Author Note: I wrote this piece of TG Fiction under the influence of Hunter S. Thompsons work. This is NOT a typical piece of erotica. It will contain HEAVY drug and alcohol use, hallucinations, a great many things... it also has heavy sex in it. For anyone who has fucked, while stoned, ripped, or twisted on some narcotic... you will understand where this is coming from. I am not a drug abuser myself, but there is a certain appeal in seeing through the eyes of someone completely baked out of their mind. This is the end result.
Also some of this story is autobiographical. I write it in a kinda 3rd person perspective through the eyes of a strait male friend. The sex is fiction… the drugs, well replace them with booze, and it's right on! I am currently 23. I am a combat veteran, with 1st Ranger Battalion, served 2 combat tours in the middle east from 2001 - 2003. Hell. It was utter hell. Especially because I also am a transsexual. I successfully transitioned, and went in stealth as a girl in under a year. Now over 2 years after I began my transition, I bring you this:
Fear and Loathing in Transsexualism
by Jessica
We were sitting in his hazy basement apartment, smoking herb from a light bulb. The war in Iraq boomed in the background, commentators in their pristine little suit jackets comment on the madness at hand. Utter bullshit. As a combat veteran myself, I had seen the terror that these places can produce. Panic. Chaos! Nothing made sense. The images of our troops performing exacted maneuvers, incomprehensible to me. I couldn't put together the images on the glass, and the ones I had witnessed with my own eyes. Jason was there with me, fighting tooth and nail beside another. Pure, unbridled nonsense.
I felt the room slow, senses heighten. Ahhhh good bud! I passed the homemade bowl to my friend Jason, feeling euphoric after the wave hit me. Much better. The ambiance in the room was mellow. His pad was obviously designed for drug users. There were pictures of faeries, a grim metal butterfly, subdued lighting in various colors all over the room. A strand of pink bubble lights gave the area a warm feel. I felt my eyes dilate... just a little... and zoned out.
click - click
What the fuck? I looked over and saw Jason sparking up the weed in the bowl. The lighter made ominous clicks. Like loading a gun, in the silence. The reservoir filled with smoke, and he inhaled. Relaxation. Why am I here? Are we doing nothing more than just getting fucked up in this shady apartment? The smoke filled the room like steam from a cauldron. The dim pink and blue lighting made seeing clearly a difficult endeavor. I did 3 shots of Bacardi and took a tab of acid. My tongue revolted, but I kept it calm. Good. Very good.
Jason had asked me here this night, in the interest of divulging a secret to me. I stared at him in bewilderment. What could be so monumental, that he'd have to load me up on drugs to tell me? I looked at him sideways... or right side up rather, but the room had slanted on me. I could feel the speakers breathe as Marilyn Manson screamed about the Beautiful People." I wanna be a girl" My eyes swim and I look over at Jason slightly slack jawed. Not from the revelation that was just handed me, but because I could not feel my face.
I looked at him again. "I wanna be a girl, man... hehehe... I... uh... I am like, um... gonna change my sex and shit". Whoa... Seatbacks in the full upright position, tray tables up... Jason is going to change his sex?! Shit... To classify myself as bisexual is unfair, as I don't like penis, well... I'd thought about it, but never did I ever intend to try anything. But the notion of a girl with a penis had always been secretly a fancy of mine, and here my best friend is... a tranny. Wow... shit. I'd fuck him. "Well, Jason... uhhhh... that's pretty deep man! or... girl... lady. fuck... I'm high" I giggled. He giggled... or... uh... she giggled. Fuck. This is gonna be a trip.
I looked over at him, and envisioned her morphing. His crew cut spilling from her head like a cascade. Gorgeous red hair. Pouring from her head. It softly flows, trickling between her perky breasts. Beautiful breasts! God! If only breasts were as soft and firm and upturned. Nipples glowed phosphorescent in the dark... like little pearls shrouded in a cloak. And there between her legs, lay her penis coiled like a snake. Then it rose, dancing before my eyes... waving back and forth... large and thick. It's single eye fixed upon me... I dare not break eye contact. It might bite! I move fluidly... carefully. This is dangerous business. The phallic snake ever looking me closer, close... breathing. The venom it can spew is like poison... terrible fear.
I jolted upright. Jason just sat there in his baggy goth pants, drinking a beer. Holy shit... where did she go?! I shake my head. Focus now! Focus! "Well, uh... Jason... that's cool. When do you start?" She was off in her own little trip. She stared at the ceiling listlessly... the stars spiraling in the dark. She stirred. "You're cool with it?" Her eyes had that glaze... the insanity was upon her. Shit! She's a "her" already... it feels like I've known for an eternity, but still... there he is, shaved head, goatee, lip ring... stoned out of his skull. The impulse to kiss him crawled up on me. I tried to resist it, but the demons berated me. I stood up... wait... I'm still sitting. Shit. I stand to my feet... knees... and crawl over to the couch he is sitting on.
I haul myself up on the couch. His body radiating warmth... peaceful... I lean over as if to whisper in his ear. The white encrusted around his nose glows eerily in the green light. Like toxic ooze that was inhaled in haste... His beautiful high cheekbones looking feminine and shapely in the darkness. I must kiss her! I kiss her neck passionately. I know this is Jason, but for all it mattered in the world, she was a siren! Gorgeous girl! Jason pulled me off suddenly. Confusion! What had I done wrong? Was this not welcome? Fear gripped me uncontrollably, and I shook in his grasp. The carpet bubbled like molten rock, spraying! Oh god, oh jesus, oh fuck! We're going to DIE!!! I tried to hide from the destruction by curling into the pillow. I felt lips upon my own... soft lips... beautiful lips! God! Those soft lips had me entranced. I could be here for days at a time. It felt as an eternity. I felt a tongue teasing within my mouth and I licked it softly. It flicked I could see it within my oral cavity... tongues kissing, making love in my mouth. Fantastic invention!
Jason's lips parted from my own. Disturbed - The Sickness screamed in the background, heavy, loud... oppressing! Good music! Suddenly the room made sense! Faeries, Butterflies, pink lights... holy shit! He IS a girl... good god! So cool! I packed a bed of shisha in the bowl of my hookah, placed several nuggets of dank weed on top, coated the concoction with cocaine like some sort of twisted cupcake. I packed more shisha on top of that, and wrapped the bowl in foil. Placing a coal upon it, i drag from the hookah - puff puff puff! Clouds of smoke billow from my lungs like steam from a factory. I take a large heavy draw from the hookah, and place my lips upon hers. Once she had inhaled all that was in my lungs, shotgunning it... I kissed her softly on the forehead. Once she exhaled, we broke out into passionate kissing. My lips melted and became one with hers. I feared we'd have to separate them with a knife... then they parted. Fantastic...
I rubbed his baby smooth chest, i could feel lumps under his nipples where she had begun to grow breasts. He winced, "Take it easy man... them fuckers are sore as all shit" ... shit... well... I guess I'd better back of a bit on the nipplage. I lowered my head... shit, I gotta kiss it to make it better... makes perfect sense. I didn't even think of it in any sexual way, i just needed to kiss it to make it better. Her back arched in pleasure, and she pulled my head down on her quickly hardening nipple. Good fucking god! It didn't even dawn on me what I was doing to the poor girl. Shit! I licked her nipple passionately, as if I was trying to lick the candy coating off a blowpop. Blow pop? God fucking god... thats a great idea!
I grabbed her crotch, and felt her erection... think and pulsing with the bass of the SlipKnoT song thrashing in the background. Jesus god almighty... I think she's growing on me. Here I was, stoned out of my mind, getting ready to fuck my best friend! She slipped off the couch to her knees and spread my legs. Fucking hell! The world was falling endlessly from back to front... pulling me forward. My skin itched like fire, and I felt caked in sweat. I saw Jason on the floor, cutting a line with his debit card. It seemed to go on for ever. I'm watching him... click click click click click click. She dumped the coke onto a sheet of paper, and folded it in half. What in the world?
She took the folded paper, and ran it along the hard shaft of my penis. Holy shit! Wait, where did my pants go? Seriously! What the fuck? I mean... wow...there's cocaine on my cock. This seemed massively amusing to me, and I laughed and my dick bobbed up and down... threatening to spill the precious white powder to the floor. Fuck! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! This is no laughing matter, stay calm. Wait... where did the coke go? I looked on the floor, fearing I had spilt it. Then I noticed the the white around her nose, and all was clear. She had snorted a line of coke off my dick! Whoa! The residue from where it was made my penis look pale, almost vampyric. The walls breathed... moved... rippled. I closed my eyes and took another tab of acid. Yeah!
She slowly opened her jaws, and smiled like a doughnut. My love pole slipped into her mouth inch after inch. She made out with my penis, as she did with my tongue. GOD!!!! Stars erupted from around my eyes. Oh my god! I felt the need to reciprocate ASAP. But she was sucking me dry, up and down... I thought my eyes would drip from my head!!! I was in utter bliss!!!! I petted her head softly, lovingly. So calm... so careful... I felt my thighs cramp... I felt the need for release! She was massaging my balls with one hand, whilst deepthroating me in earnest! Holy fuckin shit! Then she stopped... and I realized for the first time...
SHE WAS NAKED! Gorgeous girl! Her curves glistened in the pink light, making her look like a seductress. Her penis hung thick, a bit of precum stretching to the floor. I pulled on it with my finger, like a string on some prehistoric instrument. I pull the string to my lips... feel the saltiness burn a hole into my tongue. I followed the juices to the source and looked at the snake. Held its gaze. It's head purple and pulsing. Oozing the blood of love. God! I gave it a little kiss. Just a tiny peck. That wasn't so bad. Her skin trumpet stood there, waiting to be played! The acid was kicking in, and it seemed to get larger and larger! Shit! I could never take all of that in my mouth! It looked like a elephant trunk. I placed my mouth on it, and I felt it swell under my tongue.
Here I was, on my knees... giving my first blowjob. Wait... I thought I was a strait boy! I felt that monster in my mouth, perfectly aligned with my mouth. It feels fantastic. Pussy is nowhere as good as this! She was moaning, loving the pleasure I was giving her. The room shone with multicolored patterns crisscrossing on the walls. Twisting, filling my eyes, and dancing within them. I wanted her... this seductive goddess with a penis. I wanted to worship her... fill her. I sucked on her... I gagged. Thousands of cells freaking out, begging for mercy! Sweet mercy! I backed off, seeing her dick glisten with my saliva! Fantastic!
She slumped to the floor. I wasn't sure if it was the drugs or my blowjob, but she was breathing heavily and shaking. I put a line of coke on the CD album cover of KoRn: Follow The Leader. The little girl on the cover leaving a white trail as she skipped to her demise. I brought the line to Jason's nose, and he snorted the line. I lit a joint and we passed it back and forth, letting the smoke rush to our heads. Ahhhhhhhh... neither of us had climaxed, and we were ready to fuck!
I started to caress her tiny ... very tiny... very cute breasts. We were both naked, and ready to consummate our friendship. Her body was soooo smooooth, soooo soft... so supple. Her ass was perfectly curved. I wanted to be inside it, deep inside. The passage lay before me, lit with candles, begging for entrance. Who am I to resist? She lay there, legs spread... ready to be made a woman. I put some LSD on my finger, and put it on her pucker hole. I ate all the acid from her ass... using my tongue to get in every crack. She writhed in total pleasure... Her asscheeks like mountains. My face sunk down into them, the world obscured from view. The TV boomed like a televangelist with a megaphone! Her ass wriggled in my face, and I reached under and jacked her off, while I ate her ass out. Her dick had lumps on it... bigger and bigger. They felt like buttons... wait... this isn't her cock, this is the remote control for the TV. I held it to my face. What is this doing here? Whipping it over my shoulder, I returned to eat her ass out.
I slipped one finger in, then another. She moaned... a little squeak. So cute! I mounted her in passion... I was ready to do this! I placed my throbbing unit at the tight entrance to her love cavity. Pop... the feeling was strange, as my head penetrated her ass. She was nervous... her body had that faint fuckmusk about it. I could tell she was scared about it, but I hope to quell her fears. I push in... slowly... very slowly. I don't want to hurt her. I want to fuck her all night. I want to keep riding this ocean of pillows and let the boat travel where it may. Another inch... and another. She moaned quietly... I could tell she was enjoying it! Soon i was all the way in. I'm not incredibly large. 6 inches... standard. But she seemed to approve. I leaned down onto her back, and held my erection within her. "It's all the... way... in. Relax! If you're forgetting... we're, uhm... going to..."... "JUST FUCK ME ALREADY!!!" Her outburst shocked me. I drew a heart shaped pattern on her neck, over and over with my tongue. I pulled out then pushed back in. Slow... poor girl! The world was already going the speed of a mountain on a roller skate.
Then I picked up momentum. Soon I was full blown fucking this girl. Bam, bam, bam, bam! Rocking into her harder, and faster! She threw herself back into my love member. I thought it would come off at the hips. She was not only LOVING it, but she was begging for more. Shit... I felt it well up within me. The dam burst, fighting to keep it back... to stop the catastrophe! Suddenly the water toppled the dam, and I poured within her. I could feel my cum consuming her within! Jesus god! I fucked my best friend in the ass! She smiled sweetly, and waited until I was soft before I pulled out.
"Your turn!" …wait... what? I felt the carpet on my face, and I knew what was about to happen. I felt the cool chill of lube against my asshole, and her HUGE member at the entrance. Fuck it... why not? I'm open minded... shit... if I... OWWWWWWWWW . I whelped! I felt that monster just barely inside... making me writhe! Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck! I felt like I was going to be split apart at the hips! It's going deeper! Christ on a pogo-fuckin-stick!!!! Deeper still! I felt like I was full, eaten too much, bloated! That monster went deep. Lurking around through my backdoor entrance. Oh shit! Stars surrounded me again. Purple, blue, green... but no yellow... odd. I felt her pull out. I thought I was going to shit on the carpet, but she rammed it back into me. I felt so helpless. There I was being fucked, twisted on drugs, enjoying it like a slut. I wanted her cock! I pushed back upon it, wanting to take it all in. Stars again! I was LOVING this! Holy shit!
I felt her pull all the way out, and right as she was moving forward, I slammed back on her, letting her fill me up. I was tight as a drum, rapping away to some unknown tune. We swayed into each other over and over and over. Hot damn... I felt her drawing tense. I felt her tighten, my ass clenched in anticipation. I felt her loosen up, and felt the first cum to fill my ass. Amazing bliss! I too was taken as a woman... and loved every minute of it. My arms ached... my heart beats... my vision fades... i fade.
I roll over, and kiss her. Her multitude of huge breasts filling my vision. We smoke a joint, inhale deep I thought! It only makes sense! I retreat to the back of my mind and then fall asleep happily in her arms. Blessed be!!!
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I'd like your comments on this! If you liked it, my email is: jessynecessity@hotmail.com
If you'd like to see my transition to become male to female, you can go there with the link below!
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/transgirl22ny/album?.dir=/e37e&.src=ph&.tok=phWlphCB.Yhsu2Zo
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