Better as Jane

by Jane Hudson

 

Hello My Name is Jane Hudson it use to be Mark. I am a per op Transexual .I now live full time as Jane. I work and do my whole life as Jane . Its not been easy but also not as hard as I thought. I just feel so happy on my new role in life.I enjoy the clothes the make up everything. I am also a far better person as Jane than as Mark. I was a drunk a gambler and a thug nothing more oh he had a few good points but not many and once Dad and Mum went that was it he went to underside of life to everyone else a everyday Joe soap but in reality a real piece of work.

Mark had always had inside me Jane but hated it he always tried to Mr Macho a real thug and yob and he has done thing for the money to go gambling drinking and worse that make me feel sick to my stomach. He was made to give up the drink or it gave him up .I Jane have always tried to keep him under control now I have won he gone I am free at last of him but of how ashamed I am of what he did and why he did it. It was like a runaway train I am now making amends for him and I will.

Figure 1 Jane as She is today

He use to use his size and fists to earn off the pain and sorrow of others debt collecting was one way how sick I am to think this body of mine did such things I will never do such a thing myself ,yes the money was good but it went on cards misuse of women god was I as him such scum. I am now a believer in God and Jesus and have been baptised as Jane . Mark believed God bothers were sucker s. He was the sucker I will always try to help other the other things he done I wont talk about as the people he was in with would take it out on others as well as me .I could live with it being me as I in many way deserve it but not other such as my family and new good friends

I n the stories I have read SOME WOMAN OR GROUP OF WOMEN WOULD TAKE Mark and change him in to a Woman .In a way a woman as Jane the woman inside who has been an unwilling prisoner of this scum I am free he is dead I will move on and help all and love all. Jane is not perfect but she gold to his rusty tin.

I have made so many new friend 's as Jane friends who are good people worthwhile people I feel I have come into the sunlight from the dark deep underworld that was Mark 's life.

I have been into Weston wearing my new black skirt suit black boot feeling so fem all who know me smile and say hi hello . Mark never got that. Yes I am lucky it won't be easy but it will be worthwhile. Love to you take care God bless you all.

  

  

  

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