Author's Note: I've been an avid reader of TG fiction for quite a long time. I especially enjoy stories that are sweet and sentimental or those in which the character is punished with love and compassion (if you want to know what that means, read any of the Aunt Jane stories by Tigger). Anyways, this is my first attempt at a story and I hope you enjoy it.

All the usual copyright and "viewing if you're legal" rules apply. There is no sex in this story, the character is far too young, but there is implied violence. It is a work of fiction and all the characters are fictional, any similarities to the living are chance.

 

Audra: A New Life

Joanne Foxcourt

 

Chapter 17: I'm a model, you know what I mean…

Audra groaned, "Again? I had to try them all on in the store."

"We didn't see it," Dana noted in a way that ended the debate.

The girls followed Audra to her room. "Cool room!" Julie stated as they entered, her eyes seeing the blend of the boy and the girl.

"Where's the makeup?" Dana asked suddenly as Julie made a bee-line to the closet.

"Makeup?" Audra looked surprised.

"Yeah, you have a makeup table with no makeup?"

"Is that what that table is?"

"Sure, the mirrors and lights help you see what you're doing. What did you think it was?"

Audra shrugged, "I never really thought about it."

"Hey! Check out this dress, it's gorgeous!" Julie exclaimed, pulling out the pink, satin, dress that Audra had first tried on at Top Dress.

"Audra looks great in that," Susie told them.

"Oh, show us!" Julie insisted.

Audra gathered up the dress and petticoats and started towards the bathroom trying not to look like a condemned prisoner going to their execution.

"Where are you going?" Susie asked.

"To get changed," Audra responded.

"Change here, we'll help with the petticoats and zippers."

"But…"

"Audra, relax, it's just girls here and you have no surprises."

"But… okay," Audra sighed, realizing that she probably would need help with this particular dress. Blushing, she took off her outer clothing as Susie prepared the petticoats for Audra.

Dana peered at Audra intently. "Wow, it is true," She remarked, seeing that Audra didn't have the tell-tale bulge in her underwear that even young boys have.

"What do you mean?" Audra asked.

"Um… well… I mean, what we heard today was pretty intense, you know, and until you really see, it seems hard to… you know… believe," Dana stammered.

"Satisfied?"

"I'm sorry Audra. I didn't mean it in a bad way. It's not like everyday you hear of such things, you know."

"It's okay. I forgive you," Audra sighed. She realized that she was going to face this disbelief for some time.

Audra stepped into the petticoats that Susie held out as Julie held up the dress. Once the petticoats were tied off, Audra then pulled the dress over her shoulders and tugged it down into place. Susie then zipped up the back.

The three other girls stepped back. "Wow," Dana remarked, "That looks great on you!"

"Do you have shoes for it?" Julie asked.

"I do, just a sec..." Audra dug around for the shoes and held them up.

"Well, put them on silly!" Julie laughed.

Blushing from the laugh, Audra put on the shoes and, once again, felt that off-balance pull of the heels.

"Oh yeah, that's gorgeous," Dana said and was echoed with nods from the other two. "Okay, walk around a bit."

Audra tried walking in the heels, but her gait was unsteady.

"Um… You need some help with walking in heels," Dana stated.

"No guff!" Audra exclaimed.

"Okay, the problem is that you walk like a boy. You can't clomp around in heels like you're a horse, you have to try and glide a little. You want to have your toe come down just ever so slightly before your heel. You might have to wiggle your hips a bit too."

Audra tried following the instructions.

"Hey, I said wiggle, not vibrate!" Dana corrected. "Here, I'll show you."

Audra kicked off the heels and Dana tried them on. They weren't a perfect fit, but close enough for the demonstration. Dana then began walking with a slight swaying motion in her hips, not very exaggerated, but just enough to help her balance on the heel.

"Do you see?" Dana asked Audra.

"I think so," Audra responded dubiously.

"Okay, try again."

Audra slipped on the shoes and tried the instructions again, taking a few steps with much less wobble than before.

"Much better! You need to practice though," Dana praised.

"These shoes aren't very comfortable."

"The price of beauty, my dear," Dana claimed as she fluffed her hair to the giggles of the others. "Men love heels on women. I think it's wired into their brains."

"It's starting to get late girls. You should probably start getting ready for bed," Marianne told them from the doorway. "I'll help Audra out of her new dress. She needs to look after a few things before she joins you. Okay?"

"Okay mom." "Okay Mrs. Wilson."

 

Chapter 18: Aren't we a team?

Mike Davidson had felt pretty bad about the way he had treated Audra, or failed to treat Audra. He had let her down and that was bothering him. It was with that frame of mind that he showed up at his baseball practice as Audra and her sister were heading to the playgrounds that day.

"Hey Davidson, how's your boyfriend?" Bobby Grant taunted Mike as he arrived.

"Fuck you Grant."

"What's the matter? You don't like it when we tease your boyfriend?"

"First, Audra is a girl. Second, she's my friend, not my girlfriend."

Bobby and his cronies just laughed at him. "Yeah, right Davidson. You're just another fairy, like Wilson."

Mike snapped. Already feeling bad about how he had failed to come to Audra's rescue the first time, he was primed to fight the second time. Jumping Bobby, he started swing hard and his fury overwhelmed the other boy. Before any major damage could be done, Mike was yanked off of Bobby.

"What's going on here?" Daniel Clarke, their coach demanded.

"This nutcase just jumped me and started swinging," Bobby insisted.

"Mike?"

"He was making fun of Audra, like before."

"Who?" Coach Clarke asked.

"Audra, I mean, Aaron."

"I don't understand. Aaron? Audra?"

"Call my mom, she can explain," Mike insisted.

"You and Bobby stay here, the rest of you I want to you do five laps around the field," Coach Clarke instructed as he took out his cell phone and dialed Mike's parents. "Hi, June? Daniel Clarke here… Well, Mike and Bobby Grant got into a fight and I'm trying to figure out why… Mike was talking about Aaron being Audra or something like that…"

Mike and Bobby watched their coach as he listened to the explanation. It was pretty obvious to the two of them that the coach was shaken by what he heard.

"I see… That's terrible. Thanks June… No, I'll settle it." Coach Clarke hung up.

Coach Clarke turned to regard the two boys. "What happened? And it had better be the truth."

"Bobby was making fun of Audra, calling her names and stuff," Mike insisted.

"Is this true?" Coach Clarke asked Bobby.

"Hey, I was just joking around," Bobby replied defensively. "I didn't mean nothing by it."

"It's not the first time! Just after Audra got out of the hospital, Bobby teased her and threatened to beat her up if she came around here again."

"Again, is this true?"

"I was just joking," Bobby muttered.

"You're off the team," Coach Clarke told him.

"What?!? You can't do that!" Bobby cried.

"I can do what I want. This is a team and you have damaged it. If you can't support your teammate in a time of crisis, you're of no use to us. That Audra had no choice in this matter makes it even worse in my opinion and I won't have you on this team because of it. Take your things and go."

"Another faggot lover like Davidson is all you are!" Bobby swore at him. "I'll get even with you Davidson, you watch out." Bobby took off out of the park at a run.

***

At the end of the practice, Coach Clarke gathered the players together. "Alright, I've kicked Bobby Grant off the team. A teammate was very seriously hurt and spent many weeks in the hospital. This teammate went through a life-changing experience that I think none of us would ever want to face. I think you all know that Aaron was changed into a girl because of these injuries."

Coach Clarke paused and looked around at the faces gathered about. "Instead of supporting and helping a teammate, Bobby Grant chose to ridicule and threaten. That is not how teams work, especially teams that I coach. I'm going to make this crystal clear to all of you: I will not tolerate the kicking of a teammate when he or she is down. Aaron is now Audra and she should be able to expect the support of her teammates through this crisis. If you can't do this, don't show up for the next game. Am I clear?"

"Yes sir!" Chorused the team.

***

Mike was cornered after the coach left. "It's your fault Davidson!"

"What are you talking about?"

"You got Bobby kicked off the team for that freak," asserted David Ames, one of Bobby's cronies.

Before Mike could answer, several of his other teammates stepped in. "The coach is right and you assholes don't deserve to be on this team," Jason Stewart, the team captain, told them.

"Yeah? Well fuck you. We ain't going to be screwed around with for some fairy freak. You can keep your faggot team," David told him as he and his friends stalked off.

"Good riddance," Jason muttered.

 

Chapter 19: How do you feel?

"How did the sleepover go?" Sheila Coulson asked Audra.

"Okay, I guess," Audra replied. "It's not the same."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, when Mike and I did sleepovers, we'd play video games or something. This one was talking and trying on clothes."

"Did that bother you?"

"No. I don't think so. It just didn't feel right," Audra mused as she played with the hem of her shorts.

"Because it was girls?"

"I guess."

"How do you feel?" Sheila asked.

"I don't know. Sometimes I feel okay."

"Sometimes?"

"When I forget."

"When you forget?"

"That I'm a girl now. Sometimes I forget that and I feel better until I remember."

"It takes time Audra."

"I know. I pray every night."

"To feel better about this?"

"No, to become a boy again," Audra revealed. "It never happens though."

"Is being a girl so bad?"

"No, but being a boy is better."

"Why?"

"I don't know, it just is, I can't explain why."

Sheila looked at her young patient thoughtfully. "You know that there's nothing that you can't do as a girl that you could do as a boy," Sheila mentioned.

***

"Come in Audra," Doctor Caine smiled as Audra and Marianne dutifully followed him into the examination room. "How do you feel?"

"I'm okay Doctor Caine."

"Have a seat," Doctor Caine smiled again. "Have you been keeping up with your stents?"

Audra nodded.

"Good. Are they still causing you pain or is it getting better?"

"It's getting better."

"Okay Audra, if you can get changed into the gown behind the screen, we'll take a look and see if everything is healed up correctly."

***

Marianne stroked her daughter's hair as she felt Audra's grip on her hand tighten as the doctor examined her in the stirrups. Tears of both pain and humiliation streamed down Audra's cheeks and Marianne's heart nearly broke as she watched her former son face an experience should would have never have dreamed of.

***

The doctor helped Audra up and gave her some Kleenex. "I'm sorry Audra. I know that was difficult, but it was necessary. You've healed nicely and I'm very pleased about that. Why don't you get dressed now?" Doctor Caine told her sympathetically.

Audra nodded as she dried her tears and went behind the screen to get changed.

"Everything is fine, then, Doctor Caine?" Marianne asked.

"It is. I'll need to re-examine her in six months and then we can move to annual examinations. It's important, though, that she continue the hygiene and stents routine that she has been doing. We should have the blood tests back in a couple of days, but I think everything there will be fine as well. Audra looks quite healthy and robust."

Marianne smiled gratefully. "I have to take her back up to Sheila now. She wanted to talk to her after this appointment."

"Very wise."

***

"How do you feel?"

Audra burst into tears. "That was horrible!"

Sheila put her arms around Audra and allowed her to cry herself out for a few minutes. "How do you feel now?"

Audra sniffled, "Better, I guess."

"That's good. Sometimes a good cry helps. You should remember that. Do you want to talk about it?"

"It's embarrassing."

"I know. No woman enjoys that experience."

"You have to do it too?" Audra asked, surprised.

"Oh yes, it's a fact of life for women. It's a little different for you, but not much different, and you are younger than most."

Somehow, knowing that this wasn't an experience unique to her, Audra felt better. "Thank you Sheila."

"For what?"

"For make me feel not alone."

"You're welcome, Audra."

 

Chapter 20: How dare you!

"Hey Clarke! I want a word with you!"

Daniel Clarke sighed as he turned around in the grocery store to face Robert Grant, Bobby's father. "What can I do for you Robert?" Daniel had been expecting to hear from Robert Grant ever since he had thrown Bobby off the team. He had, however, been hoping for a less public confrontation.

"What right did you have to throw my son off the team?"

"I'm the coach, that's what right."

"He didn't do anything wrong!"

"I beg to differ. He verbally assaulted and threatened a teammate and I won't stand for that."

"He denies it."

"I have plenty of witnesses."

"That person isn't even a teammate!"

"Audra is still a teammate even if she can't play. I won't tolerate players on my team treating each other in that manner, especially after what Audra went through."

"How dare you defend some freak of science over my son!"

Daniel stiffened. "This conversation is ended. I have made my decision and Bobby is no longer a member of this team. Take your bigotry, Mister Grant, somewhere else."

"You haven't heard the last of this Clarke."

***

"Daniel! Come in! It's nice to see you again," Marianne smiled as she opened the front door.

"Hi Mari, how are you doing? How's Audra?" Daniel Clarke asked.

"We're both fine. What brings you around for a visit?"

"I needed to talk to you and James about some recent events. Is he around?"

"He's in the sitting room, reading," said Marianne as she led Daniel to the room.

***

"So, what's the problem Dan?" James asked.

"It's not a problem, as such, but I thought I should talk to you about Bobby Grant and his father."

"I'm not sure I understand."

"I kicked Bobby off the baseball team yesterday."

"I see…"

"He's been quite malicious towards Audra, and Mike Davidson for defending her. I don't tolerate that amongst teammates."

"I take it Robert confronted you?" asked James.

Daniel nodded, "Today, in the grocery store. There's a lot of hate there, I thought you should know."

"I don't understand why they hate Audra," stated Marianne. "She's done nothing to them!"

"I don't understand either, Mari," Daniel agreed. "Is Audra around? I should talk to her as well. Unfortunately, I have to tell her the bad news."

"I don't think she's realized it yet," Marianne sighed. "I'll go get her."

***

"Hi Coach Clarke, you wanted to see me?" Audra asked as she entered the sitting room.

"Hi Audra, I did."

"I can't play anymore, can I?" Audra asked with sudden realization.

Daniel sighed, "I'm afraid not Audra. I'm sorry. I wish I didn't have to tell you this. You're still a teammate though and we'd like you to be a part of that, but it's a boy's league and… well…" He waved his arms helplessly.

"I understand. Would you excuse me, please?" Audra asked.

Daniel nodded, looking sad as Audra fled the room.

***

"What's the matter?" Susie asked from the doorway as Audra cried into her pillow.

"I can't play ball anymore!" Audra cried at her.

"Why?"

"It's a boy's league!"

"Oh," Susie replied as she suddenly realized that fact. "Can't you play in a girl's league?"

"There aren't any around here and besides, it's not the same."

"That sucks!" Susie pronounced.

"I hate being a girl! Hate it!" Audra spat.

"I can't talk to you like this."

"Too bad."

"Audra, it's not my fault. It's not Coach Clarke's either. It's nobody's fault, it just is."

"I don't care. Sheila told me I could do anything I want as a girl, but I can't even play baseball with my team!"

"She didn't mean it that way. She meant that girls can play ball too, in their leagues." Susie told her.

"It's stupid!"

"Yeah, it is, but that's the rules. Look, girls have gotten along without baseball for a long time. There are other things, you know."

"Like what? Dolls and dress-up?" Audra asked sarcastically.

"That can be fun. Did you have such a bad time last night?"

Audra paused. "No."

"Did you have fun?"

"I… I guess so…" Audra said, starting to look thoughtful.

"See, there are things," Susie declared.

"I love baseball! You don't understand!"

"No, I don't! So what if you can't play baseball? You can do other things!" Susie shouted.

"Leave me alone!" Audra cried, turning back to her pillow.

"Argh!" Susie stomped from the room.

  

 

 

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