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Authors note: Despite the dark aspects of some of my stories, I do not in any way endorse the use of force or pain to compel anyone to do anything. This story, as with all my stories on this site, deals with issues of an adult, sexual nature. No-one under the age of eighteen and no-one who finds forced feminization stories to be offensive should read any further.
If you are still reading, then you are an adult with an interest in stories of this nature, and I hope you will find my offering to be enjoyable. Regardless, constructive comments (and, of course, lavish praise) are always welcomed.
Second note: this is new to Crystals, but many readers will recognize it from another site.
I have a new story in the works, but cannot promise when, or even if, it will be finished.
The Feminization of Michelle
by: Aleisha James
Michelle paused to examine her handiwork in the mirror, looking closely for any flaw or failure. Perhaps her right eyebrow was just slightly too bushy, she thought. She picked up the pair of tweezers which lay on the cluttered counter top and carefully plucked one hair, concentrating hard on not wincing. Any negative expression, such as frowning or wincing, might help create ugly lines in her smooth facial skin, which in turn would merit punishment.
She lowered the tweezers and looked again at her reflection. Yes, that had done it!
She sensed someone approaching from behind. She quickly sat up straight and, keeping her head high, she lowered her eyes, so as not to be caught looking in the mirror to see who was behind her. Discipline was lax these days, but only because the girls now behaved appropriately from instinct. She put down the tweezers and laid both hands in her lap.
She felt the warmth emanating from the visitor. The room where Michelle sat along with the other seven trainees was deliberately kept a couple of degrees below comfort level, especially for the way that the trainees were dressed.
Michelle held her breath and focused on appearing calm and peaceful.
She felt a hand caress the back of her neck, lightly rubbing the skin beneath her long hair.
"Youre ready, Michelle. Ill see you tonight!" came the words she had been hoping to hear.
The hand was removed and Michelle sensed the Master, for it had been a male voice and a male touch this time, move away. She breathed deeply, tempted to sneak a peek towards her room-mate, Julie. But this pleasure was a special treasure, something to savor for a while before sharing
Instead she consciously smiled, appreciative of the compliment paid to her by the Master. She knew that every move, every expression was closely monitored, and any trainee receiving any praise, or what passed for praise in this upside-down world, was expected to react appropriately, or pay a penalty.
Any indiscretion carried a price. All choices bore consequences. When she had first arrived here, the lessons were crude, lacking finesse. The trainees soon learned the basic rules, but with every lesson learned, the next lesson was more subtle, while the penalties were incurred less and less frequently.
Michelle found her mind going back to those early days. She knew that no good could come of such memories, so she mentally shook himself and applied herself diligently to finishing her makeup.
She picked up a soft brush, the strands made of the finest fibers, hairs from some unknown animal, perhaps even a mink, she thought. She stroked the ends of the fibers gently against the rouge she had decided to use on her cheeks today. The Masters and Mistresses seemed to like her using dramatic colors. She brushed the rouge below her cheekbones, feeling the soft bristles against her skin while concentrating on making sure that the color blended smoothly.
Eyeshadow was always the most difficult for her. She had not paid enough attention to the earliest lessons they had had in cosmetics, and somehow she never quite seemed to catch up. As a result, she spent far more time on her eyes than any of the other trainees. Fortunately, she thought, she had developed physically faster than any of them, and those attributes, combined with her obvious devotion to her lessons, now at least, had brought her favor amongst the Masters and Mistresses.
Ten minutes later she leaned back on her chair. The motion brought the usual, now enjoyable, sensation from the plug in her rectum. She had worn this plug for four days now. It was the fifth plug she had been given, each slightly wider than the previous. She doubted that she would ever be asked to wear any bigger than this; it was certainly far bigger than any of the penises exhibited by the trainees, even before the effects of the hormones and other drugs had taken hold.
None of the trainees had liked the butt plugs at first, although she suspected that all of them would find their absence upsetting by now. Michelles mind flitted back to her first sight of a butt plug.
Julie had been the first to be told to insert hers. The trainees had all been assembled in the classroom, naked and uncomfortable in the chill air. Sitting on hard wooden chairs had not made the ordeal any better.
None of them had known any of the others. None of them had any idea where they were nor why they were there. Michelle later found that her story was much the same as the others. She had run away from home, hoping that life, even on the street, would be better than at home, with her drunken mother and abusive stepfather. She knew all the stories that adults circulated about the dangers of street life, about the predators who preyed on young people such as she was. So she had been careful at first, but she had been caught by a woman of all people. She would have never been trapped by a man, but a woman! None of the stories had told her that women could be as evil as men.
Drugged into unconsciousness, she never knew how far she had been taken to this place, where she awoke cold and hungry, with a fierce headache. She had been given water and aspirin, which had dulled the headache by the time she was led, weakly protesting, to the classroom. She had been almost the last led into the room and told, firmly but not cruelly, to sit and be quiet. She had been very weak, feeling tired as well as unfed and cold.
After the eight trainees, not that they knew of their role then, were seated, their escorts moved to the back of the room and two others entered, to stand at the front.
The newcomers were a man and a woman. They were both tall, she easily six feet and he another four inches over her, even though she was wearing three inch heels on her leather boots. They looked sufficiently alike that they could have been brother and sister. Both were in their mid thirties, as best as Michelle, whose name then was Michael and who thought of himself as a boy, could tell. They wore black leather tunics, the man in matching trousers and the woman in a long sheath skirt made of the same material. They were slim to the point of thinness and their dark eyes gazed out of sharp featured faces. Black hair cut short added to their sinister appearance.
The two adults surveyed the shivering group with expressionless faces. Then the woman stepped forward and smiled. Michael noted even then that the smile did not seem to reach her eyes.
Her voice was sultry, an unexpected contrast to her appearance. But her words were as black as her attire.
"You are all wondering where you are, how you got here, and whats in store for you. I will answer one of those questions, but first I am going to tell you about the rules."
"The first rule: none of you will ever speak to any of your superiors unless you are spoken to first"
The boy to Michaels left chose that moment to speak.
"What the fuck are you talking ab."
The words were cut off by the sound of a scream. Michael had barely noticed an escort sidle quickly past his chair. The escort had reached out and barely touched the boys shoulder. The scream which resulted seemed far out of proportion to any pain which such a trivial touch could have caused.
"The second rule is that any, and I mean any, violation of any of the rules will be punished immediately"
"The third rule is the most important, and the most difficult to understand, so pay close attention. Every choice carries consequences. If you stand on the edge of a cliff, you have a choice. You may walk away, back to safety. Or you may choose to walk off the edge, falling to your death. In this facility we offer choices. None of you will be compelled to do anything. We want you to change. We want you to learn a new role, one which will ultimately afford you great pleasure. But it will always be your choice. You may choose to comply. At first compliance will result only in the absence of consequence.
Later, compliance will result in pleasure. But you are always free to refuse our wishes. Just remember the cliff. All choices have consequences"
The boy next to Michael was rocking back and forth, hunched over with tears rolling down his cheeks. Michael could see two small red marks, close together, on his shoulder, but thought that it couldnt hurt as much as the boy was acting. Maybe it was the shock he thought.
His attention was drawn back to the front of the room.
"I mentioned your superiors. Everyone you meet here, other than each other, will be your superior. Males will be addressed as Master and females as Mistress. You will include these terms of respect in every phrase you are permitted to speak to any of us. Any failure to obey the rules, or any choice we deem inappropriate will result in the offender paying the consequences."
"You will find that the consequences of poor choices may be difficult to take. You will also find that choices that we believe to be appropriate will generate rewards, which will become more apparent and more enjoyable as your commitment to your intended role deepens. Ultimately, should you make the right choices, you will be free to leave"
The woman stepped back and the man moved forward.
"You heard Mistress. You will find that your Masters and Mistresses will be fair, but firm. We will make suggestions to you from time to time. You need not accept our suggestions, but be careful when making your choice. Every choice has a consequence!"
Michael moved restlessly on his seat, the urge to protest quelled only by the continued sobbing from the boy beside him, and the fear that any word would fetch a similar treatment.
The others must have felt the same way, their instinctive reactions cowed by fear and the sense of vulnerability engendered by their nakedness in a cold room confronted by tall, dominant leather-clad strangers.
The Master paused before continuing. When he did so, it was apparent that he held something in one of his hands, but Michael could not make out what it was.
The Master looked towards the back of the room, presumably making eye contact with one of the escorts. He nodded and Michael sensed an escort coming forward on his right. It may have been the one who had struck the boy next to him, since the escort tapped that unfortunate on the shoulder.
"Stand up!" the escort commanded.
The boy stood, his face blotched with red,
The man at the front of the room spoke. "Come forward"
The boy moved forward hesitantly, one hand before his groin, covering his nakedness.
"What is your name?"
The question contained no hint of curiosity.
"Steve" the boy replied.
The Master held out the hand with which he had just touched the boy, who was now curled in a fetal position on the floor. Michael and the others could see a small egg- shaped device. Whatever it was seemed too small to have caused the agony inflicted upon the boy.
"You are speaking to a Master" the tall man said, his tone hard.
"What is your name?" the man in black asked again.
"Steve, Master" the boy sobbed, still lying on the floor.
The Master grimaced.
"I dont think so. Steve doesnt suit you at all. No."
He placed a hand beneath his chin, striking a pose as if deep in thought. The answer came to him and he smiled.
"I think we will call you Julie! Thats it. You are Julie, do you understand?"
Michael held his breath. What was going on here, he wondered, as he waited to see how Steve would react.
Michael could not tell whether he was relieved or disappointed when the boy responded.
"Yes, Master. My name is Julie"
"Stand up, Julie!"
The boy obeyed, his legs trembling. Every inch of his body proclaimed that he was thoroughly cowed, all resistance at least temporarily vanquished by the egg-shaped objects.
"Good girl" The Master spoke.
"Now take this and insert it in your rectum"
He held out his hand. Michaels view was partially obstructed, but he could tell that whatever it was, it was in a plastic bag.
Julie hesitated and in that instant the escort, who was still standing close to him, made a tiny motion with his hand. Julie must have seen the motion, subtle though it was. In any event he reached out and took the bag.
"Show the other girls the gift we have given you, Julie"
Julie turned to face the group, his head held low. In trembling hands he displayed a plastic bag containing something pink and slick. He opened the bag and withdrew an object which looked like a plastic penis, with a circular base. It seemed to have been coated in a lubricant of some kind.
"Bend over and insert it in your rectum, Julie"
The escort moved beside the hapless lad, showing his whip all too clearly. Tears were running down the boys face. Michaels stomach was knotted. He fought back the momentary urge to leap to Judys aid. Sitting cold and naked in a room full of larger, clothed tormentors made the thought of resistance difficult to entertain for more than a moment. A quick glance at the others revealed that they were all acting the same way, perched forward on their chairs, hands over their genitals, sorry for Julie but glad that it was not them up there.
Julie bent over, still facing the group.
"No, Julie. Turn around. Let your classmate see how you do it"
Julie shuffled his feet until his rear faced the group. He bent over until his face was visible between his legs. He reached back and tentatively pressed the tip of the phallic object into his asshole. His whole body was shaking and his sobs were now clearly audible.
"Good girl" The Masters voice delivered the praise, if praise it was, with a tone of utter indifference.
Julie pressed harder and the butt plug became to slide into his rectum, until the flat circular flange around the base was snug against his buttocks.
"You may return to your seat, Julie"
The boy walked back to sit beside Michael. He was walking awkwardly, his legs further apart than was normal. He avoided looking at any of the other trainees, and sat with his head down, staring at the floor. His cheeks were now fiery red, and tears continued to roll down his face.
"Julie has learned the first lesson well, although at a cost. Each of you should learn from her example. You will be dismissed to your rooms. You will be sharing rooms with another girl. You and she will become friends. You will be given breakfast in one hour. By then each of you will have inserted your plugs and chosen an appropriate name. You will have your choice of clothing.
Chose well! Any girl who refuses to chose a proper name or appropriate clothing for herself will be punished, until she does. Julie was lucky. We chose her name for her. I suggest that you try hard to come up with several names so that if we find your first choice unacceptable, you can offer us an alternative before the punishment becomes severe. You are dismissed"
The Master and Mistress left without a backward glance. The escorts moved forward and the boys stood. They were led in groups of two to new rooms.
Michael found himself walking in silence with Julie, who was still walking oddly. The two boys, still naked and cold, were led down a long hallway, which ended where it met another hallway running at ninety degrees. They were told to turn right and then were brought to a halt in front of the second door along.
The elder of the two escorts, a woman dressed in the same manner as the two instructors, used a plastic passkey to unlock the door. The two boys filed inside.
"You heard your instructions. Assume that everything you do and say is known to us, and maybe you will stay out of trouble"
Michael walked in ahead of Julie. The door clicked closed behind them. A quick turn of the handle revealed that they had been locked inside.
The room was furnished as if it were a hotel room, with two double beds and, on the opposite wall, a long, low bureau. A door set into the wall immediately inside the entrance revealed a small bathroom, with toilet, sink and shower. A second doorway gave onto a closet, which was full of female clothing, although neither boy ventured an inspection just then. Floor to ceiling windows on the far wall let in light filtered through long sheers. Thin steel bars made it clear that no escape lay through those windows. The walls were painted in a faint pink, while the beds were covered in snow-white duvets. Framed prints of still-lifes and landscapes hung on the walls. Clock radios sat on the night stands beside each bed, while in one corner stood a circular table accompanied by two chairs. A vase of fresh cut flowers, sitting on the table, added color to the room.
A twenty inch television with a built-in VCR sat on top of the bureau.
Michael saw that there were no telephones anywhere to be seen.
Michael moved quickly to the thermostat, hoping to dispel the chill in the room. The thermostat was locked, the temperature set at 64 degrees.
"Shit! Its too fucking cold in here!"
Michael turned to Julie as he swore, but Julie refused to meet his eyes or to even acknowledge his presence. Instead the boy was standing beside one of the beds examining the clothing laid out on the cover.
Michaels eyes followed Julies gaze. Hope burgeoned for a moment.
Each bed bore an assortment of clothing, both male and female. Michael moved to stand beside Julie, who was holding a pair of satin panties.
Julie noticed him as if for the first time.
I think this is my bed" he said.
"The other bed has one of those."
The boy faltered, tears coming again to his eyes. A glance in the direction of Julies outstretched arm revealed that the boy was pointing to an all too familiar plastic bag which lay beside the piles of clothes on the other bed. It was a butt plug, and evidently meant that that bed was Michaels, since the one they were standing beside bore no similar bag.
"What are you going to choose?" Michael was afraid to ask, yet felt that by making Julie choose first, he could avoid making the inevitable choice himself. If Julie chose to wear the girls clothing, then he could pretend, to himself if to no other, that it was Julies decision, not his.
Julie seemed not to hear him. The boy was still holding the panties, staring at them with a blank expression. Michael waited for a response. None was forthcoming so he walked over to his bed, fear rising like a tide within him. He picked up the plastic bag. The plug lay inside, its pink hideousness waiting for him. He could feel the slipperiness of the lubricant, as the plug slide beneath his hands.
Taking a deep breath, he opened the bag. The plug felt cold and greasy. He cast a look towards Julie, but Julie had not moved at all, still staring mesmerized by the panties he held in his hands.
Michael almost ran to the bathroom. There was no way he was inserting this device in front of anyone else. Julies humiliation was too raw an experience!
He paused to look at his reflection in the bathroom mirror. His face was pale, and he could see goosebumps on his flesh from the cold. He felt as if he were in a dream,, some awful nightmare. He prayed silently to himself, desperate to awaken. Nothing happened. The plastic plug was still in his hand, warming slightly from his body heat.
He bent over, as he had seen Julie do. Gingerly he inserted the plug into his anus. It felt weird. It was not painful, but he definitely felt stretched. He straightened up, feeling violated. The plug made him walk with his legs slightly separated. It was the strangest feeling he had ever had, and he was acutely aware that he had crossed some hidden divide.
When he returned to the room Julie was wearing the panties and was wrestling with a cotton bra. So Julie had made his choice.
Michael tried to ignore Julie, as the latter was ignoring him. He looked through the assortment of clothing.
The male clothing consisted of gray short, gray socks, a woolen plaid shirt and blue jeans. There was no belt. A pair of Nike shoes lay on the floor next to a pair of girls sandals, open-toed with thin straps for the ankles and maybe a two inch heel.
The girls clothing comprised panties similar to the ones which Julie had chosen, white satin, and a white cotton bra. A pale lemon skirt lay next to what Michael thought at first was a white shirt. Picking it up he noted that the collar was softer than any shirt he had worn and bore embroidery in the shape of flowers. Looking closer, he realized that the buttons were on the wrong side: he was holding a blouse, not a shirt.
He wavered. He did not want to give in without a fight, yet he knew that his options were limited. Their captors had not hesitated for a second in meting out punishment to Julie. He suspected that the physical pain had not been as great as Julies reaction might indicate. Probably much of the boys response had been due to disorientation, surprise and shame. The tactic of keeping them naked and cold while dealing with dressed adults had certainly weakened his own resolve.
He turned to see that Julie had finished putting on the bra. It was padded, making Julie seem as if he had small, pointed breasts. The boy was now trying on the blouse, which seemed identical to the one before Michael.
Michael came to a decision. He pulled on the male shorts and then picked up the bra. He realized that it would be immediately apparent if he was not wearing the padded garment: his chest would be too flat. He felt better about giving in this much. Unlike Julie, he was still claiming his male identity by wearing shorts rather than panties.
He had trouble with the bra strap, his fingers fumbling with the tiny hooks, unable to grasp them with sufficient dexterity to close them.
He felt fingers touching him.
"Here, let me help"
It was Julie. He turned his head to look over his shoulder at his room-mate.
"Thanks" he muttered.
How did you get yours on?"
"I remembered seeing my sister once; she was putting it on in front of her, where she could see the hooks. It was only a glimpse, but the memory stuck"
"Okay, thanks" Michael mumbled again.
"Youre taking a chance, wearing those" Julie gestured towards Michaels shorts.
"I know. But I cant just give up!"
"You mean, like me?" Julie was still close to tears.
Michael felt embarrassed. In fact he had contrasted his decision with Julies apparent surrender, thus fortifying his own sense of bravery. But he did not want to criticize this poor boy, who had been singled out for punishment and humiliation. Would he have withstood the assault any better?
"No. its just that."
Words trailed off. The two boys looked at each other for a moment and then, shame- faced, turned their attentions towards their clothes.
Michael pulled on the blouse, having little difficulty with the buttons. The skirt was a tight fit, even with the zipper along the side completely undone. He had to hold his breath in order to do it up.
Then he put on the sandals. By then Julie had been walking up and down the room, getting accustomed to the height of the heels.
"Put your weight in the balls of your feet" Julie suggested, as Michelle staggered for the first few steps.
Sure enough, Julies advice made walking easier, although each step reminded Michael of the presence of his butt plug.
"Have you thought of a name?" Julies voice interrupted his concentration and he almost fell as he was making a turn.
"No, I havent" he replied.
You dont have a lot of time. I think they are serious"
"I know. This is so bizarre! Theyre making us act like girls! They must be a bunch of fucking perverts!"
Julie looked away, his voice low.
"Maybe youre right. But what can we do? Were trapped here. I dont even know where we are"
"Nor do I, but we cant give up. Theres got to be a way out of here. If we can just find a telephone or a door that leads to the outside.. we have to try."
"Okay.." Julie did not sound eager, but Michael thought to himself that Julie would no doubt regain confidence later.
The two boys continued to walk until they felt that they had gained the ability not to fall over on their heels. Then they sat in silence, having tried the television and finding that it did not turn on.
They sat wrapped in their own thoughts until Michael, tired and fearful of the silence, asked Julie where he was from. They soon exchanged brief life-stories, finding out that they had much in common. Each came from an unhappy home and each had tried to improve their life by running away, only to fall into the same trap. But they came from different States and had been kidnapped in different cities.
The observers watching the picture from the hidden video camera smiled to themselves. All was going according to plan. The two boys wearing their blouses and skirt still looked more like boys than girls. They had yet to learn the art of looking pretty, and their hair was cut and worn like a boys. Even their legs were hairy. But they were beginning to bond. The establishment of a bond between room-mates was a key component in the conditioning which lay ahead for the trainees. Each would look to the other for support, but each would find instead a reinforcement of the conditioning. Ultimately they would willingly follow each other into femininity, reassured by the knowledge that they were not alone.
An hour had passed before a click from the direction of the door announced that they were free to leave the room. A chime sounded from hidden speakers and a voice, of neutral gender, told them to leave.
They walked towards the door, Julie leading the way. An escort awaited, and led them back the way they had come. Michael saw that the other trainees were also in the hall, all dressed in the same manner as he and Julie, except for one pair who were defiantly wearing the boys clothing which he had elected to ignore, other than the shorts he wore as his form of protest. Seeing the two boys who still looked like boys made him wish he had been as brave. He looked towards the escort to see whether she was reacting to the two defiant ones, but her expressionless face betrayed none of her inner thoughts.
The eight boys, six in skirts, blouses and sandals, were led into a new room, larger than the classroom where the initial indoctrination had taken place. Windows unshielded by any blinds or drapes allowed the morning sunlight into the room. Michael saw that the windows did not appear to open, but neither were they barred. Perhaps an escape lay that way; it would take only a moment to smash one of the windows with the plastic and steel chairs which were clustered in groups of six around the two large circular tables.
The boys were sat at the tables, in groups of four. Michael and Julie were seated with the two boys in male clothing, while their escorts sat between the two couples. A bowl containing a small serving of dry cereal stood in front of each youth. Each setting had one spoon and an empty glass. In the center of each table was a jug of what looked like skim milk and another jug containing orange juice.
Michael realized suddenly that he was ravenous, and he was bitterly disappointed that the promised breakfast was so modest. Nevertheless he was eyeing his food with hunger when the Mistress from this morning entered the room. Michaels attention was drawn to her presence by the motion of the escort to his left, who sat up even straighter than she had been.
"Trainees. You are about to have your first meal here. But before you start, we have to dispose of some business left over from this morning."
She nodded to the escort sitting across from Michael. He in turn touched the boy sitting beside him.
"Stand" was the sole word that escaped the escorts lips.
The boy stood, his trembling betraying the fear which must have filled him. He had to have known, Michael thought, that refusing to dress as a girl would cost him.
"What is your name?" the Mistress asked.
"Jim" came the answer, the tone of defiance at odds with the stress visible in every line of his body.
The escort reached out casually, his right hand seeming to graze the boys hand.
The boy dropped to the floor, holding his left hand in his right, curling into a fetal position, exactly as Julie had done yesterday.
Nobody moved. The Mistress had not changed expression at all, and the escort was seated as if nothing had happened.
Jim was weeping, even more copiously than Judy had.
The Mistress nodded again to the escort, who commanded the other boyishly clad youth to rise.
Michael watched in horror as the boy stood. The Mistress stared at the boy for several seconds, without a sound. The sound of liquid splashing on the floor prompted Michael to look down. He averted his eyes in embarrassment. The boy had peed himself from fear.
The Mistress asked the boy for his name.
"Carol" the boy quavered, then hastily added: "Carol, Mistress"
She looked back at him, as if weighing a difficult decision.
"No, that wont do, Im afraid. Pick a prettier name for yourself, girl"
There was a note of desperation in the boys voice.
"All right, dear. You are Denise"
The voice was soft, but then hardened.
"What do you think you are doing in those repulsive, hideous clothes, girl?"
Her rage seemed genuine. Denise cowered under the glare.
The nod, when it came, seemed almost anti-climatic, but the scream torn from Denises throat was as disconcerting as that which his room-mate had uttered when he was punished.
"Get those two girls out of here"
The Mistresss words were full of disdain. Two adults, clad in the ubiquitous black leather, materialized and half carried the two distraught youths from the room, the escort who had inflicted their punishment trailing behind. Michael noted through his growing fear that the escort had taken two glasses of juice with him, but none of the cereal.
Michael prayed beneath his breath that the Mistress did not know that he was not wearing the panties. His hopes were dashed as his escort told him to stand.
"What is your name?"
"Michelle, Mistress" he replied, trying to convey his obedience by the tone of his voice.
"Well, Michelle, thats a pretty name and it suits you. You may keep your name. And you chose well in selecting that pretty blouse and skirt. Do you like your bra?"
"Yes, Mistress. I love my bra"
He felt humiliated, but it seemed that he might be getting away with it. He vowed to put on the panties as soon as he got back to the room.
"Remain standing, Michelle" the Mistress commanded as she nodded to the escort.
Julie was next. He identified himself as Julie and was complimented on his quick learning.
"Julie, be a good girl and tell me whether your friend Michelle has done anything wrong"
Michael felt as if he were going to vomit. Julie did not even look at him, although the tone of his voice revealed that speaking was not easy.
"Michelle is not wearing panties, Mistress" Julie said, in a voice so quiet that even Michelle was not sure he had heard him correctly.
"Speak up, girl!"
"Michelle is not wearing her panties, Mistress" Julie spoke loudly.
The other trainees were staring at him now, some showing horror while others looked numb.
"Well, Michelle. Is this true?"
"Yes, Mistress. Im sorry Mistress. please let me wear my panties.."
He felt a tickle on his hand and then agony filled his senses. He heard the scream almost as if it had come from outside his body. He lurched, almost knocking Julie over, but was able to remain standing.
Moments passed as he dealt with the pain which filled his universe. It diminished slowly, but soon he became aware that he was still standing, his left hand cradled in his right, tears rolling down his face. Julie was standing to his right, motionless.
Mistress appeared to swim within his vision, growing larger and then receding, all without making a move.
"Michelle, that was a minor consequence. You escaped the full penalty because you did wear most of your clothes. You may remain here for breakfast, although you may not eat. Sit"
Michelle sat, unable to do more than dimly follow the sounds of the remaining four trainees introduce themselves with their new, feminine names. He found that his appetite was gone, so the deprivation of the breakfast meant little to him. He was permitted to drink the juice. He noted that none of the escorts either ate or drank anything. Once the pain subsided to a sharp ache in his arm, he looked to see what damage had been done. He was surprised to see that other than two tiny marks, already fading, there was no sign of the assault. He supposed that that made sense; that his captors had no desire to inflict visible injury.
Despite the small servings and the terror-filled atmosphere, breakfast lasted longer than Michelle would have expected. Finally the escorts stood and led their charges out of the room.
The six boys walked amidst their escorts to the classroom where they had first encountered each other that morning. Michelle, bringing up the rear, noticed how each of the boys ahead of him swayed on their heels. He imagined that he and Julie must look the same, due in part to the heels and in part to the still disturbing presence of the butt plug.
Just before they turned down the hallway that led to the classroom, Michelle and Julie were guided aside. They returned to their room, where, without any instruction being required, Michelle hurriedly removed the offending underwear and pulled on the panties. He shivered as he pulled the silky material up his legs and adjusted the garment around his waist.
Then it was back to the classroom.
The boys sat in the two rows of chairs, with Julie and Michelle seated in the second row. The remaining chairs in that row were vacant, obviously intended for Denise and Jim, or whatever name he would be sporting on his return.
The escorts retired to the back of the room, the three of them seated patiently in chairs much the same as those occupied by the trainees.
Ten minutes passed, during which the first whisper from one of them to his neighbor was met by a single hissed command: "Silence".
The trainees remained still and silent. Then Michelle saw that the two recalcitrants from the breakfast session walked in. They were holding hands, and both were now wearing the skirt-blouse combination that the others wore.
As the two newcomers sat themselves beside him, Michelle noted with a queasy feeling that the two boys wore traces of makeup. Each appeared to have had blush applied to their cheeks and each had bright red lips, shaped to appear fuller than nature had intended.
Neither of the boys made any sound as they sat. They had released each others hand and now theirs lay folded in their laps, their attention turned to the front of the room as if waiting for further instruction.
Which came soon.
Another tall woman clad in black entered. Michelle thought for a moment that this was the same woman who had tormented them before, but as soon as the instructor opened her mouth, Michelle realized that this was someone new. He wondered how many Masters and Mistresses there were, all for just the eight of them from what he knew.
"Good morning, girls" the woman announced cheerfully.
"Good morning, Mistress" came the response, the voices slightly out of sync as some were slow to react.
"Before we begin, there is some business left over from breakfast, I believe?"
Denise stood and spoke to the room.
Thank you Mistress. My name is Denise and I would like to thank you for allowing me to wear these pretty clothes"
He ended by bobbing his head. Michelle could see that his cheeks were much redder than would be accounted for by the makeup, and he could only imagine the inner torment behind the obsequious words.
Denises room-mate stood next and in a high falsetto announced that his name was Suzanne and he promised never to embarrass the other girls again.
Mistress beamed at the two feminized boys. They sat quietly, focused on being as obedient as they could. Michelle knew that what he had experienced in the breakfast room had been less than had been meted out to them, and he felt very sorry for them. A niggling voice within him felt glad that it was they who had suffered, and not him.
The escorts now came forward and handed out notebooks, pencils and what turned out to be a catalog from a womans clothing store. The next hour was spent going through the catalog and learning the correct way to describe various items of female attire.
"Its important that you become familiar with fashion, and with fabrics. You will be tested on a regular basis. If you do well, you will be rewarded. You already know what will happen should we conclude that you are doing less than your best"
Michelle detected Denises body momentarily spasming as the Mistress spoke the last words. Clearly Denise had been deeply affected by his punishment.
The terror of the morning became dulled by the tedious routine of reading the catalog and making notes. The continuous presence of the escorts coupled with attention paid by the instructor kept the trainees engrossed in the material but nothing could diminish the sense of unreality which Michelle felt as the morning dragged on.
After looking at scores of dresses, skirts, blouses and sweaters, the trainees turned to hosiery section. Most of the contents consisted of various kinds of pantyhose, but the instructor commanded them to focus on the stockings.
She called upon Karen, a thin pale boy with dirty blond hair.
"Karen, what would you have to do in order to be able to wear a pair of the stockings shown on page 56 as item g?"
Karen stood, looking perplexed.
Im not sure, Mistress"
"Well, girl, how do you think those stockings would stay up?"
"Oh" the boy said, relief that his answer had not brought down instant retribution evident on his face.
"I would need to wear a garter belt, Mistress"
"If you were given a garter belt, Karen, would you put on a pair of stockings immediately?"
"Yes, Mistress. I would love to wear a pair of stockings"
"Come here, girl"
Karen walked forward, his uncertainty plain.
"Turn around and bend over, touching your toes"
Karen complied, her arse sticking out prominently due to the elevation of her heels. Mistress lifted her skirt and, reaching onto the desk beside which she stood, retrieved a wooden yardstick and struck Karen repeatedly on his panties.
Karen let out a yelp, but managed to control himself.
Mistress relented after only three hard swipes.
"Stand up and return to your seat"
Karen did so, sitting gingerly.
"You may wonder why Karen was punished. That was the lightest form of punishment, because she was trying to please and made a mistake out of ignorance. As you will have seen while she was up here, and as you are all aware, Karen and the rest of you have ugly, unfeminine hair growing on your legs. Had Karen been permitted the pleasure of wearing a pair of nylons, she would probably have ruined them. At the least, her legs would have looked ugly. The correct response to my question would have been a request for permission to shave her legs, before receiving the gift of being allowed to wear stockings"
"Now Michelle. Would you like to wear a pair of nylons?"
Michelle stood. He swallowed, knowing that with every surrender to these people, his ability to resist was diminished by a tiny but ever accumulating amount. He also knew, without anything being said, that a mistake by him would not be treated as innocent. The punishment would not be a caning but another, possibly worse, brush with whatever device had been used on him at breakfast. The outcome was inevitable.
"Please, Mistress. I would like to shave my legs and have a garter belt. Then I would love to wear nylons, Mistress"
Mistress smiled at him, and relief welled in his stomach. He was surprised at how important her smile was.
"Come forward, girl"
He minced forward, acutely aware of the gaze of his fellows, of the swish of his skirt, the feel of his butt plug and the effect of his heels.
Mistress motioned beyond him and one of the escorts came forward, carrying a small opaque plastic bag, of the kind in which ladys stores sold small items.
"Michelle, take these and go to your room. You should return as soon as you are properly dressed"
Michelle took the package and followed the escort who led him wordlessly to the room he shared with Julie. The escort allowed him in.
He went into the bathroom. Sure enough a pink-handled razor was on the edge of the sink along with a container of shaving gel.
Michelle stepped out of his sandals and skirt, removing the blouse for good measure. He looked around, and realized that he would have to climb into the shower, so he removed his panties and bra as well. He took advantage of the opportunity to take a leak, standing before the toilet and watching his urine stream into the bowl.
Once in the shower he wet his legs with warm water and applied the gel. It was difficult work, since he could not see the backs of his thighs very clearly. He even cut himself a couple of times, but fortunately the bleeding was minimal.
He toweled himself off before opening the bag. Within, as expected, were a garter belt and a pair of nylons.
The garter belt was white, which he noted matched his panties and bra, which he hastily put back on.
He did up the garter belt, which fit him well. He sat on the toilet to draw the nylons up first one leg and then the other. The coolness against his smooth skin was unnerving. He fumbled with the plastic tabs on the garter belt, and then had to spend a full minute learning how to adjust the straps so that they were taut.
He became worried that he was taking too long. The prospect of more punishment compelled him to put his bra and panties on quickly. He found that his urgency was slowing him down as in his haste he made a mess of fastening the bra. He took a deep breath and consciously tried to calm down.
They wont hurt me if Im obedient he said to his reflection.
He had no problem with his skirt of blouse. However he found that the experience of walking in a skirt while wearing nylons was completely different than when he had had bare, hairy legs. The swish of his skirt against his legs was louder, yet felt softer. A delicious coolness tingled along the full length of his legs. He felt guilty about experiencing this momentary pleasure and resolved not to admit it even to himself.
He knocked on the door, which opened quickly. The escort eyed him up and down, before nodding and pointing down the hallway.
Michelle obediently led the way back to the classroom where he found the other trainees having their notebooks reviewed by Mistress.
Mistress looked up on Michelles entry.
"Welcome back Michelle. Wed thought that you had lost yourself in the pleasures of being a pretty girl. Do you like your nylons, girl?"
Michelle looked straight at his tormentor, paying no attention to the others, even though he knew that they were watching him. He sensed that they were torn between a hope that he would resist and a fear that he would be severely punished if he did.
"Yes, Mistress. I love my nylons. Thank you Mistress"
"Thats a good girl!"
Michelle felt relief and moved towards his seat.
"Stop right there Michelle!"
He froze at the barked command, wondering what had gone wrong.
"Come here, girl"
He walked in front of the class, wary but lacking any choice.
"Lift up your skirt so that everyone can see your pretty garter belt and nylons"
He did so, avoiding looking at anyone.
Mistress stood beside him. She bent over ostentatiously looking at his groin. He knew that his penis was making a bulge in his panties. She reached in and stroked the soft satin where it bulged, and despite himself he felt a response. He heard a suppressed snicker from one of the trainees, but he could not tell who.
"Very nice, Michelle. although we will have to train you how to hide that ugly remnant of your earlier self"
Mistress straightened and Michelle began to lower his skirt. A quick word from Mistress made him stop.
"Michelle, how do you plan to use the ladys room wearing your panties under your garter belt?"
He looked at her, feeling trapped. How was he supposed to answer?
"Sitting down, Mistress?"
"But how can you lower those pretty panties without a fuss, when the garter belt lies on top of them?"
"Im sorry Mistress. I will wear my garter belt under my panties from now on"
"Thats right, girl. Unless you are being asked to pose for a photo shoot, you should be practical. Now you know that you made an error. Do you deserve to be punished?"
He wanted to scream at her. "No, you cruel, evil bitch! None of us deserve your sick, twisted punishment! Your crap about choices is just that: crap!!"
But he couldnt bring himself to it. Instead he lowered his head and muttered.
"Yes, Mistress, I deserve to be punished"
"Yes, Mistress. I deserve to be punished!"
Mistress leered at him.
"You do indeed, girl. And not just for wearing your clothes the wrong way.
How do girls use the toilet when they need to pass water?"
Oh god! They must see everything, he thought.
Im sorry, Mistress. I forgot what I was doing. I stood when I should have sat, Mistress"
"Because you acknowledged your mistakes, Michelle, you will get off lightly today. Bend over."
Michelle bent over, emulating the position he had seen Karen assume earlier. He hoped for just three strokes, but Mistress administered six. Michelle was crying by the fifth stroke and was barely able to hobble to his seat when he was released.
He saw Julie smile sympathetically and despite his anguish that gesture made him feel marginally better.
The rest of the morning was spent watching a slide show, demonstrating more varieties of feminine fashion. The trainees made notes, spurred on by the promise of rigorous testing.
Then came a break for lunch. Michelle was ravenous by now despite the pains he had suffered so far. He was disappointed by the meager meal. Each trainee had a small green salad, without any dressing, and an apple. The only beverage was more of the orange juice which had been served at breakfast. Each trainee, other than Michelle, was led of to a bathroom, whether they needed to go or not.
Then it was off to a new room. This room had eight cubicles set up around the perimeter of the room. Before each cubicle sat a padded armless chair. A counter top was backed by a mirror surrounded by as many as a dozen low wattage bulbs. The counter tops were busy with jars, tubes, spray bottles, compacts, combs, a bewildering array of brushes and other paraphernalia.
The center of the room held an even more elaborate display of cosmetics and cosmetic applicants. The trainees were told to choose a cubicle and to turn their chairs so as to face the center.
What followed next was their first lesson in the proper use of cosmetics. It was this lesson to which Michelle paid little attention. He maintained an appropriate outer appearance, as if riveted by the lesson, but inside he was bewailing his fate, and in particular the cruel twist which had seen him singled out for two punishments that morning.. This self-pity combined with fruitless musings on the possibility of escape or revenge, distracted him from much of the lesson, including the half hour spent on the importance of blending shades of eyeshadow to obtain the most sensuous effect.
None of the trainees seemed to have much of a beard. However, none of them was permitted, or compelled, to actually use any makeup that afternoon.
"Not until you have properly smooth skin, girls" was the instruction.
Michelle was amazed at the apparent size and complexity of the place when he and the others were led to yet another room. Here eight desks, arrayed in two rows of four each, as with the chairs in the classroom, sat in the middle of the room. Atop each chair was a complicated device which resembled a cross between a computer and a tape machine and a pair of heavily padded headphones, attached to which was a small microphone.
The trainees were instructed to don the headphones. Michelle adjusted the arm carrying the microphone so that it was before his lips.
The set up reminded Michelle of a language laboratory from high school, from the time he had studied French. It turned out to be much the same idea, but instead of teaching a second language, the purpose was to teach the boys to speak as girls.
Michelle found himself being told to speak a phrase. He then listened to his voice played back to him. The machine voice told him whether his next attempt was an improvement.
This class was run by a male. The Master sat at a larger desk at the front of the room. It seemed that his monitor and headphones were connected to all of the trainees machines. Thus Michelle heard his voice interrupt early in the lesson, to warn that improvement was advisable.
"I want to be pretty. I want to be feminine"
Time after time, Michelle spoke those words and heard his own voice repeat them to his ears. Each time his voice was modulated a little differently. Each time his voice became a little softer, its pitch slightly higher, and he learned to raise his voice a trifle as he neared the end of the sentence.
The class took a break after about an hour. Michelles throat was dry and he eagerly joined his classmates in yet another glass of orange juice.
Their thirst slaked, the class resumed the voice lessons.
"I choose to be a girl. Obedience is important. Being pretty is important"
The new words became almost a mantra, repeated endlessly.
The long class was interrupted only once more, when Mary, a youth who had to this time avoided punishment, was deemed by the Master to be faking his compliance. Marys shrill protests were cut short by a shock administered by his escort. The sobbing victim was helped to his room by his room-mate, Karen, and the escort. Neither returned until the class was wrapping up. Michelle saw that both Karen and Mary were now wearing nylons. He shuddered at the inexorable nature of the treatment. Each punishment seemed not merely to inflict pain but also to move the victim a step further along the path laid out for them.
Speech class was followed by dinner, the most substantial meal they had been given yet. The trainees were served a soup, consisting of vegetables in a clear broth, followed by pasta with a rich creamy sauce. There was even dessert in the form of cheesecake. Each trainee was encouraged to drink two glasses of milk with the meal. Michelle felt full for the first time since he had awoken.
A Master announced that the evening was free. They were to remain in their rooms, but would be provided with reading material and there would be programming available on their televisions.
"As always, you will have choices to make. The reading material will be useful should you choose to co-operate in moving towards your new future. So too will the television programs. We do not insist that you make use of the opportunities afforded you, but we will be testing you to see whether you have. And you understand the implications of choice. I want you to tell me now: choices come with?"
The boys responded, in higher, softer tones than they had used earlier in the day:
"Good girls! You may go"
Michelle and Julie found themselves in their room. The bureau now displayed, in piles next to the television, an assortment of magazines and thin binders. Michelle sorted through the pile.
The magazines were all womens or girls titles, including several copies of Cosmo, Young & Modern, Sassy and Sweet Sixteen. The binders turned out to contain what seemed at first glance to be reprints of romance novels.
Meanwhile Julie had turned on the television. Two channels offered selections. One seemed to be a video on makeup while the other offered a fashion show.
Michelle felt exhausted and emotionally spent. He was in no frame of mind to watch either of the channel selections, since they reminded him of the lessons they had endured that day.
"Id rather read" he said.
He coughed to clear his throat. His voice had been too girlish, too influenced by the speech lessons. He determined that within this room, at least, he would try to sound like a boy.
"Okay, let me look" Julie rifled through the selection. Michelle looked at his room- mate, bent over the pile of magazines. He did look surprisingly feminine. His hair was unkempt, long enough to cover his ears and touch the collar of his blouse. He was small- framed, but then, Michelle realized, all of the trainees shared that basic characteristic. Julie was probably no more than five to ten pounds lighter than he was. They were much the same height, less than five foot seven. Of course, he thought, they wouldnt have chosen any of us unless they thought that physically we could be made to look like girls.
Julie picked up a Cosmo and looked at him, raising his eyebrows as he asked, still in a girlish voice:
"Youre staring at me. Whats going on?"
Michelle turned away.
"Its nothing, nothing at all"
He felt Julies hand on his sleeve.
"Dont be like that, Michelle. Were in this together. We all are. We have to hold together if we are to have any chance"
"Its just that weve been here only one day and already we look as much like girls as we do boys!"
Despite his decision to maintain a male tone, he found with dismay that midway through his protest his voice took on a higher modulation.
Frustrated, he snatched up a binder at random and turned away. He laid on the bed, his back against the pillows, ignoring Julie who was still standing by the bureau, a look of consternation on his face.
Julie gazed at him for a few seconds more and then, shaking his head, sat in a chair and began flipping through the pages of his magazine.
The two boys spent the next hour quietly. Michelle noticed that Julie had browsed through several magazines while he read the first half of the novel. He had wondered why the novel was printed in a binder, on regular paper, rather than being provided, like the magazines, in the format in which it might have been sold in a store.
The mystery was solved early in the book.
The story was quite basic. The heroine was a beautiful young woman, who had little appreciation of how pretty she was. She had a sad history, looking after her invalid, widowed mother. There was a suggestion of an unhappy love affair in her past. She encountered a tall, dark and handsome young man, who despite obvious shyness, was attracted to her. She too felt a similar attraction, but obstacles were cast in the path of the two lovers-to-be. Dire peril threatened.
Michelle could tell that in some as yet undisclosed manner those perils would be overcome and true love would triumph. What caused him to gasp out loud was not the transparency of the plot or the overblown stereotypical description of the characters but the discovery of why the book was printed as it was.
Lucy wore her prettiest nightgown to bed that evening. She rarely wore this delight of silk and lace since it evoked feelings and possibilities which she feared might never come true for her. Feelings and possibilities of romance, of passion and fulfillment , to be found in the arms of some man. But tonight she succumbed to the temptation to wear her gown. Tonight she had hope that her dreams might some day come true. For this evening she had met young Dirk Graham. His tall, dark features had come to life when they had been introduced. Her pulse quickened as she recalled how his hand had lingered on hers, how his eyes had smiled at her. She felt a stirring in her groin as her penis rose, pressing against the delicate silk. She allowed her hand to stray to her groin, to softly stroke her engorged organ as she fantasized. Perhaps one day she might wear this gown to his bed. It might be his hand, or even, madly daring, his lips which brought pleasure to her, as she longed to bring pleasure to him! Her breath grew ragged and her eyes lost focus as she imagined his holding her in his strong arms, his firm lips pressing against hers and the delight in his expression as he became aware of the visible proof of her desire.
The heroine was a boy! The book was designed to reinforce an acceptance that a boy could feel and act as a girl! There was even a sketch of the heroine, lying on top of her bed, in much the same pose as Michelle now found himself in. She was clad in a flowing negligee, her breasts clearly visible, as was a conspicuous bulge in the area of her groin. Michelle could not help but recall the arousal he had involuntarily exhibited when the Mistress had caressed his genitals when he had been forced to display his nylons.
He threw the book down in disgust.
Julie looked up from his magazine.
Whats up, Michelle?"
Michelle stood up.
"This is getting too weird! Ive got to get out of these clothes. Im taking
He strode into the bathroom where he proceeded to undress, throwing his clothes on the floor. A pang of guilt struck him as he was about to climb into the shower, but he refused to pick up any of the discarded garments.
He pulled out the butt plug, wincing as his sphincter muscles closed behind it. He refused to look at it, throwing it into the waste basket beside the toilet.
He turned the water on as hot as he could bear, standing beneath the cascading water trying to forget where he was, trying to immerse himself mentally as well as physically in the reality of the hot water streaming over his body.
The hot water seemed inexhaustible, and it was still running at full heat by the time that he staggered out into the steam-filled room. A fan had come on automatically, but the mirror was still clouded such that he could see none of his reflection. His skin was pink all over, and pools of moisture had accumulated on the bare tile beneath his feet. His clothes were where he had left them. Fear of retribution overcame his reluctance and he picked them up, sorting and folding them, concerned that he might have damaged the delicate weave of the nylons.
He wrapped a towel around his waist and, carrying his clothes, returned to the bedroom.
Julie was now lying on his bed, as Michelle had been doing. He had picked up the binder which Michelle had thrown down. He looked up at Michelles return.
"This is weird stuff, isnt it? They are trying everything! Even writing sick stuff like this"
"I cant handle it. Look, they told us we dont have to go along; we have choices. Lets choose to stop"
"But you know they dont mean it. The choices are illusions, unless you like pain!"
"They wouldnt dare really harm us. This is abuse! Theyll go to jail when they get caught"
Julie looked silently at Michelle before speaking again.
"Thats just it, isnt it? What theyve already done would get them in big trouble. Theyve kidnapped us, drugged us, beaten and tortured us. And look at this place! How many people do you think are involved? Whats it all cost? I dont think they expect to get caught. I think they believe that they can get away with anything!"
Michelle considered this statement. Try as he might, he could find no flaw in the argument. Maybe resistance really was futile.
"So what are you going to do?" he asked.
Julie looked sad.
"One of the reasons I left home was that my dad was so mean to me. He accused me of being a weakling, of being a no-good faggot! Just because I was small!
Hes a big man; its my mom whos tiny. I take after her. I got beat up at school and I could never make any team. He was a jock and he hates me! Last time he spoke to me he called me a girly- boy"
Julies pain was evident in his tone. His eyes were damp with incipient tears.
"Maybe he was right. Maybe Im supposed to be a girl. Maybe this is the best solution"
"Dont say that! Its not true! My step-dad was an asshole too. But Im not letting these bastards change the way I am!"
Julie looked at him. Michelle suddenly realized that he was holding an entire set of girls clothing, which he had been wearing all day. His legs were smooth and hairless, and even his voice had changed!
He threw the clothes blindly atop the bureau and drew back the covers. He was part way under the satin sheets when Julies voice intruded on his escape.
"I think were supposed to get dressed before going to sleep"
He rolled over to look at his room-mate, who was holding up a peach colored babydoll nightgown.
"I found mine in the top drawer on my side of the bureau, along with some other things I think we are supposed to wear."
"I dont care. Im on strike from now on. I am making my choice!"
Julie looked concerned, but after a few seconds, walked to the bathroom, carrying his nightgown.
"Its your choice" was all he said.
Michelle spent a restless night, unable to get to sleep until long after the red numerals on the alarm clock read three am. He awoke to the abrupt sound of the alarm, knowing that he had had bad dreams but unable to recall any details.
He was blessed with a few seconds of disorientation before memory returned, and with it his resolve not to cooperate. His compliance yesterday had, he thought, been caused by hunger, fear and surprise. Now he knew what was going on. He would be tougher today! Maybe, surely, others would join him in his protest.
A soft voice over the speakers, which he still had not located, announced that all girls were expected in the breakfast room in forty minutes, showered and appropriately dressed.
He heard Julie getting out of bed. He saw that he had worn his nightgown to bed. Julie grimaced at him as he padded past. Michelle stayed in bed. He had seen that all the male clothing set out yesterday had been removed before they had returned to their room, so that he had no male clothing to wear and he would be damned if he would wear any more female clothing.
Julie showered, taking longer than Michelle had expected, until he realized from the tiny smear of blood he saw on the back of Julies thigh when he returned, that Julie must have decided to shave his legs.
He watched with a morbid fascination the process by which Julie got dressed.
It seemed that Julie had given up, and was now actively co-operating. The towel which he wore on leaving the bathroom was wrapped not around his waist, but around his chest, as if he were concealing breasts!
Julie stood with his back to Michelle while he selected items from the bureau. Michelle noticed that Julies clothes from yesterday were neatly folded on his bed.
Julie put on a padded bra first, this time with no difficulty adjusting it correctly. It was in a pale pink cotton. He chose a matching garter belt and then silk panties of the same delicate hue. The boy sat on the edge of his bed to roll on his stockings. Even from his vantage point, to the rear and side of the boy, Michelle could see that Julie was pleasantly surprised by the feel of the nylons as he pulled them up his legs. Michelle recalled how that had felt for him yesterday and colored at the memory. Nothing about this process should be feel good, he protested internally.
Julie, now clad in his underwear and looking even more like a young woman, walked to the closet, disappearing within for several minutes. When he emerged it was wearing a dress!
His had chosen a dress made of pink cotton, with a white collar. The full bodice narrowed to a small waist, which Michelle thought must be very uncomfortable, although no sign of distress was apparent on the pretty boys face. The skirt flared out, ending just below Julies knees. Julie saw him looking and stopped to twirl in place, his skirts ballooning out around him.
Michelle felt anger mounting at what he saw as a betrayal by Julie of his masculinity. How could he give up without a fight! He had not even been particularly hard done by yesterday!
He turned away and pulled the covers over his head.
His bed creaked and he felt Julie sit down beside him. Julie tried to pull the covers back, but Michelle clung tight.
"This is very dangerous, Michelle. Im afraid you will be badly hurt"
"Go away you fairy!" he replied.
"My name is Michael; Im not a faggot like you! Im a guy, and Im going to remain a guy!"
He felt Julie stand and move away. He snuck a glance at the clock. The forty minutes announced by the speaker was almost up. Tendrils of fear snaked their way through his belly. His fierce words notwithstanding, he was terrified of what might happen next. He squeezed his eyes closed and wished himself away from here.
Dear god, Im sorry I didnt believe in you. Im sorry I never went to church. If you get me out of here, Ill be the best man, the best believer you could ever want
His silent prayers were interrupted by the click of the door unlocking.
Julies parting words were cold comfort as he lay huddled beneath the covers. His racing mind invented new tortures with every minute. He heard a scream, abruptly cut off, as if the victim had lapsed into unconsciousness. He knew that that meant that he was not alone in his protest. The scream turned his insides to water and he almost decided to give up now. He screwed up his courage, berating himself beneath his breath for being a coward.
It was almost a relief when he heard two adults move into the room. The covers were rudely thrown back and he cowered beneath the angry glare of two leather-clad Masters.
"What the fuck do you think you are doing, girl?"
"Im not a girl" he whispered.
"What did she say?"
"She said she was not a girl"
I thought as much. Well, its her choice I suppose"
The first speaker leaned over and held out his right hand. Michelle saw that he held an egg-shaped device on the end of which were two small metal circles.
"Do you know what this does, Michelle?"
The question was asked in a casual manner, believing the threat implicit in the gesture.
Michelle felt as if he were about to lose control of his body, but he summonsed his reserves of strength.
"You told us we have choices. I choose to be a boy. You cant force me to be a girl"
"We dont force anyone, Michelle. But all choices have consequences. You have chosen not to act appropriately. You removed your butt plug, you treated your pretty clothes improperly, and this morning you chose not to attend breakfast attired as an young girl eager to continue her journey to femininity. Thats a lot of choices, and that means you face a lot of consequences"
The brave, foolhardy, rebuttal lost much of its intended effect because the speaker had half-turned away, moving without volition into a fetal position.
The Master smiled almost regretfully before lowering his hand so that the metal circles on the eggshaped device brushed the youngsters bare flesh.
The screams that followed were heard even in the breakfast room. The two Masters were thankful for the ear plugs they had inserted before administering the lesson.
Three times the device was applied, although Michelle was so lost in the depths of his agony that he had no way to count. The assault made yesterdays pale in comparison.
The red haze which had filled his vision and the appalling sounds torn from his throat receded, leaving Michelle alone in his bed. He realized with a sense of self-disgust that his bowels had failed him, leaving him lying in a pool of his own urine mixed with his own shit.
He crawled out of bed and into the bathroom. The water from shower felt good on his skin. He scrubbed himself clean, his whimpering diminishing slowly.
He dried himself off and then stepped into the bedroom. He had wrapped himself in a bathtowel and realized, apathetically, that he was holding it in the same manner as Julie: held up around his breasts, as if a feminine modesty required that he shield them from display.
He cringed when he saw a leather-clad person in the room. It was a Mistress, which reduced his terror slightly.
She smiled at him, and he felt himself relax as she spoke.
Im not here to show you any more consequences, Michelle. I assume that you have endured enough to persuade you to make a different choice? That you wish to become a girl, now?"
Yes, Mistress. Im sorry I was so foolish"
"Honey, you are entitled to explore your options. You made a choice. That was your right. Now you understand the consequences of that choice and you are free to reconsider. We dont penalize our girls for being slow to choose, so long as they make the right choice"
The woman made it all sound so fair, so reasonable. A small voice within Michelle wanted to hurl this nonsense back in her face. But that small voice was drowned out by an overwhelming desire not to do or say anything that might cause the pain to return.
"Thank you, Mistress"
"Now, Michelle, when a girl makes a bad choice and then seeks our permission to make a better choice, we like her to demonstrate her commitment by going a step beyond her classmates. I will leave you to decide what choice you make, dear"
Michelle swallowed hard, forcing back the fear which had risen like a tide on hearing the concealed threat. He knew that he would never hear his being offered a choice without being terrified of the consequences of another poor decision.
He waited until the door closed behind the departing Mistress before opening the bureau drawers. The top drawer contained a peach silk nightgown identical to the one worn by Julie. He pushed it aside, knowing that what he sought lay deeper within.
He chose powder blue lingerie, its lacy trimmings negating any suggestion that the color might reflect against his sought-after femininity. He fought back sniffles as he fastened his bra, accepting that this very act completed his surrender.
By the time he had fastened his garter belt and donned his panties, he was beginning to feel somewhat better. With each motion he felt as if he was reducing the possibility of further punishment; he felt as if he was making the right choice.
The feelings engendered by pulling his stockings up his legs and attaching the garters aided his recovery. The parting words uttered by the Mistress occurred to him just as he was about to walk to the closet in search of his dress.
Returning to the lingerie drawer he drew out a camisole. It was in a shimmering white silk, with lace bodice. He drew it over his head, passing his arms through the shoulder straps. It covered his bra nicely, and ended at his waist. Then he pulled out a half slip in matching fabric, feeling for the first time in his young life the delight of silk sliding over silk as he pulled the slip up his legs and adjusted it around his waist.
The coolness he was now familiar with from wearing nylons for most of the previous day was emphasized by the feel of his lingerie as he walked to the closet. He even felt his penis begin to stir. A smile rose unbidden to his lips and a careful watcher might have detected a slight increase in the sway of his hips, even though his eyes remained red and swollen, reminders of the troubles which had begun his day.
This was his first venture into the closet and he was surprised at its size. It was divided into two, with name tags displayed in the form of stickers affixed to the wall immediately inside. His name appeared on the right while the left contained Julies wardrobe. He saw that could choose a dress identical to the one selected by Julie, but he was not content to simply copy his room-mate. He felt that he needed to show a more focused choice.
It was the third dress he took off the rack which he thought would do. A shirtwaist dress in plain white cotton, the buttons of which were covered in what seemed to be pink velvet, it had short sleeves and a full, knee-length skirt. A pink velvet belt added a touch of color. He saw that at the end of his row stood a row of shelving, each shelf tilted at an oblique angle, displaying maybe a dozen pairs of shoes. One pair stood out.
They seemed almost too fragile to bear his weight, but he quickly discovered that they fit perfectly. They had a closed, pointed toe and a heel decorated by a small white bow at the rear. What made them perfect was that they were in a pink satin which matched the color of the buttons and belt for his dress. A shelf at eye-level, above the rows of shoes, contained several purses and handbags. He drew down a small pink purse, with a slender shoulder strap. He knew without any instruction that the purse went with the shoes.
He ducked into the bathroom to check his appearance, walking slowly since the heels he was now wearing were a full inch higher than those he had worn yesterday. He was on the point of leaving when he saw the slim gold cylinder standing on end by the sink.
He picked it up. He saw that the upper half of the cylinder would pull off. He knew what he would find inside, and he began to tremble in anticipation, half-praying that he was wrong.
The lipstick was crimson red, the same shade as Denise and Suzanne had sported yesterday. He knew what was expected of him.
His hand moved slowly. His eyes seemed expressionless, but that was an illusion. Within his mind a battle was being waged, a battle whose outcome had been decided in those seconds of excruciating agony that morning. Doomed though his resistance was, still a part of him tired to stop his hand as it painstakingly applied the crimson lipstick to his lips, taking care to magnify the rosebud appearance of his mouth.
The youth who emerged from the bathroom had made a conscious choice and was happy to have done so. He was not surprised when the door lock clicked open as he reached for the handle. An escort waited for him outside. This time Michelle watched the escort as she examined the boy and his appearance. This time, Michelle experienced not only relief but a brief feeling of pleasure at the obvious approval shown by the murmured "Good girl" with which the escort announced her opinion.
Michelle concentrated on the moment, on the second by second experience of walking down the hall. His heels clacked on the floor, while his nylons tugged at his garter belt with each step. He felt the contrasting material of his dress move against his lingerie.
Breakfast was over by the time that he was led into the eating area. He had expected to be led directly to the classroom, but saw that the others had been kept waiting for him. All but one, that is. He knew that the missing boy must be the one whose scream he had heard shortly before he had been shown the consequences of his choice.
He was allowed to sit in the vacant chair next to Julie, who smiled sympathetically at him. All the others avoided his gaze, and he wondered why. It was as he picked up the glass of juice waiting for him that he realized why.
A large television monitor had been wheeled in on a metal stand. He could see into his room, his bed still wet and stained. His suffering must have been witnessed by everyone!
He blushed fiercely as he sat beside Julie.
Julie leaned towards him and whispered.
"We saw all of it, Michelle. You were so brave!"
Michelle looked up, seeing that Julie was almost in tears. He felt a wave of compassion as he realized that Julie truly cared for him.
Thank you, Julie. I wasnt brave; I was stupid. I wont make the same mistake again"
A Master stepped forward.
"Julie and Michelle, why dont you share your thoughts with all of us?"
Michelle came close to collapsing again but was saved by Julies calm response. Standing and taking Michelles hand in his, he turned to the Master, and in a high, fluting voice said:
"I apologize Master. I did not mean to be disrespectful. Michelle is my friend and she has had a difficult time, as we all saw. I wanted to tell her that I thought that she had been very brave to make her choice to join us"
Michelle stared at the Master, terrified that he would inflict more pain on him. The Master pondered his decision for a moment.
"Michelle, do you think that you are a brave girl?"
"No Master. I was a stupid girl. Now I have made a better choice and I thank you for allowing me to change my mind"
"Well spoken, girl!"
Michelle only realized how tense he had become when his body relaxed on hearing those words.
An escort appeared as he sat, bringing him a glass of orange juice. He drank it, feeling the cool liquid soothe his throat, which was still raw from the screaming he had done while being punished.
There remained one boy missing as the seven now present were led to the classroom. Michelle saw that all of them now wore dresses and nylons. Denise, Suzanne and he were the only ones wearing makeup. He saw Denise look at him but turn away immediately.
Michelle sat down next to Julie, trying to put the terror of the morning out of his mind. He found that the only way to do so was to concentrate on the present, to devote as much effort as possible to what they were being told to do during the class.
The same Mistress who had taught them yesterday was in charge during the first hour of class today. The topic was the material which they had read or watched last night. It soon became clear that each pair of trainees had had available the same choices, but had made different selections. Only one other couple had read one of the binders, for instance, and they had read a different story. The story may have been different, but the theme had been the same: a heroine who had been born a boy but who had chosen to live as a girl and whose plight, and eventual happiness, was that of a stereotypical romance heroine.
Each trainee was called upon to describe how he had spent the previous evening. Michelles turn soon came.
"Michelle, as with the others, I want you to be perfectly honest in your opinions. So long as you are describing what you felt last night, you are not making a choice, so there will be no consequences, even if you misunderstood what you were reading or watching. DO you understand?"
Michelle took a deep breath before embarking upon his fuller answer.
" I read a story about a boy called Lucy"
"Michelle, are you sure that Lucy was a boy? In what gender did Lucy think?"
"Im sorry, Mistress. Lucy thought of himself as a girl, and he was referred to as a she, but, Mistress, she had a penis. Girls dont have penises."
Michelles legs were shaking as he stood his ground. Despite the Mistresss promise, he knew that she would not like his answer and he feared that he would suffer a consequence.
"Thats a good point, Michelle. Im glad you brought it up, because it is a common misunderstanding amongst youngsters like you"
She paused, marshaling her thoughts before continuing.
"We believe that gender identity need have little to do with genetic makeup.
Gender identity can be learned. Thats the whole idea behind this program. You are here to learn a different gender identity than you were given while very young. Of course, it is your choice whether you adopt your feminine self as your true self, but we hope that you will. You, for example Michelle, have chosen to wear some perfectly delightful lingerie. You selected it yourself, didnt you?
"Yes Mistress" Michelle blushed.
Dont be ashamed, dear. You made an excellent choice, exactly as you did when you asked to be allowed to wear nylons yesterday. You do remember that it was your idea, dont you?"
She turned to look towards the entire class.
You see, children, even Michelle here, who tried so hard this morning to be a boy, admits that she prefers to wear girls clothing. And of course.." she smiled at them
"Youre all wearing lingerie, nylons, and pretty dresses. Did anyone tell you what to wear?"
"No Mistress" came the chorus of replies.
"There, you see. Only your second day here and you have all selected a feminine approach! It wont be long until you all see yourselves as girls, just like the heroines in the books we have provided for your enjoyment."
She looked again at Michelle, who was still standing, shifting his weight nervously from one foot to the other. He was all too well aware of the image he must present. Every motion, no matter how slight, reminded him of the clothes he was wearing, the clothes, which as the Mistress had pointed out, he had chosen to wear. No one had told him which panties to wear, which bra to put on. Certainly he had chosen the camisole and slip for the sole purpose of demonstrating his sincerity in wishing to become a girl.
"Michelle, why dont you lift your dress and show the other girls the pretty slip you chose for yourself this morning. And tell the girls why you used lipstick"
He walked to the front of the class and turned to face the others before raising the hem of his dress to waist level. He stared at the far wall, over the heads of the trainees.
"I chose lipstick this morning, Mistress, because I wanted to proof that I had made the right choice"
Every word was increased his anguish, but he knew that he could not allow any sign of that to shadow his face.
Mistress seemed satisfied that she had put Michelle through enough torment. The boy returned to his seat and tried to ignore his desperation, paying as much attention as he could to the next hapless victim of the ongoing indoctrination.
The balance of the day was more or less a repeat of the first days schedule.
Lunch saw the missing trainee return.
His name was Louise, and he had been one of the trainees who had gotten off without any punishment yesterday. Not so this morning. He still looked pale and unsteady on his feet as he minced in, wearing an outfit very similar to Michelles. The other trainees looked up at his entrance and a collective gasp filled the room.
Louise had changed far more than any of the others. His hair, which as with all of them, had been worn long but untidy, had been styled. He had short bangs falling over his forehead, while the rest of his hair was pulled back and tied in two pig-tails. Pink ribbons kept his hair under control. His face too was different. Michelle realized, with a start, that the boys eyebrows had been plucked into two high, narrow arcs. Subtle makeup around his eyes magnified the effect of this change, leaving the boy looking somehow younger, more vulnerable, and yet more sophisticated all at the same time. More sophisticated in a feminine sense, of course.
The paleness of the boys face was relieved by the delicate blush which either he or someone else had applied to his cheeks. His lipstick was a soft coral pink, and Michelle saw that his nails were painted in the same shade.
The boys escort stopped him halfway into the room, by the merest touch on the boys shoulder.
The Master supervising lunch stood.
"Girls, please welcome back Louise. You all saw the difficult consequences which Michelle and Louise chose to accept this morning. Michelle, I know that you did not witness Louises choice, but she paid even more serious consequences than you, so you may imagine how poor a choice she must have made!"
Michelle burned inside, but merely smiled timidly in response to this attention.
"Louise, tell your friends what you have chosen now"
Louise stood with her heels pressed together, his weight on the balls of his feet. The trainees waited with bated breath. Michelle had a very bad feeling about this.
The boy began in a falsetto, which continually broke as he stumbled through his speech. It seemed to his audience that he was still struggling to regain control of his body while he did so, noticeably swaying back and forth and needing the unobtrusive support of his escort to remain upright.
"Thank you Master. I have chosen to become a girl as fast as I can. I would like al my friends and fellow trainees to think of me as a girl. Please refer to me as a she. I do not ever want to be treated as a boy again"
"Good girl! Now, lets have a round of applause for this little girl"
Michelle found himself clapping along with the others. Louise responded with a frightened smile as she made her way to the vacant seat beside her room-mate.
The realization that one of their number apparently now thought of himself as she was a chilling reminder of the rapid pace at which the indoctrination was proceeding. Michelle tried to summon the resolution to fight on, but the lessons of the morning deprived him of the courage or the ability. He knew that he could be persuaded to make a speech similar to the one Louise had just made, and that in all likelihood he would be doing so very soon.
The afternoon saw them learning more about makeup. This time they got to practice. Most of the lesson was on the proper use and application of foundation. They learned that many factors went into which makeup to use; the time of day, the season, the social purpose..
"Girls like you will always want to use at least a touch of makeup. You were selected because you have good skin, with only a light race of ugly facial hair. But your pores are larger than most girls. We can help you with that and, if you chose, we can permanently remove all facial hair. But even so, you will probably want to wear a touch of makeup all the time."
Louise was the first to raise a hand.
"Mistress, when can I have my facial hair removed?"
"You can be the first girl to receive the treatment, starting tomorrow morning. The rest of you should give some thought to your choice, we will want you to make a decision by lunch tomorrow"
Her tone was so light that a stranger watching the proceedings would have been puzzled by the tension evident in the faces of the trainees as they heard the deadline announced. Each of them knew the choice they would make, but each pretended even to themselves that they would postpone that decision until the last minute. Some even fantasized that they would choose to reject the offer. Michelle harbored no such fantasy. He knew that if need be he would go down on his knees to beg to have the treatment, if the alternative was to make a choice which would generate another touch from that device used so casually on him that morning.
The afternoon finally drew to an end. The trainees filed into the eating area expecting their long-sought meal. Breakfast, which Michelle had missed, and lunch had been as scanty as yesterday and the boys were looking forward to a more substantial meal. Their hopes were dashed, for a while anyway.
By now Michelle was beginning to recognize some of the faces and voices of the various Masters and Mistresses. He had learned that some seemed to play only the role of escort while others alternated between being mostly silent escorts and being an instructor. The woman who addressed them now was usually an escort.
"Girls, we are going to have a brief discussion about what is probably the most important topic an adult human can discuss: S-E-X: sex."
That introduction drew the attention of all of the boys.
"Who among you has had sex? I dont mean masturbation, I mean sex with another person"
Six of the eight cautiously raised their hands, Michelle among them. His experience had been limited to two encounters with a girl from school, both in the back of her mothers car. Neither had been very satisfactory. He saw that Julie was one of the two who had not raised his hand.
"About what I expected. Now, how many of you have had sex with a man?"
All the hands lowered.
"Im sure that at the time you had sex you believed that you were having straight sex. But each of you has chosen to become a girl. Some of you have consciously made and announced that choice"
The Mistress paused and smiled at Louise and Michelle, who sank back into his chair as if trying to become invisible.
"You others are on your way. Close your eyes and review what you are wearing and how it feels"
Michelle complied even though he wondered if the command had been directed at him as well as those who had not been public in their decision to become girls. He squirmed on his seat, feeling his butt plug move against him. He found that the sensation was no longer disturbing, it was almost pleasant. He felt cool and comfortable in his clothes. The straps of his bra, and the presence of the weight on his chest had become transparent to his senses and he realized how unusual they were only when he focused as instructed. He was surprised at how quickly he had forgotten that he was dressed in a weird, abnormal way.
He opened his eyes. The Mistress was standing before them, her hands on her hips.
"There is nothing wrong with desiring sex with girls. For you it would be gay sex. Straight sex for girls means sex with men. But as anyone who has attended an all-girls boarding school can tell you, gay sex is quite common. It is a human reaction, and none of you need feel at all inhibited or ashamed if those urges come upon you. Sex is good, in all its forms, and we encourage all our girls to explore their sexuality. Enjoy!"
With that, the Mistress left the room, leaving behind an embarrassed silence where each trainee studiously avoided eye contact with any other.
The awkward silence was broken by the arrival of supper, wheeled in on two large carts. The trainees concentrated on eating, each acting as if he were alone.
Michelle remained silent until he and Julie were back in their room. He needed to use the bathroom. This time, when he removed his butt plug, he laid it on the side of the sink. He washed it carefully after he had finished his business. He looked beneath the sink and found a container of lubricant. Depressing the lever atop the jar, he took a dab of lubricant and carefully greased the plug before reinserting it in his rectum. He caught a glimpse of his reflection as he straightened. He looked at himself.
His hair was still boyish, and unruly mess. He had reapplied his lipstick at the close of the class on makeup, but other than that his skin was bare. He looked pale, as if he had lost weight even in the short time he had been here. His eyes seemed bloodshot and red- rimmed.
Despite the lipstick, he still looked like a boy, at least from the neck up.
Beneath the neck was a different story.
The top three buttons of his dress were undone, revealing the lacy top of his camisole. Looking closely at his reflection, he could make out the impression of his bra straps beneath the white cotton of his dress. His fake breasts looked modest but real, and the pink belt seemed to accentuate the slenderness of his waist. The vanity cut off his reflection at the waist, but he knew that his lower half was even more feminine in appearance.
He remained at the sink to brush his teeth. He decided that since he and Julie were locked in for the evening, he could remove his lipstick now. He smiled wanly at his reflection, his mind fleeting back for an instant of longing for the days before he had run away. Dreadful though he had felt his situation had been, it was infinitely superior to his current plight.
He walked back into the room, where he saw that Julie was getting undressed.
He watched as the young man took off his shoes, wriggling his toes in relief.
"Wow! I hadnt realized how constricting these shoes are! And wearing heels!"
Julie looked at Michelle sympathetically.
"I saw that youre wearing even higher heels. Why dont you take them off and relax?"
"Yeah, I think youre right"
He noted that he was still speaking as he had been learning in the lab. He coughed and tried again as he removed his shoes and placed them neatly beneath the bed..
Thats better" he exclaimed, feeling his calves relax. He had not been aware of how much his legs had been aching until the pain went away. Julie interrupted him, nervously.
"Oh Michelle. I dont think you should try to talk like that"
Michelle quailed inside. He was being an idiot. He knew from bitter experience that there was no privacy.
"Youre right, Julie. I just forgot for a second. I feel so silly!"
He looked up at the ceiling. Maybe the camera was in the airvent?
"If you are listening, Mistress or Master, Im sorry. I do want to be a girl!
I will try harder!"
He looked down, biting his lip while trying to regain his composure. Julie was still undressing.
He was removing his dress, reaching with difficulty behind him to undo the tiny buttons which ran down the back from his collar to his waist.
I dont know how I got them done up this morning" he complained.
Michelle crossed to him.
"Let me help" he said, unfastening the buttons.
He saw how white and smooth Julies back was, and then saw the bra strap lying against the skin. He remembered the one time he had removed his girlfriends bra. She had been turned away from him, seated in that old chevy. She had been impatient, urging him to work faster, while he had fumbled with the unfamiliar hooks. Her back had been freckled, with a tiny black mole on her left shoulder blade. Julies skin seemed softer, smoother, more feminine. He felt blood engorge his penis and almost surrendered to an impulse to kiss that soft back. Instead, he swallowed hard and stepped back.
"That should do it"
Julie walked to the closet, holding his dress carefully. There was a definite sway to those hips. Michelle thought for an instant that maybe Julie had known that he was watching and had emphasized the rolling of his hips in order to maximize the effect his appearance had on his audience. Did he know that I nearly kissed him?
Julie was not in the closet for long. His eyes locked on Michelles as he strode back into the room. Julie was making no attempt to hide what he was doing now.
He stopped and put one hand on his hip, bent at the wrist, and with the other he pushed his hair up onto the back of his scalp. He bent one knee, transferring the weight to his other foot, and stuck out his rear.
"Well, do I look cute or what?" he asked, plainly trying to sound seductive and coy.
Michelle stared at the youth. Julie was still wearing a bra, panties, garter belt and nylons. His legs were slim and shapely, and while it was obvious that his bra was heavily padded, he looked far prettier than Michelle had expected. Michelles penis rose further and he felt his pulse quicken. Julie was very aware of what was happening and his own penis began to press against the satin front of his panties.
It was that realization that broke the spell for Michelle. He forced a laugh, remembering to keep it light and girlish.
"Oh honey!" he cried, in an exaggerated manner.
"You are just too gorgeous!"
Julie looked briefly annoyed but then seemed to decide to go along with Michelles patently obvious attempt to pretend that what had just happened had only been a poor parody by Julie rather than what they both knew it had been.
Michelle felt uncomfortable for the rest of the evening and buried himself in the magazines, ignoring the subtle efforts Julie made to engage him in conversation. He could not bring himself to pick up the binder containing the Lucy story, but he saw that Julie devoured it, oohing and aahing under his breath and continually trying to catch Michelles attention when he came to a particularly good bit.
The next morning found the two boys dressing side-by-side. Michelle was still feeling uncomfortable around Julie, who seemed to him to be far too accepting of their situation. He groused internally. He was the one who had suffered! He was the one who had no choice but to appear compliant! Julie was giving in far too easily. Maybe Julies father had been right, and Julie really was a fairy or something.
Michelle kept these thoughts to himself as the boys chose their lingerie for the day. Julie selected a short slip which he held up to himself and asked Michelle whether it would look good.
"No one will be able to see it, Julie! Its underwear after all!"
"Oh, Michelle! Dont be so grumpy. We have to wear these clothes, so we might as well have some fun while were doing it!"
Michelle thought that maybe Julie had read too much from that book last night.
Soon they were walking together to find breakfast. Julie was wearing a yellow sundress while Michelle had chosen a short cream skirt and a pretty white blouse, with long, generous sleeves gathered at the wrists by tiny pearl buttons.
They were finishing the modest meal when a Master made an announcement.
"Today will be different, girls. All of you, except Louise, need to do something about your hair. You will each visit our stylist who will help you make a choice of how you would like your hair to be. Then, by noon, each of you must let us know whether you wish to have your facial hair permanently removed. Those who choose to have it taken away will be called to the electrolysis studio in turn. Most of you will need at least two treatments, which will be spaced over several days."
That was not the only difference. The boys were led into a large, well lit room with a high ceiling and a hardwood floor. A row of chairs stood along one wall and the boys were instructed to sit. A single chair stood in the middle of the room, maybe ten feet in front of the others. Michelle saw that the group was now accompanied by only two escorts. He bleakly concluded that their trainers now knew that the likelihood of real disobedience was non-existent. Looking within himself, he knew that such an assessment was certainly true as far as he was concerned. And if Julie was any guide, he suspected that some of the group had internally crossed over from opposition to acceptance.
The boys had sat, all in a row, with their hands crossed in their laps when in strode the same Master and Mistress who had given them their initial lecture.
The woman spoke first, standing comfortably beside the single chair.
"Girls, its time you learned better deportment. There is so much for you to learn, now that you have made the choice to become feminine. And so much to unlearn!"
"For example, look at the way you are sitting! Anyone who cared to bend down could see the underwear most of you are wearing! Put those knees together, ladies!"
As Michelle complied he heard a giggle from Julie, seated to his right. He had to bite back a surge of annoyance. No doubt Julie had already had his knees together in a ladylike fashion.
"Michelle, come forward"
He stood and walked to the indicated spot, adjacent to the chair beside which the instructors were standing.
"Now sit on the chair"
He did so, being careful to hold his knees together.
"Stand up and bend over"
He did not understand why, but he knew he had done something wrong. He saw the Master approach, bearing a yardstick. The two strokes he received told him that his error had been minor and inadvertent.
He stood silently as Mistress addressed the class.
"Michelle is a good girl, but she needs to work on her deportment, as do all of you. When she sat, she kept her legs together, which was good, but she made a serious mistake by not smoothing her skirt beneath her. As a result, she risked wrinkling her skirt. We noticed yesterday that several of you really made a mess of your dresses. Sometimes mistakes like this can leave your slip showing, or raise a short skirt so far that the hem rises above your nylons, showing your garters."
She placed her hand on Michelles shoulder. He felt the slight pressure as she squeezed his shoulder gently. It was a comforting gesture, and he felt gratitude towards her. He knew that his punishment had been remarkably lenient. Perhaps Mistress liked him. It was an odd thought and more than a little disquieting.
"Do it again, Michelle"
He sat down on the chair, taking care to smooth his skirt with his right hand, while keeping his knees together. It felt strange to have to worry about moving correctly when doing such a simple thing, but he knew that soon it would become second nature.
He blushed in response to the ebullient tone of the phrase.
"Now, girls, each of you practice"
The group stood and sat, stood and sat, in a flurry of skirts, Michelle remaining in the middle of the room while carrying out the instructions.
Once the instructors were satisfied that their charges had learned this lesson, the group moved on to more demanding work. They had gained some ability to walk in heels, from sheer necessity, but with one or two exceptions, and here Julie was singled out for praise, they still resembled boys in dresses when they walked.
They were provided heavy, thick books to place on their heads and told to take short steps, placing one foot in front of the other, rather than walking with their feet spread apart.
Time and again the boys would make it for one or two steps and then lose their balance, the books crashing to the floor. Michelle was worried, when this happened to him for the third time in a row, that he would be punished once more, but the instructors seemed unconcerned with the slow rate of progress.
The group spent the entire morning learning to walk properly. By noon each boy was able to stand from his chair, make two complete circuits of the room, and return gracefully to his seat without disturbing the book on his head. Michelle watched the others with a sense of detachment, observing that this style of walking caused the boys to swivel their hips in a very feminine way. He recalled how Julie had walked around the room last night, but that now seemed more parody than reality. Julies walk now was far more fluid, more convincing. He knew that he too looked every bit a girl as he minced around the room, one hand held on his hip and the other dangling, bent wristed, by his side.
His calves and low back were aching as he made his way with the others to eat lunch. He could tell from strained expressions on several faces that he was not alone in feeling the effects of the altered body mechanics. The Master acknowledged the existence of these consequences when he spoke at the beginning of the meal.
"You should all feel very good about yourselves. You are a delight to train.
I cant recall any other group of girls who adapted so well to the training! We know that it isnt easy. You are all feeling some discomfort now. That is to be expected, but dont worry. Your bodies will adjust to these new ways, and soon it would be painful to pretend to be a boy! Keep up the good work, girls!"
Perhaps it was mental and emotional fatigue, perhaps it was the effect of three days of being forced to adopt an increasingly feminine appearance and behaviour, and perhaps something in the food or the orange juice which they were forced to drink every day, but the praise which the instructors always repeated in tones of great sincerity seemed to be having an effect. Michelle, increasingly aware of his involuntary reactions to any indication of approval, sat silently through the meal. The previously firm rule against chatter had been tacitly relaxed and he now sat amongst a chorus of whispered conversations. It took no effort at all to see himself as trapped among a group of young ladies, their voices and now their body language emphasizing the efficacy of their transformations.
As the meal drew to a close a Master asked whether there was any girl who wanted to keep her ugly facial hair. Predictably no-one raised their hand.
"Each of you will be a full facial and hair-styling this afternoon, as well as starting some of you on the electrolysis. This will disrupt your regular classes, so you may return to your rooms. You have earned a reward, so your doors will not be locked. You may visit each other, so long as you behave in a proper ladylike fashion: no catfights and no screaming fits, okay, ladies?"
"Yes, Master" came the inevitable response from eight youths.
Michelle declined the opportunity to visit anyone else, but Julie happily darted up and down the hallway, practicing his gait. He invited Mary and Karen back to his room, where they spent an excited few minutes examining the contents of the closets. It turned out that every trainee had slightly different clothes in their wardrobe. Michelle was worried that Julie would try to instigate a fashion show, where each boy would try on different clothes from the various rooms, but if Julie thought of it, he did not carry through.
Michelle was actually relieved when he was eventually summonsed to go to the hairdresser. Dinner had come and gone, with only six boys present. Three had already had their makeovers, and he had been stunned to see how realistic they looked. The three prettified boys had sat at a table by themselves and had seemed very quiet.
It was an hour later, and he had begun to fear that he might have to endure the suspense and anticipation all night, when the call came.
He passed Denise being escorted back to the area where their rooms were located. Denise had previously had mouse-brown, lank hair. Now he sported a full head of chestnut brown hair, glowing with vitality, and with darker brown streaks. His hair was no longer straight, it flowed in waves down either side of his face, with bangs falling over his forehead. His face appeared expertly made up, and his painted lips broke into a wide smile as he saw Michelle approaching.
"Isnt it just divine" the boy gushed, gesticulating with his hands as he minced past the horrified Michelle.
Youll have sooo much fun!"
Michelle gritted his teeth as he tried to ignore those words from the departing Denise. What affected him the most was that he was afraid that Denise was correct. He stumbled for a second before regaining his balance. Dammit, but he had to concentrate. He dangled his wrist as he remembered seeing Julie do earlier, and wiggled his hips.
His escort patted him on the bum, while congratulating him. Shame at how he had courted the compliment brought tears to the corners of his eyes. He quickly dried his eyes by rubbing the back of one hand against them, while maintaining a cheerful smile.
The stylist was set up in a nondescript room dominated by a large, comfortable looking chair. Michelle saw that the chair was swivel mounted and a nearby counter held a profusion of equipment, lying either side of a sink. A low table just inside the door held a collection of magazines featuring young female models sporting various hairstyle. Another chair, similar to but smaller than the larger chair, stood in a corner beneath an ominous looking machine that Michelle assumed was some kind of hair-dryer.
The stylist was an attractive young woman in a pink colored nylon blouse with matching slacks and white canvas shoes. She was the first non-trainee Michelle had seen who was not in the uniform black leather attire worn by all the escorts, Masters and Mistresses.
The young woman looked up from where she had been standing, rearranging some of her equipment.
"You must be Michelle"
"Honey, you dont have to call me Mistress, you can call me Melanie"
"Thank you Melanie"
"Be a dear and sit in the chair. Ill rinse your hair and then we can look at some pictures and you can choose a pretty hairdo. That is. if you would like a pretty hairdo?"
"Yes, thank you Melanie"
Michelle forced himself to smile as he climbed into the chair. He found himself smoothing his skirt and keeping his knees together without conscious thought.
Melanie swung the chair around and lowered the back until Michelle felt the porcelain of the sink against the nape of his neck. Warm water cascaded from the spray nozzle Melanie held, as her fingers worked through Michelles thick, wet hair.
"Youre a lucky girl, Michelle. You have such lovely hair. Most girls who start life as boys have really fine hair. Hormones can only do so much, you know. With your hair, youd look great even without the hormones. With them, you will be the envy of even the prettiest real girl"
"Hormones?" Michelle was confused.
"I keep forgetting" Melanie said as she raised the seat back and wrapped a large towel around his head.
She looked towards the escort as if seeking permission to continue. Maybe the gesture was genuine or maybe this was all part of an act and this was how he was supposed to learn the truth.
"Honey, boys like you can look like girls pretty easily. You are the right height and weight, and I can see that you already know how to move and speak like a girl. But to really be feminine, you need to have breasts, and to have wider hips and cuter tushes. Hormones will take care of that. And youre already well on the way. Every glass of juice gives you a full shot. It wont be long before you have a body to match your desires!"
Michelle gripped the arms of the chair, turmoil roiling around his mind. He cast a look at the escort whose eyes, expressionless though they might be, were paying close attention to his reaction. He knew that the information was being spring on him as a test: he had a choice, and all choices had consequences.
Melanie was sorting through the magazines, but he could see that she was stalling, waiting for his reaction. Angry at himself, but seeing no alternative, he gave them what they wanted.
Oh, Im so glad to hear that, Melanie. I do so much want to have real breasts! Anything that will help me become a prettier girl"
He saw both Melanie and the escort relax, an almost invisible change which only someone looking for would have seen.
It was forty minutes before Melanie announced that she was done. By then Michelle had been lulled into relative calm. The touch of Melanies hands and the relentless, meaningless patter she had carried on had worn him down.
"Ive finished, honey. No, you cant see until were all done. You have to have some needle work done next and then you get a treat: a professional makeup job. Thats when you get to see yourself. Youll be amazed! Even your own mother wouldnt recognize you then, young lady"
Melanie was replaced by an older, heavily built woman in a plain white lab coat. She paid no attention to Michelles attempt to say hello, instead busying herself with emptying the stainless steel tray she had carried in.
Michelle soon found himself lying prone in the chair, staring at the ceiling, with the woman leaning over him, a strange metal device in hand. The device was about six inches long and three inches thick. An electrical cord trailed out of the rear while a long slender metal needle protruded from the front.
The woman wore goggles through which Michelle saw her eyes seemed huge and grotesque. He realized that they must afford her a magnified view of his face. He kept as still as he could as she bent over him.
The process was not as painful as he had feared. When she announced that she was through, after about thirty minutes, he felt as if he had a mild sunburn on either cheek, his upper lip, and his chin. He realized that the area of mild discomfort corresponded exactly with the location, or former location, of his sparse facial hair.
At least I wont have to shave my face he thought, in a grim attempt at humor.
The woman, whom he had mentally labeled as Olga, left to be replaced in turn by a third woman, of about the same age and general appearance as Melanie. She was clad in the same nylon blouse and slacks. She introduced herself with a warm smile.
"Hello, Michelle. Im Cathy. Its my job to make you even more gorgeous than you are already! Its going to be fun! I think youll love the result, dont you?"
"Im sure I will, Cathy" he responded.
Cathy began by applying a cool, soothing lotion before laying on a smooth liquid foundation. She spent several minutes rubbing this in, massaging the youths temples and forehead to reduce the stresses which had accumulated under the tension of the electrolysis. She knew that the juice served to each boy contained a very mild tranquilizer as well as female hormones and a cocktail of other drugs intended to facilitate the conversion from masculine to feminine, but these boys were under so much pressure that tensions still built up. And tension expressed itself in the facial and scalp muscles, interfering with her task of making these boys look truly beautiful as young women.
Her initial phase complete, she turned her attention to completing the facial feminization of her subject. He had been well trained and did not so much as flinch as she shaped his eyebrows, tut-tutting over their unruly condition.
"How your mother ever let you get away looking so unfeminine, Ill never know" she complained.
"And such a waste! My dear, you are positively beautiful! If you had looked after yourself properly, if your mother had taught you how to look pretty, you wouldnt be here now! Youd be in the arms of some handsome young stud, and enjoying every minute of it"
Michelle had to lay there and smile, aware that every reaction was being monitored, to determine what choice he had made.
Soon his eyelids were painted, his eyelashes enriched by mascara, color bloomed on his cheeks and his lips gleamed with gloss. His nose seemed to have diminished in size, while his already high cheek-bones, made visible by his thin face, seemed more prominent than ever before. He looked like an expensive model, dramatic and alluring. Not a trace of his male self remained apparent to any onlooker as he gracefully stepped from the chair, smoothing his skirt as he did so.
"Thank you, Cathy" he said, his voice clear, with no sign of the annoying falsetto which several of the boys were still battling in their efforts to acquire a proper speaking voice.
"It was my pleasure" Cathy said. The warmth in her panties told her that she had been speaking only the truth to this one. Cathy enjoyed her job, especially when she was able to turn a boy into a creature as exotic and alluring as this Michelle.
Michelle was escorted back to his room, walking with an unconscious grace, half- dreading and half-anticipating seeing his reflection. I dont care what theyve made me look like he told himself. But no brave thoughts could completely eliminate the niggling doubt which ate away at his fragile self-image.
The look on Maries face as the two boys passed in the hallway added to Michelles torment. Marie had looked shocked by Michelles appearance.
The door to the room he shared with Julie was ajar when he arrived outside. The escort left without a word. Michelle hesitated before entering, reluctant now that he had to face his reflection. No one answered his tentative call, so he pushed the door open and walked directly into the bathroom. He kept his eyes lowered until he was standing directly in front of the mirror. Then, eyes closed, he raised his head. Finally, holding his breath, with a feeling of profound fear in his stomach, he opened his eyes.
Just for an instant he thought that the mirror had been replaced by a window, a window through which a beautiful, yet unfamiliar girl was staring at him.
Surely his eyes were not so large as those vulnerable orbs which gazed back at him? Surely his lips had never been so generous, and so inviting?
Her mouth opened slightly as his own lips parted in surprise. Her hand rose, echoing his, as she gently, wonderingly touched her newly styled hair. Where had it come from, this mass of auburn curls?
He stared in disbelief at his image for an untold time. Thoughts drifted through his mind, thoughts which were foreign to everything he had ever believed. He stared and stared, until he felt his neck become stiff, he hadnt moved in so long.
He tore his eyes away, fighting an internal war in which he tried to deny that the girl who had looked back at him could have any true existence. It was too soon! No boy, no young man, could be so transformed in such a brief period of time. Despite his outer compliance, he had still clung inside to a belief that he could withstand the pressures. Pain and the fear of pain might make him pretend to accept what they were seeking from him, but he knew that no male could ever look convincing as a female. That inner knowledge, that internal belief that what his captors were trying to do was doomed to failure had allowed him to go along with the charade of pretending to want to become a girl. Now he was faced with incontrovertible proof that a young man of suitable physique could be made to appear to be a wholly feminine person; an attractive young girl.
He walked into the bedroom, acutely aware of the way he placed each foot in front of the other. He tried to walk like a boy, experiencing a moment of unreality as he stumbled. Flashing an apprehensive look at the ceiling, where he knew cameras were secreted, he resumed his mincing gait. His mind was in turmoil. He desperately wanted someone to talk to, someone to whom he could unburden his fear. But of course there was no-one, and even if there were, every word would be heard by his captors. There was no escape, no relief, not even for a minute.
He felt overwhelmed and in an effort to at least put a temporary end to the ceaseless, hopeless struggle in his mind, he picked up a copy of Cosmo and sat at the table to read.
He had just flipped past an article telling readers about seven ways to stimulate their (male) lovers desire when Julie walked in.
Michelle looked up in time to see Julies disbelief.
"Oh Michelle! Stand up!"
Michelle stood, blushing furiously.
Julies reaction added to his pain, yet at the same time he felt a tiny glow as he saw Julies eyes wide in appreciation. The pain won out, and he turned away.
"Julie, Im sorry, but nows a really tough time for me. Do you mind leaving me alone?"
Julies voice was full of concern.
"Not at all. Ill be quiet. Its time to hit the sack anyway"
Michelle took his time removing his makeup, hoping that his old self would reappear once he had finished. Some trace of Michael did return, but the combination of his hair and eyebrows left his face vulnerable. There was more Michelle in that mirror than there was Michael, and he knew with a sinking feeling that he would be recalling Michelle in all her glory next morning. He would be submerging all trace of his male self. The ignominy of knowing that it would be his own hands that did his trainers work deepened his despair.
It was an unhappy youth who took off his blouse and skirt, carefully hanging them to ensure no wrinkles. It was a distraught young man who pulled his camisole over his head, stepped out of his slip, removed his panties, bra and nylons and then pulled on his peach nightgown.
"Good night, Michelle" he heard Julie whisper as the lights went out.
He laid in bed for an eternity, howling inside at the unfairness of life. He would have given anything, anything at all, for the chance to go back to that bus station and to turn away rather than climb aboard.
He had no idea what time it was when he heard a creaking from the next bed. He heard Julie push back his covers and climb softly out of bed. Julie was obviously trying to move quietly, but Michelle was now wide awake, although he lay still, not giving anything away.
He had thought that Julie might be on his way to the bathroom, but then he felt the cool room air on his back as Julie lifted the covers on his bed. The bed sagged slightly as Julie climbed in, placing his hands around Michelles recumbent form.
"Honey, I know youre not sleeping"
Julies voice whispered in Michelles ear as Julie clung to his back. Michelle felt the other boys body heat, and then his hands feeling their way around his silk-clad body.
"I need to talk. Is that okay, Michelle?"
Michelle nodded and then, realizing that the gesture might not be visible, muttered a response.
His despair had drained him so much, had left him so empty of hope or of any positive emotion, that he was at his most vulnerable. Any human warmth was bound to meet with acceptance. There was no calculation in what Julie did, but a coincidence of needs and desires met in that bed that night.
"Michelle, when I saw you tonight, my stomach did flip-flops. I dont know whether you saw it, but I was really turned on"
Julies hand had reached Michelles groin as he whispered these words. He stroked the silk gently, slowly. Michelle tensed but did not otherwise react.
Julie continued his slow stroking as he continued whispering.
"I know now that my dad was right about me. You know, I think he was just giving me a hard time, not meaning what he was saying, but even so, deep down maybe he knew"
Julies voice paused, although his hand kept moving. Michelle became award of another sensation; a pressure in the crack of his ass. He realized with shock that it was Julies penis pressing against him. His own penis was now responding to Julies ministrations. He moved away, but Julie, using the arm not engaged around his groin, pulled himself close again.
"Do you know what Im saying, Michelle?"
"No" Michelle croaked. Of course he knew, but by denying the knowledge perhaps he could make it go away. He felt powerless to stop Julies caresses. Something was moving deep inside of him, something formless and without shape.
"I was meant to be a girl, Michelle. Something went wrong and I was born as a man. Whats happening here is meant to be. Im not fighting any more. And when I saw you tonight, honey, I knew that the sames true for you. You shouldnt fight any more"
"I cant give in" Michelle was close to tears.
"Yes you can, darling. Youve been so brave. No-one could call you a quitter.
Some things are just meant to be. like this."
With his last words, Julie squeezed Michelles now rigid member. Michelle writhed in pleasure, and felt something snap inside his mind.
He turned, new-found strength allowing him to overcome Julies surprised reaction. Face to face, he stared deep into Julies eyes, pupils dilated in the darkness.
"You mean like this?" he asked before thrusting his face towards Julie, placing his lips on Julies and kissing his astonished bed-mate. He felt the release of all the emotions which had been pent up within him since his return from the make-over.
Julies astonishment did not prevent him from returning the kiss with fervor. Their hands caressed each others bodies as their impassioned moans wafted up to the hidden microphones.
Soon Julie broke free and twisted to burrow under the covers. He found his goal, Michelles rampant penis. Pulling up the hem of Michelles gown, he opened his lips into a perfect O and took him inside.
Michelle shuddered as he felt Julies lips encompass him. His face was covered by the silk of Julies identical gown. He buried his face in the silk, encountering Julies own penis. Hurriedly Michelle unveiled the pulsing organ. He stared at it for a second, fascinated by the knowledge that he was about to cross into unknown territory. The sounds and sensations of Julies sucking on him prompted him to cross the Rubicon.
Julies cock was warm, smooth velvet to his tongue. Julie was small, no more than five inches in length and correspondingly thin. It fit easily into Michelles mouth, which had flooded with saliva at the first brush of Julies penis on his lips.
The two boy-girls lost all sense of their surroundings. All awareness of the torments which had driven them to this surrender were lost in the maelstrom of their passion.
Hips bucking, hands straining against buttocks to hold each other close, perspiration staining their silken gowns, they sucked and licked and kissed each other until, in shuddering spasms, they came.
Julie was the first to reach orgasm, but the sounds he made and the violence of his bodys motion as he neared climax was enough to bring Michelle to the edge and over, within seconds of his lover.
Both were surprised by the volume and taste of the jism which erupted from the penis they so lovingly held within their mouth. Both, however, swallowed all the precious seed before releasing their shrinking captive.
Julie kissed the insides of Michelles thighs before crawling out from under the sheets to embrace her lover. The two lay side by side, their arms entwined, sated from their encounter.
Michelle gazed fondly at his bed-mate. Somehow, in some indefinable manner, everything had changed. He was looking not at a fellow imprisoned boy but at a young woman, for whom he felt great affection.
Julie opened her eyes, and saw her lovers face inches away, his eyes upon hers.
Neither spoke for several minutes. It was Julie who finally broke the restful silence.
"You can tell, cant you?" she whispered.
"Yes, darling, I can. You really are Julie now. Youve crossed over the line, havent you?"
"Yes. and I feel so happy, so relaxed. I think I love you, Michelle"
"Youre right, honey. I dont know whether I will ever join you. I havent crossed. Im not a girl.."
"Not yet, anyway."
They both smiled, the fears that each had harbored vanished for the moment. They would return, more so for Michelle than for Julie, but for now they were at peace.
Julie fell asleep in her lovers arms. Michelle watched her breathe for a while before joining her in slumber. The tapes of their coupling and their subsequent conversation were studied avidly by their trainers.
Michele next morning more at peace with himself than he could recall in months, since well before he had decided to run away from home. He was warm and comfortable. The first note to punctuate his sense of well-being was the presence of a soft, warm body close to his. Recollection returned with that awareness, but although some of his tranquillity was diminished by the return of memory, he remained far happier than he had been.
He pushed the somnolent form beside him, smiling at the momentary disorientation he saw on the pretty face. Julie had yet to have her hair styled, and her eyebrows were much bushier than his own narrow arches. Michelle remembered that their trainers had told them that femininity, or indeed any sense of gender, came from within, and need not correspond with external indicators. Michelle knew all too well that his trainers intended to make that as true for him as he knew it was true for Julie. His subconscious mind had perhaps adjusted to that threat during the night. For now, he was content that Julie no longer suffered, that Julie was at peace with her sense of who she was. That inner peace was reflected in the bright eyes and happy smile with which Julie raised her face to be kissed.
Reality took on a more somber aspect after they climbed out of bed. Michelle saw that both of their nightgowns were wrinkled and stained. His own mouth tasted funny, although he knew that that might be his imagination acting up. Julie displayed no hint of embarrassment as she made her way to the bathroom.
"Wanna share a shower, honey?" she smiled at him over her shoulder.
Michelle recalled Melanie telling him to wear a shower cap this morning, until he learned more about the care of his newly-styled hair. Concern that he might make a mess of his appearance, and be deemed to have made an unwise choice combined with his burgeoning doubts to persuade him to decline.
"No thanks, Julie"
"Too bad, sweetie"
Michelle took advantage of the time afforded by Julies use of the shower to choose his outfit for the day. He placed his nightgown in the laundry hamper where both had learned to discard their lingerie each night. He wondered who did the laundry, suspecting that it was only a matter of time before he would be able to answer that question first hand.
He carefully laid out his selections on top of his bed, after first hastily straightening the sheets and covers. He went with white this morning. All the lingerie he had worn, or seen Julie wear, had been silk or satin, with lots of lace. Whatever or whoever was behind this operation was not allowing cost to be a limiting factor.
He made his way into the bathroom where Julie was still in the shower.
Michelle was brushing his teeth when Julie stepped out into the steamy room. Her skin was pink from the hot water. Michelle wiped a patch of mirror dry and smiled at Julies reflection. Julie grinned at him before nudging him to one side. Michelle glanced down at the object which Julie had in her hand. It was Julies butt plug. Michelle averted his eyes while Julie finished lubricating it.
"Honey, dont look away!"
Julies plea made him watch as the she-male slowly reached between her legs, plug in hand and eyes watching Michelles reaction. Michelle tried to let nothing show on his face. Julies face bore a look of concentration, and then her eyes narrowed as she pressed the plug home.
"You know, Im getting to like the feel of that" she said.
"Well I dont" was Michelles feeble and somewhat dishonest response.
Michelle climbed into the shower in an effort to avoid any further discussion, even though he knew that he had to remove and clean his plug before long. Michelle enjoyed the hot water streaming over his body, his hair carefully protected by the plastic shower cap he had found in one of the vanity drawers. Julie had retreated to the bedroom by the time Michelle finished, so he was able to complete his use of the toilet and replace his own plug without having her witness what he had to admit was getting to be a pleasurable, even though shameful, experience.
Both dressed in their underwear before taking the time to apply their makeup. Michelle knew that he would be unable to duplicate the incredible job which Cathy had done on his face, yet also knew that he had to do his best, or be punished for a poor choice. Julie watched with interest as Michelle used lip-liner, mascara, eye-liner, eyeshadow, blush and lipstick in an attempt to conjure up the beautiful girl he had seem in the mirror yesterday. He almost succeeded, uncertain whether to be pleased or frightened by the ease with which the girl reappeared.
Julies makeup was more basic, little beyond the makeup she had worn yesterday. Despite the lack of change, Michelle thought that Julie looked radically different. Perhaps it was the more relaxed, more fluid movements that she used as she applied her cosmetics. She no longer looked like a boy being forced to do something distasteful. Michelle had a sudden flashback, to an image long buried in his mind. His younger sister had begun wearing cosmetics a few years ago. Early one evening he had walked into the bathroom he shared with her. She had forgotten to lock the door and Michael had been distracted so that he had not realized that the room was occupied. His entry had taken her unaware. He now remembered the sight of his sister leaning over the sink carefully applying makeup. Even though he was her brother, he had been struck by the combination of innocence and sexuality in her pose. The similarity he saw in Julies efforts sent a shiver down his spine. Even more than the events of last night, this vignette convinced him that Julie had become a girl in her own mind.
They were barely finished when the door clicked open. They walked out, fully competent in their heels and skirts. Michelle had chosen a loose-fitting white and black print dress, with a full skirt which hung to mid calf. It was Julies turn, it seemed, to wear a skirt and blouse. She had chosen a short black pleated skirt, which, when she bent or sat, revealed the tops of her nylons. Her sleeveless white silk top clung to her body. Michelle was amazed that she could carry off such a sexy outfit when her breasts were no more real than his. He had to attribute her success to her new attitude.
He felt Julie reach out to hold his hand just as she whispered to him.
"Michelle, look at those two. I think we werent the only two who had a good
time last night"
Michelle looked up. He caught a glimpse of Suzanne and Denise as they temporarily disappeared around the corner. Sure enough the two youths were holding hands, walking so close together that a blind man could have told that they had become intimates.
Breakfast was a high-strung affair. All but Julie and Louise had had their makeovers yesterday, so by now all of them looked completely feminine. Their movements were perhaps exaggeratedly so, and not all had been able to control their voices as well as they were supposed to.
The biggest difference was less easily identified, until one looked at body language and social spacing. Previously the group had consisted of eight individuals. Room-mates had formed loose couples, but with no sense of intimacy. Now half of the youths had bonded in ways which suggested that their sexualitys had found outlet last night. Michelle surreptitiously followed Julies whispered directions to see who was sleeping with who. He tried to guess whether any or all of them had made the switch which Julie had made, or whether some of them were caught in his own dilemma. They all looked so naturally feminine that he was unable to guess, other than to worry that he was the only one left who clung to the male pronoun when thinking of himself.
Julie gave a little shrill of delight when her name was called for her makeover. She caused a buzz of excitement when she reached over to kiss Michelle on the cheek before mincing out with her escort. Michelle looked around defiantly, but met with no hostile glares even from the four who appeared not to have bonded last night. In fact, two of them smiled with obvious sympathy, and he saw that those two now reached out and took each others hands.
With the schedule disrupted by the absence of the last two girls for their makeovers, class this morning was simple. They did not even leave the eating area. Instead, after clearing the tables under the supervision of a Mistress, they began learning about flower arranging.
"As young ladies, you must not only learn to look pretty yourselves, but also to make your surroundings as pretty as possible. Men come to girls like you for escape from their difficult lives. Unlike you, men have to struggle constantly. Your men may be rich: I suspect that they will be, if they can afford girls like you!"
Several of the trainees giggled at this comment. Michelle felt mortified, but fear and the growing effect of his conditioning held back any outcry.
"Even rich men struggle. In some ways their struggles are worse, because they are all mental, often forms of dominance games. Men are like that. It is your task, as your mans lover, mistress, concubine, to allow him to escape the struggle, to relax in an atmosphere of beauty and peace. You will learn to be the most desirable, beautiful object in his life. But there is more to your task than that. You must create an environment in which he can enjoy your company. I do not mean to underestimate the value of your sexual training. By the time you leave here, you will each be experts at pleasing a man, but as with the Geisha, much of the pleasure and relaxation you will bring to your man will flow from the environment in which he will find you."
Flower arranging gave way after lunch to learning to care for clothing. As Michelle had suspected, the ordinary tasks of housekeeping were to become part of their responsibility. They learned how to care for delicate fabrics, how the use of lemon juice in rinse water preserved the sheen and feel of real silk, how to fold and store lingerie, what fabrics required dry-cleaning and a host of previously unknown and unneeded information.
Michelle and Julie met with a surprise on their return to their room. Gone were the double beds, replaced by a single queen-size bed. Julie squealed with delight and even Michelle had to smile at her reaction.
"Now we have to sleep together!" Julie cried as she bounced up and down on the bed, her laughing eyes gleaming at Michelle.
The trainees soon fell into a rhythm. Breakfast was followed by classes in decorative aspects of life. They were given lectures on music appreciation, interior decorating, flower arranging, dancing, even shopping.
"Your men will be looking for girls who can fit in; girls who betray no trace of their upbringing before they choose their new gender identities. You need to acquire so many skills which young, well-bred young ladies already know"
The afternoons were given over to makeup, fashions, and learning the myriad aspects of running a home.
"Most of you will become the equivalent of wives. You may have servants, but as any woman knows, you cannot properly supervise a servant unless you know how the work is supposed to be done"
Michelle wondered what the Master had meant by Most. What about the others? But even though punishments now were limited to canings, none of the trainees could muster the nerve to ask questions unless expressly invited to do so.
Evenings were spent unsupervised. They were given access to a large, comfortable lounge where they could mix and talk with each other. By now all of them were coupled, and as new lovers do, most of them spent an inordinate amount of time holding hands, or touching each other at every opportunity.
Each week saw the trainees complete a personality inventory test or undergo an hour-long interview with a psychologist, after first receiving a strong drug cocktail to ensure honesty in their answers. Michelle never had a clear memory of what happened during those interviews: the drugs always put him to sleep right afterwards, and he would wake later feeling groggy.
Lunch and dinner times were spent with each couple in turn discussing their reading or movie viewing of the night before. The girls were asked how they identified with the characters, and whether they perceived any inconsistencies in the ways the characters were portrayed. Michelle came very close to a severe punishment when, in an increasingly rare fit of obstinacy, he began an answer by describing his views of a male character. He escaped with a caning only by apologizing for his poor choice when he saw the Mistress in charge tighten her lip.
Julie was upset with him afterwards.
"Michelle, you cant do that kind of thing! I dont want to see you get hurt!"
"Im sorry, Julie" Michelle said, rubbing his buttocks.
"Its just that sometimes it gets to be too much to take. Im not like you, or the others. Youve become so completely feminine, but internally I still have a problem"
Julie looked up at the ceiling, the message clear.
"But youre trying, arent you, honey" she asked fearfully.
"Yes, I am. I do want to cross over."
Michelle realized that he was speaking the truth. He had been trapped here for six weeks now; six weeks of conditioning. He had not worn any male clothing since his second day, when he had been punished for his poor choice. His speech, gait, and appearance had all become instinctively feminine. Any observer might well have been unable to tell that he was not as well adjusted to his situation as the others. But something behind Michelles eyes, that part of him through which he filtered his perceptions of the world, was still undeniably male.
The rest of him was not so clearly male.
All of them had started to notice that their bodies were changing. Michelle first became aware of it during loveplay with Julie. They had taken to kissing each other all over, and one night Michelle found that his nipples were incredibly sensitive.
"Wow!" he exclaimed as Julie suckled away.
She looked up, her lips wet with saliva.
"You like that?" she asked, smiling.
"Oh God, honey. I dont know whats going on but I love it!"
Next morning he stood in front of the bathroom mirror and fondled his nipples while inspecting their reflection. It seemed to him that his aureoles had grown, had become a deeper brown, while his fingers caused unusual sensations to ripple through him. He looked more critically at his reflection, turning sideways to gain a different perspective. He knew that he and the others were on a hormone treatment. Perhaps that accounted for the puffiness he saw around his nipples and the rounding out of his buttocks.
That night he made Julie stand naked by the bed as he looked carefully at his lovers body. Yes, the signs were there as well. He stood in front of his naked girl and gently nibbled her nipples. Sure enough, it was Julies turn to express surprised delight at the intensity of her new feelings.
Within a week, the puffiness which Michelle had noted became unmistakable breast tissue. His aureoles had continued to grow, and his nipples now stood out from the swell of his breasts much like the erasers on the ends of pencils. They were exquisitely sensitive to touch. Even putting on his bra each morning brought waves of excitement coursing through his body.
The trainers were monitoring the situation and Michelle found that his clothing was changing. His panties were fuller in the rear, while the waist bands shrank. More noticeable still were the changes in his bras. The padding diminished week by week, until on the 63rd day of his captivity, he found that his bras had no padding at all.
Julie sometimes grumbled that it wasnt fair.
"You dont truly want to be a girl, and youre the one with the best tits!"
"Sweetie, yours arent bad, you know!"
Michelle bit Julies left nipple to emphasize his point and within minutes Julies complaint was forgotten as they found their favorite sixty-nine position, sucking and licking each other. Many nights of practice had taught them how to control their partners passions. The hormones had made them slower to arousal and their orgasms less productive of semen. The intensity of their climaxes were undiminished and they found an especial joy in making sure that they came simultaneously.
Tonight was no exception. They had learned to go to bed naked and only after sex did they scurry, in the dark, to the shower. Each had laid out his or her chosen nightgown before the lights were turned off, so they dried each other in the dark, with much whispering and giggling, before putting on their nightgowns and returning to their bed.
Their sexual activities were confined to blowjobs and petting. Early sex education lessons had instilled in all of the trainees the knowledge that their anuses, or pussies as they were told to think of them, were reserved for real men. Any attempt to have anal sex would be viewed as a particularly bad choice, with all the consequences which such mistakes were bound to bring.
Meanwhile, each trainee received new and larger butt plugs every month. The latest ones looked like fake penises, complete with helmet-shaped head and fake veins.
Little by little the conditioning eroded Michelles image of himself as a male. Julie had been the first to succumb to the need to see herself as feminine. Michelle had always attributed that collapse of masculinity to Julies family environment and her fathers tormenting of her. For his part, he had hated and despised his step-father, but there had never been any accusation by anyone that Michael was less than male.
The trainers knew that no psyche could withstand the relentless conditioning which their captives endured, so they simply bided their time. Michelle was the last hold-out. Even though he said all of the right words, even though he smiled and giggled as prettily as any of the girls, even though he always looked as feminine as his by now skilled hands could manage, they knew that within his mind he saw himself as a man, a man who might just be able to survive until he was sent on to whatever destination lay in store.
The change when it came was anti-climatic. The group had been studying drawing and painting, working with still-lifes. The Mistress in charge had announced that they were to start drawing from models. The youths carried their sketch pads and pencils into the drawing room, where eight easels stood in a semi-circle around the perimeter of the room. Each walked to her appropriate place before the Mistress clapped her hands.
In strode a young man, clad only in a short loin cloth. He was of medium height, looked to be perhaps twenty five or so, and had short dark hair and deep-set brown eyes. His muscles rippled as he walked, his swagger announcing that he knew how good-looking he was. He oozed masculine self-confidence.
Michelle had been arranging his pencils when the model walked in. He looked up and the breath went out of his body.
He knew right then that he was no male. This model in front of her, this strong, confident, smiling man was a male! Michelle knew with all of her heart that she could never be that man; that it was too late for her to go back.
And with that realization came a wave of relief, so intense that she staggered momentarily. Julie, standing to her right, noticed immediately that something was wrong, but Michelle waved off her inquiry with a quick smile and an assurance that she was fine.
Michelle managed to get through the session without incident, although her work was far below her usual standards. Perhaps the Mistress understood, since she voiced no criticism.
It was on the way out of the drawing room that Michelle pulled Julie to one side.
"It happened, Julie! It happened!"
Julie looked at her friend and lover, her eyes asking the question. Comprehension dawned on her pretty face like sunrise appearing over a mountain range. Julie embraced Michelle.
"Thats wonderful, honey! Welcome to the club!"
They walked to lunch hand in hand, smiling together.
Time flew by now that all of the trainees had crossed over. The trainers could relax, since now there were no bad influences left. All of the girls were united in their desire to perfect their femininity.
Michelle returned to her senses with a guilty start. She caught a glimpse of Julie smiling at her, shaking her head in gentle reproof. She darted a look around the room. Either none of the Masters or Mistresses who often watched this particular class had caught her daydream or they were giving her extra leeway because of the promise she had just received.
She turned back to her mirror, determined now to make herself as beautiful as she knew how. This evening was going to be her time!
All of the class knew that their days here were coming to an end. The realization made each sad in her own way. Michelle knew that she would always miss Julie; her first true love. Yet, as she had moved deeper into her own femininity, she had grown to understand that she would never feel truly fulfilled until she was possessed by her man. She had been created, crafted, to feel this way. Knowing that her feelings had been inculcated in her, knowing that in a very real sense she had no control over the way she felt, made no difference. As she had been taught, everyone in society was the victim of conditioning, much of it accidental. Accidental conditioning often wrought havoc, such as abused children growing up to become abusers, or children of alcoholics becoming alcoholics in turn. The girls in the group knew what and who they were, and knew that their futures would be filled with pleasure and delight.
They had learned of their futures in one of the most recent lectures.
The same two adults who had given them their introduction into the training all those months ago stood in the same place in the same room.
The trainees sat in the same chairs, but otherwise the scene could not have been more different.
Michelle remembered how on the first occasion the youths had been cold, naked and disoriented. Julie had been whipped, an outburst of violence which had cowed all of them into obedience.
She cast a look at her friend. She had to concentrate to see any sign of that long-ago Julie beneath the exterior of the pretty, confident but submissive young woman who sat so properly beside her.
"Girls, this has been a long journey, but it is almost over. Its time you learned why we have helped you make the choices you have made"
The audience paid close attention.
"We offer a service to a very exclusive clientele. You need to know this, since you will be asked to fit into the social and family lives of our clients. Each of you has been purchased by a man; a very wealthy man, since you are very expensive young ladies"
The Mistress smiled as she said this and her audience giggled appreciatively.
Michelle joined in, while caressing her thigh through the silk of her skirt. She felt expensive! She hoped her man would appreciate the effort which she had made to become such an attractive creature.
Mistress continued her speech.
"These men have several characteristics in common, apart from wealth. Each made his money in either tech or stocks. Each has been a loner, a nerd. Each is secretly homosexual, in that they are not attracted to females. Yet each desires the illusion of femininity. We found them through their use of Internet sites. Many of them have spent hours in chat rooms, or downloading pictures of pretty shemales from various sites. All of them have patronized story sites, in particular one called FictionMania. We located them, using means you would not understand, and after carefully evaluating them, we offered our selected candidates a contract."
"We offered them a chance to buy the wife they desire: a boy so pretty, so feminine, so well-trained that no-one else need ever know that the creature they bed each night has a penis! We offered them you!"
Michelle and the others clapped their hands enthusiastically.
"This was very attractive because these men are shy and scared of disease. We assured them that our girls would not have been sexually active as girls before training. Moreover, our training program ensures loyalty and dedication. We are pleased to say that we have a two year waiting list!"
Michelle returned again to the present. The news that she was to undergo her initiation into anal sex with a Master within the hour had driven her into these reminiscences. She shook her pretty head.
Focus, you silly girl she swore to herself.
She managed to finish the class without any more distractions. Her heart was beating rapidly and she had butterflies in her stomach as she walked to the exit. Sure enough, the Master was waiting outside.
Julie saw her move to stand beside the Master, and her eyes became huge.
Good luck she mouthed. Julie winked before turning away.
The other girls also mouthed blessings and good wishes as they moved past.
The hallway emptied slowly, leaving Michelle standing beside the Master. He was one of the tall ones, broad-shouldered and very handsome. Michelle had been hoping that he would be the one, which of course the trainers knew from her psychological interviews.
Her knees felt weak, and she worried whether she would be able to walk with him to the room where she would be initiated into the pleasures of anal sex. She knew from her sex education classes that she would be expected to learn techniques such as the use of her abdominal muscles to squeeze and release, squeeze and release, her mans penis while he took her in her pussy. She had to be an accomplished lover before she was delivered to her owner, and she was looking forward to learning her new arts.
Her legs did not fail her and soon she was standing in a bedroom to which she had never been invited before. It actually compared unfavorably to the one she shared with Julie. The only furnishings were a dresser and a large, king-size bed. What really made the room different was the presence of mirrors everywhere: on all of the walls and on the ceiling. Even the back of the door through which they had entered was mirrored. She felt as if she were in a circus fun-house, with multiple images receding everywhere into infinity.
"Get undressed, Michelle"
The Masters words, spoken firmly but kindly, drew her attention back to the moment.
She carefully removed her blouse, looking in vain for a hangar or hook to hang it one before laying it on top of the dresser. Despite her mounting desire, she found that she could not look at her Master, who was getting undressed himself. Instead, she turned partly away before removing her shoes and stepping out of her skirt.
Desire was stirring in her groin, although for two months now she had been wearing a gaff to prevent any indiscreet disclosure of her sole remaining vestige of masculinity.
"Turn around, baby"
She obeyed, her eyes still lowered modestly. She sensed his examination of her, her view of him limited to his feet, still clad in black socks, and his calves. She saw how hairy his legs were, and her excitement mounted.
He looked at his prize. The right to train Michelle in the last segment of her indoctrination had been a highly desired prize amongst the trainers. He was lucky that she had developed a lustful desire for him. The knowledge that this delectable young specimen had been fantasizing about his being the man who deflowered her added to his own desire.
She was perfect, he thought. Her oval face was remarkably fine-pored for one who had begun life as a boy. The electrolysis, which had been repeated and extended over her body several times after the first treatment, had removed all traces of body hair other than from her high-arched eyebrows, her scalp and a neat triangle angling up from her groin. Hormone and vitamin enriched cream had healed the underlying follicle damage done by the electric probe and had helped close the pores as well.
Her ears and nose had been trimmed by cosmetic surgery in the third month of her training, and her lower rib had been excised at the same time. She sported the best breasts amongst all of the trainees, firm, well-shaped mounds with prominent nipples that his tongue itched to lick. He had seen and listened to the tapes of Michelle and Julie cavorting in bed and well knew how sensitive Michelles breasts had become and how much sexual pleasure she derived from a lovers touch.
Her stomach was firm and trim, the soft, toned skin inviting a caress, her delightful navel almost urging him to kiss and nuzzle her belly. Her hips were still narrow, but he found that boyishness devastatingly attractive, as he knew her owner would also.
She was still wearing her panties. Perhaps some instinct had told her that today might be special, since she was wearing black silk, a color she rarely chose.
He loved the look of her long shapely legs encased in the delicate fibers of her silk stockings, their tops held up by the taut garters which depended from her garter belt. She oozed sex as she stood before him, her hands at her side, utterly defenseless.
He moved behind her, passing one hand over her silken buttocks while he leaned forward to kiss her shoulder next to her bra strap.
She tilted her head to one side, exposing more of her slender neck to his kisses.
A moan escaped her lips as his hands found the hooks holding her bra together. Expertly he undid the hooks. Her hands rose automatically to catch the lacy garment as it fell from her breasts, exposing her erect nipples to the air.
He had already stripped to his shorts and now he turned her to face him.
"Look at me"
She raised her lovely face, her moistened lips parted to reveal her perfect teeth. He saw that the pupils of her eyes were dilated by sexual arousal and the sight made his penis rise hard and fast.
She lowered herself to the floor before him, without a sound. She knew what to do.
Her slender fingers, topped by red-painted nails, reached for his crotch. They pulled at his fly and gently guided his enormous erection to freedom. He looked down at her as she licked her lips, the tiny pink tip of her tongue adding moisture to her already poised lips.
She raised her eyes, without moving her head. He saw the motion and nodded.
Satisfied that she had permission, Michelle bent to her task.
She had sucked Julies cock on countless times, but this was, she reminded herself, the real thing. She was sucking a real mans cock and soon, if she was a good girl, this very cock would be inside of her, this mans balls slapping against her buttocks as he plowed into her.
She first licked the very head of his penis, her tongue flicking against the slit. Then she licked the underside of the purpling head, one delicate hand holding the enormous shaft as if it were an ice cream cone. Her eyelids were half-lowered, adding a sensual, languorous touch to her expression as she twisted her head to better lick all around the massive organ.
She pulled back for a second, again raising her eyes in search of his approval. Again he nodded to her and again she bent to her task.
Now she took his warm, smooth penis into her mouth, opening her jaws as wide as possible. Julies delicious little penis had never filled her like this!
She lowered her head, taking as much of him into her as she could. She had heard of the deep throat technique, where the girl had to overcome her gag reflex, and she knew that later she must and would learn the technique. But today her cocksucking was merely a prelude, an appetizer.
She moved up and down a few times, sucking hard, running her tongue along the sensitive underside as she pulled back.
"Enough baby" he gasped.
She sat back on her haunches, a drop of spittle hanging from her lower lip as she smiled up at him. The strain in his voice as he overcame the urge to let her bring him to orgasm had thrilled her with the sense of power she possessed. She understood with every fiber of her being that her submission to her man was the source of that power. That her feminine need to serve and to please gave her, paradoxically, complete control over her man. By pleasing him, by causing him to become obsessed by her, by anticipating and accommodating his every urge, she gained power. It mattered not that she would never exercise that power, that she would always submit to his every desire, she still found herself fulfilled as she had never dreamed she would be. She knew now and forever that she had made the correct choices.
He reached down and pulled her to her feet.
"On the bed"
He found speaking full sentences to be too difficult. He was fighting an almost overpowering urge to throw this he-wench onto her back and take her forcibly. The fact that she would enjoy that action made it even more difficult to resist, but his instructions were clear.
She crouched on the bed on all fours, her delectable buttocks facing him, elevated above the rest of her body.
He pulled off his shorts and climbed up behind her, kneeling directly between her legs. He leaned over her, his chest brushing her back, as he retrieved the jar of lubricant from the table beside the bed. Michelle turned her head to look over her shoulder as he removed the lid.
"In a moment, baby" he soothed her.
He placed the jar on the bed and pulled down her pretty panties. Then, moving slowly so as not to hurt her, her removed her gaff, allowing her genitals to swing free. Michelle moaned as he massaged her small penis, which quickly became erect under his touch.
Now he reached up to her rectum and took hold of the flange which allowed purchase on the butt plug. It came free with a plop.
He could tell that she was well-lubricated but nevertheless he applied a generous layer of lubricant to his shaft. Pain was not part of the training program at this point.
"Okay, honey. Im coming in"
He moved closer to her, his penis protruding from his groin. He used his hand to position it directly up against her cute rosebud. Then he pushed forward.
Michelles sphincter muscles, conditioned by months of gradually increasing plugs, yielded with only moderate pressure. He was in!
She felt velvety smooth as he pressed slowly inside. Michelle arched her back as she felt her insides expand to accept him. He was big! Bigger even than her latest plug!
Once he was all the way inside, he paused.
"Michelle, can you squeeze?"
For this was the point of the exercise. Michelle had to be trained to control her abdominal muscles so that she could play with her lovers cock while it was inside of her, varying the pressure and resistance as he moved in and out. The girls had been given instruction, concentrating on squeezing their butt plugs, but there was nothing like a live lesson to perfect their skills.
He pulled slowly out as Michelle concentrated. It was not easy; she had learned that it wasnt as simple as trying to squeeze just her sphincter muscles. To give her man maximal enjoyment, she needed to control pressure along the entire length of his penetration of her.
"Thats great, baby. youre doing fine!"
She smiled through the frown of concentration on her pretty face, her eyes glazed and vacant as she focused on her insides and the sensations coming from her rectum.
He pushed back in, and then pulled out, building his speed slowly, all the while muttering instructions and encouragement to the pretty she-boy who knelt beneath him.
Soon he was moving like a piston. Michelles head was thrown back, her wide open mouth gasping for air, sweat slicking her body and her rib cage heaving. His own breath was coming fast now, and his hands held her by her hips. She could feel his balls slap against her buttocks as he plunged deep within her.
He was an expert in prolonging his erection, in remaining hard while not coming to orgasm. This technique allowed his girls to experience penetration for longer than their eventual owners would ever last. If they could remain focused on their lovers needs for this long, then they would have no problem satisfying their owners desires.
But even expert technique is not impervious to lust. Michelle was moving against him now, pressing back as he plunged in, and rocking forward as he withdrew, all with the goal of taking him in deeper with each stroke, while she demonstrated superb abdominal control for a virgin lover.
He was close now. Michelle deserved her own reward, so he removed one hand from her sweat-slick hip and reached around to her groin. He wrapped his hand around her small but vibrant penis and masturbated her as he allowed himself to surrender to the moment.
He came at last! Grunting with passion, sweat bursting out on his own brow, he plunged triumphantly into her as his jism spurted free.
She knew when he came. Afterwards she would claim to have felt the semen spurt against the walls of her rectum. That moment was the culmination of months of conditioning and her response was exactly as her trainers had predicted: her own penis erupted, spurting her scant seed onto the bed covers as her lover continued driving into her as his own orgasm came to a juddering close.
She collapsed onto the bed, her lovers penis pulling free as she did so.
He climbed slowly off the bed while she lay on her stomach, heedless of the patch of her own semen which lay beneath her. Her attention was on her man as she smiled up at him, every muscle in her body relaxed. She had never felt so happy as when he looked down at her.
"Michelle, you are fabulous! Your owner is going to be a very lucky man!"
This session was only the first of her final, intensive training regimen. She was the star pupil from the outset and unbeknownst to her, an intense although friendly competition ensued among the Masters to see who would be her lover for each session. No one Master was ever to service her twice in a row or more than one-third of the time, since she was not to form any attachment to any of them. She had to be ready to fall in love with her owner.
How that was to be accomplished led to another change in the routine now followed by the girls.
The psychotherapy sessions intensified. Michelle was still drugged before each session, but the mixture of drugs changed. She continued to have little recall of the sessions. Had anyone asked her, or any of the girls, what had changed, her answer would have been "Not much".
But a lot had changed, for all of the girls. By now, each had been sold, after an auction in which the prospective buyers had viewed video and audio tapes of the girls. Michelle had been shown to only one prospective buyer, the wealthiest of the group. He chose her immediately.
Michelle began to have unusual dreams. This almost always involved love-making. That did not make them unusual, since so much of her existence was bound up with sex, she frequently found sexual content in her dreams. She and Julie remained lovers, although the intensity of their passion diminished with the institution of their training in anal sex.
At first the dreams left her feeling vaguely dissatisfied. A man was in her dreams, but only as an uncertain shape. Then, after the third week of the new training, she began to catch glimpses of him, which left her feeling even more dissatisfied. She knew that this man was important in her dreams, and maybe in her life. Not knowing who he was caused her anxiety each morning.
"Do you ever get dreams like this?" she asked Julie one morning as they stood beside the bathroom sink, brushing their teeth.
"Yes.. for about the last week." came the hesitant reply.
Neither girl could understand what was happening. Michelle resolved to discuss it with the psychologist that afternoon, but when she recovered from her session, she could not remember whether she had even mentioned it.
The mystery was resolved the following week. By then Michelle was beginning to fixate on this shadowy man, whose partial image had begun to intrude at all times of the day or night, even during sex.
The girls were gathered for breakfast as usual. Nowadays the girls spoke freely among themselves and rarely did any Master or Mistress address them. Today was an exception, as one of the Mistresses appeared before them.
"Girls, I have a very special announcement to make"
The group quieted immediately.
"You all know that your training is almost over. We have never told you when any of you will be released to your owners. There will be no one day: you will each be released when you are considered ready and your owner wishes to take delivery. Well, girls, that day has arrived for one of you!"
All of them tensed, hardly breathing as they each prayed that it would be them. Six months ago those prayers would have been desperate pleas for escape, for a return to their former lives. Now the prayers were for the chance to live their new dreams, as the wife or mistress of some handsome, virile man.
"Michelle, please come forward"
She felt shivers running up and down her spine. She recalled how, years ago, in a former life, she had seen the Finals of a Miss America pageant, and how the winning girl had reacted to the announcement that she had won.
She understood at last how that girl had felt: how the culmination of a dream could make a girl so happy and yet bring her to tears. Michelle rose on trembling legs to walk to the front of the room. She felt Julies hand reach out and touch her as she came to her feet. She turned and embraced her lover, whose face was also streaked with tears of joy.
"Come, child. You cannot stay here any longer. Your man is waiting for you"
Michelle stopped beside the smiling Mistress. She heard the sound of chairs being pulled back, and turned to see that each of her classmates had risen to her feet and were clapping in applause.
The Mistress began to walk out of the room and Michelle knew she must follow. She felt as if her head was floating ten feet off the ground, while the room both expanded and contracted around her. Thoughts raced through her head. She had not known this moment was coming! She must look like a mess! If only she could change, freshen her makeup, put on new shoes.
She was so distracted by her thoughts that she almost walked into the back of her guide, who had led her to a part of the building in which she had never been. She must have been walking for several minutes, yet had no recollection of any of it.
The Mistress knocked on the closed door before saying to Michelle:
"Go in, Michelle"
Michelle glanced nervously at the woman, who looked back with a calm, assured smile.
Its all right, Michelle. Go on in"
Michelle grasped the door handle and turned it, fighting for breath.
She walked into the room.
It was a small living room, with several couches and two large armchairs. The room seemed deserted for a second but then a man rose from where he had been sitting in an armchair the back of which had been facing the door.
Michelles heart, already beating fast, seemed likely to burst through her ribcage. There was something about the shape of this man, even before he turned to face her.
Realization burst upon her as soon as she saw his smiling face. This was the man of her dreams! This was her fantasy lover! And, she knew with sudden clarity, she was destined, made, to be his fantasy come true.
He approached her slowly. He was at least six inches taller than she, and she felt frail, powerless and yet safe as he took her hands in his.
She looked up into his confident face. All at once the long months of training flashed through her mind. Just for a second, she rememebered that she had ben born and raised as a male, and that the very thought of falling in love with a man would have been anathema to her. But then he smiled at her, and her world became complete.
"You must be Michelle"
"Yes, and forever more.."
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