. Then I heard someone yell. I figured it was Dr Spinner because neither Nora nor Marnie had yelled before, and the principal at my old school did a lot. But then I heard a different voice yell too.

I walked up the hall very slowly. The ladies were in the living room not the den. I went and hid behind the big chair.

Marie said, "I did not tell those shitheads anything! And you God damn well know that, Nora!"

Nora said, "You might as fucking well have. It was because of your rules and your stupid asshole league that they got suspicious and you talked to them and that started the suit!"

I didn't know what they were talking about then either, but thought it was about the fight that Abby had told me about.

My grandmother used to scream all those words when she was mad at me, and my mother used them all the time, but I didn't think ladies like Marnie and Nora ever did.

Dr Spinner said, "That is not what we are here for. What happened then was because of three other people and some cruel students. Neither of you. That is why you still have your jobs! Now about this child. Why is he here?"

"His mother agreed it was best," Marnie said.

I creeped over and sat by the wall near the living room. I had my head on my knees, and my tears were making my legs wet.

"See! She just goes past the channels. What about protective services?" Nora said.

"He has been there before! And I talked to Jim Zimmer too."

"Fucking Damn. Her old lover!!"

"He isn't, and you know that Damn well, Nora."

"Well," Principal Spinner said, "If you have talked to a CPS worker and have the mother's permission...in writing, I suppose?"

"Notarized," Marnie said.

"...then it is not school business."

"Shit. So she gets her, just like that," Nora said.

"Chrast, Nora, Knock off the Crap"

I jumped up and ran into the other room. I was crying, and I shouted, "Stop! Stop! Why are you so mean to each other."

All the ladies were quiet; then Dr Spinner said, "This is the child we are discussing?"

Nora said "So, diapers 24-7, Marnie?" I had forgot that I was just wearing a diaper and PJ top until she said that.

Marnie said, "Come on, JB, let me take you to the other room so the grown-ups can talk."

"NO!" I said, "You are about the only people that have ever been nice to me! Ever!! WHY do you hate each other! Stop! It's not fair! Stop! Make up and like each other!"

Marnie softly said, "Did you hear what our baby just said, Nora?" But Nora didn't say anything.

Principle Spinner said, "JB, are you happy here with Ms Evens? Does she take good care of you."

I nodded as Marnie picked me up, and Nora just stared at me.

"And Nurse Marks is nice too you and helps you when you need it?"

I nodded again.

"I think this has become something between the two of you, as long as Zimmer is informed," she said, "And, Nora, I do hope you will work it out."

Nora said, "I don't see how. She won't let her real self out. Don't you see that."

Marnie said, "JB isn't the same as those others, Nora. But there are some similarities."

Principal Spinner said, "I have a feeling he needs both of you, Nora. But I don't want the school involved in something like last year again. Period. As for the locker room thing, this child is within the new guidelines. I don't think we will have a problem with that after what happened. Can you two work something out?"

Nora sighed and said, "We will see. I need to get to the conference downtown. Sorry to have bothered you, Gladys."

Dr Spinner said, "No, you should have informed me, Nora. It was right to."

I stretched my arms out to Nora. "Will you still be nice to me at school?" I asked her.

Marnie let Nora take me in her arms, and she hugged me and said, "Of course I will, Jade. Why would you ask such a thing, honey? I'll be there whenever you need me."

Marnie said, "Come to dinner tomorrow. JB's room will be painted, and you can see the colors he picked out. I think you will like them."

"They are real, real, real, real pretty," I said.

"We will see about that too," Nora said, and she hugged me again, and I kissed her, and she kissed me back and put me down on the floor and left.

I climbed on Marnie until she picked me up. Then I put my head on her shoulder and asked, "Is she still mad, Mommy?"

"Not at you at all, at all, love."

Dr Spinner said, "We will find a time to meet Monday and make some schedule changes. This is the one involved in that Shop incident, I take it."

Marnie nodded, and Dr Spinner said, "I'll talk to Nora tonight too, Marnie. Good bye and your baby needs to be changed by the way." And the principal patted me on the head and smiled at me before she left.

I didn't think I needed a new diaper at all, but it turned out I was wet and had some poo in them too.

I didn't know what to think about that. Both had happened without my knowing about it, but I was thinking about other things and real worried too.

Marnie didn't say anything about it and didn't put me in another diaper either. I got to wear the panties and shorts and t-shirt I'd worn at school yesterday since we hadn't gone to buy clothes yet, and the only other things I had were my ratty old clothes.

We went to the kitchen, and I sat at the table looking at the Sunday funnies, which came that morning even though it was Saturday, while she made scrambled eggs and toast.

She had got me a booster seat to use, and I felt different because I wasn't use to being so high at a table when I wasn't sitting on my legs. And I also had a new place mat at my place, a big plastic one with a rainbow and little bunnies and other animals on it.

I hadn't even finished my first cup of juice when she brought the breakfast over. She had broke up the toast into little bitty pieces and I ate one of those, then I ate a bite of the eggs, using my hands because I couldn't get it to stay on the spoon, and then I wasn't hungry, and just pushed stuff around on the plate.

Marnie took me in her lap and used her fork to put some bites of egg in my mouth but after three I wouldn't open up any more.

"Are you still real, real sad about Nora, sweetie?" she asked.

I nodded.

"So am I, baby." she said, and she got up and put something in the microwave. When it beeped she brought over a baby bottle of milk and took me into her lap again and tried to put it in my mouth.

I slapped the bottle away and said, "I don't want ta be a baby anymore." But I didn't try to get out of her lap.

She said, "It's OK, JB. Just hold it in your mouth while we talk."

I did, but I knew I couldn't say anything if I did that.

Marnie said, "I guess you think you can't be happy until you know that Nora is happy, don't you."

I nodded, and then did start playing with the nipple of the bottle with my lips and tongue.

"I feel that way too. Nora and I used to be very good friends. We need to get out of the house before the painters come. I promised my friend that is doing it that we wouldn't be in his way. So staying here and mopping isn't going to work. Also, we really need to go shopping to get you some school clothes and some toys, JB. Do you think that will make you feel better?"

I shook my head, and now I was drinking from the bottle.

"You sure, sweetheart? Some people really like shopping when they are down. Not even toy shopping would help?"

I shook my head again. I really had never been shopping that much, and when I had it meant getting pulled around the stores and yelled at.

Marnie sort of smiled and said, "I'm not that kind of shopper either. Do you know what does cheer me up? The beach. Would you like that, sweetie?"

"I never been," I said around the bottle.

"Then let's try it. If it works we will do a little shopping on the way home and the rest tomorrow. Should we see if Trish and Glyn want to go with us?"

I nodded, and pushed the bottle out of my mouth and got down from her lap.

I wasn't happy yet but already felt better.

Marnie said, "OK, we need a cooler and the umbrella, and I need to change and... Let's get busy."

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Chapter XVII: JB's trip to the Beach

Marnie got real busy real fast, and I just followed her from room to room. She was different from any busy grown-up I'd ever seen. Instead of standing in the middle and telling me what to do, she just started doing stuff, and I had to keep asking her if I could help.

And she let me too, but the very first thing she did was to grab me, put me over her shoulder and pull my shorts off without even telling me what she was doing, and then tell me to go potty, just to be safe, while she called Glyn and her mom. After that was all done, she brought in a cooler and I helped but a bunch of bottles of juice in it, then I took all her stuff out of her sports bag while she put on this really neat looking blue swim suit that just had a string in the back and other strings that held it all together. She put on a real loose, pretty, white and blue, flowery dress over it that tied at the back too to hold it up, and I shoved eight big towels into the bag.

We took bunches of stuff out of the back of Marnie's car and loaded other stuff into it, and then she started to put me into my seat, and I said, "Mommy, I don't have any pants on!"

We had to go back in and look all over for my shorts - they were in the den on a chair - and, as I was stepping into the panties, with my hands on Mommy's shoulders, I said, "Mommy, can I not do any baby stuff today while I'm with Glyn?"

"Well," Mrnie said, "part of that is up to you, sweetheart, but I won't make you, but I don't think Glyn would have much fun with a great-big-though-guy boy. Do you?"

I shook my head as she buttoned my shorts, and she said, "So how about you be a little boy for today, OK?"

I said, "K," and she pulled me into her lap and said, "A good little boy?"

"'Course," I said.

"A good, sweet, huggable little boy?"

And she hugged me real tight, and I said, "Yeah. Arrgh."

"A good, sweet, huggable, precious little boy that I can pick up and carry sometimes?" she said, and picked me up and carried me out to the car, and I was giggling and kissed her and didn't say nothing.

While she was fixing my seat belt, she said, "There are two things that you might think are baby things that you must do today, so I'll tell you now so you want get embarrassed or fussy."

"Wha?" I said.

"We will have to practice nuzzling sometime, but we will try to find somewhere private for that, OK? And you must lie down for a while after lunch just to see if you fall asleep. I think Glyn will have to do both of those too, so that won't be too bad, will it?"

I shook my head, and she said, "OK, everything else I ask of you will just be little boy things, sweetie."

When she was backing out of the driveway I said, "I remembered - I don't have a swim suit."

"We'll worry about that when we get there, OK, sweet little boy?" she said as she pulled into Glyn's drive, which was right next door, and Glyn ran out of the house before we had stopped, so I didn't have time to answer.

Glyn was wearing a yellow dress, sort of like Marnie's, but with strings on the shoulders instead of around the neck and back. She was jumping up and down while Marnie helped me out of the car, and it flew out so far you could have seen her unders except she had on a swimming suit bottom instead anyway, and it didn't matter because of what I'd seen last night.

They had lots more stuff. Even more than we did, like rafts and buckets and little shovels and a real big ball and a pump to blow those things up with and a tent thing that was only half a tent really and another cooler. When we got all that crammed in the back we had to add a little red wagon to help move it to the beach from the parking lot.

Glyn had to use a booster seat too, so we had to move hers from her car to ours and get it hooked up (but with hers the strap went across her lap like regular, not between her leg, and she could do it herself, but her mom checked to see if it was tight). And all the time we were loading stuff Glyn was telling me about the stuff they had brought for out lunch, which was a long time away. Eventually we did pull out, and just in time too because a van with ladders on its sides was pulling up as we left and Marnie said it was the painters whose way we were supposed to get out of the way of, and she honked and waved to them.

As soon as we turned the first corner Glyn asked, "Are we there yet?" And Marnie and her mom laughed and said we had about an hour to go. And then she started talking about jumping over waves and building castles and doing other things that you can do at the beach, and she told me all about jelly fish and sea shells too.

Just before we got on the highway Marnie pulled into a gas place and got gas and then went inside and got bags of ice, but Glyn's mom sat in the car with us, and she said, "This is the last stop 'til we get there. Do either of you need to go potty?"

Glyn answered, "Moooom! No we don't need to go to the BAthroom." Then she said to me, "Don't you hate it when they use baby words and treat you like a baby and all, JB?"

And I said, "Yeah, sometimes I do, 'guess."

"Wait 'til you're in third grade. It gets real 'noying then."

I laughed and forgot to tell her what grade I was in. It was like Mommy had said; I let her decide how big I was.

Boy I tell you Glyn can talk and talk and talk, but it was fun. I liked it - and her. Marnie turned on some music (so we couldn't hear the grown-ups or, maybe, so they couldn't hear us) and then Glyn told me all about the songs and we sang them.

After we had been driving for about ever, I noticed that Glyn had her dress up past the seat belt and her hand around the side of her swim suit and she was rubbing. I didn't know that girls did that, or could. When she saw me looking at that she whispered, "It feels good. Try it, JB."

I said, "I can't reach."

She giggled and said, "On yours, silly."

I did, but I couldn't really get my hand inside the shorts I was wearing, so I could just do it from outside. And she was right, but I knew that before, 'course. And we both did that the rest of the trip as we talked and joked around and sang.

The air in the car started to smell funny and, when I asked Marnie about it, she just grinned at me and said, "You'll find out why in a minute, sweetie." Right after that she pulled into a parking lot with big piles of sand all around it. Glyn tried to open the backdoor, but they don't open on Marnie's car so she climbed into the front and followed her mom, who had to grab her so she would run off. I waited for Marnie to come around and get me out, and when I stood up she took off my shirt and then started to pull my pants and underwear down. I grabbed a hold of them and said, "Not out here."

"Honey, lots of little boys go to the beach in their birthday suits and you did it last night. Otherwise you will have to swim in your short, and they will get all full of sand and salt and fell bad too. It's not a baby-thing, baby, just a little boy thing."

"Glyn isn't," I said.

"She might very soon if you set a good example for her. Try for ten minutes and if you are uncomfortable after that we can put the shorts or the panties back on. OK?" Then she whispered to me, "You said you would be a good, sweet little boy for me. And this way it will be easier for you to play with your pieces like you were on the drive."

I blushed about that, but I let her take my clothes off. Glyn and her mom had put some of the stuff into the wagon, and Glyn had taken her dress off. She just had a bikini bottom on, no top. She looked at me twice when I walked over but didn't say anything.

Marnie and Trisha, Glyn's mom, had arm load of stuff and Glyn and I had to pull the wagon. As we went ahead they kept telling us to slow down. But it was only Glyn that needed that. I was not real happy about not wearing nothing and was going as slow as she would let me.

When we got to the top of a sand dune I saw it! Wow. I knew the ocean was big, but it was Huge! But we still couldn't get our mommies to hurry!

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Chapter XVIII: JB'S Morning in the Sun

Marnie and Trisha made us walk way, way down he beach even though here were hardly any people at the beach already. We walked past a lady and a man, with two little boys dressed like me, but they were only about half as tall as Glyn. Finally just a little bit past them we stopped.

Our mommies very, very slowly spread out some of the towels on the sand and then set up the umbrella and the tent thing, which was sort of like a little cave. And then they started doing other things too!!

I said, "Can I go to the water now!!??"

Glyn said, "Yeah, come on!"

But they made us wait and get sun block all over. Marnie was putting the sun stuff all over me, she even made sure to get some inside my crack because that would be a real bad place to get burned she said, and she moved my hands from my pieces so she could put the stuff there to.

Glyn's mom was doing the same thing to her and, when she was getting the sun cream down inside Glyn's suit, she pushed the suit way down and said, "Glyn, why don't you leave your suit off since JB doesn't have one, and he will fell more comfortable."

"But, mom, I'm too old."

"You're not that big yet. Just try it for five minutes," Trisha said, "But I guess JB is just braver than you are." And Glyn didn't really fight her that hard.

While Glyn and I helped our mommies get the sun stuff on their backs, we decided to take the rafts out next, and we blew them up, and then her mom came with us.

Glyn could paddle those things around real fast. When we were just flouting around looking for jelly fish under the water (Glyn told me there were peanut butter fish, but I didn't believe that, I'm not really that little you know.), pee squirted out of her and almost hit my raft. I started laughing, but she just rolled around, shrugged and said, "It's a real big ocean you know."

When we got back to shallow water her mom got on one raft and Glyn and I tried to stay on the other. When I was on it once she said, "Your wiener is real small, JB, let me rub it and make it warm," but when she touched it her hands were freezing and I jumped off the raft and said, "Not with cold hands, geez!" and then as I was climbing back on the raft she said, "Boy, this ocean is getting bigger and bigger." And that was when I realized I was peeing right then and laughed.

At snack time Marnie let me have cookies that Glyn brought along. I drank out of a sports bottle rather than a sippy cup too. I sat on Marnie and drank mine real slow, with the top only half pulled up so I could keep it in my mouth the whole time.

More people were showing up at the beach. This lady started putting down towels next to us. These boys, that had been running beside the water and were a little bit bigger than Glyn, came over, and one boy said, "I don't wanta stay by naked kids, Aunt June."

The other said, "Really, mom, it's gross."

"Then don't look at them, don't make it a big deal. Just go on and play in the water. Not deep 'til I'm there," the lady said, and they left and went back to kicking the waves.

The lady said, "It's sad when they think they're so gown up. I wish they could be as free as your two are."

Marnie said, "They don't look so grown up to me, and I bet they would really mind being talked into taking the suits off really. Even little JB objected this morning. They think they have to do that."

The lady said, "That's why I picked this spot, you know?"

Glyn wanted to ask the two little kids beside us if we could help with their hole since we could swim right after snacks. I did worry we were never gonna find time to collect sea shells, with all the things we had still to do, but the hole sounded fun too.

The littler kid had a plug, pacifier, in his mouth the he never let go of, and I think even I could have picked him up. The bigger was still only up to my shoulders. But they were really good diggers.

I heard the new lady on the other side of Mommy and our stuff say, "You two just try it for five minutes to see if you like it. I can't believe you're scared to. You're the only kids under twelve on this beach wearing swim suits."

"We will be the only ones over nine not wearing them too, Mom. Come on, don't make us," a boys voice said, and I turned around to watch.

"It's only five minutes, boys. Now go on. I'm not counting the time you're curled up on the towels."

Both of the boys came and just stared at us while we were working hard on the hole (except I think they might have been watching us workers, especially our parts they didn't usually see.) Finally Glyn said to them, "Why don't you just come help instead of pretending we can't see you?"

"One of them, whose named turned out to be David, said, "Do you want to think we could build a canal and get the ocean to fill it up. We could make it a lake."

Glyn whispered to him, "I don't think the little kids want to, and they started this, but they don't have lunch stuff so we can do that when they leave. Let's get it real big while they're here." I think the big boys were impressed by her deviousness, and they started digging.

At first I sayed on the opposite side of the hole from them but they didn't tease even the littlest kid. So I thought they might not be too mean.

The other big boy, his name was Greg by the way, kept calling over to his mom to ask if it had been five minutes and she kept saying, "Not quite." Until even I laughed and told him that it must have been longer by now. He whispered to me, "I know, but I don't want my mom to know I don't care. Sssshhh,"

He started working on the hole right next to me, and he was being nice, but then he reached between my legs and grabbed my tube and pulled! I screamed and kicked my legs back and kicked him in the head, Then I turned around and hit him.

Marnie came over and picked me up. She took me to where our towels were and told me that was very bad, and asked why I had done it. I told her why. The other boy wasn't even hurt because I'm so small and had gone back to digging right away, but now his mother called to him. Marnie asked if I was OK and if it still hurt. I said it didn't, he hadn't got hold of my balls or sack, and I was OK. Marnie hugged me and kissed my head. She told me to sit in the tent that I called the cave for five minutes until I felt better. She didn't say it was a time out, but it felt like one like the group home people use to give almost all the time.

The boy's mother told Greg that that was a mean and awful thing to do, and how would he feel if someone pulled on his like that and gave him a ten minute time out to think about it, and she did call it that. He said he hadn't really meant to do it and could he talk to me to apologize and then he came into the cave and sat beside me.

I was crying as I sat in the cave, mostly because this was the very first time I'd ever been in trouble with Marnie, and I felt real bad even if she didn't yell or spank or hit.

Greg sat next to me, and he looked like he felt bad, and he talked nice, and he thought I was crying because he had hurt me. He got a towel and put it on his lap and said, "Here, reach under and pull mine, but not too hard, please." And he closed his eyes and gritted his teeth and I giggled even though I was still crying because he looked so funny. And I put my hand out and touched his wienie, and he gasped, but I didn't touch it hard, I hadn't planned to, I just rubbed gently, and he grinned at me.

It felt real weird. I mean his wiener felt sort of like mine did, only a little bit bigger round, but it felt weird touching another boy's. And Greg spread the towel over me too, and he started rubbing mine too. He started to get a stiffy. I told him; he said I was too, and I looked under the towel to see them, and we kept rubbing. Then he pulled his legs up by his head (he was nearly as good as that as I was) and pointed at is bottom hole and said, "Put a finger in there." When I did he moved my arm back and forth so my finger went back and forth, and he did it to mine too. I guess, we were giggling too loud under the towel because Marnie said it was time for us to go back and play.

Greg and I went back to the hole. The bigger little boy suddenly yelled out, "Mama, Scot is going." and his mother came and grabbed the kid with the pacifier and put him on top of a plastic bag before the poo had dropped. We all watched as he went, and I decided I should go because I needed to a little, and I didn't want to have an emergency and get watched. And I didn't know where someone went to do that on the beach.

When I told Marnie she called to Glyn to bring her the little shovel. When she got there she asked if Marnie was going to dig a cat hole and Mommy nodded.

"What's that?" I asked.

"We will show you, JB." Marnie said, and she got her littler bag and picked me up.

We went all the way over the top of a dune and Glyn ran down the other side. She had dug two holes before Marnie and I caught up, and Marnie took the shovel from her and made them deeper. Then she told me to squat over the hole to go, and Glyn squatted over the one right next to mine. I felt a long piece come out and Glyn started grunting, but Marnie said, "This isn't a race. Just go naturally." and Glyn stopped pushing.

When my second piece fell I peed too and it shot straight out. Glyn thought that was real funny. I was going right next to a girl and she was laughing about it. Marnie handed Glyn some damp wipes to clean up with, but she did my bottom, but then she did make Glyn let her check, because people would see if see wasn't clean, and finished Glyn's bottom too.

Glyn and I had to wait while Marnie dug another hole and took her suit bottom off and got over it. I think she only peed, but she wiped anyway.

When we were almost to the top of the dune Marnie sent Glyn ahead and told her we would be there in a few minutes. Then she said to me, "This is a private spot, my little one, let's practice." And she took her top off and sat on the sand where she couldn't be seen from the beach. Before I started I told her I was sorry for making her mad, and she said she wasn't mad but wanted me to always be sweet and not hurt people unless it was very necessary to keep from being hurt. So I guess the kick had been OK, but not the hitting. And then I pretended to nuzzle for five minutes. She got a bottle of milk out of her bag and I finished that, and we had to go back then.

We all shared and trade lunch stuff with Greg and his mom and David, and while we were eating Greg pulled me onto his lap and I sat there most of the time. It was funny because sometimes I felt his wiener under me.

Then when lunch was over Glyn and her mom went over to the dune and I knew what they were doing. When she got back we had to lie down inside the cave. I rolled on my side facing her, and she asked if my bag was cold and started rubbing it. I put my hand right where her legs came together and rubbed her parts too. I let my finger slip inside her. It was all velvety and soft. And I yawned and sighed.

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Chapter XIX: JB's Afternoon in the Sun

I heard Mommy say, "That was nice. That is my first good run in three days."

"Well, having a baby can cut into free time, Marnie. I wish I missed it when I didn't get to run," Trisha said.

Abby said, "I could baby sit for you, Coach Evens."

I still felt groggy, but I open my eyes. Someone had put a small towel over the top of my face, and I left it there.

"You live quite a ways away to come over for just a run, Ab," Mommy said.

"But sometime I could, please. He is so cute. Look he's sucking his thumb now," Abby said.

"Someday maybe, Abby, and JB doesn't suck his thumb; he just pretends it has candy on it. I think the little scamp is awake and eavesdropping on us. Come on and get up, little one."

I pushed the towel off my face and grinned and crawled over to Mommy and got into her lap.

"Have a good sleep, sweetie?" she asked, and I nodded as I lay in her arms. I was still not all the way awake. She put a partly opened sports bottle into my mouth, and I swallowed some juice. Then I put my hands down on myself while I drank, and it was all sticky down there, and I knew why, but it didn't matter to me much right then.

Mommy said, "Can you hand me that box of baby wipes from the bag next to you, Abby." And then mommy started washing off my pieces while I held the bottle in my mouth.

Then suddenly I realized something! I jumped up and said "Mommy, where are my shorts? Hurry!" And I got around behind her and tried to hide.

Trisha and some new lady sitting next to her and Greg's mom and Abby and even Mommy laughed at me. Mommy pulled me back around to her lap and said, "What's the matter, JB?"

I rolled over to keep my front towards her and kept squirming. "Abby's seeing me naked!" I said. And all the ladies and Abby laughed again.

Mommy said, "Sweetheart, she has been here almost an hour, and you have been sleeping on your back that whole time. She even saw when you peed in you sleep, honey."

I blushed, and I moaned and said, "But she's in my grade!"

Abby said, "It's not a big deal, Jade. -- Jaden."

"JB, if I thought anyone would tease you or embarrass you, I wouldn't let them see you. You know that. Stop worrying, sweetheart."

I looked at Abby and said, "You won't tell anyone?"

She said, "Arrrggh, NO I won't, and if you don't stop asking me that all the time, Jade, I'll - I'll bite you." And she ran over with her mouth open, but then kissed my neck at the last minute, and I did smile and giggle and cuddled Mommy.

Abby said, "Can I take Jade to the water and to wash off."

Mommy said, "I'll go with you. You know I haven't been in the water all day and, JB, you've only been in once."

So Abby took my hand, I didn't mind that - That wasn't letting her treat me like a baby, was it? - and I looked around for everyone. Lot's more people had come since lunch. Glyn was working in our hole with David and a girl in a one one-piece swim suit. Greg and a man and a big boy were sliding on boards by the water.

Abby and I walked ahead of Mommy, who was bringing a raft. Abby said, "Don't be embarrassed about wetting the bed either, Jade, my sister does that too. It's only a problem because of all the sheets we have to wash, you know. At least today you didn't even have that problem."

I hadn't even thought about being embarrassed about that, I mean she already knew about that from volleyball practice, and everyone new I couldn't help it "Does she wear a di -- special pants." I asked Abby, and she said her sister wore pull-ups but they usually leaked.

When we got to the waterside,Greg and the man he was with came over to say hi. And the big boy ran over too. It was one of the boys that had hit me with the door last week! I hid behind Abby and told her that.

Abby said, "Sam, did you hit JB?" And the man glared at the boy

The big boy mumbled and said he didn't know my name and that it was an accident.

Mommy caught up with us, and she picked me up and said, "Sam has already done his detention for that and, JB, Sam didn't do it on purpose. He is a good boy most of the time. Just sometimes careless, like most boys."

"He teased me too," I said.

"I was just joking, JB. I really am sorry. If you forgive me I'll let you use my skimboard," the boy said.

"I don't know how anyway," I said.

"It's easy and fun. I'll show ya'," Greg said.

"And he just learned too," the man said, "If Sam isn't nice to you from now on, JB, he will have to answer to me and, even worse, to Abby. So don't worry about him, OK."

I nodded, but wasn't really that sure. Mommy carried me the rest of the way into the water. Abby helped me get on the raft and pushed me around, and I asked if her brother was going to tell people stuff and she said he absolutely wouldn't; he knew all about secrets too.

Then Abby showed me how to ride the waves. Once I got all the way to the beach. We did stuff like that for along time and then we watched the boys use the skimboard and I did that too. And then I told Mommy I had to poo, and Abby started following us and so did Greg, and I wondered if they were going to go too.

When we got the shovel from Glyn, she and the other girl, who was named Lee and was Abby's little sister came, and I said, "Wow, is this a big poo party, or what?" And everyone thought that was funny, but it was because Glyn and me and Lee all squated over holes at the same time, but Abby didn't and Greg just faced the other way to pee. Glyn didn't poo this time either, just pee. When Mommy was cleaning me up, Lee asked Abby it she would do her bottom for her. And Abby did.

Glyn said, "Lee, could you leave your suit off now. I'm tired of being the only girl without one."

"I saw more up the beach," I said.

Lee asked Abby if it was OK, and Abby said, "Leave it off and ask Shelly. I think she will let you if you want to."

We all ran to the new lady that was sitting by us, and she said it was OK. And Glyn said, "Yea! I was getting tired of looking at weiners all the time." And when people laughed she added, "Really, this morning it was like being surrounded by wiggly-worms everywhere." She said that even with grown-ups all around.

I found out latter that Shelly was Abby's and Lee's and Sam's step-mom, but that they all liked her.

Glyn and Lee and David had started building a castle in the middle of our hole, instead of making a lake in it, and I worked with them on that for a while. The only other real funny thing that happened the rest of the time, was when we were looking for shells to decorate the castle with, Lee just peed right on the beach without even sitting down or anything, and I told everyone to be quiet when David started to say something about it.

We had an afternoon snack, and when I was leaning back on Mommy drinking the juice slowly, Lee climbed into her step-mom's lap and held her bottle in her mouth too while Shelly stroked her hair. I thought she looked real, real cute doing that and told her, which made lots of the other smile.

Then we had to pack up to go, but all the other people were staying. It seemed like even a longer walk back to the parking lot than it was this morning, but we made it. There was a shower thing right out in the open there and we all had to stand under it, but Mommy and Trisha did it in their suits.

Before we got in the car Mommy started to dress me, and she had these special thick throw away pants for me to wear for the ride home, because it was a long ride and I hadn't peed in a long time. I didn't argue about it because no one would see them, but then she couldn't get my shorts buttoned over them, and I didn't want to ride the whole way in just pull-ups!

Glyn said we should trade and I could wear her dress! Mommy said that would be OK. And it was better than wearing just baby pants, although Mommy said they were little boy pants for long car trips too, and it was a pretty dress at least. While Glyn got her clothes on I practiced getting it to fly out by spinning around.

Our next stop was a burger place for dinner, and it had a playground right inside it with tubes to crawl in and a big pit full of balls to jump into, and when we had finished eating our mommies let Glyn and me go into it.

As I was crawling though a tube, I heard this boy behind me say, "Look that little girl is wearing pull ups!" But his sister said, "Shut up, Johnny, some kids have a hard time holding it, and they could be on a long trip. Don't make fun and stop looking up girls dresses too."

Right after that I jumped into the ball pit and decided to stay there; wearing a dress did have its problems. Glyn and I rolled around in the pit and, when I needed to pee, I didn't stop, I just let it happen; after all it was a long car trip, right?

But that was a mistake, because Marnie and Trisha took us to go potty before we got back into the car, and Mommy learned that I had already gone. She just smiled about it and washed me off in the bathroom, but then I had to go all the way to the car with nothing on under my dress before we got another pull-up.

Mommy and Trish decided to put off the shopping again and go to Glyn's house and barrow some of her clothes for me to wear tomorrow. I wasn't that disappointed, but when was I ever going to get toys? Mommy promised tomorrow, positively.

On the ride back I asked Mommy if I could have a baby bottle, and Glyn used one too, but we hid them when ever there was a car next to ours.

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Chapter XX: JB on Sunday Morning

I woke up and slowly moved Mommy's arm so I could sit up. I sat cross legged on the bed; I had a hard time doing that because I was wearing a really long nightie that I had barrowed from Glyn and I had to get my legs pulled up inside it. I sat and watched Mommy; she looked real sweet and peaceful sleeping there.

She told me, if I woke up before seven thirty, not wake her unless my diaper was to wet to move, and it wasn't. I didn't think it was very wet at all. She had shown me how to start the TV and fixed it so the buttons would only go to the best channels for me. So I got my bears and took them into the den. I saw me in the real long mirror on Mommy's wall, and smiled. The nightie was pale blue with ruffles at the bottom that hid my feet and real puffy sleeves and a lacey, old fashioned collar and a long ribbon in a bow at the neck. In the hall I looked at the door to my room but I didn't open it because the painters were coming back to do the finishing touches today, and Mommy didn't want me to see it until they were all done.

I turned on the TV and the two best programs I could get were one about teenaged super heroes and one about a girl that could make rainbows, and since Mommy had buttons, that meant I didn't have to get up to change channels, I watched them both. I lay on the floor next to my bears to watch and pretended to eat some candy on my thumb. I'll tell you, there are two bad things about diapers, and one of them is that it doesn't feel as good when you rub between your legs, but I did anyway and the nightie was so soft and smooth that I wasn't bad.

Last night after our bath, Glyn and I had played dress up for a long time - she had lots of toys, but the dress up stuff was her favorites - and I had dressed as a princess once with a long veil and that dress had been almost as soft but not quite. After Glyn got to nurse with her mom and I had practiced with Mommy, Glen said, "I'll be glad when Georgie gets back, and I don't have to do that so much."

I said, "You don't like it?" and she told me that usually she didn't have to so many times a day because her brother helped her sometimes.

Trisha, her mom, said, "Georgie has almost stopped nuzzling, Glyn, only two or three times a week now. But when you are ready we can stop too."

"Yeah, but if I do," Glyn said, "it has to be forever. I can't do it just sometimes like Georgie gets to."

"Another unfair thing about being the youngest, huh, Glynie? I'll try to think of something," Trisha said.

But I liked nuzzling and didn't mind doing it several times a day with Mommy at all.

Mommy had told me she would leave some juice ready for me in a certain place in the refrigerator, and I went to get it. I found it, and it was in a baby bottle, and I went to lie back down on the floor to drink it.

Last night when we got home from Glyn's we had called Nora, but we just got her machine. I said to the machine, "Please come to dinner tomorrow, It will be nice, and I love you, please come." And I hadn't planned to say the "I love you" part it just came out, and after we hung up Mommy said she hoped Nora would come a whole lot too and she loved her too.

Later today we were going to have to go shopping. I had already borrowed some long blue jeans and a orange t-shirt from Glyn to wear so we could go bye school clothes. They didn't have any designs on them except some little flowers by the pockets that the shirt would hide. But then Mommy was going to change me - I mean just my pants, I didn't think I'd be wet or dirty or something - into some blue shorts that said "sweet" across the bottom and a white shirt with flower around the neck to wear to bye 'accessories' -that's like shoes and things - to wear for if Nora came tonight.

Then I had to take a dump - I mean poo, and I didn't know what to do, because I wasn't supposed to take my diaper off by myself, and it was bad to pull it back in or hold it for a long time. So I just let it go into my diaper, and it didn't seem like a lot of it, but I didn't like that I had done that.

I rolled over onto my stomach so it wouldn't feel so squissy, but then I couldn't drink my bottle, so I rolled back over.

I thought about how I was supposed to feel about doing something like that, or sucking on a bottle even, but I didn't feel that way at all. I seemed OK. Mommy didn't care and Nora hadn't used to care about some of it, and I didn't think she would care about other stuff either, and I knew some other people that didn't hate me, even with what they knew, even big kids and even some boys. And the things that Mommy - Marnie - Ms Evens did for me felt good to. I wasn't scared when it was like this. Or with Nora either.

We were going to bye toys today too. Mommy said she had bought two toy boxes, one for my room and one for the den, and I had to fill them up. And I had never had hardly any toys, but people would make fun of me for that too. I was going to get trucks, like some of the building trucks those two little boys had had at the beach. And some balls and games too. But I could also get some stuffed animals - I wanted a bunch - and some dress up dolls and even one of those dolls with storybooks about them like Glyn had if I wanted. Mommy had said I could.

But my wanting that made me feel bad again because people would say I shouldn't like any of it at all. And I didn't see why. And I was crying and had Holly Bear over my eyes to catch the tears.

The second show was almost over on both channels, and I got up to go watch Mommy. I put my head next to her, but didn't wake her up yet because it was only seven twenty-five yet, but still it made me fell better to be there. When it was almost time I sat up, and as soon as the clock said seven thirty I kissed Mommy's cheek, but she didn't do anything, so I kissed her on the eye brow, and she swatted like it was a fly, and I giggled. Then I whispered real quietly into her ear, "I love you, Mommy," and kissed her ear. She grinned but didn't move. I did it again, and she said "Once more and I'll be awake." So I did it once more, and she sprang up and grabbed me in a giant hug and kissed me all over my face.

Before she even changed me we practice nuzzled, and then we got ready for yet another extra-extra busy day.

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